terrible what do you mean that isn't that your biggest fear obviously Drew and I are trying to help you get rid of your fear you just made it worse that is not how you get rid of a bear you did not thrust it upon someone you work with someone and you work with them in the kind of situations that that loud fear might naturally occur if someone has a fear of spiders they don't need to interact with a tarantula they need to interact with the kind of spiders that naturally occur in their environment