Michael Singer - The Journey from Personal to Impersonal

G g Masters it's often said that the entire spiritual path is one of moving from the personal to the impersonal the problem is the personal thinks that the impersonal sounds very cold let's talk about this let's start with the impersonal almost every single thing in your life is impersonal it has no relationship to You other than you are experiencing it if you are driving down the street there are hundreds or thousands of cars that are driving by they have nothing to do with you you just happen to be in that spot at that moment and

these are events that are happening in the universe the cars are driving by that is what's meant by impersonal it's not related to you it's it's whole within itself it's related to itself you understand that that's at Least CS that you're experiencing if you really want to understand imp personal which I want you to I want you to think about the planet Saturn of what relationship do you have with the planet Saturn the answer is very simple none none it's been here for billions of years have you no it goes about its business without you

knowing a single thing about it but it still goes about it business has gorgeous Rings you didn't make them you won't destroy them That those Rings sometimes show up at different angles if you look through a telescope sometimes you're looking right at them sometimes you're sideways has nothing to do with you does it it is completely and utterly impersonal does everybody understand that all right so is every other planet so is every single star so is every single Galaxy okay in this galaxy in which you live there are 300 billion stars what is your relationship

to them none they have Nothing to do with you you have nothing to do with them they exist completely independent of you that's what impersonal means it is completely independent of you they go about their business where do they get their power the star is a very powerful thing our star is 93 million miles away and it can burn you I think how big a fire has to be let's say there was a big fire down in in loal National Forest you wouldn't even smell the smoke Not the heat how about Miami Miami is 350

mil away 93 million miles away and you got to put you know number 10 on your face or something hell it is all right you got to put star screen on your face okay what is that telling you where does it get its power there are 300 billion of those in your Galaxy they now are estimating that there are two to three trillion galaxies that's what impersonal means and planets they are finding that there Are way more planets than they had any idea they used to think it was rare that a star would have a

planet they Now understand that almost all stars have planets doesn't mean they're with what we call the goldilock zone that they're in a Zone where human human life as we know it could exist but there are billions and billions of planets in our galaxy and there's as far as we can tell now most stars have planets wow okay now listen to me there is something going on On every one of those planets whether it's a dust storm whether it's the storm on on Jupiter it it doesn't matter every single inch of every single place in

the universe there was something going on what's it got to do with you okay that's impersonal there's nothing wrong with impersonal there better not be because 999999999999999999 to the 100,000 10 to 100 thousandth is impersonal so don't think that impersonal is cold that's Ridiculous impersonal is what there is there is a universe that exists that has nothing to do with you it is completely independent of you and it's very big and just as there's something going on in front of you every moment there's something going on everywhere that's not in front of you every moment

that's how you understand it personal what is the difference between what happens to be going on in front of you at any given moment and what is going on everywhere Else not in front of you there's no difference if you think there's a big difference look to the right now that thing that was in front of you is not going on in front of you so all of a sudden the thing to the right has something to do with you and the other doesn't it's absurd personal is absurd personal is a lie personal is ignorance

there is no personal yet we live 100% of our life as if everything's personal let's talk about that all right Now look that point I made a moment ago I need you to get that I know you think that this person's in front of you and he's wearing a shirt that you like or don't like and blah blah you know that all of that has something to do with you how could it have something to do with you you weren't looking there a minute ago it was still there just like the place on mars or

anything else every single thing belongs to the forces that caused it to be almost none of which are You and I mean when I say none none and just being nice cuz your mind I I tripped over him so he's sitting a little different the point is he was there before you got there and look at all the forces that made him be what he is every one of you your childhood your genetics they have nothing to do with you there just happen to be moments everywhere's in the universe every single place in the universe

is having a moment you meaning your Consciousness Your awareness of being just happens to be in this tiny little spot that's seeing the moment that is coming in through your senses there is no difference between that moment and every moment that's not coming through your senses how egotistical can you be that you think that because this is the one that's coming through my senses it's different than every other one no it's not there's nothing special about the moment that is coming in through your Senses except it happens to be the moment that's coming into your

senses it was caused by the same forces that caus everything else in the universe to be which have nothing to do with you it all started with after the big bang with those hydrogen atoms gases just floating around in the middle of nowhere Across the Universe and then the fundamental forces pulling them together and creating everything you see it all got made the same way it all got made the Same time it's all has nothing to do with you you weren't even close to here that was 13.8 billion years ago every single moment that is

in front of you took 13.8 billion years to get there and not just did it take 13 billion years to get there every single event for 13.8 billion years years had to happen the way it did for that moment to be in front of you if your great great great grandmother didn't meet your great great great grandfather you ain't here and the Reason they met I told you why they met CU I know them the reason the reason they met is because it was raining that day over in you know Yugoslavia or wherever they came

from and and it was raining and she slipped in this old mining town and she slipped and he happened to be standing behind her and he caught her and it was love at first sight if it hadn't rained if he wasn't there whoa every single thing had to be exactly the way it was for 13.8 Billion years for the moment in front of you to be the way it is now what has that got to do with you how about nothing how can that be personal it's not personal nothing is personal I'm going to be

tough with you today nothing is personal it just is it is what it is because of of all the forces in creation that made it be the way it is and it is connected to every other moment at the same time and in the past and it will create the Future and you're not doing any of it you are an objective Observer that happens to be there where you have senses and because you have senses this reality of creation that happens to be in front of you even though it's everywhere's else is coming in through

your senses and you the Consciousness are experiencing that moment good what a gift is that beautiful you get to experience what took 13.8 billion years to show up you want to feel special I'll Show you why I feel special not because it's personal but do you understand that every moment you experience that took 13.8 billion years to get there you are the only one experiencing it no one is looking at me from the same angle every single moment you have ever experienced in your life you were the only one that ever experienced and no one

ever will no one was standing where you were standing and that's even for a given moment then of course your next moment is going to Be totally different than the moment that somebody was standing next to you at least right therefore the series and sequence of experiences that you've had in your life every second every nanc is unique for you alone whoa there you're special you have to not be special okay but that's impersonal special that's a reality you do understand no one will ever experience what you experienced it will never happen again beautiful it's

Amazing it's truth is so powerful that's what the Bible means says and ye shall know the truth and the truth will set you free this should set you free what are your problems how come you don't have problems with the parts that aren't in front of you because there are lots of them 99.999999999% of the universe is not in front of you is it you don't have any problem with it do you you worry about The storm on Jupiter very often no you worry about what's going on in China and a household you never met

or did anything no no you have gotten caught in the ultimate trap and we need to get out okay what is personal now that you understand impersonal what's impersonal everything right truth everything what's personal I'm in here oh I forgot to ask are you in there hi you sure okay okay that you know you're in there very good Because you're in there and you're conscious you are a conscious being you're aware of being aware of being aware all right the world comes in through your senses and makes an impression in your mind and you experience

it very good fine so then what's supposed to happen is called be here now is it comes in you experience it it becomes part of you because you experienced it it became part of you didn't it you don't have to do anything What do I have to do to experience what I'm experiencing nothing absolutely nothing you are the experiencer that's what you are the experiencer and you experience what you're not going to experience what you don't experience you experience experience what you experience and it becomes part of you because you experienced it you become greater

you in there high if you have never seen a snake you are not as great as a person that saw a snake if you're The first time you see a snake there's there's orientation of the second the third the fourth you're you're a veteran you're a veteran of snake seeeing and that goes for everything the first time you have a relationship and your heart hurts cuz somebody said something you didn't expect can you handle that if it's the first time and you're not used to the experience or anything like that it's difficult but when you

understand and you have experienced it and you Realize it comes and it goes and it can deepen a relationship you can understand more it can make you it made you a greater being if your heart never hurt you haven't experience anything if you've gone through experiences where somebody died you felt a deep sense of loss and you got over that you went through that you experiened that you came out a greater person every single experience you have makes you greater it can't make you less if I add one to a Number it gets greater if

I add an experience to you you become greater that is what is meant to be that is impersonal it's not personal I didn't take it personal I just experienced it and because I experienced that I am a greater being now what's going to happen I will have my next experience how do you know hahaa you're an experience having machine that's what you are you have senses and the world in front of you is Constantly changing in and you're going to have the experience that's in front of you all right and it comes in and you

become greater because of that well what about the experience I don't have I'm sorry you're not going to have all the experiences you better at least have the ones you're having there are only a certain number of experiences you're going to have you only be alive for a certain period of time and awake at a certain period of time and you're going To have those experiences instead of accepting and honoring and respecting that these experiences are manifesting in front of you and took 13.8 billion years to get there everyone one of them you understand that

and you come in and you embibe them and you learn from them and you make them part of you what happens is as follows the Consciousness the awareness that should be being fed and growing and expanding because of the experiences Starts to differentiate between the experiences and that is the beginning of all trouble that ever existed that is a fall from the garden and someday you will understand that and that tree that you weren't supposed to eat from of self- knowledge of Good and Evil is the beginning of what we call Duality is when you

separated what you like from what you don't like that's what self- knowledge means it doesn't mean knowledge is bad it doesn't mean self- Knowledge Enlightenment is bad it means that you decided to make it be about you you decided to sit there and say it is not true that all experiences are equal it is not true that I am honored to have the experiences that are being given to me as a gift by the creation of the universe you are being given a gift every moment that took 13.8 billion years to get there but guess

what you're not okay with that what's that all about that doesn't even make sense you are the Experiencer experiencing the experience of the reality unfolding in front of you what happens is it comes in and I am not going to deny I the first one to honor and accept that some experiences when they come in are more pleasant than other experiences a rattlesnake coiled up in front of you versus a monarch butterfly landing on your arm are very different experiences you didn't do that you didn't make them seem like different experiences they are different Experiences

in the Buddhist tradition they say everything has its nature well they rattle snake rattling and CED around you has its nature it is dangerous it is scary it is meant to be dangerous and and it is meant to scare you that's why it's doing it a beautiful butterfly flying by and landing on your arm is a beautiful a heart opening experience it has a totally different vibration its nature is completely different than that rattlesnake when it Comes in you can be the knower of the rattlesnake you can be the knower of the of the monarch

butterfly if the only thing you ever experiences monarch butterflies I don't want to go hiking with you and it's the only thing you ever experience is is rattlesnakes I'm sure I won't be hiking with you because you won't go hiking all right you won't want to go there's a place where the monarch butterflies are Hing or the rattlesnakes I'm I going that's what Yin and yangang mean right you have experienced the opposite you have experienced the entire Alpha to Omega the different vibrations of creation weather has different vibrations doesn't it everything has different vibrations good

you get to have experiences so they come in you experience them and you become greater then the next thing happens but that's not what happens what happens is you in there who experience a vibration that is Not nice you're not evolved enough that's really the evolution of the soul is what we're talking about the evolution of you in there can you handle a rattlesnake no no can you handle flying on an airplane after you heard about a crash w wow all right airplanes are way safer than cars your mind's lying to you but yet you're

not evolved enough yet to be able to handle the experience that is little what's meant by the evolution of The Soul are you so young so closed that certain experiences freak you out and so you're not willing to experience them are you so ignorant that certain experiences turn you on and you go after them and you run and you grab them because you think they're going to last I'm talking deep to you now all right because everything comes and goes doesn't it I'm ask you the Buddhist say it's all transient isn't it every single Thing

comes and goes there is not a single thing that was in front of you a moment ago that's in front of you now atoms change electrons change quarks leptons and bosons popping out of the quantum field are different totally every right there not a single thing ever that's the same from one moment to the next do you see the people change you understand that every single person changes every moment because they had another experience is it true that You're in a relationship with somebody and all of a sudden they have an experience and they're a

different person they can be totally different they come home different they were love you in the morning and then they had a bad day and they come home crouchy because you are learning and eming these experiences everything changes so the question is I get ahead of myself you in there you Atman Soul Essence being can you experience the experience you're Experiencing and you better say no because you can't there are lots of experiences that you weren't able to experience you mean I wasn't able my senses didn't work oh your senses work just fine you wish

they didn't you understand that so let's do that one so they come in and the vibration that they carry manifest inside of you not just the visualization also the rattlesnake fear the vibration right and you don't want to have that experience I don't Know what to explain to you there is free will you have free will you mean I have free will I can get rid of rattlesnakes no I have free will so I won't never see a rattlesnake no that's not what free will means I have free will so I can resist the experience

of the rattlesnake that actually happened oh yeah you got that one don't you you got that one down once it comes inside and it manifest inside of you and creates its VI vibration in your mind You can choose to push it away can't you don't you push it away you have hands in there don't you you get arms in there you touch stuff all right you can push emotions away you can push thoughts away if you push them far enough away Sigman wrote a book about it right repression and suppression that's pushing it so far

away how about denial it's psychology because you're present first of all you're conscious and you have will and you resist negative vibrations tough Vibrations disturbing vibrations you push them away when you push them away they don't finish I want to cry if you've never understood anything please understand that they don't finish they didn't make it through you well where are they they're stuck in front of you they're stuck inside of you if a river is flowing by you a stream is flowing by you and you can't handle I don't want I don't like the water

so you damn it up you can own that forever it will go dry Downstream that's your respons responsibility your karma right it will flood Upstream you now have to maintain where you touched it you touch it you own it by definition if you push away that vibration that came into you it stays inside of you how do we know that does it ever come back up so if you pushed away of course this is classical psychology all right why does it come back up for the same reason that the stream wants to keep flowing and

you Better maintain that damn or eventually any will be there is it cuz the Natural Forces will push it away the natural way of things this is the da that's what's meant by the way the natural way of things is that events unfold in accordance to the laws of creation don't they all right everything that ever was cause what is you happen to be present conscious in a given moment it's going to come in the natural way of things is it comes in it pours into you like the Stream pours into the ocean now there's

no Dam you can't even find the difference in the water anymore can you find the water that went into the ocean that came from the Mississippi not a chance same thing the experiences come in and they pour into you they are no longer good or bad or this or that they're one with you in the patones yoga sutras he says when experiencer and experience become one it's not mystical you have plenty of experience that just Pour into you they become part of you yes I know about white lions there are lots of them they they

some are dotted and some are solid I I'm not traumatic about them they're just something that I know about I know about weather I know a lot of things don't I I'm a knower of things I know not to touch stoves and have to learn I mean I have to study I touched one once and that's it I'm a knower doesn't mean I don't own stoves doesn't mean I have posters don't buy Stoves they burn you you become a greater being because you had these experiences all right you don't become a greater being when you

resist the experiences you become way less than a greater being you become a disturbed being why all you have to do is touch one of them and your life is over one just the snake the storm the car accident just touch one of them and watch what happens all right I saw a snake it scared me went there I Suppressed it I wasn't willing to experience it I push it away do you understand that I have to keep pushing that away for the rest of my life otherwise it's coming back up I'll dream about it

right I'll see a rope it'll remind me of a snake all of a sudden I have snake Consciousness it is exactly the same as putting sunglasses on everything gets dark not just the sun put on purple glasses everything gets purple put snake Inside of you everything's snake I don't want to go hiking I don't I I don't want to take a chance I'm not I I'll go to the zoo with you but I won't go to the reptile exhibit and no I'm not going in so all of a sudden one thing just one of those

determines your life oh I love you you're wonderful I want to marry you well I have a snake I have a pet snake you're crazy I get away from me are you crazy and don't think I'm exaggerating It will run your life because you've held this inside of you it has tinged your ability to see properly because you are looking through your psyche and that's what your psyche is the things you stored inside of you that's what they are that's why yours is different than his that's your personality oh yeah he's he's he's okay but

he's got to think about snakes it will determine everything it's just amazing it's just amazing I'm telling you it runs your Life one of them runs your life you go toward which let you avoid it right if if I know they're not going to be Stakes I like I like being inside and also I like the entire front lawn is concrete it's I'm telling you it will determine every single thing you do that's one of them how many of you touched in your lifetime how many things have come in that were naturally unfolding in front

of you they were the gift that was given To you no one else was going to experience it only you and you weren't experiencing the 19 billion things that were going on you see how special that moment is it's you're we having a moment that's that you're having with every moment you're having a moment of okay it's coming in and you couldn't handle it and so you push it away and when you push it away it gets stored inside of you and it becomes what we call a soft spot a trigger point you see A

poster you hear the word snake right you call a plumber he said I got to get my snake you laugh but I'm not kidding you were married once was a terrible marriage you got divorced in two years his name was Ben I'm telling you 10 years later you're my your own business some place where you never been before oh Ben come over here you freak or at least your heart starts going like that gee isn't that fun no okay that's I'm Building the personal there's nothing personal about the fact that someone called out someone's name

in a place You' never been before 20 years later personal to you isin it all right now you understand personal personal means I couldn't handle the reality that was unfolding in front of me the gift the moment so I pushed it away when I pushed it away it wasn't able to finish wasn't able to make it through me the water wasn't able to pour into the ocean You're the ocean the experience is the stream right it's coming to give you a gift I wasn't able to let that happen I push it away when I push

it away it stays inside of me when it stays inside of me I must expend personal will for the rest of my life to keep it at Bay all right and events outside side start to that's what a RW shock test is you know in Psychology they hold up ink plots they want to know what the hell you got in there all a it looks like Mommy fighting with Daddy was that what look like Mommy leaving daddy well that would look like Daddy leaving Mommy okay we got ourselves a little problem here and at what

age did your parents get divorced you understand that right there's just a mirror of the garbage you collected inside of you because that ink plot ain't got nothing to do with Mommy and Daddy it's an ink plot but because C this rck test are very important for you to understand as a spiritual person why Because the whole world is a r Rock test to you all you see is what's inside of you that's what they mean when they say the world in front of is a mirror what's going on inside of you because you got

this stuff inside of you that you stored because you couldn't handle it and now events come in now and you can't experience them why because they hit your stuff first and when they hit your stuff it either attracts you to them because it was good stuff you stored or Repulses you against them it bad stuff and that's what we call a reaction you have a reaction to what's coming in not an experience do you see the difference the experience is be here now the experience is it comes all the way in with no resistance no

clinging and no resistance it just comes in and then the next one and you're ready you're just oh my God it's so beautiful right you're just an experiencing machine that is becoming greater and greater and greater And greater every moment of your life but what about when I get old have those experiences right you are to embi and embrace and respect and honor every single experience of every stage of your life are you telling me that experience a moment in front of you when you're 20 is different than a moment in front of you when

you're 80 there's no difference none period every single experience it's for your benefit it's for your growth it's making you a greater being so Basically you get to the point where you understand personal is because I resisted things I stored inside of me past experiences that weren't any different than any other experience but somehow I couldn't handle it you understand that I couldn't handle it talking about negative ones same thing with positive oh he looked at me oh my God I I never felt so much love in my whole life I hope he keeps looking

at me I want him to keep looking at me oh my God he's looking at her no I want him to look at me all right he says he'll be back in three hours what will I do for three hours I don't want to do for three hours I want him to be here now I want him to look at me now I'll wait for three what is that for three hours you're going to have totally different experiences no you won't because I only have eyes for you no it's like every experience is a gift

from God every experience creation is Giving you a gift so you can become a greater being but because you like this one I like the butterfly can we go next weekend I want to live here let's build a house no you have to work no let's live where the butterflies are so what you're doing is if something comes in and it's not a nice vibration you hold it suppress it you hold it at Bay because you don't want to touch you if something comes in and is a really nice vibration you cling to it that's

what The Buddhist call clinging you cling to it because you don't want it to go away in both cases you kept them inside of you and they are distorting your ability to experience now if you had a beautiful relationship when you're 12 now when you're 32 you're dating somebody and you're looking to see oh he doesn't slurp his soup the same as Johnny did you're literally comparing the experience that comes in with the ones you liked or didn't like so you're not Having the experience you're having your old experience when the third Zen patriarch one

of the deepest Zen writings says to end the burdensome practice of judging that's what they're talking about you know judging requires a standard you're judging against doesn't it you have to have multiple things to judge you judge one against another what are are you judging against the past garbage you stored inside of you the past experience that you either Liked or didn't like now the new experiences come in but they don't make it in they make it into your mind and then you judge them you look at them do I like this do I not

like this do I want this do I not want this should I go this way or shouldn't I go this way all based on what those past experiences you stored what else that's the only thing in there now you understand the personal right it's hard to see because we are 100% quau in it and that is the Folly of Humanity and that is why you can't know truth because you're not even trying to know truth you're trying to recreate the situations that you liked before and trying to avoid the situations that you didn't like before

and now you're out there trying to manipulate the world unfolding in front of you to match your stuff you're trying to manipulate every moment in front of you so it doesn't hit the stuff that you stored that you didn't like and so it does hit the stuff That brings back up what you did like and now what's hilarious when you like look at it is good luck why you admitted to me that the world has nothing to do with you it's the result of 13.8 billion years of creation creating right and the force in front

of you is the result of all the force that made it be what it is and you're now going to make your life be about making it be you having fun yet no no that is why Buddha said all of life is suffering That's the first Noble Truth of Buddha he wasn't being negative but it's Noble Truth all of life is suffering because if you're going to do that all of life is suffering if you get what you want you're going to be afraid of losing it if you go out there and dress pretty and

do nice things and win somebody's attraction I'm wait to see how tight you are figure out what to wear next time because you think you did it personal means personal I am the doer this is my Universe I'm in charge of making sure what happens I have to make it be the way I want and not be what I don't want and everybody's out there fighting with everything to try try and make it match the garbage that they stored inside themselves instead of this beautiful impersonal life notice it doesn't sound so cold anymore does it

this beautiful and personal life of enjoying the rain and enjoying the sunshine and enjoying the Heat and enjoying the cold and Enjoying every single moment in every single person in every single experience whoa how about I want you to have that I want you to wake up in the morning go wow I wonder what will happen today I'm going to get to have some experiences don't worry you'll have experiences you just w't have the ones you want but you're going to have experiences you do know that don't you that's what you're afraid of you're afraid

because you stored this garbage inside of you And now you have all this fear inside of you how can you not be afraid how many experiences have you had in your life that weren't so comfortable to you plenty there there stuff comes in you stored those didn't you so now you didn't store the white lines you didn't store the experiences that were neutral you didn't store the cars driving by you didn't store the trees going by you just picked out the experiences that weren't comfortable to you fair enough and you Stored those well therefore you

stored the garbage you stored every single thing that ever bothered you inside your heart and now when the world comes in it's stimulates that why because that's what's there and the next thing you know you're feeling anxiety or fear or insecurity or self-consciousness or embarrassment or guilt have you ever felt guilt about something you did 20 years ago or if you're young 10 years ago and you better shake your head yes You're not even doing it anymore and you feel gilded why because it's still in there it's absolutely unbelievable what we've done and no one's

paying attention and what they think the solution is is to manipulate the world so it doesn't hit the stuff so we only have a nice thing always talk the way I want you to and wear what I want you to and don't do that I told you not to do that hear me and so the only way you're going to be okay if you play this personal game is You get every single moment for the rest of your life to unfold F the way you want how's that working out so far okay that's where tension

comes from that's where stress comes from that's where anxiety come of course it does if I got this garbage inside of me and I'm afraid of it and I am that's why I stored it down there if I couldn't handle it when it happened I can't handle it now I didn't learn anything so it's still stored in there I'm afraid it's going to Come back up well so I feel this tremendous tension you're going to give a a speech in class tomorrow how you feel you should have fun I get to stand there and see

what's going to happen it'd be fun what if I don't do good fine I'll learn so what who cares I mean how many experiences are going at the same time you're giving that talk that's hilarious right 800 billion zillion experiences are going on and you have one have fun With it you can't because you store all this garbage inside of you and so it comes back even the thought of it brings it back up doesn't it you're not even there talking the day before a week before two months before you're freaking out you have to

write something I love it people got writers block what in the world is writer's block writer block is very very straightforward thing I have something very creative inside of me all of you have something very very creative Inside of you very creative called you you back there the Consciousness is very creative I have all the psychological mumbo jumbo of everything that ever happened in my life where people laughed at me where I didn't do well where I got a D and I thought I was to get an A blah blah blah I start all this

garbage and now I'm going to sit there and write no really what I'm going to sit there and do is is risk risk that I'm going to write something down that someone's Going to laugh at they're going to write something down that doesn't get an A they're going to write something down doesn't go to the New York Times by seller list they're going to write come on come on come on and that's I'm I'm risking that the world I create out there that I interact with is going to come in here and screw me up

it doesn't sound like much fun there should be none of that and I mean none you do not have to live that life that is the pur Personal life you take everything personal watch what happens when somebody's talking to you watch what goes on inside of you they start talking this way you start feeling a little bit better talk this way you feel a little anxious just watch your mind while somebody's talking to you you're not listening to them you're listening to what you have to say about what they're saying you're listening to what your

reaction is to what they're saying if You're even interested otherwise you're think about what you're going to say when they finally shut up and that's embarrassing I've caught him doing that plenty of times all right I'm trying to paint a picture for you of the personal life versus the impersonal life one is wonderful gorgeous beautiful liberating free growthful the other is disgusting you are scared every moment you wake up in the morning you're afraid of what you Did yesterday well oh my God I said that will somebody find out you're afraid of what will happen

today will it be what you want so and and well what you say what about the positive things yes there are some positive things that happen to you in life of course there's yin and yang things that come come in you stored a few things and the moment you store them they might as well been negative why you went to Hawaii just happen to happen you want a ticket you want a Surprise one of one those Robo calls turned out to be right you have one and you get a trip to Hawaii and you went

there and it was just perfect the weather was gorgeous everything was wonderful the hotel was great every was nice to you right you travel with wonderful people great okay I am so sorry the next time you go on vacation for you you know cuz you don't stand a chance and you know it cuz you're going to compare everything the hotel was much Nicer last time Hawaii's temperature was a lot nicer than Alaska yeah that Alaska you know it's supposed to be at the glacier we were looking for a warm temperature and so basically you're going

to be comparing everything won't you come on I lay this on you will compare everything against that positive experience fall into a relationship you have this thing used to go the honeymoon phase in it right you want a relationship and you're getting along Really well and everything you say to each other Right In Tune you giggle all the time and it's just the most amazing thing in the world then you you expect that well you're in trouble if it happen spontaneously there something nice about it right but all of a sudden you're saying things like

well before you seem to be more in tune with me I you know I need some space every once in a while but why don't you tell me I shouldn't have to tell you wow it's like all of a Sudden this weirdness starts because you held on to a nice experience you expect it to happen again you want it to happen again well you used to hold the door open the door for me well we have three kids and my arms are rather full I like to when you open okay you ruin it you ruin

it by holding on to it go to a restaurant enjoy the food enjoy the experience of the restaurant do not go back and bring friends after telling them how good it is all right because it Will never ever be the way you remember it okay they'll be playing different music somebody's smoking next to you the special's not the same as it was a different Chef the waiter wasn't the same guy well it's that's not going to do it is it you never can recreate the beauty that happened that was so beautiful to you because it

was spontaneous that's what made it beautiful it was spontaneous you weren't expecting it if you're expecting Something you judge it you look for it to be a certain way do you understand that but if it's spontaneous if it's be here now and it made it all the way in oh my God now I can talk to you spontaneous means it made it all the way in because I didn't have any stuff that judged it on its way in so all of a sudden I wasn't expecting you to walk up to me and just say God

you know I've loved you since kindergarten I just been embarrassed to say it's like you are Just the most beautiful person I've ever met right it's like whoa that's nice that's a nice experience right I don't want to go for an encore I don't want to see next time we meet because there a going to be anything that's spontaneous it's not going to have the same effect because you're going to judge what happens next against what you experience there if you sit there and say oh my God Johnny was so nice what you really mean

is what Johnny Said to me that time about how much he liked me since kindergarten it came in and touched my soul that's what was nice not Johnny cuz Johnny ain't doing it again because if he walks up to your next time he says I've loved you since kindergarten right you going to go he he getting old so the spontaneity is not because of the event but because you don't have anything going about it therefore it comes in and touches you it's not going To happen again by definition because you're looking for it too that's

why the posi we call these some scaras these you stored inside that's why the positive scars are just as problematic as the negative ones the negative ones make it so that you're afraid of things you don't want them to happen and you start to see them outside when they're not even happening or you think about them you get all weird well we know that's a problem you got plenty Of those but now you clung to the positive ones and so now you can't have a spontaneous experience anymore all right that's what the personal looks like

and I've lived with one just like you have and it it is a self-fulfilling prophecy if it sits there and says I don't want this to happen I know I won't want it to happen if it happens it's going to hit that thing it's going to your bad experience is going to come back up and you say see I knew it all Right so what is the alternative the alternative is very difficult for people but it shouldn't be the alternative is to say I am a conscious being that's who I am I'm in here I'm

conscious I am the self the soul the otman that's my being I'm aware I have made a gross mistake I have separated what I like from what I dislike and they are very very strong inside of me and I've now done worse I've devoted my life to getting what I Want and avoiding what I don't want and it's a mess it's a mess I've made big messes out there manipulating controlling people places and things complaining get I'm a mess they're a mess that's the personal that's the personal okay so basically you wake up and you

realize this is spirituality you play this game you lose there's no winning this game there's only one way out and that is the spiritual path what Is that you didn't have to hold this stuff inside of you you did it out of Free Will in essence God said I'm going to create an entire universe that's absolutely unbelievable it's unbelievable billions and billions and trillions of galaxies and I'm going to make this one planet that has elephants and whales and people of all different size and flowers and G you know oh my God Birds of Paradise

flowers are going to grow out of the ground oh my God and Fruit but it's the most it's the Garden of Eden okay there it is and I'm going to put you on that planet and let you visit down there right and you do whatever you want what do you want to do I want to be a neurotic mess and be really uptight about everything the entire time I'm there I want to remake the whole thing I want every moment in front of me to be the way I decid it to be not the way

you made it I want it to be the way I want it to be well then You're going to suffer so the answer is you did not have to store this stuff inside of you you used your free will to do this well use your free will to let it go and that is the only only way out there is no such thing as building a life for yourself that works and this should relieve you to say well it wasn't that I did it wrong I defined the goal wrongly it is not true that if

you move out to the country and get your little house and have two and a Half kids and did a dog and a cat and so on that everything's going to be fine it's not true things don't make you be okay if your inner state has issues stored inside eventually stuff's going to hit it people that are happy become sad people that are doing fine wealthy all look if wealth works so well then how come people were throwing themselves off buildings in the 20s crash the most successful wealthy leaders of our society standing on the

38th floor of Wall Street and throwing themselves off well then money didn't solve it did it because the moment you lost it there it was you lost the money right if if you took medication and healed you you you don't take the medication anymore you're healed if money solved your problem you don't need money anymore because you're whole you're complete you're happy no it doesn't work same thing with relationships not I have any against them don't doesn't mean you're Not going to have money doesn't mean you're not going have relationships they are natural things in

society natural things in your life you understand that but if you think of relationship is going to get rid of that crap you stored inside of you you got a lot to learn don't you cuz what's going to happen is eventually that person is going to say something or do something's going to hit your stuff come on I want to see your purly whites right why do you think 50% Of all marriage endom divorce oh they were planning on it from the beginning no they were not planning on it from the beginning all right it

is because when stuff is flowing in a way that fits your stuff you think it's going to stay it's wonderful as long as you have stuff you're in trouble and you know you got stuff the only life that is beautiful is when you get that stuff out of there can you imagine having none of that stuff in there there's not anything inside of you That has anxiety or worry or desire there's no fear and no desire what is there openness open heart open mind em bibing embracing the experiences that going to come to you becoming

a greater being every moment of your life are some experiences comfortable yes or some experience uncomfortable yes you learn from the uncomfortable you learn from the comfortable they don't become who you are you are the one that's experiencing them if you Fall in love that's beautiful love has a lot to teach you everything is a low to teach you but you are not the person you love and you are not the experience of love you are the one that's experiencing it you're the same was in there before the love showed up aren't you all right

you are the self you're the Atman you're the soul you the Consciousness you are the awareness of being and you're going to have these different experiences be open let them come in learn from them so The right way to live and it's beautiful is open clear you let go of this stuff what what do you mean let go of this stuff you know you got stuff in there you don't have to what do you mean I don't have to you're keeping it in there when it comes back up you push it back down don't you

right somebody says something gets you upset I need a minute excuse me you push it down all the time and when it comes back up something remind you what you Liked oh my God I like going sailing I like doing this I like climbing the mountain all right somebody says something about a mountain I'll skip school I go oh man jumps up right you're just being reactive you're just reacting to the garbage you stored inside of you instead of experiencing and eming the moment that's being given to you that's a big difference so basically you

get to the point where you realize I have a job and the job is not trying to make Everybody and everything including the weather be the way I want and not be the way I don't want that's not my job you don't want that job I'm begging you fire yourself you're fired all right you don't want that job that's a terrible job it will destroy you you will never ever achieve what you're looking for and you'll never be satisfied in life period and you get older you'll get more dissatisfied because you think now I'm older

I'll Never get it the way I want well you set yourself up to fail so instead you sit there and say I am devoting my life oo my every moment of my life I used to devote my life to getting what I want and avoiding what I don't want I'm going to change it's a paradigm shift I now devote my life to letting go of this garbage I've stored inside of me and not taking any more in mean I having any more experiences no not resisting and clinging to experiences well how do I Get rid

of the stuff that's inside of me I thought you'd never ask all right the answer is it is both the most difficult and the simplest thing that you will ever do in your life why is it the most difficult because by definition if you liked it you wouldn't have pushed it away and if it was stored with pain it is coming back up with pain do you understand that and it was stored with glowy thing Johnny was so sweet at 12 right it's Going to come back with all that glitter and stuff that will distort

your ability to see properly so both those are some scars when they open up that's what they do all right so that's the difficult part is to not go with them and do what they say to do because you do now every something comes up you don't feel good you're looking forward to going to a party you got whole thing you got your clothes you thing oh my God looking forward for weeks you go to the party And all of a sudden your mind says Johnny's here I don't want to see Johnny I don't want

to see Johnny I don't want to be here I don't want to be here you start feeling this weird vibration isn't it weird it gets weird and guess what you actually leave you actually do what it tells you to do you do what the personal tells you to do if it says go for it you go for it if it says stay away from it you stay away from it OMG the lowest part of your being the LIE it says this is the universe this is not the universe this is the garbage you collected from

the minuscal experiences you had it's meaningless and so the difficulty is because they have so power packed because they are things you separate it out by definition the have a thing going with them it's hard not to go with them fine that's the difficulty it's just like giving up heroin it's like giving up drugs you have to go through withdrawal you give up the Personal it's going to come up what do you mean it's going to go up but don't I have to go down there and fish for it no here's what I said here's

what I said it's easy and hard I told you the hard part is you have to be able to sit there and handle this stuff remember me not buy into it not give it what it wants like a kid throwing a tantrum you wouldn't buy him what he wanted would you all right this you got a little kid in there throwing Tantrums about what it Wants and what it doesn't want and you've been reinforcing it every second of your life so how do you know what to get rid of you don't it tells you how

do I know it's in your face you'll be walking around all day and somebody will say something or somebody won't say something or somebody will say it with a certain sort of an accent to it that you didn't expect or they'll say a little quieter and you couldn't hear them did they do it purpos true isn't that what I Just said it's pretty sensitive in there and when it comes up Let It Go that's all that's the only technique I'll give you I'm sorry I you should meditate it'll help you all these things will help

you I don't teach them right when it comes up Let It Go I highly recommend when it comes up Let It Go Sally Sally Sally oh God she didn't say hello what did I do Let It Go don't I have to figure out whe whether she heard me or not no don't I have to find out why why She didn't turn back but there was somebody next to me and then I said I said was my friend and now I feel weird because I let it go let it go it's your garbage coming back up

there's seven billion people on the planet Earth that didn't say hello to you today and you freaked out over one you are sitting on a planet spinning around a star and the planet is so tiny in the middle of dark empty space and there's billions of stars and you care whether somebody turn Hi George that determined how you felt for the rest of the day there's something wrong with you but don't worry you're in good company it's called the human race do you understand now you understand now the personal versus the impersonal you need to

let this stuff go you do not want to devote your life to the lowest party of being it's so small right it's this tiny it's this big it's and it's yours unique nobody else got one like yours right and so you want you Want to meet somebody who matches you there's nobody who matches you there's no way anybody had the same experience that you did or handled them the same way don't talk about soulmates there's not somebody out there that matches you it can't be because they didn't have the same experiences and their genetics are

different everything's different enjoy the difference enjoy the experiences don't try to make it match your garbage so when things happen and they hit your Stuff relax breathe relax don't breathe to push it back down breathe to let go I teach you you're in there let's say you come to me and say yeah but my heart hurts I'm going to ask you a very simple question how do you know how do you know your heart hurts but when she didn't say hello to me I just felt so weird how do you know you do know don't

you you who knows are the highest part of your being you who notices that your heart hurts is not The hurting heart you're the one who notices be the one who notices just relax and realize okay I'm noticing a hurt heart relax and lean away from it if you will do that they write me from all over the world read the an Soul right if you will relax and do that your life will change instantaneously not totally clear it take some time right but it's amazing to see what they write that they just started doing

that and everything changes of course everything Changes you're giving yourself some space let's say you're eating food that makes you sick I have some advice stop eating it it worked I felt much better right okay stop devoting your life to that which cannot be satisfied you're not going to recreate the moments that made you feel good before and you're not going to manage to manipulate life to avoid everything that ever bothered you that is not what you're supposed to devote your life to devote Your life to experiencing reality devote your life to the honor that

the moment in front of you took 13.8 billion years to get there let it in but in order to do so you have to let go of your reactions just keep letting go let go let go don't suppress don't deny just relax and release relax and release relax and release it can't not work relax and release and lean back because you're leaning into self and it turns out I'm not going to discuss it we out Of time I've talked about personal and impersonal you see the difference right I haven't talked about the nature of self

talked about the nature of rattlesnake talk about the nature of butterfly as you get closer to the seat of your being that's the word I'm going to use the seat of your being where you're conscious from where are you when you watch TV you're on a couch watching you get sucked in but you're really still on the couch where are you where's Your inner couch that's the self that's the seat of self where you're watching from you will the more you get closer to that the more you will feel Joy spontaneous love we call Shakti

Spirit it just starts welling up inside of you you just feel all this joy and love and beauty and light spontaneously completely unconditionally it's not bad and you realize if I don't leave the seat of self to get involved in the garbage I Will have that every single moment of my life you just basically let go of your lower self and you will naturally Ascend to the deeper part of your being all of life helps you because it hits your stuff and if it doesn't hit your stuff it comes in like the sunset or some

beautiful experience so this is the spiritual life has nothing to do with what you read although reading is important you put good stuff in there has nothing to do with what you believe Belief is of the mind you know that's garbage in there and you know that it makes you do things because you're either afraid or desirous right they will not take you anywhere neither your desires nor your fears they will just like a a boat without a runner right they just go running around reacting to what attracted you or repulsed you who are you

not what's attracting you and repulsing you who are you who are you get to know that one the rest will fall Away and what's left is just a bundle of light of beauty of joy of Love That Will just shed light everywhere as you go all right so that's personal we got that one down and impersonal G