it's wonderful to meet you in Waking Life um I have a question involving a word I know you like um sabotage self sabotage um in terms of following my highest excitement yes I find myself uh self sa self-sabotaging yes and I'm wondering if what are you afraid of in terms of acting your excitement out fully it's interesting you see that reason that you would hold yourself back is because you're afraid of something you've defined something about living your excitement that is scary to you so what is it that's what I'm trying to discover well it's
not that difficult all you have to do is amplify the fear magnify the fear and ask the question in your imagination what is the worst possible most terrifying thing I can imagine will happen if I actually just live my fullest excitement and then if you're willing to get an answer you'll get an answer if you're not willing to get an answer you won't but the only reason you wouldn't be willing is because you're buying into the idea buying into the definition as contradictory as this may actually be you're buying into the definition that your excitement
can actually somehow bring you something that is negative yes and by definition your excitement can't do do that why would you have a definition of excitement that contains the idea of a negative experience that's not a definition of excitement is it is it no but I have a belief that yes I know you do that's what I'm saying yes and your belief is that if you live to your fullest excitement what are you afraid might happen yes well what is it what are you afraid of don't tell me you're trying to figure it out just
be honest use your imagination see the scenario what are you afraid will happen I think I'm afraid of rejection by whom by the people I've created in my reality get ready to laugh she's afraid of creating rejection yet by holding herself back she's rejecting herself yes so you've already experienced rejection so what's to be afraid of if someone else simply reflects back to you the rejection you're already creating for yourself it's just a lesson that's all just a reflection and it means that you don't have to do that that's why the reflection is being given
to you to give you a choice to believe in rejecting yourself or to understand that you don't need to do that and when you understand you you don't need to reject yourself it won't matter whether anyone else actually offers you rejection or not because if they offer you rejection and you're not rejecting yourself you won't take what they're offering you as if it has anything to do with you you won't take it personally because you'll realize it has to do with them and their issues and then you can have compassion oh leov poor little thing
why are you experiencing the rejection of yourself but projecting it on to me is it because perhaps I could help you understand that you don't have to reject yourself as I have discovered I don't need to do for myself I'm happy to do that when you do that you'll find that if they want to hold on to their rejection they'll run away from you very quickly and then in that sense you will only be left with people surrounding you who are willing to support you to the degree that you're willing to support yourself yes absolutely
abolutely does that help you it does thank you so in terms of following my highest excitement is bringing my spirit the spirit down through me into my expression in in terms of Performing yes heaven on Earth absolutely and I find that I create for myself blockages in because why are you calling them blockages I I get thrown off so what if I'm is surrounded by energy it throws me off very quickly and it it does not throw you off you choose to be thrown off yeah it doesn't throw you off I find it hard to
hold my grounding you choose to find it hard you need to start taking responsibility for your experiences stop blaming the situation and start understanding that you're reacting to the situation in a way that you don't prefer to and you need to ask yourself why yes well start examining that start exploring that it doesn't do anything it doesn't throw you off it isn't difficult it isn't hard you make it hard you make it difficult you choose to be thrown off ask yourself why you would get something out of doing that and then you'll start understanding what
that definition is and you'll let it go if it no longer serves you but as long as you believe it serves you to choose being thrown off or choose experiencing difficulty you'll hold on to it and won't let it go so but you have to first take responsibility for the actual experience you can't say that it's just something that happens I just get thrown off no you don't you choose to be thrown off for your own reasons find out what those reasons are and if you find out you don't prefer those reasons let them go
absolutely all right so yes knowing that I create every situation I create my own reality yes why am I still create why am I visualizing things because you have an expectation for how you think the outcome should look yes do you remember the entire formula of acting on your excitement obviously you don't I do I do well what is it act on your excitement every moment with no regard to the outcome well why are you regarding the outcome yes well because I feel that my highest excitement is to want certain things no your highest excitement
is never to want certain things yes unless your highest excitement is to remain in the state of wanting and never actually having you understand that wanting is its own State oh I'm so sick of it then stop wanting because the more you want the more you stay in the state of w Ing and never actually having yes wanting is its own State wanting is not having wanting will never attract the experience of having wanting only attracts more wanting are you understanding that a little more clearly the cart before the horse the idea therefore is to
stop wanting and start having yes start knowing that every single thing you need is here they will manifest themselves and become visible to you which is the actual definition of manifestation they will become visible to you when you are on a certain wavelength that matches that thing that is here but it's all here you don't have to want anything wanting implies you don't have it yes you do have it but you will not experience it until the right timing trust the timing of your life if you don't trust the way your life is unfolding that's
why you start going into wanting because you think something's not working you think something is wrong yes that's absolutely but it's not you're just creating the experience that you think it is if you just allow yourself to know that nothing is wrong and everything is working just fine you'll start experiencing that everything is by dropping your assumptions and insistence and expectation that things have to happen a certain way and if they don't happen a certain way something must be wrong I'm running into an obstacle I'm going off course I'm having difficulty all those definitions are
creating your experience of not understanding that you're life is working just fine it's just that you're working your life you're using the fact that your life works just fine to create scenarios and experiences to make it seem as if it's not yes but obviously if your life wasn't working you wouldn't be able to create scenarios that make it seem like it's not you just need to use the tool in a different way yes you have to see that the actual proof your life is working is that you can actually manifest an experience as if it's
not you couldn't manifest an experience that your life wasn't working if your life actually wasn't working because your life is actually manifesting everything you are manifesting everything so choose between the idea of the manifestation that everything is working and the manifestation that it's not but both are manifestations so you're never not manifesting it's just that you need to choose the quality the type the style of manifestation that you prefer remember as we have reminded you before many of your people on your planet think you're only using about 10 to 15% of your brain but that's
nonsense you're using 100% of your brain but you're using 100% of your brain to make it seem as if you're only using 10 so just understand that the only reason you could experience the idea of 10% of your brain is if you're actually using 100% of your brain to make that experience seem real and when you realize oh I am using 100% of my brain just not in the way I prefer to then perhaps you can start using your brain in the way that you want in the way that you prefer you understand yes does
that help you it does I think there's a difference between as you say grasping something intellectually and it actually dropping down into the Consciousness into this is why we say that action and knowing are synonymous yes and of course the beginning of allowing that that idea of separation experience to dissolve is to not make a difference between the idea of an intellectual understanding and a true knowing yes because many times when people say well I understand that intellectually well no you don't understand it because you're making a differentiation that intellectual understanding and knowing it has
to be something different it doesn't really have to be you know what you know period what you don't know you don't know period that's it you don't have to say well I have an intellectual understanding a true understanding means you know it you live it you breathe it yes you do it now you might say well I have some sort of mental comprehension of the concept in general if that's what you mean by an intellectual understanding well that's fine but the idea of having some form of a comprehension of how a different language anguage might
be similar to the language you're familiar with doesn't mean that you're actually speaking that language speak the language do you understand yes all right does that help it does um just one final question in one of the dreams that I had that you were in and I was so relieved to talk to you after all the linear time in the veil of forgetfulness um I just and you told me that we would have many more interactions I just wanted to find out if that was a figment of my imagination or it was an aspect of
you there is an example that exists in your literature that you call film are you familiar with the films that you recognize as Harry Potter yes did you see them I did do you remember the final one uh yes all right do you remember when the main character died and went into the spirit realm to meet his mentor his teacher yes do you remember what he asked the teacher when he was there [Laughter] Professor is this all just happening in my head or is it real and the professor said of course it's all happening your
head Harry but why should that mean it's not real don't make a difference where none needs to exist it's this and that not this or that do you understand you for sure yes thank you much love and to you as well hello Bashar and are you good day it's an honor to speak to you and you as well all all right so um I have a question uh well I guess maybe it's a comment I I Fe I fear the unknown and why what do you think is going to be there hiding waiting to get
you I mean sometimes I've had dreams and they're terrible dreams like nightmares all right that's exciting it's exciting what do you learn from them about yourself you learn what you fear yes yeah you learn what definitions you have yes yes well that's a good thing isn't it yes all right so I mean I guess I just prefer to have nice dreams why um the way in which you will allow those dreams to transform is by not running away from them but actually climbing on board that Nightmare and riding it until it becomes Pegasus the flying
horse do you understand nightmare horse get on and ride it until it transforms into a horse with wings that will allow you to soar into the clouds but the only way to get on board Pegasus is to actually Mount the nightmare is to actually ride it is to accept it acknowledge that it's part of you that it's telling you something that it's there to transport you to places that you will then be allowed to discover more of yourself in the definition you have of the unknown is what is scaring you I guarantee you the only
thing that exists in the unknown and the only thing you will ever discover in the unknown is more of yourself that's all there is to discover in the unknown more of you because you are your own reality you fill your reality up there is nothing in your reality but you so even in the unknown parts of your reality the only thing you would ever discover you turn on the light is you okay so ride the nightmare find out what it's telling you find out what you're telling yourself learn from it Grow from it invite it
in get on it and ride it say gidy up and then it will transport you before you know it you look down and you'll be sitting on a bright white horse with a spread of wings soaring into the clouds and but that's the polarity of Pegasus you have to ride the nightmare to be able to ride Pegasus H do you understand I understand okay so I I mean it's okay for me to be afraid just yes of course okay but the idea is that once you acknowledge that it's okay to be afraid you'll recognize what
fear is it's a messenger knocking on your door saying hey I'm trying to get your attention here I'm trying to let you know that you have a belief system that's out of alignment with your true self because you see that's what fear is you are a 100% energy you feel your energy in different ways when you filter your energy through different belief systems when you filter your energy flow your energy through belief systems that are in alignment with you you feel it as Joy when you flow your energy through belief systems that are out of
alignment with you you feel it as fear that's your barometer that's what tells you oh I'm feeling fear well that must mean I have a belief system that's out of alignment with me that I don't prefer thank you fear thank you for bringing that to my attention fear will say well now that you've used the message in the way it was intended see you later the fear doesn't hang around once you allow it to do its job of Simply delivering the message of bringing your attention to something you want to know about so don't blame
little fear poor little fear knock knock knock knock go away I'm just trying to deliver a go away I don't want have anything to do with you a I've been given this job to deliver messages to you and you won't even open the door and let me deliver it oh sulks away poor little fear well I'll show her I'll come back even stronger bang bang bang oh my goodness there is that fear again now it's even louder go away I don't have anything to do with you let me in no no no no no no
not by the hair of my chinny chin chins I'll huff and I'll puff and I'll blow your house down and believe me it will because you want it to come in you want the message it has and if it has to blow your house to Smither to do it it will because you're telling it to that's what you've designed it to do so the sooner you open the door ding dong yes fear here oh good day fear what juicy tidbit of information do you have about me today well you have this belief system you see
and it's out of alignment with you oh really oh yes Here sign here please why thank you have a good day here please do come back again as soon as you have any more information don't worry ma'am I will I'm on the [Applause] job okay awesome and that's how you make a friend of fear and use it for the job it was designed to do so that it doesn't have to grow into a giant scary monster to to get your attention that's all it's attempting to do get your attention and believe me when you force
it to grow big enough it'll get your attention one way or another but you don't necessarily prefer to have your attention gotten that way so pay attention sooner okay all right yes does this help you yes that helps me thank you um e
