The Psychology Of Being Wrong

[Music] make sure you stick around for the second half of this episode where I'm going to give a detailed list of things I was wrong about these are new things that I haven't discussed before and they're going to be very nuanced subtle things Advanced ways of being wrong which will be Illuminating for you and also I'm sure you'll get a thrill out of that so stick around for that but before We get there let's set up some Foundation there's just one core idea in this whole episode which is that growth requires admitting that you were

wrong I was wrong is the simple magic phrase and yet as simple as that is it's hard to get people to actually do it so this idea is so simple but the trick is how do you how do you get it to sink into somebody's mind that's the challenge here and I've Been racking my mind around that and in fact this is something that uh comes up over and over again in all these episodes that I do is it's like uh the challenges that the ideas are often very simple but then getting them to sink

in is the the difficult part getting you to see the power and depth of them and all the ways in which they can be applied that's the trick that's why a long discussion is necessary because sure you can do a 10-minute long video That just tells you some of the basics but it's just going to go in one ear and out the other it's not really going to change how you think about these things which is the whole point of watching this stuff so we need to communicate its power and all the subtlety and nuance

and all the different potential for mistakes and all the psychological trickery Behind These otherwise relatively simple Principles and then that's what gets you to start to change because the biggest problem in all this work is that it just you're sitting there watching and you're just watching and nothing changes in your life you get Theory empty Theory what good is this so anyways I was wrong is the magic phrase if you get good at developing this skill and of course also before you can admit you were wrong you have to be able To notice that that

you're wrong if you can develop that skill as well that whole thing is the skill of I was wrong let's call that that that label um this is where you're going to see a lot of growth that other people miss out on now you can have insight into how your attitude towards anything in life was wrong and once you clearly see that you can't quite behave in the same ways anymore just as a basic example and We'll have a lot more coming here in a minute but basic example is an atheist who has a mystical

experience as long as he doesn't deny that and he really takes it in he'll realize that he was wrong about all of religion like fundamentally wrong deeply wrong it's not just like a little mistake he made it's like he made a fundamental epistemic metaphysical error and now his whole attitude towards religion has to change so there's also a Burden that comes with admitting you were wrong not only does it bruise your ego but but then it requires work and sacrifice as another example just think of uh one of your old romantic relationships one that is

a few years old or more and you're out of it you're over it you're done you're at peace but see now you can look back and you can ask yourself what are all the mistakes I made in that relationship and you can Clearly see the mistakes and you couldn't see them at all before when you were in the middle of it so that tells you something it's like you were in a trans when you were in this relationship and now you're out of that trans you can look back upon it with perspective with the benefit

of time with the benefit of new experiences more theory that you learned which now helps you look back analyze the situation sort of we might say Objectively that's the trick when you're in the thick of it it's really difficult to see how you're wrong what I mean when I say being wrong is not just identifying some false belief you have but noticing your approach or attitude towards a thing or a situation noticing that that is wrong for example changing how you relate to women changing how you relate to money changing how you relate to criticism

changing how you relate to to Spirituality if you really want to change these things you're going to have to be admitting a lot of I'm wrong on these and the mind gets stuck in a certain orientation a certain way of relating to these things and then changing that becomes quite tricky so we need to undo that in order to get your mind unstuck reaching the highest stages of development requires seeing things in in new ways fundamentally new ways not just Rearranging the little details of your perspective but like really a shift 180 degree shift in

your perspective on a situation that's what we're after here so where are you wrong in your sensemaking framework see everything we're talking about with this work is is really grounded in how you make sense of things the mistakes all begin there because if you're not making sense of of a situation or a domain of Life properly then all sorts of mistakes will fall From fall out from that as a natural consequence um and then you're not going to be able to fix those mistakes unless you track them backwards sort of reverse engineer them and get

to the sense making framework that led to those problems this includes your biases judgments interpretations core assumptions core beliefs your attitudes your way of relating to things in its attempts at making sense of reality your mind is already wrong about Many things you're just not aware of it your mind is hiding it from you so this is a key thing for you to realize because um most people if you tell them well what are you wrong about they're just going to kind of like like what are you wrong about in your sense making of reality

they're just going to kind of shrug their shoulders like well I'm sure I'm wrong About a few things but I I don't know like nothing major this is how most people would react to that but what you have to see is that that is an illusion that is complete illusion you are wrong about so many deep and fundamental things and so how do you how do you actually get somewhere with that cuz if if you just sit down and ask yourself how am I wrong you're not going to get very far which is why we

want to talk About this some more it's very easy to see how other people are wrong it's very difficult to see how you're wrong especially in more fundamental ways the more fundamental the error the harder it is to see because the more consequences it has for your psyche in your life and it's very easy to distract yourself from this responsibility because it is your responsibility to figure out how you're Wrong by externalizing the wrongness onto others in the world and then see you're going to fall into the Trap of going around pointing out everybody else's

wrongness but then of course that's just a distraction from searching for your own the counterintuitive move is to turn inwards that search that energy because you're using energy you only have so much time and energy in in the day what are you putting it Towards now of course even though I said just sitting down alone in a room and asking yourself how am I wrong uh that's limited but still you should do that I mean it's better than what most people do which is that they never even do that so I do recommend as a

basic exercise that after this episode is done or soon after as soon as you have some time sit down alone in a room for an hour with the notepad and just ask yourself what Are all the ways I'm wrong you might be surprised at how many answers your mind just supplies to you of course this assumes that you're open you have to be open you have to be honest and as you're doing that notice how that feels there will probably be some resistance to you doing that maybe some procrastination to this exercise that's not by

accident this is not one of those comfortable Exercises and also uh notice your mind uh notice your mind maybe even getting foggy like as you think back into your life you what are all the things I've been wrong about you might even notice that your mind just it stops working for some reason it's like ah you know I don't I'm kind of tired I'm kind of sleepy I can't remember things so well of course you can't um that's your mind resisting so notice That uh and just see how far you get um you should do

this periodically in your life maybe once every couple of years you know sit down and go through this exercise of course like I said it's not going to be enough it will take you years to find many ways in which you were wrong and just doing it logically like this is not going to be enough realistically what you're going to need Is you're going to need some emotional motivation especially negative emotional motivation some suffering as is otherwise known now beware that the mind will trick you and it will use shallow forms of wrongness to avoid

facing more fundamental and deep wrongness right so you can be wrong in Shallow ways and you can be wrong in deep ways and a lot of what people do in order to kind of put On this air of I'm a humble person you I'm a humble spiritual person so of course I can't admit that I'm never wrong right so to be a proper humble spiritual person I have to admit some of my faults and so you do admit some of your faults but they're like very shallow ineffective they don't really change you in a in

a fundamental way it's like yeah you know uh I'm wrong in that I'm a perfectionist I'm wrong in that Um uh you know I I demand too much of myself you know these kind of like this is kind of like [ __ ] where are you like really wrong where are you wrong in a way that it threatens you where you'd have to change how you live that's what we're interested in here of course admitting you were wrong is very painful to the ego there's a Wall of Resistance there uh the mind is so averse

to Admitting that it's wrong and that keeps you stuck and then there's a denial of wrongness and that becomes the Trap and then the problem is that a lot of times when other people point out your wrongness to you or they try the ego is so uh stubborn that there's there's almost like a reverse psychology at play the more people tell you you're wrong the more the ego denies it and defends itself because it feels Threatened that's why sitting alone in a room is is a is a better way to go about it because a

lot of times people will tell you ways in which you're wrong and your mind just doesn't take it in because you get too defensive what you really want to do is you want to avoid becoming someone like I was thinking of an example of this like what's what's an example of someone in the public who's like very wrong and so stubborn and just will never admit it And I was thinking I mean there's many examples that you can probably think of but like what came to me is this professor Dave guy on YouTube there's this

YouTuber called Professor Dave who teaches science um and uh man is this guy uh is is this guy like stubborn in his materialism and his scientism like this is he's like the poster boy of all the the problems of scientism that we've discussed um and look I'm not trying to judge him or I don't I don't care about Demonizing him or any of that but just like don't become that guy right like that's the that's the reason we're having this conversation is because if you get stuck like that in some Paradigm and you just keep

doubling down on and doubling down on and you can see the psychological mechanisms that the mind has to employ to keep like it has to keep doing these mental gymnastics and rationalizations and denials and then acting out and then this arrogance comes From that and look uh I'm very guilty of arrogance myself so I I can't judge him for for the arrogance too much um but um the important thing is not that you make mistakes or that you're wrong it's that you admit it your willingness to admit it there has to be an internal process

for that sometimes you're unable to admit that you're wrong simply because of the way that your life is structured there's A structural Dimension to this which which is really where where this gets deep and interesting for example you work at Academia that's like the structure of your life you devoted your life to Academia there are things that are wrong with with the Academia system that you will never be able to admit to yourself as long as you're in that system and it's writing you a paycheck another example is that you're Trapped inside of a family

situation with a husband and children let's say you're a wife you have a husband who's um abusive or the way that he earns money is through some sort of like criminal activity but now you can't admit that to yourself yet you turn a blind eye to it you make excuses for it because why because structurally you're really stuck you want to keep your marriage you Want to keep it for the sake of your children what's going to happen if you start raising you know too much of a fuss over the way he that he earns

money or the way that he maybe suddenly manipulates or abuses you um most likely you're going to find ways to rationalize that and just to kind of stick in there because after all marriage does require a commitment right and that's not wrong but um uh structurally right cuz cuz really to Admit that you're wrong in that situation that's going to imply that you have to change the structure of your life you're probably going to have to get a divorce you're have to figure out what to do with the kids and so forth you might even

lose your children how how is a how's a mother going to lose her children how's that going to work right realistically she's uh she's she's got a gun to her head she Can't admit that she's wrong I actually my my um my my last former girlfriend um she was uh she was in a marriage like that she had kids but was also a Mormon cult um and then she had to break out of that think of how difficult it is to break out of that your husband's a Mormon everyone you know is a Mormon you

were a Mormon you have this otherwise Happy Family Life you have children and then you realize that all of that is [ __ ] all of that is occult all of that is corrupt and abusive and criminal at times and isn't really aligned with with spirituality and so forth how do you how do you leave that situation in the end she ended up losing her her children but she left that Situation they took her kids that's you know that's heavy heavy stuff that's not like as simple as just oh admitting some innocent little mistake like

oh yeah I'm a perfectionist no it's like no you're your whole way of life is wrong that's what we're talking about uh another example of this kind of structural problem is um if you work inside the Government you're in a very uh you know corrupt system structurally and structurally you can't speak out because they'll fire you they'll destroy your career or for example if you're if you're wealthy and you're attached to a certain kind of easy luxurious lifestyle maybe you go to these fancy exclusive parties or nightclubs you go on these luxurious vacations and Yachts

and cruises I mean This is like a a great life on the surface but then maybe you realize that all of the money that is funding this kind of lifestyle that it's actually coming from let's say your Rich Daddy and your Rich daddy how is he getting all this money by screwing people over on Wall Street through some sort of White Collar you know scams and manipulations and you discover that how do you then admit to yourself that this whole lifestyle is Wrong and of course uh the simplest structural problem is any anytime you're getting

paid hu paid huge amounts of money for whatever ever work you do is going to be very difficult for you to admit that that work is wrong and the more money they pay you the harder it will be and lastly for example uh the structural thing is um if you have a public Persona to defend if you're a Public intellectual if you're a public author if you're a well-known celebrity if you're a social media influencer God forbid you have this Persona to defend and what's going to happen when you admit that you were wrong and

so there's a fear of the consequences you fear the consequences okay so what's the technique here for for for this work Basically identify where you're wrong face it look at it hold that wrongness in your awareness admit it to yourself and then explicitly say to yourself I was wrong in that situation that's going to trigger a mini grieving process maybe a major grieving process but at least a mini one if it's a significant wrong then a mini grieving process where you feel your ego is bruised you start to experience some emotional stuff come up probably

some Negative emotions you're going to start to feel embarrassed at yourself you're going to start to feel like a fool you're going to start to have regrets and what you want to do is you just want to go through that process that grieving process that's what's healing you that's healthy uh give yourself time to go through that and you know spend time in self-reflection going through that grieving process and just introspecting About it and coming to peace with it and as you're doing that ask yourself how will my behavior change going forward remember my episode

learning equals Behavior change well this connects with that this situation is going to be painful because you're going to recognize that you were a total fool that you were tricked that you tricked yourself or somebody else tricked you and it makes you look like a Total fool and this contradicts your self-image because you don't usually think of yourself as a total fool but now you're facing it and you have to admit it to yourself being wrong is embarrassing especially if you've built up an identity about being for example very intellectual or being wise or being

spiritually Advanced or being some kind of expert in some sort of domain like uh Professor Dave has done See Professor Dave has a lot invested in being Professor Dave being the scientist you know the sort of the Ambassador for science the the Neil degrass Tyson of science and then ask yourself how did I fall into this self-deception because most likely you're dealing with the self-deception here and think about the epistemology right that's where when I talk about this kind of abstract notion of Epistemology that's where it gets real see here you can now consider what

are the epistemic gaps in my sense making that led to this situation to me getting this wrong examining your epistemic assumptions of for example into atheism if you're if you're one of these atheists then you realize that was wrong uh it's not enough just to realize that oh yeah atheism is wrong you have to go further uh you have to you have to Examine how you fell into that trap epistemically speaking and and likewise you know if you're into fundamentalism relig fundamentalist religion that's also wrong right so at some point you're going to realize fundamentalism

fundamentalist religion is wrong and you have to but then you don't stop there you have to actually go and respect the epistemic assumptions that led you there CU otherwise you'll you'll get into another problem you know see what'll Happen is that if you don't really take this opportunity to go deep into the epistemics of the situation what's going to happen is that you're going to let's say Escape your fundamentalist religion but then you're going to fall into something else namely you're probably going to fall into some sort of new age spirituality instead and then the

problems will repeat themselves but see you're not going to see that because you're going To miss the structure you're going to think like well yeah fundamentalist religion was was was stupid but uh but I'm now I'm just going to do the new age thing that's so much better it's so much different well but there's so much similarity between the two various kinds of fantasy what really connects them is fantasy you're following into fantasy but you have to recognize that and then as you're going through this whole process you Know recognize that that is what Leo

means by self deception cuz I've talked a lot with you guys about self-deception but self-deception in the abstract ways you know I give you various like mechanisms abstract mechanisms for how self-deception works I also give you examples but none of that is going to be actually enough that's not the same thing at all as actually confronting your self-deception and seeing it in Practice and in fact you thinking you understand self-deception because you've listened to my three-part series called self-deception this itself then becomes the next trap because you think you understand but but you don't really

see the self-deception there's a difference between understanding self-deception as a concept and seeing where you are self- deceived now this whole process of Admitting that you're wrong uh I'll make it much easier for you do it for yourself just for yourself don't worry about admitting to others or publicly announcing that you were wrong just do it for yourself because that's what really matters as long as you recognize that you were wrong in whatever situation that's what really matters that's enough to change you and then whether you admit it to others sure it Can be you

can go the extra step of admitting it to others that's nice um but it's not it's not strictly necessary and it might put too much burden on you right because if you have to then reveal this to your whole family and to your all your co-workers and and your whole uh social media audience that's like that that just makes it more difficult than it needs to be now here's a list of examples of things you could be wrong about just to Start to get you to see how this can be applied uh the nature of

religion you can be wrong about that the very nature of what is the origin and purpose and function of religion this is for example a trap that I call this a Sam Harris trap he doesn't understand what religion is and why it exists he thinks he does but he doesn't and uh maybe one day in his career he'll come to realize that he was fundamentally wrong about the nature of Religion uh I'm not going to hold my breath but for him to admit that to himself that's going to be very difficult and then to admit

that to all of his atheist fans that's going to be very very difficult because he's built a whole persona career and audience now uh around this you know what would Sam Harris's audience do if he came out and says that uh to them that guys I was wrong about atheism that's that's tough that's tough You know he has to admit that to himself first which he probably won't do um next you could be wrong about scientism rationalism materialism pretty obvious we've discussed that a lot before you can be wrong about political radicalism whether left or

right forms of political radicalism you get sucked into it you're not going to even be aware that you get sucked in and radicalized by the time you're radicalized it's like you're an occult but you can break out of that People have broken out of that you know just kind of like you awake you awaken from the trans of that radicalization and that's difficult to do uh just in general you can be wrong about all sorts of political views on abortion on climate on war on corruption on taxes and you can be wrong in both directions

so when I say that you're wrong on abortion I'm not saying that there's some one right way to look at abortion and that that that's my way That's like Leo's view on abortion is the right way to view abortion no you can be wrong from either direction on any of these issues and in fact you can be wrong on these issues in in like even more complex ways than just being pro-abortion or anti-abortion there's like a even deeper way you can be wrong about that where you're wrong at it from both sides in a sense

we could say that both the pro-abortion People and the anti-abortion people they're both wrong on abortion it's like well how can that be right um and likewise with climate change both sides are wrong about climate change the left and the right are wrong about climate change and likewise with with issues of war and Taxation so like it's it's not simple at all there's a lot of nuance here uh romantic relationships there's a lot you can get Wrong in Ro romantic relationships um that just that requires a whole episode on its own there but I'm sure

you you've had realizations of uh ways in which you've behaved in romantic relationships that were wrong that some of that stuff is pretty obvious in retrospect views of the opposite sex you can be wrong there black pill ideology various forms of misogyny a lot of young men are falling into this right now and then um It's going to take them years and decades to admit this to themselves but as they mature you know as you get out of your 20s and into your 30s and 40s you know once you're in your 40s you'll see how

much misogyny as a young man you know immersed in online culture around this whole topic how much misogyny uh you engaged in and it's going to be rather ugly rather ugly to look at how you Behaved in your 20s for example uh conspiracy theories of course so many ways to be wrong about conspiracy theor and very difficult to admit to yourself that you subscribe to one of these like just asinine conspiracy theories whether it's flat Earth I mean imagine being a flat earther and then and then coming out of that that you're you're just going

to feel so embarrassed um you know I was thinking You know I [ __ ] on conspiracy theories all the time but like um there's only one conspiracy theory that I could think that I fall have had fallen into um which is the hollow Earth to me for a while Hollow Earth seemed like it might be sort of plausible that's really the only one and in retrospect it's embarrassing even just to admit this right now but uh but hey look I'm trying to help you so I'm admitting things About myself that I would normally not

admit because I'm trying to model it for you um so yeah so you got to like you got to lean into your cringe lean into your embarrassment and just like that's the process here really getting suckered into a bad investment like it's really hard to admit to yourself that you made some really foolish investment and then to admit it to your family and so on like it's imagine Losing your your your family's life savings by investing in some ridiculous crypto scheme losing all of it and now you have to go and admit it to them

like that's uh that that that's horrible uh on the other hand you know the nice thing with the bad investment is that you know eventually like you can't deny a bad investment eventually everyone's going to know you lost the money so in that sense it's kind of like an easy One uh you can be wrong in criticisms and Judgment of other people you're going to be criticizing your parents your children leaders in public wealthy people celebrities your boss you're going to be criticizing and judging all these people very harshly uh before you seriously mature and

then you're going to in retrospect you're going to regret many of those judgments and criticisms but It'll probably take you a while um you can be wrong about how success works for example you could have wrong ideas about that and maybe that's what's keeping you poor and unsuccessful uh wrong about being a victim uh wrong about how to attract women in order to get good at attracting women you're going to have to you're going to have to make some 180 degree shifts Paradigm shifts in certain ways that you understand how how dating and Mating Works

some people call it the red pill although you know the red pill has its own problems so there's a you can also have sort of like you can be wrong in a in a certain sense then you break out of that and you say oh how is so stupid for being wrong in that sense then you break out of it and you go into some new thing that you think okay this is the right way and then that turns out to be wrong too just In a more nuanced way this time it's not as grossly

wrong so like for example um a good example here is Michael Shermer so he's he's like a public intellectual skeptic type of person he runs skeptic magazine uh similar to like one of these Sam Harris types or David Dave Professor Dave types um Michael shurmer used to be a fundamentalist religious Christian like a born again Christian then when he when he matured he realized that's nonsense he became a Skeptic now he adopted he shifted from fundamentalist fundamentalist Christian to skeptic of course that's an upgrade that's an upgrade but now he's stuck in the skepticism thinking

that he's escaped that now he he understands the spe spiritual situation the the religious situation he thinks he has a handle on science and all this like it's Preposterous he has no idea he's wrong about so many things but like will he ever realize that no because He's he like the way his mind works is that there's either this or this it's like it's a very binary right without appreciating that you can be wrong in subtle like you know the wrongness can be wrapped up with with rightness in such a you know messy way and

likewise with the red p pill so there's certain aspects of the red pill which are right and are better than let's say the blue pill but then the red pill introduces its own errors that You're going to have to transcend as well and and by that I don't mean you're going to go to the black pill because the black pill is is really bad super wrong um so right so your mind has to be flexible enough to see like not in binaries the binary thinking here is is really wrong that's one thing you can realize

uh you can be wrong about how politics and power really works you can be wrong in your Assessment of the motives of others you can be wrong in your characterization and demonization of alternative perspectives maybe you've demonized in the past capitalists hippies new agers Muslims trans gays Libs and greens environmentalists maybe you ridiculed certain people and ideas and then in the future you'll realize you're wrong on that and it's going to be embarrassing For you to admit that cuz you were probably a jerk to these people you probably posted some nasty comments on on Twitter

or wherever call these people names and then turns out you're wrong and they were right all along how embarrassing uh wrong in in straw Manning and misrepresenting some other point of view different than your own so much straw Manning go going on online uh wrong in your assessment of where Others are wrong see you say well this person is wrong and that person is wrong and this is wrong and that is wrong and Leo is wrong but then in the future you'll realize that actually you were the wrong one for pointing out the wrongness in

others of course you could have been right in certain areas too I'm not saying you're wrong across the board I'm saying you're wrong in in certain you know specific nuanced ways at least I Hope so I hope you're not wrong Ross the board there's people like that too uh wrong in your understanding of terrorists and terrorism that's a that's a very common one I need to do a whole episode I mean that that's it's hard to do that episode because uh the things that need to be said about terrorism like um are very Politically Incorrect

but uh I should get get to work on that one uh wrong in in what you think your true motives were For doing a thing that's a big one that's a subtle one right like you you can fool yourself about what your true motives are for doing things you can tell yourself you're doing it for some sort of selfless motive when actually there's a sort of a uh a hidden selfish motive behind it and that's good to recognize wrong in your justifications and rationalizations I'll have a whole episode in the future about justifications rationalizations that's

a Huge important topic wrong in your interpretations of psychedelics and mystical experiences a lot of ways to misinterpret mystical experiences turn them into fantasy sees and you start to think that they mean things that they don't really mean like let's say you take some mushrooms and you see Jesus in your trip what does that really mean that's tricky you can be wrong in your understanding of SP dnamic Stages you think you understand what stage green is or what stage yellow is or what stage turquoise especially is or even Coral dare I say uh the higher

you go up stages the more likely you are to misunderstand them and and that actually actually works kind of in Reverse as well the lower you go down the stages you also tend to misunder like it's easy to misunderstand purple stage purple and Stage red just because if you're living In a developed part of the world if you yourself are stage greenish which is Mo where most of you probably are who follow my work uh you you're going to struggle understanding red and and purple because just like you don't experience them around you you don't

have a a frame of reference for it so watch out uh you can be wrong in pushing your values onto others that's a that's a tricky one I'll talk more about that as I get into my own errors because i' I've made that mistake uh wrong in your stubbornness and closed-mindedness wrong in your understanding of Enlightenment and Awakening wrong in people uh in treating people transactionally wrong in dismissing some piece of advice that you were given by somebody wiser than you cuz you thought you knew better wrong in your beliefs about your own capacities you

can both overestimate Your own capacities and you can underestimate your own capacities if you underestimate that's kind of like the victim mentality but then overestimate this gets you into arrogance you think you know more than you do or you think you can do more than you can really do you might say to yourself well how hard is it to to shoot a movie I can shoot a movie you know these directors that are making these shitty movies these days you know they're idiots I'll make my own Movie and it's going to be great and then

you make your own movie and you realize how awful it is and how difficult it is to really make a movie and this by the way this generally applies to almost any High creative Endeavor starting a business any kind of company where you want to create any kind of product it's all going to be way harder than you thought you you're likely overestimating your abilities to do these things and With art you know writing a good song making a good painting these things are a lot harder than they seem and you'll quickly discover that if

you try doing some of this which is why a lot of a lot of people don't even try because deep down they know they know they're full of [ __ ] and they'll fail or they fail so quickly into the process they never even realize right like you you start doing film go actually try to make a try to Make a a good film like within a few days you'll realize how hard it is most likely and you'll quit uh wrong in your online Behavior so many so many mistakes happening there uh wrong in trashing

other people eventually you realize all the people you trash that was a mistake wrong in your approach to business and making money wrong in your ethical orientation of your Business there are a lot of unethical ways to do business which you'll realize as your Consciousness Rises see in general if your Consciousness is low or sort of average relative to the center of gravity of of your Society a lot of these things you're not ever going to realize if we're wrong but as you go beyond the center of gravity of your culture more and more of

these things will become obviously wrong to you and that's where it gets Difficult you can be wrong in being too optimistic or pessimist too cynical too skeptical too trusting uh wrong in how you relate to your children wrong in bullying others wrong in being disrespectful towards others wrong in judging your boss or superiors this is a a very common trap because um it's so easy to think that you know better than your boss that your boss is an Idiot and sometimes that's true but in most cases usually your boss knows more than you has more

experience than you has more wisdom than you um and in fact your boss can know so much more than you that you don't even understand how much your boss knows because your boss is just too busy doing the things he needs to do to keep you know the corporation running and you in your little lowly position as a newbie you like you have no comprehension of what it takes to run That business but you think you know you think you could do a better job and then a lot of times you may not understand some

of the decisions your boss makes they may seem seem cruel to you they may seem heartless to you like let's say your boss fires somebody it's like well why couldn't the boss be nicer but there's higher issues at stake that you will never realize unless you become a boss yourself and then when you do finally become a boss you're going to Say oh my God I completely underestimated what it means to be a boss to be responsible for hundreds for thousands of people working under me that's that's an enormous responsibility and there's a there's so

many ways to screw that up it's a miracle if your boss is doing most of it correctly because it's so difficult you can be wrong in oversimplifying situations thinking of them too simplistically lacking the Nuance thinking in a sort of a black and white way about a situation for example with political with the realm of politics you can kind of oversimplify to the point where you think that one side or the other side has to be right and wrong all the time on every issue and that that's really not the case you you will disabuse

yourself with that notion if you study politics deeply and follow some of my political Content wrong in taking your mental constructs for reality mistaking the two confusing the two wrong in seeing a situation too narrowly it's like yes you're not technically wrong but your view is just so limited so narrow that that's what makes it wrong because you're missing a lot more wrong in your understanding of capitalism or socialism wrong in dismissing another's subjective Experience of reality wrong in trying to monopolize the truth that's a really sneaky one once your ego gets a hold of

the truth you want to have a monopoly on it that's what that's the classic trap that these religions fall into right like Islam wants to monopolize the truth Christians want to monopolize the truth Jesus is the truth see they're trying to monopolize the truth but the truth is not limited to Jesus that's a Again a very narrow understanding of that situation you can be wrong in your understanding of geopolitics and war war is a tricky thing to understand I have an episode about war and conflict uh wrong in understanding the Middle East Middle East is

a is a tricky place to understand for example it's it's easy to misunderstand why women have to be veiled in the Middle East uh wrong in how you relate to criticism it's easy to get reactive when criticism comes your way uh wrong in how you relate to negative people trying to debate with them and argue with them wrong with being edgy wrong with your style of communication wrong in your blabber mouthy just blabber mouthing on social media without thinking wrong in idolizing gurus and teachers and putting them on pedestals Or doing that even worse with

like celebrities wrong and copying and aping others rather than following your own path a lot of young people are doing this wrong in gaslighting people wrong in shifting blame on others wrong in thinking that someone else is stupid when you're actually the stupid one in the situation wrong in wasting years of your life doing something ineffectively that's a very tricky One like you can waste years of your life going to the gym and lifting weights ineffectively just because you think you have the right way and you don't want to learn from somebody else you're too

proud or you're too lazy to actually learn or you're too cheap to actually maybe invest in a person trainer and so you just keep going about it ineffectively for years for decades and then admitting to yourself that the way that you've been lifting at the gym Or exercising at the gym is wrong that's going to be very difficult because you have a decade now of ineffective practice the same can apply to example for meditation you could be doing meditation wrong for a decade and then the longer you do it ineffectively the worse it becomes because

it becomes harder and harder to admit to yourself that you've wasted a decade of your life this Effectiveness topic is is So uh so significant it really deserves its own episode uh you can be wrong in getting carried away just you can get carried away with all sorts of things you can get just carried away with a romantic relationship especially early on when you're in this kind of infatuation honeymoon period you can get carried away with some religious community which ends up being a cult you can get carried away with earning money Just you're just

like you're in like a trans a money earning trans you get carried away and you forget all about ethics you forget all about Consciousness and and and the things that I said and you just get carried away chasing money carried away with with pickup you know you get into to pickup and you discover that hey actually I'm kind of skilled at pickup and then you start doing it and you're getting results but then you just get Like get carried away with the with the whole pickup thing or carried away with some online ideology like this

carried away stuff it's very very trappy here's a few very like subtle examples see I'm trying to communicate to you the nuance and subtlety here so the more nuanced are examples can be the better uh here's one being wrong in how you create content insisting for example That you need total creative control of your content and that you don't need any editors cuz you know an editor is going to interfere with your creative genius or something like that right and then so you structure your life such that nobody can edit your creative content but then

that actually makes your content worse I've suffered from that um my content could improve with better editing so recently I've started to I don't mean that I'm going to be Editing my videos like after they're shot I'm editing them before I even speak I'm pre-editing this episode here has already been pre-edited it would have been longer and worse had I not realized that I was wrong in this specific way so see that's kind of a subtle one like it's really difficult to spot that right it took me a long long it took me 10 years

of making videos to get to the point where I realized that I mean yeah I always knew my videos were long and kind of you know all that but I was fooling myself into thinking that actually longer is better more content is better you know editors would uh would make my content worse but then I realized the value of editing so now I'm more ruthless about editing my content pre-editing it editing my outlines cutting out all the extraneous examples all the low quality Examples all the um all the fluff all the intro like heavy intro

stuff like really cutting it down to like like nowadays I'm asking myself like what is like the Bare Bones like the minimum the like making it really powerful juicy potent uh here's another subtle example is wrong in trying to impress people with sophisticated vocabulary that's a tricky one I fell into that luckily with that one I realized that trap really early on I Realized that trap when I was about uh 24 25 I got out of that trap cuz I went to University and I was into all that academic heavy jargon sophisticated vocabulary right these

$100 fancy words that they use in Academia I was all into that [ __ ] impressing people with that and then I I caught myself and I realized like what am I doing I'm putting on this front that's not how language and communication is supposed to be communication is supposed to be as Simple as possible as clear as possible possible not words that people average people don't understand I actually discovered that by getting out of Academia and going into business when I went into business I would write like for example when I was a game

designer um at a studio I would write these sort of like academic sounding verbose florid design documents and very quickly I was just abused of this kind of Communication because when you're writing design documents for program and for other designers they don't want any of your fancy you know poetic [ __ ] language academic language they want like really concise uh you know simple straight to the point and that in a sense that's actually more difficult communicating with that like in a in a potent simple clear list-like form that's that in a sense that can

be more difficult especially if you went Through the whole academic system where you were writing these long 10-page essays on topics which is how I was educated you know my idea of a good document is like a 10-page essay that that's that's terrible for the business world so what's going to happen to you is that if you don't get good at admitting your wrongness then your Consciousness will get stuck that's the real cost that's the cost of all This right now people who are not actively pursuing higher consciousness they don't even realize that this is

a factor because they don't think about Consciousness they don't care about developing Consciousness they're not trying to access higher stages up the spiral none of this kind they're not trying to you know access God Consciousness um and so for them it's not a big issue but if you really want to access higher dimensions of Consciousness this is this is why I'm pointing this whole topic out to you is that this is your mind will get stuck you're going to your mind is simply going to lack the open-mindedness and requisite variety and intelligence which is necessary

to access the highest levels see the highest levels of consciousness are the most intelligent ones intelligence needs infinite requisite variety at the highest level Right so the closer you get to God the more infinite variety the requisite variety uh your your Consciousness will require to understand the higher things and anything where your mind is wrong anything where you have a wrong attitude towards things or you're afraid to admit that you're wrong any place where you're in denial that's going to be an obstacle to going any higher and at some point you're just going to max

out you're Going to max out you're going to stall for years you're just going to stall until some breakthrough happens where usually some catastrophe happens in your life some huge amount of pain and Trauma um suffering rather uh and uh and then that might break break you through that might get you to realize how [ __ ] stupid you were how close-minded and stubborn you were and that might bust you through uh but also this is a collective Issue as well don't think that it's all just on the individual right now many of our political

problems come from various groups and factions within Society refusing to admit that they've been being wrong in fact you can look at the entire consern ative movement especially I don't know how it is in other countries but especially in American politics which is what I'm most familiar With everything the Republican party is doing everything the right-wing in America is doing all the Maga people and and even the non- Maga people fundamentally what's going on is conservatives are wrong about some very fundamental aspects of reality and society and they're in denial about it and they're fundamentally

unwilling to admit that they're wrong and then from that all the other disease is happening within the conservative Movement now I'm not saying that all of the problem of politics is on the conservatives there's also stuff that's going wrong on the left as well but just if we look at the conservative movement look think about it what are the conservatives in denial about and refuse to admit that that they're wrong about their denial and wrong about climate change and environmental degradation and just the fundamental carrying capacity of the planet the Human species has reached a

point where we're we're we're buning up against the carrying capacity of the planet and conservatives don't want to look at that they're in denial about that fundamentally and they don't want to change how they do business how they mine for oil how they mine for minerals how the population is is you know the population they don't want to look at this stuff it's difficult it's expensive as well What else are conservatives uh refusing to admit the wrong about fundamentalist religion all of these Evangelical Christians all of these hardcore Catholics on the Supreme Court fundamentally they're

all in denial that fundamentalist religion is a bunch of fantasy and nonsense denial of evolution all this sort of [ __ ] it's still going on and these people they think they can get away with it they think they can get Away with it and they're pushing and then see what happens is that when you're in denial of reality like that you have to go through more elaborate mental gymnastics and political minations and you have to bend yourself over backwards and do more and more devilry in order to sustain your position your wrong position you

keep doubling down on your wrongness conservatives are also wrong about The the whole capitalist system and that doesn't mean that I'm saying we should move to socialism but I'm just saying because socialism also has many problems but I'm just saying they're in denial about the externalities of capital M and the pro very serious problems this is creating for what uh not just the environment but um democracy excessive capitalism runaway Capitalism is undermining democracy because all these giant corporations have so much money and there's such ridiculous wealth inequality at this point that the wealthy are completely

corrupting the government but the conservatives don't want to admit any of that because they're benefiting from that whole system they're trying to conserve that whole system but that system is beyond the point where it can be Conserved and so they're fighting a losing battle and then the more they they struggle and they fight the more proud they get you know they kind of rile themselves up they they energize their Base by by making them feel proud of all this wrongness and that doesn't mean that everything in the conservative philosophy is wrong it just means that

there's a couple of Like core pillars that are wrong that need to be rethought and if you would just rethink them then our politics could move in the proper directions but this is this is destabilizing the entire American System right now it's creating needless polarization and uh chaos that's what this whole Trump thing is all about and the root solution to that if we really want to advance in our politics In America it's funny to even say it this way because it's so Preposterous it would never happen but what would need to happen is that

conservatives would need to walk out and say we were wrong we were wrong on capitalism we were wrong on the environment we were wrong on uh fun religion we were wrong on nationalism and a few other points like that and then we could have a healing and a moving forward and then All the denial would go away and this is what would actually heal the country and move it forward but of course if you tell that to a conservative they're going to just point the finger and say well but what about the Liberals what about

the progressives what about the antifa people what have they been all wrong about and then they're just going to start this fight a few more of these kind of collective denials of wrongness is uh the Capitalist class the CEOs the Wall Street people the bankers the business people the marketers the philanthropists the lobbyists all of these people are participating in this toxic capitalism and they need to come out and say we were wrong literally the head CEOs of these giant corporations Disney and you know Google and Facebook and and Exon Mobile need to come out

and say we were wrong For driving this insane income inequality with our lobbying the government and manipulating with all these devilish tactics the bankers with with their uh you know with their derivatives and and weird loan schemes all this this kind of stuff they need to come out and say we were wrong of course are any of these people ever going to admit they were wrong no never never they earned too much money as we discussed above before That's one of the shest ways to ensure uh that that someone will never admit being wrong is

when they earn million tens of millions and hundreds and billions of dollars from their wrongness another one of these Collective points is union busting and monopolization the crazy Tech monopolies that we have the um companies just buying up little companies abusing their Monopoly power The union busting that Starbucks is doing and Amazon is doing and all these corporations are doing it's illegal what they're doing but they do it anyways because there's no good enforcement and there's no good enforcement from the government because the government has been bought out by these people by all these corporations

this is completely corrupting our entire system these people who engage in these practices need to realize if you're Engaged in union busting at Amazon or Starbucks as like one of the top managers you need to come out and admit you were wrong likewise if you're running a monopoly Microsoft Google Facebook whoever um Amazon you got to come out and say that you got to admit this [ __ ] this is this is like now we're getting to some juicy admitting you were wrong right this is not oh I'm a perfectionist that's my mistake no no

no this is like This is heavy heavy admitting you were wrong entire industry need to come out and say that they were wrong the food industry the the fast food industry all this junk food that's being sold all these people need to come out and say they they were wrong the healthcare industry big Pharma big Tech the military industrial complex all the oil companies now these AI companies who are stealing voices and art and scraping YouTube and all this for their Content um the devilry of AI is just now starting to come online these social

media companies all of them need to admit that they were wrong and of course they never will and that's why we have all the chaos that we have politically speaking and of course last but not least the Israeli Palestinian situation and the demonization of terrorism in general if you want peace you know what The real solution is to the Israeli Palestinian situation Israel has to come out and say that they're wrong the zionists have to say they're wrong they're wrong for settling for pushing their settlements and they keep pushing it even today they keep pushing

it of course this is the last thing they want to do and so the conflict continues again just because I say that some of these groups and people and Parties are wrong that does not don't assume that that that now means that oh the progressives don't have any of these problems or some other group or the Palestinians or Hamas doesn't have these problems they also have those problems right this is just I'm just giving you a cursory overview with some example this is not meant to be a comprehensive balanced list this is just some like

this is just like very obvious I'm just obvious obvious obvious stuff and yet at The same time stuff that nobody else is really talking about a hallm Mark of an immature mind is that it cannot admit to being wrong just again look at Donald Trump he's the best example of this absolutely incapable of admitting any wrongdoing and one of the corrupting influences Trump has had on our political culture I mean he's had a lot but um one of the more subtle ones is that Trump has started this trend has kind of like Normalized this trend

within right-wing politics of never admitting any wrong doing at all just like double down on all your mistakes even if a video comes out of you sexually assaulting somebody you just come out there and you say you know what I'll do it again next time too it's like it's like it's Preposterous and and and the rightwing has just kind of like bought this and again why are they Buying it because they're in such a bad position on the fundamentals they're wrong on capitalism they're wrong on um on fundamentalist fundamentalist religion they're wrong on the environment

they're wrong on nationalism but they don't want they have no capacity to admit is so their only option then is to double down to get aggressively wrong to get all self-righteous about it to get indignant about it to go Storm some government offices about it admitting wrongness opens the Mind humbles the mind creates a state of not knowing leads to construct awareness leads to contemplation introspection leads to New Perspectives more requisite variety inside your mind and ultimately creates maturity in you that's what's good about it that's what you get for going through the Misery of

admitting you were wrong yes it's miserable yes it would be very painful for the conservative party to ad know the whole conservative movement to admit that they were wrong that would be very painful but but think of the benefit the benefit would be enormous if Israelis admitted that they that that that they were wrong we could have peace in that conflict but as it is see if you're refusing to admit that you Did something wrong when you actually did something wrong there can't be peace there can't be Justice now you might say well but Leo

what about you know relativism relativity subjectivity what does being wrong even mean in this case I mean AR aren't right and wrong just relative I mean who's to say that the conservatives are wrong who's to say that the Israelis are wrong of Course I'm not the one to say what I what I mean when I say being wrong is uh by your own recognizance you clearly see that you were operating under illusion falsehood self-deception in an immature unwise foolish unconscious egoic selfish shameful embarrassing unethical corrupt ineffective manner not because I said so but because your

own Consciousness Raised to a level where you can clearly see it for yourself and you know you could have handled the situation better whether I think you're wrong or not is irrelevant what matters is if you know you're wrong if you can clearly see it in fact it's even deeper than that as you're raising your Consciousness you will feel you will feel that Consciousness demands it of You to recognize your own rogness it demands it Leo doesn't demand it Consciousness demands it for example if Trump wanted to raise his Consciousness let's say Trump wanted to

meditate and be spiritual which is of course Preposterous but let's let's just fantasize here um uh very quickly he would uh run into this problem that he can't do these things without admitting a lot of wrong [ __ ] that he did and that he's still doing see Consciousness would demand it of him not us it's not Trump isn't wrong because the majority of Americans don't like him or because the libs are annoying and you know social justice Warriors and they're just crying about everything their snowflakes that's not why Trump is wrong Trump is wrong

fundamentally when I say Trump is wrong what I mean is by his own recognizance he would admit he's wrong if he just Pursued the raising of his own consciousness of course which he will never do others can't really tell you that you're wrong unless you admit it to yourself I mean they can tell you but again like with Trump a lot of people have told Trump that he's wrong but it doesn't penetrate it doesn't matter what people tell him because he just he has all sorts of mechanisms to deny it to ignore It to excuse

it to rationalize it to to go attack somebody or whatever but it is possible that he himself could admit that he's wrong if he wanted to but only if he wanted to if you became significantly more conscious you would see all the ways you've been wrong which is one of the reasons why people don't become very conscious because it it's such a huge burden and a Responsibility people don't appreciate the responsibility that comes with Consciousness for example you raise your Consciousness enough it's going to be hard for you to keep eating your hamburgers if you

go and you watch videos of what happens inside of a slaughterhouse that produces your hamburger which you so have loved your whole life and then your culture is based upon it you know what are you going to eat on your 4th of July Barbecue usually you and your kids and your wife would go out there and uh you know broil up some hamburgers well you can't do that anymore see sometimes your wrongness is so deep you just cannot stand to look at it it kills you inside it's terrifying to admit it's too ugly to look

at and some people are so far gone you know Trump being the best example the reason I can so confidently Say that he'll never do this process is because if he ever did it if he realized the devil that he is and all the suffering he's created needlessly for for the world um it would be so painful for him he would want to kill himself that's how bad it would get he's too far gone way too far gone and a lot of people are not as bad as Trump but a lot of people are too

far gone Wall Street guys corporate tycoons and such and uh you know bankers And um oil Executives Pharma Executives you they're too far gone you're never going to get to them imagine being so wrong that recognizing it will make you sick to your stomach will make you throw up and will make you hate yourself for the rest of your life you know that's realistically what would happen if Trump if Trump recognized uh how wrong he is he would hate himself for the rest of his life How would he live with himself that would require such

enormous levels of forgiveness self forgiveness self-love but then of course that is the healing process I have a whole video about how to forgive anyone who's ever hurt you and of course including yourself it's also very hard to admit you're wrong when you're succeeding usually what's required is failure suffering catastrophe and Embarrassment this is actually what happened with Julian Julian Blanc from RSD you guys familiar with him um Julian gate so back in like 2013 14 15 something somewhere around there this Julian gate happened Julian was behaving in very immature toxic masculine ways um some

videos came out about that how he was abusing girls while doing pickup and then this just blew up it was All over CNN everywhere and then he actually did an interview on CNN with Chris Cuomo I think um and Chris com just grilled him really like he really grilled him and Julian was just traumatized after that interview like this changed Julian's whole outlook on life pickup everything he transformed like he stopped doing pickup he got married like after that like huge transformation but he went through [ __ ] hell like it destroyed RSD it Destroyed

an entire company it destroyed the biggest pickup company in the world RSD at the time destroyed it RSD doesn't exist anymore destroyed a whole [ __ ] Community um uh yeah uh and it took that because before that Julian was doing all that immature stupid [ __ ] before that um and people like me were talking about it I have a video my my my pickup rant video was done before Julian gate I think or it was done right around the Time of Julian gate I think it was right before um cuz I saw him

doing like ridiculous toxic [ __ ] um and um but you know he was so deep into it that it it was beyond logical explanation you couldn't logically get him to stop what had to happen is just this blow up this huge public blow up and then um now I hope he's a better you know better man which seems like he is uh the more invested in attached you Are to a thing the harder it is to admit that you were wrong career is a big one money is a big one family is a big

one these are your your top investments in life and then your identity is a big one like for example your religious Identity or your atheist identity in the case of someone like Sam Harris Michael Shermer Professor Dave massive suffering is the key massive Suffering is undeniable see your mind is really good at denial but it's very hard to deny a catastrophe a public catastrophe or massive suffering and that's why I don't like this this sort of like Buddhist stuff about oh suffering is um you know transcend suffering Escape suffering sometimes people ask me on the

Forum why is there suffering why is the world so full of Suffering uh or they might even say Leo how come you still suffer because what you don't understand is that suffering is not just some annoying little thing like a thorn in your sigh that you need to get rid of the way that you might think from reading too much B Buddhism uh suffering is fundamental to your learning process to your growing process there are things that you learn from massive suffering that you would Never have been able to learn any other other way what

I like to say is that there's there's there's two top ways for learning one is crazy levels of suffering and the other one is crazy levels of love that's what will get you to change but getting crazy levels of love that's difficult most people don't know how to get that um and love because love is kind of sweet you know A love is a positive thing uh it's easy to Actually lots of love can in a certain way become its own trap because the sweetness of it lulls you whereas suffering is sharp it stings and

it it forces you to awaken to things you didn't want to admit to things you can no longer keep denying and this is where the power of psychedelics comes in because psychedelics are one of the few maybe maybe the third pillar of that you know massive suffering massive love and then Psychedelics and of course psychedelics can can do both a bad trip is massive suffering and then um uh psychedelics can also give you your highest forms of love too so massive love you know best way to get that most reliable way to get that is

from psychedelics so um yeah psyched psychedelics will will get you will open your eyes and get you to see many of the ways you've been wrong but of course even with psychedelics you have to have Still your mind still has to be open you have to have that int as long as you're interested in conscious and developing yourself and Improvement and all that then psychedelics can do a lot for you but some people you know like I don't know some people say all my Forum people have said like well what would happen if we gave

Donald Trump 5mo DMT if we forced him to take it what would happen and you know honestly I don't know That's a very interesting experiment that we will never get to run but um it would be very interesting to see uh it's like 50/50 on the one hand maybe it would open his eyes and you know it would traumatize him for sure but maybe he'll get him to you know maybe that's the only thing that would get him to to admit he was wrong about anything in his life maybe that uh but you know his

ego might be so dense and he might be so far down that road that Maybe even 5o DMT would not do that for him and he would just you know resist it like a stubborn mule and um and then that's that validation of perspective becomes easier than invalidation sorry I misspoke validation of perspective comes easier than invalidation invalidation feels bad but it's actually good for you and validation of your perspective feels Good but it's actually bad for you so this is kind of a mind [ __ ] is all twisted most people seek validation of

their perspective not realizing this is actually bad for them in the same way that you eat too much food it's bad for you and then if you do a fast it's actually good for you you need to proactively compensate against confirmation bias if you're a scientist go study some new age stuff if you're a new Ager go study some science And apply the scientific method to your beliefs and Fantasies see and this is exactly the thing that none of these people want to do it's the last thing you want to do which is of course

why it's good for you and why it grows you the stuff that grows you is the stuff you usually don't want to do unfortunately uh and another Point here is that it's not enough to just introspect yourself because you're not going to be able to see your own blind Spots not all of them you need perspective from others and in fact you know uh look I sometimes take a dim view of human beings and other people you know as SRA said hell is other people and that's definitely true however perhaps one of the most redeeming

existential qualities of other people you know what that is maybe not a yeah existential or epistemic qualities of of having other people around you Like there's a lot of [ __ ] that comes with having people around you you get drama you get politics you get idiots you get Psychopaths that all comes with having a society of people and it would be nice if we could somehow Escape that uh but um but there is one awesome benefit you get and that is that you get New Perspectives perspectives that you would never have if you just

lived alone on a deserted island And that's super valuable for your growth so make use of that ask for serious feedback on your working on yourself as a person in fact here I have a very powerful exercise for you that you can try here's the exercise if you have a romantic partner have a serious conversation with them sit them down and and tell them this I want you to give me an honest unvarnished evaluation of my myself as a person as a human Being I want your actual perspective of how you see me good or

bad I don't care just how you actually see me and how you evaluate me as a human being that's powerful huh and then what happens is if they're willing to do that if you have a somewhat conscious partner and they're not just going to you know throw judgement and criticize you um but they're actually going to evaluate you in a thoughtful manner That's going to be very valuable and then what you do is you just sit and you listen you give them as much time as they need if they need five minutes 10 minutes let

them talk don't interrupt them let them talk and you just listen and when they finish here's the key you don't argue with them you don't defend yourself you don't justify anything you just say thank you and you go you walk Away and then you lock yourself in a room by yourself and you sit there for hours and you think about what they told you of course you could also do this with a family member if you don't have a romantic partner but a romantic partner if you have that kind of intimate connection it might be

a little easier to start there family it depends on what your relationship is like with your family but yeah maybe you could do it With your brother maybe you could do it with your sister maybe your parents uh you know just depends um or if you have a good friend but that that that's powerful that's powerful okay we're going to take a quick break here and I'll be back in a second so now we get to the portion of this episode where I talk about all the things I've been wrong about lately that's going to

be very Interesting this is going to be some very subtle and nuanced stuff some very personal stuff here um this came to me through a lot of pain and suffering I haven't been posting much content over the last year and uh I took a break from actualized.org uh and I went through like a a really big integration period we might say and you might wonder well what have I been doing during all this time well the Short of it is that I was going through I was going through hell I was going through enormous suffering

um most of it brought on by health problems some of them my old health problems and then some of it new health problems and then some of them is just you know just based on my genetics and then some of it is self-inflicted as well so there was a combination of both those things I'm keeping it kind of vague because um some of it is is so uh It it's difficult to talk about um and some of it I'm not ready to talk about yet I'll talk about it in the future at some point but

anyways I've been go I went through multiple very difficult health problems which which really made me go like inwards and had to confront um a lot of my own internal [ __ ] as that happened so this is the power of suffering is that it does that I mean at least for me the effect it had is that I was going through so much suffering for Physical issues ailments and then various fears and anxieties that were coming up from that but then also that led me to convert that kind of uh personal suffering into a

more sort of like Universal compassion and understanding for the suffering of just all of the ailments of mankind as a whole and of those of you in my audience and also just led to a lot of just like very deep s reflection and Also the fact that I wasn't doing my normal stick and Publishing all this work and you know the work is not about just creating a video it's about sitting there and really contemplating this material so I was out of that I just stopped doing all this kind of personal development psychological philosophical existential

spiritual contemplation I just dropped all that and that created space the space that I needed and actually I grew enormously during this Period even though I wasn't doing any formal spiritual practice I wasn't contemplating stuff I wasn't reading books none of that kind of stuff uh and that was very very necessary because what I didn't realize because the last decade of my life up until this point is that I was pumping out content on almost weekly basis and during that entire 10 years it's like I was in a sort of Trans State like a very

subtle Trans State of doing this work without the ability to step back and observe it from a from a distance and then there was attachments of and of course I knew that I had attachments to this work and to my career and to my business um but again it's one thing to just kind of like know that intellectually it's another thing to actually make the time to step out of Your career right there's things you will never see while you're immersed in running your business or running your career on a weekly monthly basis all right

so let's get to this list of stuff that I was wrong again this is going to be some very personal stuff some of it was very challenging for me to admit even to myself and the reason I'm putting this out there is not to get forgiveness from you or to get approval From from the audience but because um this is stuff that I've integrated over the last year so I don't need that from you but I wanted to put this out there for educational purposes so that you really grasp this point of what it means

to admit that you're wrong like really admit that you're wrong this is really difficult stuff okay so here we go I was wrong in how I treated my girlfriends I looked over all the Relationships I had in my life and the most recent one my most recent breakup and I really did a lot of soul searching there and I just spent a lot of time thinking about and looking at how much I judged my girlfriends how much I teased them how much I didn't give them enough compliments how I was too selfish all the ways

I was too selfish all the ways I was immature all the ways that I was avoiding and playing various kinds of Games fundamentally not giving them enough love being too blunt with them with the truth using truth as a sort of a blunt instrument on them and then I came to the realization that I lost every girlfriend I ever had in my life because I didn't love her and because she wasn't enough for me and I really looked I looked at this for months for months I kept coming back and Just like looking at this

and looking at this and looking at this that was difficult to admit to myself it's easy to admit now but it was difficult to even look at it when I was reflecting on it myself so there's that that's a that's I mean you can get so much Grist for the contemplation Mill from your past intimate relationships and by the way if you want Healthy relationships any kind of healthy relationships going forward in the future is um I was wrong that's the magic phrase you got to be able to say I was wrong both people in

the relationship got to say I was wrong over and over and over again because as soon as that stops happening your relationship is going to go dysfunctional it's ironic right you might say well Leo but you teach love and all this kind of Stuff and that you're not able to love your girlfriends well come because first of all I'm a perfectionist second of all it's because when I talk about love you have to understand that my understandings of Love are very different from normal human conceptions of Love romantic love and love for human beings that's

really not what I'm concerned about when I talk about love I'm talking About a metaphysical kind of philosoph iCal kind of love which can be difficult to then translate into the human kind of love now we've talked about that elsewhere and it's not like I'm saying that I was some kind of monster to these girls I wasn't I'm talking about subtle ways right so you might think well Leo what did you do did you verbally abuse them sexually abuse them it's like no no no it's much more subtle than that way More subtle than that

next thing is I was wrong about pushing truth on people as I went through my suffering and I went through this whole process of facing a lot of this difficult truth about myself and my own behavior and my own thinking patterns and all the areas I was wrong uh it made me very painfully aware of How painful truth is and how much more careful I have to be in terms of just kind of like bashing people over the head with the truth whether it's a girlfriend or an audience member you right originally I sort of

had this attitude when I sort of actualized that or that it would be like pummeling people with the truth being very blunt and that worked to a certain extent I sort of made that my style There's certain advantages to that style there's certain disadvantages to that style and so as I mature in how I do these teachings as I do more of the teachings I look back upon the teachings and I see various limitations in the style that I adopted originally but of course that style over 10 years it has kind of like become ingrained

in me and it's difficult to to make a shift in that however I made I had kind of like an Internal shift here because I realized just like how inappro it is to use truth in this kind of way truth needs a lot more skill behind it like originally I would I would think that like well people are under all these fantasies and Illusions and then my job as like the spiritual teacher is to shatter these Illusions for them and that this would benefit them and now I had a I had a real shift on

that my relationship to that changed and so now I'm not so much interested in doing that anymore I'm more comfortable with just letting people stay lost in their fantasies and Illusions and not interfere with that not pushing truth on them having them show some receptivity first before just pushing it on them so that's a shift that you'll be seeing in my teachings going forward I was wrong in trying to disillusion with the truth of undermining people's Fantasies I was wrong in trying to get everyone to pursue truth spirituality and Awakening what I see now more

clearly than I ever saw before is just like how specific this whole Awakening spirituality philosophy truth seeking business is and it's really specialized for certain kinds of people who value this kind of work and most people do not value this kind of Work and um there are different priorities people have in life different values that they have and those values and priorities need to be like people need to be met where they're at and those priorities need to be honored rather than like judging them for it in a subtle way where like you judge them

for like oh well you have the wrong priorities you should be pursuing what I'm pursuing and um no there's just a there's just a Lot more diversity of of ways that one can live life and part of what you know I've talked about in the past this idea of sovereignty of Mind respecting the sovereignty of others people other people's consciousnesses and part of what that means is getting to know their values on their terms not on your terms not projecting my own values onto other people or on to you and being very clear to distinguish

That like this is my value set that's your value set and there's a there's a difference there and for my advice to work for you there needs to be a sort of alignment of value sets which there may not be and in fact for most people there's not going to be that kind of alignment so for example recommending truth seeking to everybody in the general population this is inappropriate because they just have a different value set so I'm I'm going to Be more careful in the future about about distinguishing between those things and also just

about accommodating a more diverse value set in my audience cuz if you have thousands and millions of people watching uh you have a you have the whole rainbow the whole gamut of different value sets that people have and in the past I would teach from like my own value set of course and it's Difficult to see outside one's own value set but that's what higher Consciousness does for you that's also what suffering will help you to see that's also what interacting with other people and getting feedback from them or like you know in your relationships

you'll realize that your girlfriend has a different value set than you do your husband has a different value set than you do your children your parents and so a lot of what Relationship Dynamics and problems revolve around is just these differences in value sets and also not appreciating a different value set than yours and trying to push and project yours onto them and of course you can do that with your audience as well I was wrong for assuming that everyone should be interested in my values so in the future I'm going to be making my

teachings more we might say Universal kind of trying to accommodate or it's not like I'm going to be adopting other people's values so much but it's like I'm going to be I'm going to be um underscoring that like this piece of advice is for this kind of value set sort of thing and also encouraging you to like be true to your value set because a lot of you guys who watch me can get sort of seduced by the Charisma of All this and some of these cool Advanced ideas some of the truth in these ideas

you can kind of get seduced into that and then you can sort of like start to think that well now I should be following Leo's value set now of course this is all going to be implicit you don't tell yourself that explicitly but implicitly you're just going to be trying to like follow my value set without even knowing what's happening but then five years later you'll realize That this isn't working for me and the reason it's not working for you is because you should have been following your value set which is probably different from my

value set and even within spirituality see there's different even value sets within spirituality what do you want out of spirituality don't assume that what I want out of spirituality is the same thing as what you want maybe what you want is to transcend suffering maybe What you want is loving relationships with humans in your life um maybe what you want is bliss that's not why I do spirituality even though some of those things are are still good um from my point of view but that's not where I'm coming from when I do this work so

that's something I'll be emphasizing more in the future I was wrong in teaching in a confrontational judgmental heavy-handed and arrogant way that kind of style That's the kind of style I adopted when I first started and um and the more I do it the more I see the the limitations of it I realize more and more that it's inappropriate to and bully people into self-actualizing I was wrong for teaching for egoic reasons I was wrong for getting egoic pleasure out of lording insights over my audience and that just doesn't serve my audience and it corrupts

my Work so see I started to reflect more and more on my work during this time off and really asking myself what are my true motives for doing this work why am I even doing it why am I putting out all this content what am I getting out of it I'm not doing it so much for the money so what am I getting out of it and then when I dug deep into that I I noticed certain egoic Pleasures that I get um and then what I realized is that That had a it felt like

it was corrupting my work and that it really wasn't serving you and then I sort of start to ask myself like should I be doing this for my pleasure to a certain extent yes cuz like if I don't enjoy doing the work then why why do the work at all but on the the other hand if if if I'm just like serving myself in this endeavor and it's not serving the audience it's at the cost of the Audience it's not helping you to awaken it's not helping you to get a deeper understanding of of existence

if that's not happening then that's a error in the style something needs to change and that will be changing going forward I was wrong about what I'm going to call here weak people by weak people I mean people in life who are struggling um maybe people with the mental disorders in Cells people stuck in a like a deep victim complex uh just in general people who are suffering a lot in life it's easy when you're successful relatively successful if you're in good health which I'm not but if you're in good health um and uh you

know if you have if you have some status in the world if if you're somewhat famous if uh if you have a good financial Situation um if you have a good emotional state of mind where you don't have a mental disorder or something like that it can be very easy kind of like to turn a blind eye or to be dismissive to these kinds of people who suffer from these kinds of problems and who don't have these kinds of things in their life and to not appreciate how difficult it is for them to create that

right because everybody starts at a different place in life uh for some people creating Financial success and abundance for themselves is going to be a lot more difficult for others just based on where they were born what kind of family they had whether they were abused or not and like in this work the spiritual work the psychological work you know if you've been abused that's a very different Mountain you have to climb than someone like me who wasn't and So thanks to the suffering that I went through like I made a connection I made a

connection with those kinds of people because I could I could see you know I can see what it's like to be in a sort of a unresourceful deficient state where it's difficult to help yourself you feel helpless if you have a serious health problem you feel helpless because you don't know how to fix it you try stuff And it doesn't work it's kind of out of your control well likewise you know if you're if you're born in some awful third world country it kind of feels like it's out of your control now that doesn't mean

it's out of your control there's still stuff you can do of course but still that's very different than being born in a nice neighborhood in California so I have more compassion for These kinds of people and in the past I would kind of speak down to that and that was wrong of me to do I was also wrong in speaking bluntly without tact and sensitivity to people's feelings and values feelings and values and uh and basically the reason I did that is because I was so focused on this notion of Truth and I was prioritizing

that above Everything else and again there's certain benefits that come with that but then there's downsides and so now I'm more sensitive to the downsides I was wrong in using too much profanity and crass and sensitive examples as I mature I'm I look back at at that and kind of cringe I was wrong in my tone interacting with people sometimes the tone that I would use would be too obnoxious too harsh too judgmental too Kind of like finger wagging which is wrong it's just not effective you see and it's a trap you know doing this

whole YouTube stick is a trap in the sense that like there's a pressure to want to perform it's like a performance when I'm up here it almost feels like a performance it's not just like a normal conversation you know I put a little bit of like acting into it a little bit of like emotion a little bit of like Charisma in order to make it entertaining but um but you know that gets in the way of truth of course and um and then it kind of like it incentivizes almost like a creating of a subtle

drama and and again I mean the whole internet is is full with this kind of drama but then I started to notice like I mean it's it's not like my content has like very obvious drama in it um relative to what you find on the internet or on YouTube but still like again um some of these things that I'm talking about are like very subtle points and many people would just kind of like dismiss it Overlook it or say oh it's not a very big deal but um but again like the more advanced I get

the more conscious I get it's like the very subtle stuff that starts to bug me about My work I was wrong in using violent communication I'll have an episode about violent communication coming soon that's going to be powerful it's like a shift when I learned about this concept of violent communication and then I looked at how I communicate it's like a lot of like I saw a lot of things that I wasn't seeing before that distinction of violent communication very powerful in a nutshell what it means is a sort of like An inflammatory style of

communication but I'll elaborate more upon that in the future so in the future you'll see me using less violent communication uh and violent is not just in the the word choices that there can be violence or inflammatory word choice for example using excessive profanity might be one example um but then it's also about the tone right so it's a combination it's the it's the tone it's the word choice And it's also like the intent it's the intent and the motivation behind every sentence that is being said and every paragraph that those sentences add up to

and it's also the the subtle judgments that are Laden within that so this is a this is a very very subtle topic I was wrong in viewing people as fools and idiots what happened over time is that I as I was Figuring out more of these deep aspects of reality um I started to develop a contempt for human intelligence because frankly there's a lot of stupid stuff that humans do in the social domain in the political domain in the business domain on in the social media domain even in the spiritual domain maybe even especially in

the spiritual domain right there's a lot of stupid stuff but but then if you start to tell yourself that Over and over again in your own mind you kind of like start to program your own mind to look at mankind with this kind of contempt and um and of course that's because like you start to look at people you start to look down at people because they're not awakened they're not construct aware they don't know all of these like sophisticated self-deception mechanisms that you now Know um but then this becomes its own kind of trap

you see and so what I've been doing is I've been um I've been looking more at just like very successful talented genius people in society across media that have their own kind of like specialized narrow intelligence like they're really good they have a sort of a genius at what they do even though it has nothing to do with they have no idea of what spirituality Is what Awakening is what construct awareness is like they're not that sophisticated but they're just interested in a different set of things and they have a specialized intelligence in that set

of things you know like you can look at someone like a for example like a Steven Wolfram like a a really brilliant scientist he doesn't understand some of these spiritual topics we talk about but like you can recognize like the genius the Intelligence in that narrow specialized thing that he's doing and then what's important is to recognize that kind of Genius all across the board within Society you know people have perspectives everyone has a perspective all these perspectives are basically limited many of them are contained fantasies and nonsense and and garbage a bunch of noise

but there's signal in that noise and so really the more the most mature way to go about this is to Kind of like recognize and appreciate this kind of narrow intelligence and everything people are doing and um and valuing the uniqueness of these different perspectives and how they can contribute right how they can attribute to you how you can make use of the signal in that noise so you can take somebody that you disagree with somebody that normally you would look down upon because they're not woke or whatever and you can find that that signal

and look Through the noise that's that's that's tricky because usually what our mind does our mind tends to focus on the noise especially if there's more noise than signal in some perspective we tend to focus on the Noise We to demonize and judge based on the noise ignoring the signal but then if you if you adopt that kind of attitude you know you can find something wrong about almost anybody even any spiritual teacher you know you Could take a spiritual teacher you can find sad Guru and criticize him about some you know little thing he

did wrong and then you can get like hung up on that and you can do that for every spiritual teacher and you can do that for every scientist and every philosopher and every social media influencer but at the end of the day after you is doing all that what do you get you get a sort of like cynicism and contempt and and a sort of like um Disgust with Humanity as a whole which is which is not very effective it then becomes difficult to learn from these people and it fundamentally it doesn't feel right it

doesn't sit right with you because like what you want is you want to be out there experiencing and exploring all these different perspectives and you want to be rather joyful about it rather than being moralistic and contracted in this kind of like negative judgmental Mode and so I was definitely falling into that trap and of course this is kind of like the Trap of arrogance which uh I'm certainly very very guilty of uh I was wrong in speaking about and assuming levels of consciousness of of other people and spiritual teachers you know part of the

thing that I'm trying to do is I'm trying to like one of the things I regret the most most about my work is that I can See um like little exaggerations that just that like I sneak in in certain areas it's like 90% of what I say is is is powerful stuff but then but then my ego sneaks in certain little like exaggerations or like jumps to certain little conclusions make little assumptions you know going just like a little bit overboard a little a little bit like beyond what would need to be said if I

was being like strictly careful strictly truthful And so as I'm trying to align my own mind more with truth that kind of stuff is is not acceptable to me anymore and so I'm I'm like working through a process of of trying to just like make everything that I say as like crisp and like sharp and accurate right it's like it's like a sort of a dedication to the accuracy of your speech and so in that respect you know a lot of times people will ask me well Leo what do you think about this spiritual teacher

and that spiritual teacher know how enlightened is this person and then how enlightened is that person and then like strictly speaking I can't be inside the minds of any of these people right I can strictly speaking only speak about my Consciousness so I have to make a leap I have to kind of like a jump to a sort of conclusion make certain assumptions and Certain sort of like interpretations and predictions right it's a it's not it's not some sort of like absolute knowledge of somebody else's level of Consciousness or development I have to like go

out a bit on a limb to talk about that stuff so there's a there's like multiple choices I have there I can just be quiet which is always the wise choice the wisest choice is always just to you know if you're not sure just be quiet um but Then you know there's a trap to want to speak about stuff that you're not quite sure about and um and but see it's not that simp though because most spiritual teachings don't actually consider the perspective of other spiritual teachers or people what they do is they just present

you like a single perspective on spirituality from a certain teacher part of what actually that or does is that we consider lots of different spiritual teachers we name Them we consider their perspectives read their books and we we we compare all this kind of stuff and we try to figure out you know like we use one spiritual teacher teachings and perspective against another in the sense that like we try to use one to compensate for the gaps in the other and so you sort of damned if you do and damned if you don't in this

situation because if you're learning From any kind of spiritual teacher first of all you have to decide which one to learn from and there's different qualities of them so how are you going to judge as as a student you have to judge somehow and somehow have some kind of sorting process for who you're going to listen to because you can't listen to all of them equally and then also when you start comparing them you're going to notice that there's important differences in The detail of what they teach and often times contradictions and they can teach

exactly the opposite things one guy will say meditation won't make you enlightened another guy says he got Enlighten through meditation so what's true and strictly speaking you don't know who's like you can't get inside their heads but you still have to make certain evaluations here so um It's Tricky but I'm going to be more Careful about just like not leaping to to to judgments and conclusions about the the levels of consciousness of of others even though you know again it's like man I wish I could just not talk about it at all but on the

other hand it has to be talked about because like my own Awakenings and understandings of Consciousness and doing this work have led me to like very important realizations about gaps in certain teachings and Teachers and I feel like that's important to discuss even though when I discuss those things it it doesn't mean that I'm like 100% certain that I know that teacher's level of consciousness so keep that in mind I was also wrong in giving out too many answers without helping to facilitate people in discovering their own answers this is a huge sticking Point for

me uh going forward that like I have a tendency to want to give out all the answers and I've had this realization recently that um it's it's really limiting the power of these teachings because you're getting ideas in your mind abstract ideas of things that should actually be experienced by you so really I'm thinking about how to help facilitate people more into discovering their own Answers rather than just giving you all the answers that's more powerful the trick is that it's difficult to do that through this medium of of just a video or an audio

that really requires a kind of like Socratic method going back and forth which just can't be done through this medium but I'm I'm thinking about how to like structure the content more so that Maybe I'm giving you more exercises maybe asking you more questions um it's difficult cuz like I don't like the idea of just making a video where I just ask you a question and give you an exercise and then it's on you to go and do it it's like um but um that's still something I'm like working out I'm going to be working

out over the next year or to how to make subtle changes there to make that better About my work I was wrong in underestimating the intelligence and potential of my audience I spent a lot of time thinking about my audience and getting inside their heads their perspective and it's difficult to do that because of course when you have an audience of a million it's like you have every perspective out there every value system every level of intelligence Frankly some of my audience members are stupid and some of them are brilliant and everything in between so

who do I tailor my content towards that's always something that I'm wrestling with and I need like a internal model of my audience how they think what they know and what they don't know cuz based on what I think you know and don't know I have to tailor my content in that fashion um but in general uh uh in the past I've made the mistake of sort of Talking down to you and sort of like gearing some of my content to like the lower intelligence rather than the higher intelligence and as I was you know

reflecting on on all this I realize that anyone that's willing to sit through one of my three-hour long ass videos on a deep topic like philosophy or God or Consciousness this is already a very exceptional special kind of mind that is Able to do this the average mind is not going to be interested in this kind of stuff it takes a very special value set for somebody to be able to sit through a three-hour long video like that never mind 50 of them or a hundred of them as some of you have done and so

um I wasn't appreciating that in the past as I will be more going forward so I apologize for taking you for granted for being too dismissive of your Intelligence and wisdom and your um your commitment to this work I really want to applaud those of you who've done that who've sat through a hundred or more of these episodes like that in of itself is an achievement you understand that right you understand that like 95% of mankind wouldn't do that if you gave it to them they would just turn it off and move on to watching

cat videos or something like that so the fact that you did that of course just Sitting through 100 videos it's empty theory that doesn't mean it's going to change your life but it's still a huge achievement and those of you who did that I want you to just acknowledge that to yourself you're special for doing that just for doing that that means you have a lot of potential because see what that means is is that there's a like a there's a spark in you that recognizes the power of these ideas that's really What it is

it's not even me it's not my personality that's keeping you here watching this material it's the power of the ideas which are not my ideas these are ideas that are just of the universe of the nature of existence you care about the nature of existence you care about psychology you care about self-deception even though you're flawed in how you pursue all these things and You have a lot of stupid ideas and Fantasies but the fact that you're interested in this this is this is the starting point this is critical because this like this means you're

a diamond in the rough and that's something you know I can work with that I can work with you I can work with a diamond in the rough and I need to appreciate that because there's not that many Diamonds in the Rough out there in the world I mean in a Sense we could say everybody is a diamond in the rough but some people are just so rough that uh you're not going to get anywhere with them that's the mo majority of people they're lost chasing you know sex drugs and uh partying and and drinking

and um and money just like this kind of materialistic stuff that's not you though because you would have been out of here a long time ago if that was you So as I was thinking about you know how do I relate properly with my audience um because I communicate with many of you and I have since the very beginning um i' I've talked with thousands of you but like um I still need to like it's difficult for me to develop a mental model of of my audience because um I don't really have a direct experience

of that and it's I'm not sure like where to target my my teachings and so now I like have a Realization that I need to Target that that kind of like diamond in the rough and it's like how do we polish you up and uh what I want to do going forward is to be more supportive of that kind of audience member of championing you more encouraging you more your growth because you have so much potential just this enormous potential instead of what I was doing in the past which was kind of like berating you

sometimes judging you lording Insights over you uh because that's just not what is going to help you to polish you into the diamond that you ultimately are underneath all that crap all that rough all that human bias see it's very easy to judge people for their human bias but how helpful is that for helping them to overcome it to transcend it that's what I've Been racking my mind over I was wrong in not appreciating my audience and if I have an amazing audience because you know what I did over over the break is that I

just would go and and rewatch some of my old videos and read all the comments you know hundreds thousands of comments just reading it and sometimes I read the comments and it's just like so much so much [ __ ] love there just like so much Love um amazing thank you for that like I really feel it sometimes and then other times I overlook it and take it for granted but like you can really feel that love in some of the comment sections I also realized that I was wrong for projecting my own lack of

compassion and a lack of care for human things onto my audience not caring about Me so this was a very subtle projection that I noticed about myself it's like see my focus is not the human domain my focus is the existential domain the philosophical domain that's what makes my work what it is but there's tradeoffs to that right there's like weaknesses that come with that cuz then interacting with the human then becomes more challenging cuz it's not a priority you're prioritizing something above the human most humans Prioritize the human over the existential I have sort

of the opposite problem which can make me um kind of blind to the human dimensions and so that's something that I'm working on in fact that's what most of these issu that I'm talking about are really about is that there deficiencies with how I interact and relate with humankind basically because um you know frankly it's just not my highest Value but I'm bumping into the limitations of that see and so that needs to be uh addressed going forward and um what i notic is that a lot of you just kind of like simple human folk

who are not very existential in your thinking um you have an advantage over me in the sense that like you have a more kind of like a simple just kind of like basic human Love even though I talk about existential love and all that like like I said before that's different than just sort of like a basic you know let's say you're walking down the street and you see um you see just like a hungry homeless person and you have like an empathy and a care for them like what I would say is that most

of you who are not super spiritually Advanced just like normal kind of like decent Humans probably have a deeper sense of compassion and love in that situation than than I than I do and the reason that is is because I've said like I've deprioritized that so that I can focus on the existential you see but of course like you can't just live life that way otherwise there's going to be problems there's going to be you know limits and I've been bumping into those limits um and then so sometimes what I would do is I would

kind of like project That kind of callous L I would also project it onto my audience when really it's not there it's my own callousness that I'm projecting forward so that was a mistake I made my profound Awakenings made me arrogant and uh led to development of spiritual ego within me this was necessary but now it needs to be undone so it's kind of like two steps forward One step backward right it's not just two steps forward all the time two steps forward one step backward um the arrogance the value of the arrogance was that

it allowed me to think in new ways and to not just conform to all the other ways in which spiritual teachers and teachings think this allowed me to make Innovations and new discoveries and new ways of thinking about this material and teaching this material and even new Kinds of Awakenings that I don't think anybody else has really had that I've heard of but um of course as with anything any one of these like traits or qualities that you have it's going to have downsides and so I've been feeling the downsides and now I want to

correct for them I was being I was wrong in being too reactive when criticized I'm getting a lot better at dealing with Criticism um that's something I've I've been developing as I mature I was wrong in thinking that I was good when I was evil overlooking my evilness in my own mind and overly focusing on my good qualities because I have a lot of good qualities and you guys Point them out to me um maybe too much sometimes and uh and then again the mind is so tricky it focuses on those to the exclusion of

the Evilness so I've been confronting my own evilness and devilry during this extended break I was wrong in that as I was going through this whole process of learning spirituality over the last 10 years I adopted and picked up uh many spiritual fantasies and assumptions from reading all the books from studying from all the teachers and like I really appreciate a lot more now just how fraught and tricky this whole domain is And so now a lot of my work is about undoing many of those spiritual fantasies and that's something that I think uh all

of you should should relate with because you're going to fall into that same trap I guarantee you I guarantee you if you read all these spiritual books and all this Buddhism and non-duality material and all this kind of stuff no matter which teachers you listen to you're going to start to Create fantasies around this stuff and various kinds of assumptions about them about yourself about what your results will be about what spirituality is what the potential of spirituality is when you're going to be done what that's going to look like that that's there's a lot

more that needs to be said about that in future episodes I also noticed that I was wrong in this kind of subtle way where I had This kind of like very subtle contrarian bias to all of my intellectual work where sometimes what would happen is in order to kind of like have the most original and unique perspectives and insights about reality I would uh some times dismiss otherwise valid truths and perspectives that were more mundane and ordinary just mainstream sometimes the mainstream is just right and that going after some sort of Exotic truth or exotic

Insight is actually not aligned with the truth in that situation so I caught myself doing that and I've been doing that really for I caught myself doing that for like my whole life um I've never been I've always had a sort of an aversion to just like mainstream thinking mainstream perspectives mainstream insights because they just Feel kind of like too obvious and you know a lot of times mainstream perspectives are very limited and um they miss a lot of the depth of reality but also at the same time a lot of a lot of times

you know the mainstream is just right on something and you have to just face that and acknowledge it and and and surrender this desire to have a unique perspective on Something I was wrong in using superlatives too much stuff like you know if I'm talking about something I say this is the best or I say always the these superlative words always the best never the only all everyone no one these kinds of words see when I put that in front of a sentence that I'm going to say it um it um it makes it less

truthful for example if you say something like everyone is going to be Happy after Awakening you know that's not as truthful as saying that most people will be happy or maybe even some people will be happy so I want to be more careful about my choice of words there in the political realm I was uh wrong in my faith in progressives and leftists so I've sort of had like a second political Awakening um and I I've been especially focusing a lot on the limitations and Fantasies and delusions Of the political left which does not mean

that I've gone to the right it's not like I'm a right- Winger now but but um you know I've already I have a few episodes in the past where I already discussed many of the limitations of stage green and leftist politics uh but it's it's been really enjoyable for me over the last couple of years to just I spent like four years after Trump 2015 or so after Trump came into the mainstream I spent about four years like delving deep into leftist politics just learning all the ins and outs familiarizing myself with all that and

that was very useful I don't regret that at all but over the last couple of years now I've spent now I'm spending my time kind of again undoing that it's like two steps forward one step backward undoing all some of that and then what that allowed me to do is to kind of like a Reach a higher a higher sort of like meta perspective about politics which I'm really satisfied with this is actually one of the areas where being wrong was like easy to admit and and enjoy for me cuz I wasn't attached to leftist

politics per se and so I always knew in the back of my mind that there were limitations there but I couldn't quite pinpoint them so now I can see them much much much more clearly and so um I'm Thrilled in the future to help those of you who are kind of stuck in leftist politics to kind of see beyond the the leftist Mind bubble which does not mean that you're going to become a Centrist per se and it does not mean that you're going to become some you know deluded right-winger I was wrong in speaking

as though life is good for everybody I've been blessed to have a generally fortunate and good life from My childhood but even through my adulthood you know I've had some great business opportunities that I was able to capitalize upon I've had um you know relatively good parents um I've had some great teachers throughout my life um all sorts of advantages is just the geography that I was raised in was a huge Advantage various kinds of Health advantages mental health advantages in the sense that I don't have any um mental disorders or personality Disorders or that

kind of stuff or serious trauma right and so living in that way like life is pretty good like just as a baseline for me life has always been like pretty cool pretty good of course sometimes you have a bad day here or there sometimes you have a you're a little bit sick or whatever but overall life is pretty good um you have money you're not stressed out you're not in a war zone you don't have some Abus of family Member to deal with or anything like that but I as I went through my period of

suffering here over the last year is I just saw profoundly how bad life is for many people on the planet like many people are just living in misery abject misery whether it's crippling depression because they have some mental disorder or genetic you know defect or um chemical imbalance or because they were Traumatized or because they're in a awful shitty third world country with a horrible political situation which is just absurdly corrupt and they have to play and survive with in that corrupt system um people who have been dealt gross injustices like I've never been really

dealt much gross Injustice like that maybe the worst Injustice that happened to me is one of my old business partners years ago stole $25,000 from The business um which I never recovered um that was like the worst thing that happened to me in that regard but like some people lose their life savings they get scammed they get you know uh all sorts of injustices could happen to them sexually abused um you know maybe exploited and manipulated by some sort of like Psychopathic character that comes into their life I've never had that right but but people

live under these kinds of Conditions some people have a very difficult family situation because for example they have to take care of their elderly or sick parents uh and because of that they can't go to university they can't finish their school they they have to go to some some sort of like they can't pursue their passion because they just need the money so badly so what's happening with me as my awareness increases is that my capacity For even wanting to look at those sort of like negative aspects of life that usually if you're successful you

don't want to look at those right like if you're successful CEO of a giant company or something like that do you really want to know about some kid who lives in some War torn part of the world third world who's getting abused and is you know dealing with horrific Injustice and corruption like you don't want to know about that kind of stuff right your mind Doesn't have the capacity to even want to look at that because if you look at that kind of stuff you can't keep running your business the way that you do and

so of course I have some degree of that kind of resistance as well because this is like ugly stuff to look at I mean you can go spend the next month just looking for videos of like very ugly aspects of life to look at just horrible injustices Corruption um violence and evil quote unquote evil um and um and that will really blackpill you on life and it's It's tricky because in a certain sense you can um you can completely ignore you could say completely ignore all that you know just stay positive you know focus on

the positive in fact for those of you who are just kind of like starting life and Are kind of struggling to get your your sgoing developing yourself I would say ignore all that and just focus on developing you f be selfish work on your just like work on your love life work on your business that kind of stuff don't worry about the war that's going on in the Middle East or something like that that's um that's a distraction and it might make you like negative and cynical in a way that you shouldn't be right now

that's not resourceful for you But eventually at some point in your life once you develop a certain degree of success and um mental stability and spiritual progress and all that you're going to want to Circle back around to all that stuff you've been ignoring and and like come to face with the with the shadow of mankind come to face with with some of the evils of capitalism that is outsourced to the third world you know come to face with with toxic pollution that is poisoning People come to face with you know with sexual violence come

to face with um with racism come to face with some of these um um evils we might say um but again still be careful about that because um because again you could just like you could black pill yourself really bad there's plenty of evil in the world you look at it enough of it you can blackpill yourself so badly that you're Going to be depressed and you're going to not want to you know get up in the morning and do the things you have to do and then or you might even get blackpilled on spirituality

you might say well Leo where's the love you're talking about love and God and all that and what good is that when all there's all this evil in the world that seems like spiritual bypassing well of course both both things are true and in the future I'll I'll talk more about how to bridge this divide as I do it myself but um uh but that's one of the beautiful things about suffering see suffering is the great equalizer when you suffer a lot this is what builds compassion in you for other people and it makes you

want to be a better person and it makes you want to help and to correct some of the injustices that are going on around the world whether it's various kinds of Wars or um sexual misdeeds or the kind of you know destruction of the environment and problems that that causes or the excesses of capitalism so this is all important um just you have to do it in the right way be careful and uh and in the future I'm going to have an episode That deals specifically with helping people to I'm going to have episodes specifically

in the future that will blackpill the [ __ ] out of you I'm going to disclaim those but I can blackpill you like you want to be blackpilled I can do an episode that will just blackpill you you will be depressed for the next month um and that's all going to be true by the way too but of course it can't just be we can't just have that I'm also Going to have an episode where we talk about how to develop hope and optimism in the face of all that and some of you are facing

this because like you you watch a lot of the news and the news is so negative but of course the news even though the negative stuff you see on the news it's true most of it if you're watching a good news source it's true you know the wars the murders and so on but again that's a That's still a very narrow cherry-picked sliver of what's really going on in the whole world so you have to be careful that you don't just exclusively focus on some of this kind of like black pill truth stuff and what

I mean by black pill when I say black pill I'm not talking about the sort of incel black pill I'm talking about a more General broader use of this word what I mean by black pill is just Like basically coming to realize deep truths which also have very kind of like negative Bleak depressing consequences for example looking at the the poverty in Africa if you look at it a lot it can blackpill you looking at the corruption in countries around the world that can kind of like blackpill you about human nature you might start to

think of humans as evil people um which of course they are but uh um but you Have to frame that in the right way it's a very delicate way to frame that because otherwise you might fall into cynicism and nihilism which which is a trap so that's the list the common thread and theme to all these wrongness of Mind had to do with really how I relate to human beings how to speak to them how to relate to them properly in my own mind how to think of them how to think of their perspective how

to frame Properly certain negative aspects of them that are my own shadow um and how to properly balance between the sort of my existential interests and priorities and values truth existential love God spirituality philosophy and how to like balance that with some of the just more mundane human drama that goes on cuz to me human drama is just like a distraction it's existentially meaning But again that's just one perspective and that will have limits to it if I just live from that point of view so in a certain sense you know I can't just be

above human drama because I'm part of the human drama so again it's kind of like finding the balance there so anyways that's what I mean by what what I say when I say admitting you were wrong that's what I mean all that stuff above that I said some of it very very subtle And it will take you years to get to that kind of level of subtlety of seeing where you're wrong about stuff and realistically it's not just going to be enough for you to do this logically uh you're going to have to suffer and

this is here's what I'll tell you about the suffering is that um a lot of times I hear people say well Leo why why why did God create suffering how do just like transcend the suffering give me a quick way to just Escape The Suffering and um I really don't resonate with that kind of like Buddhist approach of find a way to transcend the suffering as soon as possible because the suffering is a mistake I don't think that suffering is a mistake I think suffering is uh your greatest teacher aside from the love that we

talked about suffering is your greatest teacher there's a lot of value in your suffering so be careful Not to just uh dismiss the gift that your suffering is because otherwise see if you're just going through incredible suffering and you're not getting out anything higher out of it that's actually what's depressing see if I went through the last year of suffering through all my health problems and I came out of it um and then I said to myself well all of that was just for nothing you know why God did you make me go through all

that that would be very Disempowering and depressing ing um even though I wouldn't wish it upon myself again but like I'm thrilled that I went through the last year of suffering because of uh how much it forced me to think about these things and to refine my own mind and my own understanding of these things and that's going to be like that I I had some permanent shifts that I Would not have been able to have without that and that's going to be like for the rest of my right see these improvements that I'm going

to make they're going to pay dividends for the rest of my life otherwise I would have kept making all those mistakes forever so thanks for the suffering right this is critical to be able to reframe your suffering properly is critical I was shocked at how much I Grew over the last year because I wasn't do during this period I wasn't doing any like formal personal development or spirit spiritual work and yet it still felt like I actually grew more in the last year than I ever grew in the past in a year cuz I had

like a backlog of 10 years of wrongness to confront and so the key there was suffering of course but another key was just stepping out right stepping away taking that step Back this kind of break taking breaks from whatever you're doing is critical because it breaks you out of your trans you don't even know you're in a trans with your career with your business the more wrong you are the more you're going to suffer and the more you suffer the more you see how wrong you are your corruption the corruption of your mind is too

deep to be fixed with logical understanding Alone although of course you have to begin somewhere and you should begin by just log Al understanding some of these things so it's good that you're learning about all these traps and all these self-deception mechanisms but that's not going to be enough to really change you into a very Advanced developed mind you're going to have to go through this ordeal this ordeal of life also what happened to me over the last year is that I had this kind of Shift in how I see self-deception I see it now

in a more nuanced and realistic way because in the past you know I had a very logical intellectual analytical understanding of self-deception because I've contemplated it so much I've made such a deep study of it I've talked about it with you guys but seeing how it really operates within me in conjunction with the suffering That I experienced like that was that was key self-deception cannot be understood just in the abstract you have to actually go through it you have to fall into it that's really how you understand self-deception you fall into it and then you

crawl your way out of it and then you look back and you say holy [ __ ] that was sneaky that was so sneaky I almost didn't recover but I did Like that see that's how it feels that's when you're really understanding self-deception and then you you appreciate how deeply others are self- deceived and how How Deeply they're trapped and how difficult it is to get them out of that self-deception how do you get someone out of such a self-deception where even you yourself with all the theory and knowledge and insight you've had and all

the work You've done and you still barely manage to make it out what hope is there for everybody else that's that's one of these kind of like dark truths that you got to confront that's good for you right as long as you confront it in the right way all of this stuff that I'm talking about this being wrong stuff um it all has to be framed in a positive empowering way this is all good stuff None of this is bad it's all good this is what growth is about much of admitting you were wrong is

about spotting your own hypocrisy and double standards go watch my episode understanding hypocrisy and double standards where we discuss that but for example um well before we get to the example I want to say this you have to catch yourself in your own internal contradictions your mind is full of Internal contradictions and you're just not aware of them yet it'll take you a long time get them up to your awareness and so for example one of the big internal contradictions I caught it within myself is is with how I relate to feelings see as I

went through this period of of suffering um from my health problems I was suffering through that but yet still I had this kind of attitude because I'm so focused on the Existential truth and philosophy that I have this kind of attitude that feelings aren't important right [ __ ] your feelings let's get to the truth kind of attitude now of course again this kind of attitude has its advantages sometimes you have to adopt that kind of attitude to get somewhere um in life um but at the but on the other hand see as I was

going through so much suffering the suffering was so great that I was forced to see That me being dismissive of the feelings of my audience of other people sometimes um I don't always do that but sometimes I do that is um see that's an internal contradiction because if feelings are not important then why am I here you know suffering in pain and and uh so distressed by it if feelings aren't so important well of course feelings are very important in fact feelings motivate everything you do in life so this kind Of like Ben Shapiro nonsense

of like facts don't care about your feelings this is this is pure pure pure nonsense and of course I always knew that I said that in the past but like again there's there's various levels of knowing it various levels of of seeing you know VAR subtle ways in which you can be dismissive for example the of the feelings of others but then you prioritize your own feelings so it's like when somebody else doesn't feel Good you dismiss it but then when you don't feel good well you don't dismiss that do you why not because now

it matters to you that's the contradiction everything you do in life including how you see all facts and how you relate to everything is governed by your feelings in the end the only reason you do anything is for the feelings of It ultimately if we want to be Honest also what I discovered is that doing non-stop Philosophy for public consumption for years definitely isn't good for you because it puts you in a kind of a trans it's very important to step back and step outside that grind to decompress to self-reflect and not to have the

pressure of this kind of public work that I do the doing of public work any kind of public work that you do creates a bias Just in and of itself and warps your sense of reality for example if you're a journalist who publishes Daily News on YouTube like you have some some little you know show and you do the Daily News politics you do a few videos a week something like that um and and you do that for years just the process of you doing that that's already going to warp And distort your sense of

reality doesn't matter if you're left wi right wi down the center it's going to do that and if what you care about is jailbreaking your mind mind and really getting to the higher dimensions of understanding reality you're going to have to at some point you know initially it's going to be subtle it's not going to be a big obstacle but at some point that career of yours and just the fact that you're doing that Daily Grind That's going to become the obstacle to you getting higher which means you're going to have to take a step

back maybe not quit but take an extended break reflect and you'll see if you do that not only will you be able to gain access to higher dimensions of of understanding of reality but also you're going to have a new perspective on your work and then your work is going to improve if you come back because you were too close to It I also went through a process that I didn't even talk about with you I went through a whole process of basically like surrendering my business surrendering my career surrendering my life purpose which is

this work actualized.org I deliberately didn't publish anything so that I can kind of like experience what that's like cuz for the last 10 years I didn't have a sense of what it's like to not have like a life purpose I Went through a pretty deep sort of like Dark Knight of the Soul not a spiritual in a spiritual sense but in a like a life purpose sense where basically I lost my life purpose for a year that was very interesting it's like my life became completely meaningless and that's something that I I hadn't really experienced

in like 20 years of my life because even before I started actualized.org with that specific life Purpose um even like as a teenager back in school I always had some sort of like higher purpose that I was working towards in school it was about grades and getting a good education or doing philosophy which I was doing back then and then after that it was like game development I was doing that then after that it was like business and becoming financially independent so I had these kind of like Higher Goals that Were always motivating me every

single day so I didn't even know what it was like to lose all of that all of your Higher Goals just like lose them all and see what your life feels like um it's like zero meaning in your life it's quite miserable frankly because like um again like I didn't quite appreciate how much happiness I derive from the higher meaning that is created By my my various purposes and goals that I've been setting myself my whole life cuz I I was doing that intuitively I didn't even know how to how someone could live other otherwise

cuz to me it would be such a miserable way to live well I went through that misery over the last year where I completely like surrendered my my purpose and I to the point where I didn't think I would come back I didn't know if I would come back and I didn't even want to think if I Would or wouldn't come back and so basically I was living as though I wasn't going to come back and I had no meaning in my life and like now I understand what it's like for many people who just

live with no meaning in life yeah it's miserable I can understand why you're so depressed and why you can't motivate yourself to do anything to start a business and why you're not passionate about life and why you're addicted to drugs and alcohol and This kind of stuff it's like yeah because you have zero meaning in your your life is meaningless you have nothing to live for um so that was actually a huge Revelation for me it's almost like you know if you took my life Purp course um maybe now you have a life purpose I

hope you do um and then before you took it though maybe you didn't have any life Purpose but think of it like I was living with a life purpose since I was like 7 years old now it changed over time and it wasn't very clear um like I said in my youth a lot of it was um was just my educational career we might say and academics was kind of like my life purpose and understanding reality a lot of what I did with academics was just I used AC academics as a vehicle for deepening my

understanding of reality With basic stuff like just Science Biology physics math it it kind of started there for me um but yeah I've always had uh I've always had a higher vision for myself always had a higher sense of meaning for myself and that motivated me basically through all my life um but I think a lot of people just somehow miss out on that even they either they don't have those opportunities or they get some bad I Don't know you know trauma in their childhood or whatever that they just they're not they don't have that

kind of sense of vision and ambition a lot of people just don't have a lot of ambition so I think ambition plays into that um but uh but yeah it's a miserable way to live I I didn't know how bad it was to live without a life purpose because I basically had one my whole Life but see now I empathize more with people that don't have it and I also appreciate the importance of my life purpose course even more now which I didn't quite appreciate because I took it for granted see a lot of a

lot of times in life you have some Advantage either by genetics or just by by happen St by just the fact that you were born into a good family or whatever you just or you went to a good school you just have Some advantage that you don't even know what you have you don't know what you have until you lose it that that cliche is so true of course admitting all of this wrongness is going to get uh create regret in you you're going to start to wish that you could go back and change things

you know how I wish I can go back and you know reedit some of my old videos to clean them up a bit more to make them more truthful more accurate Less crude and cringey like I would love to be able to do that it's too late but YouTube doesn't really allow that but uh I would love to be able to do that um but I can't right and I have to live with that I have to live with that that's hard you start to think about all the good stuff you lost whether it was

a girlfriend that you lost or some money that you lost or an Opportunity that you lost that you'll never get back and then you start to feel very foolish and um you can even start to Hate Yourself here's where you have to be careful with this wrongness technique is that if you're in a kind of a weak State and you start to admit all these things you've been wrong about you put yourself into a s of even a weaker State you can start to hate yourself you Know like I said with with Trump you know

if Trump admitted to himself all the all the evil [ __ ] he does on a on a regular basis he might become suicidal so you have to be careful about that and uh I am not offering this technique and teaching to you so that you can start to hate yourself that's not that's completely wrong speaking of wrong that's what's wrong um you need to bring in self-love Compassion self forgiveness you have to reframe the situation in such a way where you see this as an opportunity as a gift as a vehicle for growth this

is critical of course you can't change the past and you're going to have to go through a grieving process here right you you have to let go of fantasies you have to accept your fallibility your finitude you have to accept your own selfishness and evil That's all part of this process that's what kind of like makes it real because you had all these fantasies about how good you were and when you once you admit all these errors that you made all this wrongness well now you don't seem so good to yourself do you it screws

with your self-image cuz you didn't think you made so many mistakes fell into so many self-deceptions did so many cringy and embarrassing things see you already Did a bunch of cringy embarrassing things in your life you're just probably not aware of it yet how are you going to feel when you become aware of it well that's tricky so be careful not to beat yourself up too [Music] much this process is meant to be empowering how do you make it empowering well one way is to tell yourself that this is a natural Consequence this process is

a natural consequence of your commitment to truth if you're committed to truth which I suggest you should even though that's not for everybody um every step where you're wrong brings you closer to truth as long as you admit it to yourself see cuz that's one less mistake it's like you're cleaning out your mind by Finding dirt in it and throwing it out and so you're just plucking the dirt out of your mind and every time you do that you're telling yourself I was wrong and you're facing the emotional labor of doing that like if you

were brainwashed with fundamentalist religion and then eventually you pluck that out and throw it out and recognize that it's a it's a foreign object in your mind of course it's it's it's awful to Think about how much time you lost in fundamentalist religion and the Damage it did to you but once you finally extract it then you have to reframe that as a great thing that's a great thing and great lessons were learned likewise if you mistreated people in your life that's regrettable you're going to have a lot of guilt about mistreating people close to

you um losing people but Again you have to come to a point of like peace where you recognize that look you that's that's the best you could have done you did the best you could no matter what happened to you you did the best you could the best you knew you didn't know all the stuff you know now back then that's why you made all these mistakes and finally you've wised up that's a great thing so make sure that you're framing this wrong stuff all this wrong stuff Properly you're improving you're making improvements it's not

that you're a [ __ ] right don't frame yourself as a [ __ ] or a loser or chronically incompetent it's like you're improving and there's a lot of room for improvement there's so much room it's it's almost endless also make sure you balance out admitting you were wrong with also acknowledging the things you were right about for example if you were brainwash Into fundamentalist religion and you became like a very devout believer in God um and now you're over that well what's what's good about that well what's good about that is that you were

still right about certain things in the end your belief in God will be validated so you weren't wrong about that is just you were wrong about what God is and the Christian versions of God and so forth um and uh there were probably Other right things about that right lessons and insights that you got maybe for example your fundamentalist religion taught you to be a polite person taught you to be respectful to others taught you some humility and some humanity and um some charity and these kind of like old school Christian values which are great

things right you can appreciate them more now so you're kind of like sifting The wheat from the chaff here um for example the way that I could kind of like console myself with all the [ __ ] that I set up above is that I can say um that even though I made all these mistakes they were ultimately made in service of what in service of my commitment towards reaching higher Consciousness towards God realization I was so focused on God realization and existential truth And existential love to comprehend what it is to understand that and

then to communicate it to others that there were costs that were paid along the way and those costs are the things I mentioned above that was the cost of achieving insane levels of God Consciousness that that's what it cost me that's not a mistake that's what it cost me that's what it Costs now I can really appreciate God Consciousness what I had to do to get it it wasn't like I took a puff of DMT and I got it even though I did but it's like it was so much more than that right it was

like a 10year period of all this [ __ ] just to claw my way up to God Consciousness and that doesn't mean I'm done there's still more there's more this process isn't over more Mistakes will be made and that will buy me more consciousness and of course that doesn't mean you have to go through the same process exactly your process could be very very different from my process but what I can probably promise you is that it's going to involve many of the structural elements that are going to be the same which is the massive

suffering and the the many self-deceptions fantasies and Uh and mistakes and wrongness that will that will come that I can promise you what exactly there those are going be well that's all depends on you of course and the ultimate reframe here that I want to leave you with as we wrap up is this look ultimately you need to reach a deep recognition that wrongness is beautiful it's existentially beautiful where's the beauty in it because we're dealing with the whole universe as a Giant Mind this mind is Dreaming up infinite dreams getting lost in these dreams

and self-deceptions this is how all of reality is created this is how you think you're a human the very humanness of you is in a sense a self-deception you're wrong about that in a good way right as the quote goes there's a quote I forget I forget exactly who said it but It goes um uh God is Not averse to a deception for a good cause so in the end this is a a grand deception for a good cause what is that cause well that cause is the construction of the universe the universe is a

kind of an elaborate illusion or deception with many sub deceptions within it and so we're kind of unraveling that as we go and so of Course that means you're falling into these deceptions try to kind of like keep that context for all of your mistakes for all of this wrongness the wrongness are just like little little bits in this like larger more elaborate uh flow of the universe and so really it's not personal all your wrongness isn't personal which was why ultimately it's all in a sense forgiven because um it was never Personal it was

never like really you it was just inevitable all of these traps you fell into in a sense were inevitable and that's what allows you to forgive yourself and that's the beauty of the uh the workings of the Mind see it's because the mind is so infinitely tricky that is such a beautiful thing to study and to interact with and to learn about if the mind was just simple if the Universe was simple and you could just explain it with a few words and a few formulas and it was just kind of like mathematical the way

that some of the scientists think it is uh it wouldn't be interesting it just it wouldn't be there wouldn't be all this like I couldn't create this whole body of work I couldn't sit for thousands of hours contemplating all this stuff I couldn't have the crazy levels of Awakenings that I've had if it was that Simple and ultimately it wouldn't be love all right that's it I'm done here please come check out my website on my website you'll find the blog look I publish a lot of good stuff on the blog if you're not looking

at the blog you're missing out on great content so look at that come check out the book list come check out the find the life purpose course for sale on my on my site uh if you don't have a sense of purpose you're missing out again you're Missing out on a lot of potential meaning just creating you know you're just leaving happiness on the table by not finding your life purpose come check out the actualized for Forum we have conversations there interesting conversations and I'll conclude with just with this I wish I could go back

and remove all the arrogance and immaturity from my body of work I really regret that uh but that's water under the bridge uh the Only thing I can really do is uh is to Endeavor to produce cleaner work going forward so that's what I'll be doing and uh my intention going forward is to try to serve you better which means to remove more and more of myself from the work because whenever I make this work about me it's a disservice to you and the purpose of this is not to inflate my ego but the purpose

of these Ideas is to is to polish that diamond in the rough that you are and to sh make you shine with that kind of Brilliance that is your inherent nature for