I moved to New York

[Music] I would say about 30 30% of my apartment is packed up right now and I'm technically not even approved for the apartment we've been running into some roadblocks this week that the universe is testing me I have movers scheduled I have so many boxes packed I have New York plans for the weekend after I'm supposed to move in and I don't even officially have the apartment and I know what you're thinking why would you be packing and preparing if you have the apartment well I almost have the apartment but like I said there was

some road blocks and some things had to be done getting an apartment in New York is truly unlike anywhere else it's incredibly stressful it's just been a process but technically my moving date is April 1st and it is a and it is March 29th but I don't even I haven't even signed the lease so I'm losing my mind a little bit um trying to to not be stressed out cuz there's nothing I can do at this point I'm basically just waiting for them to officially approve me and yeah so right now just stressed out because

moving is already stressful but moving in a few days when you don't even have a place locked down is incredibly stressful and if for some reason this place ends up falling through I literally don't know what I'm going to do so I'm not even going to think about that possibility all like every single part of it has been stressful which you know is to be expected when you're moving State especially when you're moving to somewhere like New York which is like I'm not going to lie there is a big part of me that's like why

would anybody move to New York this is ridiculous between the absolutely insane rent price is and then also just like the qualifications that they have and part of me is like yeah why would anybody do this but also I'm doing it and I want to do it and I am really excited but I just am so stressed out right now which is really really fun right Ruby are you excited to be a New York cat hopefully but you see before there even was this whole apartment or deal there was a girl alone in New York

looking for an apartment and here she is hello I'm currently in New York because I am apartment hunting cuz I'm moving here I haven't looked at any apartments yet but I have my first viewing I'm going to be leaving soon and I just drank a whole cup of coffee because I went to bed at 2 last night and was so dead and tired that I considered canceling every single viewing I had today and sitting on the couch all day but then it would feel like a waste of a day I am here for pretty pretty

much a whole week I've never gone apartment hunting before I my current apartment that I have in Maryland is it was the only apartment I looked at only apartment building and that was my first apartment I ever got by myself so for today I am alone in New York City and I can do whatever I want and I don't want to do anything I've been watching Sex in the City and absolutely loving it I think it's the most hilarious show a little bit sexist at times a little misogynistic at times but what is it my

first apartment viewing at 130 and it's 10:7 so I should probably leave for that soon I hate doing big girl stuff I'm not made for this it's just daunting the idea of like looking for an apartment in New York and there's so many things that I want oh yeah let me talk about the things that I'm looking for number one I really really really really really want two bathrooms because I plan on having people visit me and stay with me I like having my own bathroom that nobody uses and also I would like a second

bathroom B to put my cat's litter box in I really really want a decent sized kitchen that is facing natural lighting so that I can make my cooking baking videos and then the area the area I have a specific area in mind that has pretty limited availability for what I want so hopefully I can find something I love my current apartment so much I'm so emotionally attached to it let's go see the first apartment and hope that I don't my pants on the way there because I can't stop and I just drink a whole thing

of coffee so pray for [Music] me I know [Music] all righty everybody so I looked at two apartments yesterday I've looked at zero today some have canceled because apartments in New York get snatched up and some I've canceled because I kind of just went on I went Zillow crazy and just messaged anything that looked remotely good and then I look back at them and I'm like I actually don't want to look at that but I really really liked the first building I looked at yesterday it was brand new really nice I liked the area Scarlet's

about to get here I'm so excited because I've been feeling very lonely look how big this cookie is this cookie is huge but yeah I think I might end up choosing the first building with the light floors I also looked at another building that was really nice and I really liked but it was just a little too expensive yesterday Friday I officially got approved for my apartment it was a process this apartment will just always have such a special place in my heart it was my first real apartment that I lived in alone and I

moved here when I was barely 20 and now I'm moving out and I'm 24 and I'm moving to New York but I'm just very grateful for everything I have and I kind of can't believe I'm moving to New York today is Saturday and I'm moving on Wednesday so I have a couple days left here I hung out with my family last night and we had dinner and I got a little bit emotional on the way home cuz I never lived in a different state from my family I don't even really count when me and Brandon

got in got an apartment in Florida because cuz we didn't even really live there we would just go there for like a few weeks and then come back and I was with my mom and brother the entire time so and actually in my life that was the most codependent I had ever been I'm just in in such a different place now I look back up on myself from when I was like 19 20 and I see myself as a kid and I still know I'm so young but I just feel so much better about myself

in literally every single way and so much more confident and happy and more eager to get out of my comfort zone I had this thought the other day of like I'm getting out of my comfort zone so that I can create a new comfort zone rather than just like abandoning my comfort zone which in this situation would be like my apartment I guess living in Maryland and being close to my family it's just like I've just had these intense like yearning feelings for the past I don't know 9 months and I think it was just

like a slow build inside of me of wanting to move and then also wanting to move to New York 4 years is a long time to live in an apartment it really is most people only live in their apartments for like a year I'm just the type of person who is very content living a quiet comfortable life and I still want that I'm moving into like a very quiet little family neighborhood but there are just so many things that I want that I feel like I struggle to get with living here with being in New

York there's access to so many things that I feel like could motivate me creatively once you live in one spot for so long and you're just so comfortable and you're just you look around and it's just more of the same every day I feel like that kind of tends to have an impact on your creativity and your motivation your inspiration I feel like that's happened to me and I feel like throughout this entire process and every fear and doubt that I've had there's no part of me that is questioning moving out of Maryland it's just

about like leaving my family and being in a new place and that's all really scary but I'm ready and I also will have my cats I have my babies oh my God I don't want to know what life would be like without cats I really I really don't so yeah that's where I'm at I have to turn in my car on Tuesday cuz I'm not going to have to drive anymore and I said this to Scarlet the other day I was like I I love that I'm moving to New York and I'm not going to

have to drive anymore but not because I am afraid of driving anymore I conquered my fear of driving driving and I feel so good about that and so proud of myself and I can drive with no problem now but also my goal with moving is to be more active because as my family likes to remind me time and time again I'm not active enough but I don't enjoy working out I don't enjoy going to the gym but I do enjoy walking and hiking and being out in nature and it's going to be spring soon and

then summer and I just can't wait to be at the park all the time and going on walks so yeah I'm just going to keep hacking the next few days then we're going to move [Music] now before we get into New York I have some random bits of footage from the last few months that I don't know where else to put them so I'm going to put them here in this part of the video [Music] enjoy [Music] tur I great Great British Bake Off Great British baked off oh and we'll do British accents yes okay

yes welcome welcome welcome welcome to the Great British Bake Off today's challenge we have today's Great British baked off baked off right welcome to the Great British baked off emphasize on the D baked off welcome to the Great British baked off welcome to the Great British baked off off tonight our challenge for our contests is so severe so Cutthroat and it's really going to test their skills no what is it tonight the Bakers have to make three different flavors of cookies using only the ingredients and supplies in this kitchen in this apartment they have no

recipes to go off of no instructions but their own training that they learned in culinary school if they had the pleasure of going I didn't they will have to give the judges three did I already say that they will have to they have one hour to serve the judges three different spit do all spitting not allow talking you know what I'm saying do the butter dance the butter dance yeah I think that is especially when I'm eating and I'm and you put that oh that's when you say especially especially especially instead of especially especially ew

it's fine no it's not that's not okay special 24 years old I don't know if you're going to fix it now I am going to fix it now are you kidding me okay am I unintelligent no we just got a few quirks I didn't Quirk that that's just like oh god what the hell just happen wow the Bakers have 1 hour to I have as much time as I want to pay I'm sorry it seems as though one of our contestants has had a psychic break on camera she just called me a pig on lime

TV the contestants have one hour to prepare to wait the the contestants have one hour oh I'm going to dig in you so hard when you start making these cookies man oh s a British hey what the contestants have one hour to serve the judges three different cookie combin wait what was it the contestants have one hour to serve the judges cookies with three different play combinations of they're choosing let's see what do they come up with and by judges I mean me wearing a different hat hat it will be awesome stay tuned well judges

I'm going to make a a very nostalgic peanut butter and marshmallow fluff sandwich I mean cookie swi sorry did you just say marshmallow fluff yes no what how is Marshmallow Fluff it's exactly what it sounds like what a Fluff [Applause] marshmallow just spr my entire arm welcome to C B and welcome to gab boms are they cancelled this kid wants a real life cannon that shoots out of his cake done by three this afternoon we're short staffed and we only got two different colors of dye hopefully we can get this done in 2 hours hopefully

we can make six colors from two colors we got to make a cake big enough to feed 2 32,000 people in 6 hours and we all we have is a wagon tied in the back of a bicycle to deliver it let's see if we can do it and we got my dumb nephew here we got my half foot networ nephew here today we had to take him out of sixth grade math class to help us out cuz we got are so damn short staff look I'm not even going to measure dude you're com for that

left a keeping bag of trash in the trash room that is so I know that's and it smelled putrid in [Music] there R so what are you doing now wait you be this is called beating the dough beating you me where am I G lights talk about lights on no one home knock knock oh go yeah it's looking a bit lumpy je is it the lumpy cookie challenge over here now we do have we made your sign a waiver saying that you wouldn't touch the touch the house I didn't believe in wavers so why don't

you tell us what flavors you're making I'm going to make first classic chocolate chip with some sea salt on top I'm going to be using semi sweet chocolate chips hey sounds like my wife a bit semi sweet herself way too good I'm just going to use my fingers she putting her bare pause in there Jesus Christ hope she washes after she washes this is really inappropriate I suck it off her fingers I don't care can someone be on ovens please why is no one on ovens the network is already going down we're already on thin

ice with the network I need someone on offens at all times this my assistant he's name his name is Michael he's a 19-year-old boy from from Umbridge on bridge I'm her Su Chef she's teaching me the ropes I do I just watch her seriously like you deserve a better you deserve a what what do you should ask like I'm telling you Cy cat oh classic bar just spit his entire lunch on me nothing wrong with little crab I'm going for more Savory tast it's going to be a lot it's going to blow these lot wild

F CH more than your classic chocolate sh yeah she studied abroad in London ever heard of pickles in Mustang well yeah of course papers in tomato and bangers in Mash in a cookie though Barry that's just a bit M oh in a Biscuit are you American it's a biscuit no these are not biscuits we call them biscuits clean the ball so Claire I heard that I saw Trevor sitting with some girls today in in the in the cafeteria huh I heard Trevor sitting with some girl yeah I don't believe you cuz Trevor is secretly gay

so he wouldn't be with some girl I'm literally his beard makes sense it makes sense I always knew new what I cleaned the out of this bowl yeah you did we're going to add a dollop of peanut butter yep a dollop actually we're going to need more than that boom no this is not keto because we enjoy life you should not restrict yourself ever unless you're deathly allergic and even then if the time is right eat the peanut butter why don't you do your Jennifer andison for me that you have written oh it was yeah

well I don't know I just I don't know what to tell you honey I oh honey you know I love you oh honey I love you all right so why don't you tell us what your third flavor is going to be going to the cinnamon toast crun cinnamon crunch vibe that sounds nothing short of absolutely orgasmic I think they might be good dude they're going to be fire marshmallow ones are spreading a bit but I think they might be fine I think they might be fine I think they might be fine I think they might

be might and sometimes that's just how it is because I'm happy that he got a girlfriend cuz now it means you know that he yes like nothing [Music] matters me like [Music] you nothing matter only 10 seconds left after just barely making the time limit oh say five oh yeah five 4 3 2 one hands off Bakers after just barely making the time limit our first Baker is ready to present her cookies to the judges all right first here I'm judge Hillary we have a CH we have I'm Jud I'm judge do we have no

relation piece I got a piece for you I got a piece for you is this flaky sea salt I see on top I believe it is I also see a cat hair so that's disgusting it's classic it's delicious it's simple it's elegant it's erotic and it ends with a little bit of salt mhm just the way I like it I agree mhm Angry Angry Angry Angry Angry Angry I'm going to comparatively rate that one against the others pick up okay this one I want a little bit of chocolate little bit of mow peanut butter and

chocolate oh this is just lovely great Tex y' literally that's so good yeah that melted in my mouth I am afraid I might need to go change my shorts oh my God it's so it's so soft um I find it so funny that on the cupcake shows the judges eat the cupcakes with a fork like mhm that might be my favorite cookie that ever eat in my life I like the texture of this though so much more like this was like eating a cloud pillow they're all so different they're all so different K they're so

good in their own way on picking the peanut butter fluff with chocolate chip cookie as my favorite I'm a classic girl I like it good I like it I like to know what I'm going to expect going into it and I like to know that I'm going to be pleased I really like this chocolate chip it's my vote well now we have a split decision you know what that means the judges must fight to the death to decide which cookie will be the best one I've never lost this battle this why I've been the host

for 45 years now are you prepared to die I'm so Adam Driver I didn't spit on you I didn't spit on you I H it in I'm going back in for another bag I still fleing you knock out the park for real you're Got Talent kid no measuring no measuring no no no recipe [Music] [Music] my apartment is no longer my apartment and yes I am emotional the movers God bless their Souls they've made my life so easy I have been so stressed and the second they got here they just started getting done they packed

up my my insane bed frame 5 hours I packed up my whole apartment in 5 hours there's nothing left except for all of this stuff that I have to bring because they're not going to drop it off until tomorrow morning so now I wait for Brandon to come load all this stuff into his car and say bye-bye to but I think like above all I'm happy and I'm excited I keep having moments of like I can't cannot believe that I'm moving to New York because when I moved into this apartment I was so scared I

was like a little baby afraid of everything took me 4 years but I'm in a place where I feel like I can move to a different state I don't know dude this is crazy yeah the cats have been in the bathroom I kind of want to let them out and let them see The Empty Apartment get all your steps in before you got to be in the car for 3 hours they're so scared it's all gone it's all gone you can't even go hide under the bed cuz I know that's what you wanted to do

what is it purse it's all gone Ruby where's all our stuff they're probably like what the is going on it's all right babies we're going to a new home they're getting Gaba Penton it's Gaba Penton time [Music] I live in New York now to be honest quite literally nothing can with my mood right now because everything that I have been so stressed out about for the last C weeks I am not stressed out about anymore my cats are here they're safe they're fine Percy's a little bit um traumatized from leaving the house but we've all

been there Ruby on the other hand Ruby come here Ruby is taking it like a champ she's been exploring she's like so curious bet calling come with me as I build this cabinet on all by myself it was very diff difficult oh here's a clip of me and Scarlet unpacking oh how I love her anyways back to me building this cabinet um this was no easy task and it took me 5 hours to build it and unbeknownst to me I had Co while I was building this and I was like why do I feel so

awful but I once I started it I couldn't stop oh and if you if you look at the window you'll see the windows open because I kept having to let fresh air in because I kept feeling like I was going to pass out and I I managed to get it up by myself and attach the doors which was the hardest part I just like need some validation for this because this was seriously not easy and everybody always likes to call me weak but hey look what I did look what I did everybody yeah look at

that okay let's get another time lapse yeah let's get another time lapse this time I'm unboxing my clothes while I'm watching Sex in the City which I actually I actually finished it since this clip because it's a few weeks later while I'm recording this voice over and I have been missing it intensely but I did just start Desperate Housewives um so that's been going good I like it so far if you see a bald spot in my eyebrow it's definitely not because I've been ripping my eyebrow hairs out right now you wouldn't even know that

I moved it's just the same stuff I've been a mess as you can see I'm just like appreciating all of the differences between this and my last apartment cuz when you live somewhere for 4 years you're going to find things about it that you don't like and a lot of the things about my last apartment that I didn't like mainly the building not the actual apartment this one is just so much better I don't think I've worn makeup in like a week which is like very unusual for me I'm not I'm a girl who loves

to wear makeup even if it's just like a little bit of concealer and blush but I just truly have not cared and it's been kind of freeing well guys I have Co yesterday I lost my sense of smell and taste which is horrible regardless of this current situation I'm very very very grateful I'm just going to focus on taking care of myself and editing this video and doing literally nothing else why do the side effects have to be loss of sense of smell and taste why can't I get a fat ass I can't even think

straight it's been a couple of weeks since that last very depressing clip in which I discovered I had Co um I was specifically upset that day because um Brandon Claudia and my mom were all supposed to come and visit me and then that morning I woke up that morning and I was like I don't just feel like I need to take a covid test and that thing was positive and then I had to isolate for an entire week so I very quickly became well acquainted with this apartment because I was forced to stay inside of

it I've been living life I have been very active I've been walking a lot I've been going on like very long walks because it's the best time of the year when it's spring and it's not too hot and you can go on a walk and not be dying I'm a little bit nervous for summertime I'm not going to lie but it's very interesting I've lived here for almost a month now it's literally flew by but this place definitely already feels like home I have been trying to like familiarize myself with the area and everything and

when you move there's certain habits that you need to reform like figure out what grocery store you want to use unpacking has been quite a process I literally just the other day got rid of oh no I still have one more box technically that I just can't empty because I don't have anywhere to put anything I've been spending a lot of time by myself which has its pros on its cons because as we all know I'm somebody who loves to be alone I just find that I really prefer to be alone rather than to be

in the company of people that I don't feel 100% comfortable around if that makes sense like I don't want to feel like I am masking any part of my personality I'd rather just be alone and there's few people who I who I feel that with so so big Maple waffle taste bite-sized waffle cereal Big Maple waffle taste so yeah I do love spending time with myself I love being in my own company but also with that comes loneliness but I think a big part of the loneliness it's like looking at other people hanging out with

their friends or significant others or families or whatever and kind of feeling that like fomo but at the same time I love to be alone yesterday went to the park by myself and just sat there for hours and read wrote my journal and watched people and it was great played with the grass I'm just trying to really enjoy the time that I'm spending with myself because though it can get lonely I have just really been trying to be present and appreciate everything that I have I'm going to go put clothes on apartment is still very

much a work in progress this is my favorite part of it so far um because as you saw I built this cinet myself oh look at and these are the flowers that Avery crocheted me that I will literally cherish forever this is one of my favorite things anyone has ever given me I currently have all of my books right here as you can see cuz I don't have a place for them because I'm using the bookshelf that they run as a shoe rack look at my little plants these are actually fake but I got them

from this place called a floral which has like more realistic looking fake plants they still look a little bit fake but I don't care I've tried having real plants don't judge me for having fake plants I tried to have real plants several times in my old apartment and every time first time killed them second time killed them third time they attracted bugs and I was like I'm sick of this CU I like to open the window sometimes to let fresh air in and then little bugs fly in and if there's real plants then they go

into the plants and they start populating and I don't with that but anyways I had to build this Pantry because there's very limited kitchen storage space in this apartment even less so than my last apartment which that is one thing that I'm really looking forward to one day of having a actual home is having a big kitchen I just want a Big Bright Airy kitchen but yeah built this added those plants interior designer M living room not much to see there's just I separated my couch into two parts because it was too big my TV

is currently on this little bench then we have this long hallway which is my favorite part of the apartment CU I get to strut down it like I'm in a fashion show and also dance down it which is really fun yeah that's all you need to see one fun little side effect of this illness I had was that I'm still Weeks Later choking on mucus and I just had a very humbling experience of coughing it up and then spinning it into my own hair so yeah that was um not fun guys seriously thank you guys

so much for watching and to those of you who are very supportive thank you I really really really genuinely bottom of my heart appreciate it I'll see you guys in my next video oh pery Came to Say Goodbye bye-bye everybody thank you for watching my mom's video [Music]