I cannot forgive my husband's parents more than 20 years have pass but I still feel hurt and upset I can't forget what happened when I moved to another country I didn't know much about my husband's parents if I had known what I was going to face I would have asked for a divorce before I left I was young only 20 and I didn't understand how life worked I didn't know how to speak up for myself I just accepted everything my husband didn't help me he was afraid of his father and always listened to him I
had to deal with everything on my own I felt very lonely and I cried a lot holding my baby in my arms before we moved we lived with my parents at first everything felt okay but it was still hard for me to think about leaving I knew that I would have to leave one day but I didn't expect it to happen so quickly we had to leave earlier than we planned I said goodbye to my home my family and most of all to my dear mother she was everything to me I had never been far
from her before saying goodbye to her was like a part of me was being torn away I was 20 so young and I didn't know what I was going to do in a new country far from everything I knew I was so sad that I thought I might not survive the sadness the move was very hard on me and I became sick my heart achd for a long time I couldn't stop thinking about how much I missed my home and my mother my husband's parents didn't help me at all they didn't care about how I
felt I was all alone no one gave me the support I needed I had to gather all my strength for my son and for my mother who was also very sad about the distance I spent months going to doctors because I felt so weak and tired I tried to stay strong but it was hard slowly I started to work but nothing was easy I had to learn how to live in a new country where I didn't understand the language at first it was so difficult to communicate but I worked hard over time I learned new
skills and I found a good job I began to earn money and I started to feel better I felt proud of myself because I was reaching my goals my dream was to buy a house I worked hard to make that dream come true my husband on the other hand could not learn the language he still struggles with it even today for a long time he didn't have a job and I had to support our whole family I always stood by him I worked I took care of him and I supported him emotionally but one day
everything changed my mother-in-law started saying things that hurt me she said she never had a daughter but she always wanted one she looked at me and said that all the other women had their mothers with them but I didn't she seemed to think I should be more like them now I wonder what do they want from me do they want love do they want kindness I can't give them that anymore I don't feel that way about them I only treat them with respect I say happy holidays and I try not to make them angry but
that's all my mother passed away 10 years ago and I feel sad every day because I didn't visit her as much as I should have I remember how my mother-in-law told me I shouldn't call my mom more than once a month because it was too expensive it made me feel so bad I only called my mom once told her everything was fine and then hung up I did not want to make anyone upset now after all these years I understand what really happened I realize my husband's parents didn't like me they didn't care about me
I don't even want to think about my father-in-law he did something that I will never forget one night he kicked me out of the house with with my baby I was afraid of my husband who was drunk and angry I needed to stay there with my son to be safe but my father-in-law didn't care he told me I could go back to my home but I couldn't take my son with me that was too much for me of course I chose to stay with my son he was my priority and I would never leave him
behind mind it feels like this happened a long time ago but even now when I think about it I still feel pain I still cry why was I so weak back then why couldn't I stand up for myself why do I still speak to them like nothing ever happened it hurts me to be kind to them now I can't pretend anymore I can't wear this mask of Happiness when inside I feel broken I am sorry for writing this in such a confused way it's hard to think about everything that happened but I still need to
figure out how to keep talking to them I know I will never forget the pain but I hope hope one day I can heal from it if you enjoy if you enjoyed if you enjoyed e e e e e
