Dr. Wayne Dyer: The Forgiveness That Changed His Life Forever

If you shield the mountain from the windstorms, you'll never see the beauty of the carvings. So the storms of our life uh if we try to shield ourselves from the storms of our lives, we don't get to see the beauty of the carvings of what those storms bring for us. And virtually every spiritual advance, not virtually, every spiritual advance that you make in Your life that I've made in my life has been preceded by a fall of some kind or another. Let's get centered. Take a couple deep breaths. And of course there's a line that

says u if you knew and the word knew is very important um because that means there's an absence of doubt. If you knew who walked beside you at all times On this path that you have chosen, you could never experience fear or doubt again. And so I always walk out and just give a a sense of gratitude for uh being able to do this and having it come out and having the memory to remember things and uh and the vocabulary to make them come out and the education to make it happen and so on. That

in in my training with the I am discourses um one of the things that St. Germaine says Is that um it's only one person in a million which means there's only 300 people in America uh if those statistics are correct that actually uh go on their knees every day and give thanks for their I am presence and stay in a state of gratitude for the the for the God that they are and um very often we give gratitude for the nice things that happen and for the nice People that show up and for all the

bounty that is our lives and so on. But to give thanks for um for your excitement for who you are. So that's how I'm starting this morning. I guess it's um God, we're back in Greece or something. It was just so wonderful to be back in Greece. I I was here in 19 uh 1982 and ran that Greek marathon and um A marathon to Athens. And I remember my time in contrast to uh the guy who's running for vice president of the United States. I don't know if you heard that story or not, but he

said that he ran a marathon and they asked him how much how what time was Paul Ryan, what was his time. Now, I've run seven marathons. I I know my times Certainly within a minute or two. And he said on the radio that his time was 2 hours and just 50ome minutes, just under 3 hours. and then they looked it up. Problem with today is that everything that you ever say or do is Runners World magazine has every marathon that has ever been run and the time and who ran it. So, uh, they looked it

up and he was he was an hour and 20 minutes off of his time. I ran it in four hours and something. I don't know. I could go into a rant right now real real easy and I've got one side of me saying and then another this is being recorded. It's I guess I just like the truth so much that uh beauty is truth. Truth is beauty. And that's all there is to know on earth and all you need to know. Ode on agreion. Okay, I won't go there. I um I was different. I'm going

to talk a little bit about uh what I wrote about in u the last couple of months. Um, I can see clearly now. I've looked back at the uh most significant events of uh of my life. The ones that came to me in this um this 60-day period of writing every Single day, five, six, seven hours a day. Uh just being called to do it and couldn't take a day off under any conditions. Um Serena was there. There she is. Uh and um it was just it was just like such a calling that uh I

I'm still just uh thrilled by it that uh when something like this happens cuz at the age of 72 You think well you know maybe like everybody else my age um they've just sort of retired you know and even the concept doesn't even come into I don't even know what to do with that concept and and retired to what you know it I I I think about when Mktanander was passing and uh all of his devotees were around his butt and he knew and he had told them he was he was leaving and they were

begging him not to go please don't go swami please don't go master and he Said don't be silly where would I go where is there to go there's nowhere to go I'm already here and And I think about that when I was doing the writing. But then there's the linear part of you that says, "Yeah, but you know, you're 72 and it's uh it's the twilight of your life. Um and then you realize there is no twilight of your life. Your life is infinite, which I've been speaking about yesterday for a couple of hours." So,

um To have that um that profound experience of just one day just deciding that I was just going to start writing and then 60 days later 110,000 words have been written by hand. That's that's uh that's a lot of writing by hand. In fact, uh I even now when I pick up the pen, it's still I can still feel and remember it because it was just there was just so much of it. And it was such an intense and wonderful experience and and I was wondering why am I recalling these Things that I'm recalling? Why

why aren't I recalling something else? What are the significant things that I'm recalling? Um so I didn't I didn't start with my uh with my conception. Um, but I've thought about it based upon conversations I've had with my own mother about um how I got into this world and how desperately she did Not want me to be into this world. Um, and how she tried to make that not happen. um and and what a hardship and so on, what that was. And and I think about um conversations I've had. Uh I even had with Serena

one time when she told me that uh you know, I said, "If you don't like the way I'm parenting you, if you don't like The father I am, then uh you shouldn't have picked me." She said, "You want to run that one by me one more time? What? I I picked you. You're telling me I picked you to be my father?" I said, "Yes." You pick mom to be your mother. And um if you don't like the way I'm doing this business of parenting, then you should be really looking at yourself and saying, "Why did

I make a choice like this?" She actually saying that people choose their own parents. I said, "Of course, we all, you know, in a world of spirit, we make decisions about what we need to do to in order to get here." She said, "So, I picked you?" I said, "Yeah." She said, "I must have been in a hurry." I said, "Well, when you're making decisions like that, you got to really be careful about it. So, don't be blaming me. This is just I'm just doing The way I just doing what I know how to do."

And I think of and I've told this story before of a conversation I must have had myself with uh u with God when I came into this world and that um and like why would I even pick the father that I picked you know uh who would uh be such an abusive man and then and then and then leave and and never show up can and many of you know the story of uh an Abduct there's a whole movie about it uh called my greatest teacher um about how I went to my ended up at

my father's grave. I'm not going to tell that whole long story because it would take an hour to do it and I have so many other things I want to speak about today. Um but it was it was in getting to my father's grave 10 years after he passed away and standing there on his grave and I had gone to his grave um to do something else on his grave And I ended up uh being called back to his grave site as I was driving away and I had never seen this man and he had

been dead 10 years before I got to his grave in Buxy, Mississippi. And I stood there on his grave and sat there and sobbed and uh asked talked had this long conversation went away was pulled back and everything changed. It was one of the signal experiences of my life and I said to my father Melvin Lyall Dyer 1914 to 1964 died at the age of 49 cerosis of the liver. Um, from this moment on, I I send you love and I walked away from his grave and I said, "I forgive you." And um, and up

till that time, I had just been so angry all the time and bad dreams and waking up in a sweat and and just fighting and having these uh just going on these long searches for him. It's a long story. I've written a whole book about it if you want to look it up. My My Greatest Teacher and you can see the film. Uh but getting there was uh it changed everything in my life. I walked away from his grave on the 30th of August 1974 at the age of 34. Um I was overweight. I was

uh drinking. I was uh eating poorly. Um my writing was um I was stuck. Um I was writing textbooks. I'd written three textbooks, all of which had been wellreceived. But I I really wanted to Write for the public and I just couldn't get it. and I couldn't um and I walked away from his grave site and um I went back to uh New York where I was a professor and I um it was it was the 30th of August and it was um I had two weeks we had 17 days before the the semester started

the fall semester where I was teaching and Um, I got on a plane and I flew down to Fort Lauderdale, Florida. Checked into the Spin Drift Motel on A1A between Oakland Park and Sunrise. And um I sat down and wrote uh Euronia sounds in 14 days beginning to end cover to cover without uh hardly the only notes I had were the lectures I had been giving for the previous three years on tape that I had recorded and I went through them all and I just wrote it and uh and I quit drinking and I started

running. I got into I started exercising and changed everything around. I was in A terrible marriage. I got out of it. Um, ended up meeting the woman who was to be the mother of seven of my children. Um, everything changed. Everything shifted. Today, Euronius owns is in 47 languages. Somewhere between 70 and 100 million copies of it in print all over the world. The number one book in the whole world for the entire decade of the 1970s according to the New York Times. um everything changed. Forgiveness and um Mark Twain said, "Forgiveness is the fragrance

that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it." That beautiful. Forgiveness is the fragrance that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it. That is when you can send love where hatred seems to be or where anger seems to be or revenge has been called for. So if there's a lesson in that for me this was my greatest teacher. This Was the person who really turned my entire life around. And who's to say that uh you know in when we talk infinity remember I talked a lot about infinity yesterday. Infinity means

no beginning, no end. As soon as you put a stop to it, it's no longer it's no longer infinity. It's becomes finite. The soul is infinite. You can't stop it any place. You can't put it into a box. You can't put a label on it. You can't It just Wants to expand. That's all it wants to do. So, who's to say that my father didn't sign up before he got here in order to have three sons and have the youngest one um experience what he experienced in order that you might have had some kind of

a great uh awakening yourself. So, many of you have just from things that you've heard me say or books that I've written or or so on. and and it's like it's there's like an infinity to it All. And who am I to be judging any of this? The course of miracles says in order to uh forgive uh you must have blamed and if you don't blame then you don't have any forgiveness to do. It just all took place exactly the way it was supposed to take place. And if we can get that hatred and that

bitterness and that vengeance and that revenge out of our hearts and just send love because that's all you have to give Away because that's all you have to give away. If that's what's inside of you, that's all you have to give away. And um as I was telling that story to Ramdas uh at dinner one night in in Maui and he leaned over to me and you know he speaks very softly and very very slowly and uh and he said I just don't think much about forgiveness. He said I don't think that any of us

have the right to be forgiving anyone else. And when you think about what the core says about it Absolutely right if you don't have if you don't do any blaming there's no nothing to forgive. So anyway, I I think about that, you know, that whole experience that an act of forgiveness and I was drawn there by a series of spiritual events that took place in order for me to get there that are just beyond anything that a linear mind can recognize and explain how I got there. It's impossible if we try to figure it out

physically how I might Have showed up at my father's grave. And yet I did. And um with God all things are possible. Obviously I had to you know I had to do make a U-turn in my life back in 1974 and uh and do an about face and get going in a different direction because I was my body was going to give out. I was overweight. I was eating just awful greasy kinds of food. um not exercising just um and even a friend of mine cardiologist said he said if you Continue to conduct your life

the way you're doing eating greasy cheeseburgers and French fries and you know and I used to like them the shiny buns that were better you know the greasier they were I know see some this lady over here is wincing but when they had the grease on them and it's all smooth on there oh man those were the best and and I'd usually top it off with a hot foot sundae or something, you know, just uh and you can you can only do that so long. And um and I wouldn't have lived long enough to to

do any of the things that I had to do. I I had to be turned around. It had to be turned around. Now, this I say this to you because um when you get to a certain place, a certain time, certain age in your life, you begin to look back and you begin to see certain kinds of events and things and many times they aren't what you wish they would have been, you know. Um, so I always think of um a Conversation that I had with God about um picking my father um and my father

having the conversation with God deciding what he was going to do in this lifetime and maybe the only thing that he came into this lifetime to do because don't forget it's an infinity so he's got trillions more lives to live if he wants to. It's like there's no end to it and there's no beginning to it. And we know this is true. We know that infinity means no form and It's always expanding. So it's like it's it's an infinity. It's not going to stop anywhere any more than the universe is going to stop. And where

do you think the universe stops and what's at the end? You know, is there a wall there, you know, like what's on the other side of the wall? And how did it get there? And who built it? What's it made out of? And will it wear out? And it was like that that concept of of of infinity is just so tough for us to grasp and get a Hold of in our linear it started here and it ends here mentality. So the only way you can get to a a grip on it is to um

I'll be reading some poetry from Roomie um this week probably even some today. Um and I mean he talks about this this journey that we're taking. He said you've taken a journey from reason or from seed to uh from seed to reason from seed to reason. You are a seed and you've gone to reason and he said that journey was Not taken by going from step to step or from going from place to place. You don't get to the place where you are were a seed and now you're reasoning by moving someplace by doing something

that that takes place internally. Isn't that a wonderful poetic concept? From seed to reason. It doesn't happen from place to place from time to time. I'll read that poem to you when we're in Ephesus. It's uh in fact I read it to my daughter and her girlfriend in London The other day. They were getting ready to go out. I said, "Wait, before you go, this is your lesson for the day. Both of them, we're in London. We have to listen to this And so I read it to them. I said, "Now, what does that mean?

I don't know where I have to go." I said, "No, no, no. What does it mean? No, let's talk about what is you were a seed and now you're a reasoning being. You didn't do it by Going from step to step and place to place, from thing to thing." Anyway, so um I think about having a uh a conversation with God about what am I doing here? My father's main only purpose may have been to get here to uh get one person to understand forgiveness from a profound and deeply moving experience of um that will

alter his life and in fact will possibly alter the entire Consciousness of the of the of the planet and the universe. Possibly could do that. You know, certainly you can affect millions and millions and millions of people all over the all over the globe. Um, just by coming in here and being an for uh, you know, for 49 years, you know, cuz my mother always had this conversation with me when I cuz she was always very upset whenever I would try to find my father. I'd go on these long trips to try to find him

because he married like seven different women and just was, you know, and each one of them that I met and talked to all confirmed the same thing that my mother said. He definitely was an Uh, in the sense that we put definitions on it. I think he was a divine spiritual being who came into this world to uh teach me something about forgiveness and Perhaps help you to to do the same thing because if there's anybody there's a guy sitting here right in the front row. Um what's your first name? What is it? >> Mike,

grab Can you Can you come on up here? Um I wasn't going to do this, but I guess I am. Um, so my father making the decision that he made and my showing up at his grave. Um, this gentleman that you're about to see with the funny colored arms. Um, Michael. Hey, Michael. Thanks, man. Um, just in five minutes, three minutes, just tell them what you told me. >> You got to forgive me. My uh voice is a little on the sore side. >> I'm not going to forgive you for that. >> Beautiful. Uh anyway,

uh after watching my greatest teacher, um Dr. Der story was such a influence to me that um I got to see uh I haven't seen my father in 30 32 years. And after uh hearing his story and the the fact that your father had Passed by the time you actually got to see him uh encouraged me to Google him and I had I have no idea how to I had no idea how to contact him. So for 95 cents I googled his name and um it gave me his address, his email address, his phone number.

So, I sent him an email and uh he responded and within a week uh I had I had recently quit my job because I just wanted to try something new in my life. >> Closer. >> All right. >> Is that a little better? >> Yeah. >> All right. Good deal. >> I just >> All right. And uh I wanted to try something new in my life and uh I had quit my job. We had been embracing uh the teachings of of the things that you've been saying. And uh anyway, he responded and within 5 days

I uh drove up. It was about a thousand miles away And uh we live in Sedona, Arizona and he lives in uh middle of Kansas somewhere and we drove there. I had more in common with him in 3 days than I had with my stepdad in 30 years. And uh just the the the synchronicities of that have followed that have just been an amazing amazing experience to me. Um uh we had already had this trip planned and uh uh his uh his sister lives in Rome. So she was able to come get us from the

airport, supply us a place to live, take Us to the boat, and we had already had everything already planned. So >> this is your aunt? >> My aunt. Yeah. His sister. So it was like what what are the odds that you know she was living in Rome of all places and everything is meant to be. So, you saw the film and you decided to do it after seeing the film. >> Yes, sir. Definitely. Definitely. And >> And how do you feel about your father? >> Uh, he's an amazing person. >> He's amazing person. Uh, everything

that was odd about me with my my known family uh came into place when I met him >> because everything that was different in me from my family was similar in him. >> So, it's uh I'm really glad that I reached out. And how does he feel about you? >> Um, pretty much the same. You know, >> we just connected and uh >> uh he's coming to visit as soon as I get back from this trip >> and we're probably never going to stop talking to each other now. So, I was very fortunate. >> Thanks,

Michael. >> So much. Thank you. God bless you. Yeah. Thanks. So, uh, you know, in an infinite world, um, my father probably knew that. Who knows? I think about this because Um my mother who just passed two months ago, I always say to her, it's like, when you get there, I do you think uh you think Lyall, it's my father's name. You you think he's going to be there with you? She said, well, if he is, I've got a surprise for him. And this was just a few days before she died, you know. My mother

never swore ever. I mean, it Was really really rare for her even to say hell. You know, she was such a very proper lady, but uh when I would talk to her about forgiveness and all of that, she was always say uh you know, he left you, but I lived with that bastard. I know what he was like. And um anyway, so I think about myself as having a conversation with my father or with with God rather before I'm to come into this world. And in this conversation with God, I say uh I would Like

to come here into this uh physical domain. And God says, "Well, what would you like to do?" Then I said, 'Well, I would like to uh I would like to teach self-reliance, but I mean, he said, "But for a whole lifetime? You want to spend an entire lifetime uh teaching self-reliance?" And I said, "Yeah, that's really what I want to do." So God says, "Uh, well, then we better get your little ass into an orphanage Because, uh, when you're there, you'll you'll have to rely upon yourself and you'll learn that and you'll get that and

and once you know it and once you've experienced it as a as a child, um, no one will ever be able to take that away from you. So I look upon my 10 years in foster homes and in orphanages and so on as um what it was necessary for me to experience to go through in my life in order to be able to be here on This stage today um and to write the books that I've written and so on. And I urge you to do the same thing with uh especially the uh the things

that you have labeled hardships or the things that you think shouldn't have happened to you. that um Elizabeth Kubler Ross, a dear friend um who lost so much in her life when she had a fire. She lived in Arizona and all of her things burnt down. She called me and she had some Autographed books of mine and she asked if I would replace them. And I loved this woman. She was a beautiful soul. She was a triplet from Switzerland. Um and she wrote um so much on death and dying and so on and the whole

grieving process. And I used to talk to her about that that it's uh because one of the flaws of self-actualizing people according to Maslo is that they get over death almost as if it didn't happen. Um and I thought That would happen with my mother. But it uh it isn't that I walk around with some deep sadness. I see you because your mom who was with us just a short time ago has left as well. Um but it's not a sadness. It's a um it's just an exquisite kind of mysterious feeling, you know, that I

can't put my finger on, but it can bring me to tears, you know, very very quickly. Uh but Elizabeth Kubler Ross said, u if you Shield the mountain from the windstorms, you'll never see the beauty of the carvings. So the storms of our life uh if we try to shield ourselves from the storms of our lives, we don't get to see the beauty of the carvings of what those storms bring for us. And virtually every spiritual advance, not virtually, every spiritual advance that you make in your life that I've made in my life has Been

preceded by a fall of some kind or another. I always give the example of when I was in high school, I was on the track team and I was uh the high jumper on the track team among other things. And uh we used to the bar would be set up here. Now I don't really jump very high cuz I'm white. White men don't jump. You probably saw the film. Uh but uh and we used to jump against when the when the kids uh the Black kids from the other schools would come to ours, you know,

they'd set the bar up here and I'd look at that like I couldn't pull vault over that, you know. But anyway, I was able to uh to to jump a certain height. I wasn't I don't want to give a Paul Ryan thing. I think I jumped 7 foot6, maybe 7 foot 7 or maybe it was 5 foot1. It was uh it was in there somewhere. stop me from going on this rant. Okay. So, um anyway, the bar would be up here. I'm going to get back here and you run up to the this is a

metaphor for what I'm speaking about and you run up to the bar and you run up and get down as low as you can, as fast as you can. And in the process of getting down low, it would allow you to propel yourself over the bar. So the low points of our life are the times when we should be in a state of gratitude. As hard as that is for us to do, but that's what an enlightened being does is they begin to See that, you know, the these low points in our life. I've been

through some low points in my life. Um, very dramatic low points when my wife and I separated 12 years ago. I mean, I was in a it was the closest thing that I could call it to a depression for months, months, and months. and out of that depression and out of that deep hurt and sadness about breaking up our family in a sense because we're not really broken up but uh I was able to To write the power of intention which is the next book after erroneous sounds that just soared and just took off and

sells in the millions all around the planet. Um and it came from a place of compassion that it's when you are in those low points that you you have a tendency to reach out to other people with more compassion and more love and more understanding because of what you're going through yourself. So that um you know I think and this is true we could give I could give a thousand examples of that but the whole idea of it is that um these low points the struggles that we go through in our lives are really significant

things and look back at them and um you can really you can do an awful lot of growing from them. So 10 years or so in a in an orphanage and and I look back at the u At the at the times and the one of the events that I remember that I wrote about was um the only reason I was in a foster home at that time was because um it was a there was a depression in the in the world and my mother she you know there was no there was no aid to

dependent children. There was no government money for that. There was a war. Uh this was 1942, 1941,42. I mean, Um and so it was really just basically churches and so on that just created organizations to help parents who have children and you can't feed them because there was no food. They people were it wasn't there was coupons, you know, and um there was no there weren't things like food stamps and so on. um things were rationed, you know, there was just uh that's what it was like at that time. And we're little babies and They

have to be fed and and so these churches would set up these organizations and I was just one of those along with my brother and I was placed into this home and um I was out in Mount Clemens, Michigan. And so and it was a home filled with people like this, like me. I mean, children who uh it wasn't that their parents didn't want them or didn't love them, they just couldn't afford them and then they couldn't feed them and so they got help Wherever they could. Um, and one of my earliest memories is of

being in this place and they would new kids would come in all the time and they would always call for me and this was before I started school. So I must have been four, five, something like that. And um and there was a little girl named Martha who they call who had come in and she was crying and crying and sobbing because she was going to be left there, dropped off at This place. And uh and they said and Mrs. Scarf, the lady who ran the place, said u ran the place. It was her home.

She said um go find Wayne. And they went and got me. And I started talking to Martha. I can remember my little conversation with this little girl saying, um, um, this is a great place. You're going to love it here. First of all, there's no parents. There's nobody to tell you what to do. You can do anything you want. And we've got apple trees in the back. We've got cherry trees back there. We got a chicken coupe. We actually can see little baby chickens being born. And you know, I and I and I still look

back on those years of being in this place as you know, you know, when you're living in an orphanage, you don't wake up every day and say, "Oh my god, I'm an orphan again today. How did this happen to me? This isn't fair. Other people aren't. They get to have things. They're driving around in a Mercedes and I have a wagon. It's not right." You don't do that. You don't do that till you're 40. And then you look back and you say, "Why are things not working for you?" And how come your life is so

messed up? Well, what do you expect from me? I was an orphan and all that. But when you were an orphan, you just got up and you just live today. You didn't go around putting Labels on yourself and being, you know, and uh and you learn to rely on yourself, you know. There's so so many wonderful things can happen, you know, in in in that out of that experience. So um I would look back on that and I and I realized as I was writing um I can see clearly now I would just meditate every

morning before I would write as I as I did this morning for almost two hours I was doing the I am meditation and as I was Meditating um and when I would do this kind of a meditation I would just um before I would write I would look at um what are the significant things what do you remember you know about because I honestly as I look back at my life now and and so many of the things that happened like how I ended up at my father's grave um the whole movement uh towards St.

Francis in my life when I wasn't Catholic and had nothing to do and yet I've been to Aisi, you know, on Three occasions and wrote a book there and then just get called there. My calling by Lasu to come and to live the Dao for the full year of my 66th year. uh uh and uh you know it's like how did I get called and what what were the circumstances and I've been relaying all of this but I was trying to go way back because I honestly look back now and feel like I've been in

some kind of training program. Um and I call I said to you yesterday I Mean I call it like ascended master training. Um and and it's like as I look back on my life I was I was different than the other kids. It was um I was the only kid in um in my elementary school that um when we had dance class, you know, we had to go to during gym and then we had to go to dance and we had to dance. We had to do square dance and we had to do the box,

you know, remember the box? Do you remember that? Did you have to do that? and and they would and they girls would line up on one side of the gym and the boys on the other. I'm talking very young and uh I was always the kid and I was very popular in school. Um as people just looked up to me as I was just the leader in the classroom. I'm just this is not something where I'm assaging my ego. I'm just telling you the truth. Um, But I was the only kid who would ever dance

with the fat girls. I couldn't stand to see the fat girls. Not get uh I tell you their names, but I'm that just uh this is recorded and so so I don't want to I don't want to say her name and her name and her name. And so, um, but I would always go pick them and then everybody say, "Oh, Wayne's dancing with so and so." And it's like um when when I moved in with my uh my mom Um I was in a little school. It's called Marquette. Marquette Elementary School. Marquette days. Dear Marquette

days, friendship born to live always. I don't know where that came from. Why does that stuff stick in there? Anyway, that was our little school song. Um, I don't think I've sang that since the third grade or fourth grade or whatever it was. Uh, but um, they said one day that this new girl had come to uh, School and I can say her name. Her name was Roda Rose and they all of the kids were going around talking about Roa and don't talk to Roa, you know, and you don't want to hang out with Roa.

Roa is someone that you just don't want to be with. And I kept saying, "What what's wrong with Roa?" You know what? Well, we just heard, but she's a Jew. And I said, "What is that? I had no idea what a Jew was. Never heard the word before." Um, I said, "Well, all we know Is that it's just not good, you know, and you don't hang out with a Jew because she's a Jew." And that would truly this is what was going on was in Detroit on the east side of Detroit. So I found out

where Roa lived and went right over to Roa's house. I wanted to know what is a Jew and and and they yeah the parents looked like everybody else's parents that I knew and the house looked the same and u Roa was just She was just a nice girl that's all. So I would dance with Roa and and I Roa only lived a couple of blocks away from where I lived. So I would go to school with her and I'd walk in with her and and then another kid was um a new kid came from the

school from a Catholic school. His name was Guy Cordy. K O R T E. And um no one would talk. Nobody liked Guy because he was very loud and he was And nobody wanted him to be in in the group, you know, with whatever the group was there in in the fourth grade and fifth grade. Um, something in me as I look back on it just said, um, if nobody's going to allow this guy to get in, then he's going to be my friend. And if he was my friend, then it would have to be

everybody else's friend because everybody wanted to be my friend for Some reason. So it was um this was the way my life was as a as a young kid. And I when I say to you I was different, but I think I was different because I was in training for something. I mean there were there were things that would happen that would bother me that didn't bother anybody else. Um, and I mean I I was dancing with my the girl that I was gaga over. Her name was Erlene Wentz at my 30th high school reunion

about 20 years ago. And um then we're dancing and I was telling her what a crush I had on her and how pretty she was and she was this and that. And she she said, "Wayne," she said, "the only thing I remember about you is that you were the most generous person I ever knew." And she said, "I still remember it to this day." She said, "You used to give your lunch away to any kid who forgot their lunch. And If you had a little bit of extra lunch money, you always gave it away." And

um when you get to talk to my daughter Serena um she'll tell you and anyone in here who knows me, Elizabeth uh and Reed and Maya um Nancy that that is um that's just like a whether it's a flaw or whatever it is, but that's just I have always been somebody who gives it away who is not attached to it and wants Somebody else to have it. This I think is a part of the training that that I have been involved in in my life of um not trying to tell you that I'm better than

anybody else. It was um as I look back and see clearly now, it was it was how I was being groomed for the work that I do and what I'm doing here today and what I will continue to be doing uh as as as a young person. Um in the fourth grade at Arthur Elementary School before I went to a lot of schools to a Different school all every year. Um, a lot of moving around. Uh, and in Arthur Elementary School, we had a teacher, her name was Mrs. Engel. And the school ended at 3:15

every day. And Mrs. Engel would read to us from 2:45 until 3:15 every day. But the only reason that she would read to us is if the class behaved itself during The day. So if people got noisy or gave her a hard time or rambunctious or whatever you do when you're in the fourth grade to make the teacher mad, um she would just say, "We won't I won't read today." And she only read one book for the whole fourth grade. The book was called The Secret Garden. And I loved this book so much. And what

was being said in this book that um I became the enforcer in the classroom. It's true. I wouldn't let people talk. I wouldn't I'd make them raise their hand if they wanted to go to the bathroom. I wouldn't let them get out of line when we were going from one class to the other. Um, I wouldn't let them go to the drinking fountain unless they got permission from Mrs. Engel. I mean, I was like her cop, you know, her little policeman in the in the room. And if anybody started to talk out of hand, I'd

Look at them and say, and they all thought that I was just like the teacher's pet and that I was just trying to kiss the teacher's butt and all of this kind of stuff and all this what they called brown-nosing at the time. Um, I wasn't doing anything like that. I didn't care whe the teacher liked me or not. It was irrelevant to me. All I wanted to do is make sure I got to hear The Secret Garden. How many have read The Secret Garden or Seen the movie? Yeah. I recommend it to you because

it's the story of a little girl named Mary who um who is an orphan. And I had this was fourth grade was the first year I lived with my mother. Um and um she lived in England and she there was this um this this door. This is what I remember. I haven't looked at this book. I I looked up I looked it up as I was Writing. I can see clearly now. I looked it up. Um but um and I read a little bit about it and it really brought back some incredible memories. But it

was like there was this this doorway to this place and when you went into this doorway like everything was possible. All things were possible. I mean and magical things happened and like it's sort of like a Harry Potter kind of thing, you know, just this very exciting Exquisite miracles would happen. People she had a little friend I can't remember his name. Anybody remember the little boy's name Dumbroth or something? I think it was a English name. Um, but anyway, they uh and and she just like to took this little crappy little kid who had a

bad attitude and was nasty all the time and she was like uh she turned him into uh she was like Polyiana, you know, every everybody always complained about Polyiana, you know. Oh, you're so Polianaish. I say Polyiana. I mean, everybody in the town was miserable and the whole time everybody was broke. Nothing was working. Everybody was mad at everybody. This little girl comes to town and after she's there for a few months, the whole town is happy and joyful and everything. I said, "Pana, hell, I'll take Polyiana any day. I love the idea of being

Polyiana, making everybody happy, having that kind of energy and so on." This is what excited Me and this is what I knew how to do as a child. And for some reason, I would be out of 30 kids in the classroom, I would be the one that um would make sure that everybody was included, that would be conscious of uh uh would would have kindness in my heart for some reason. And it's like and I speak to that. So then I moved in with um my I had a stepfather and my stepfather's name was Bill

Drury and he was an alcoholic, bad alcoholic. He was my father in another body. Abusive, nasty. I always told my mother, you know, that life gives exams. It's like algebra, you know, if you don't pass it, you got to take it over. So you didn't pass it, you had to take it over. And so she did it again, you know, and we kind of that's what she did. Anyway, he was a bad dude. Um, a nice man when he didn't drink, but he always drank. Um, Re literally would have a case of beer delivered to

our house every day from the Kaju pantry shelf and I would drive around the block and wait for him for his car to be gone. He'd go to the bar and he'd come home. He drank and drove all the time. Drove home drunk all the time. had a 1952 Chevy. I can remember exactly what it looked like. And uh and and so I would just wait and wait because I didn't want to go in the house Because if I went in the house, I'd have to take his grief and his grief could sometime be pretty

bad, be physical and so on. So um so I lived with an alcoholic for about five years. And my decision in living with an alcoholic was to to not to not drink. So I took a vow not to drink till I was in my 20s till I was 21. And I didn't at all as a teenager. I was the designated driver through all through high school myself. I was just appointed one. And then um but but the thing about my stepfather, he was he was Catholic and he had gone to the University of Detroit, very

big on on Catholicism and so on. And he um he had a uh there was a there was a show on television and I'm going to see who who's who's old in this room. Um, we had an Admiral TV black and white with a screen about this big. Um, and there was a show, there was a very famous uh, comedian. His name was Uncle Milty. Uh, Milton Burrow, and it was like the biggest show on television. Every Tuesday night, he was Mr. Tuesday night. How many remember Mr. Tuesday night? Come on, all you old folks,

get your hands up there. Okay. So now I don't know if any of you remember there was a show that played opposite um Milton Burl show because Milton Burl show was like the number one rated show in the entire country every year. Uh but there was a show that played opposite and I never watched the Milton Burl show. I watched the show that played opposite it. Anybody know Fulton Bishop Sheen? Fulton Bishop Sheen or Bishop Fulton Sheen rather Bishop Fton Sheen. And the show was called anybody. That's right. Who said that? All the way In

the back. All right. Life is worth living. That was the name of the show. I went crazy for Life is Worth Living. Every all of my friends, they would all watch Uncle Milty, all of the crazy things that they would do on the Milton Burl show. And uh I remember cuz Bishop Bishop was a Catholic bishop and my stepfather was Catholic and he would turn this thing on once in a while. Then I just got hooked on it and I I really wanted to watch it because every week it Was a show about life being

worth living. And I'm I was this was 1952. I was 12 years old. And this is what I would watch. I would make sure that I was home every night. And believe it or not, I would take notes on this show about Life is Worth Living. And that show received an Emmy, the very first Emmy. And Milton Burl show didn't get it. And anybody remember Milton Burl's comments When he was told that Bishop Sheen got an MA for his show and he didn't? He said he had better writers, Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John. That was

Milton Burl's response. So, I would watch these shows and I'm just giving a few of these examples. Life the uh I can I can see clearly now. It takes me right up to there's about 60 of these kinds of events. But one of the one one that I distinctly remember is the the the Tonight Show started at that time as Well, 1952, 1953, 12 years old, 13 years old. And the host of the Tonight Show was Steve Allen. And the Tonight Show went till 1:00 in the morning from 11:30 to 1 every night with that

cast of characters. Louis Nye, you remember? And um Don Knots. Uh some of you look at me like who is he? What is he talking about? Uh, now I used to watch that show night after night after night after night and I'd get up the next night. I'd stay up till 1:00 in the morning and then I'd always have trouble getting up the next morning. Uh, but because I had a paper route that I had to deliver the the Detroit Free Press in the morning and we had to go at 6:00, you know, so I

had to deliver papers from 6:00 to 7:00 and then get to school by 8:00. That was my routine as a young kid. We all had paper routes. I had two paper routes. I had the Detroit News in the afternoon and The Detroit Time, uh, the Detroit Free Press in the morning. So, um, so I would watch the show and my, you know, my mother would have to get me out of bed and it was such a struggle. I'd go out and and I would watch and I would tell her that when I do the Tonight

Show, um, and this is how I talked because my mother will do I was going to say my mother will tell you this, you can call her, but uh, you'll have to get her from A different channel. Uh, and I would uh I would I would say to her when I do the Tonight Show myself, uh, I wouldn't say it that way and I would talk differently about this and all and I used to always talk about doing the Tonight Show that when I do it and I and I would literally this this is when

I talk about this training that I'm in and I just wonder if any of you re react to this or whatever is that um, I have this sort of this knowing within me Even as a young boy that If I put my mind on something, um, I could just make it happen in my mind. And if I knew if I could make it happen in my mind, I could make it happen in reality. Uh, and I was doing that kind of stuff all the time. I I can remember being in classroom and my eighth grade

teacher, Mrs. Florence Fer saying uh and I'd be just looking out the window and I'd just be in one of those places where I could just uh let my imagination just run wild and she'd say, "Wayne, would you care to rejoin the class, please?" And I would say, "No. Do I have to? Because I already know what you're talking about. But we, you know, we don't need to do long division 14 times in a row to get it. I got it. You know, I can do that. And um, you know, all of that stuff was

just so simple. You know, mathematics and You know, the u, you know, spelling words. I won the spelling bee every year in my class. Uh, so all of that stuff was just so simple, you know. It's like if you if you know how to do if you know how to divide a fraction, you don't have to do it 50 times to prove that you know it. and that's what they would have us doing. So I would just leave. Um so I would say this kind of thing about then my mother would say, "Oh, you're such

a dreamer. You just always Think that you can do anything." And it's like, "You're not going to be on the Tonight Show. You don't do the Tonight Show. You're a little boy." And you know, and um so fast forward like 25 years to u I don't know 1976 from 1952. That's what 24 years 25 years. And uh I I get called to do the Tonight Show. Um and I'm going to be on with Johnny Carson uh on uh actually the first time I was on I was on with with Shecky Green. I did the show

37 times. U and and so I I got called out there and I was all excited. I I could do two hours on that and I got to stop this because I've got to get to the rest of what I want to talk about. Uh, but the uh, Shecky Green, I get there to the show, they have a I have my own dressing room. I mean, it's just so exciting. I'm going to be on the Tonight Show. And Orson Wells is a guest on the show. And, uh, Robert Blake, uh, guy who got accused of

killing his wife. And the first guest on the Tonight Show, on my very first appearance on the Tonight Show, is Steve Allen. and I walked by and said hello to him and I just froze for a moment. I froze in time because I had already seen myself doing the Tonight Show when I was um 12 years old with Steve Allen and there I was with Steve Allen. And there are so many stories like that in my life And there are stories like that in your life as well. Very often the stories that like this that

we call that Carl Jung called synchronicities very often these stories are uh we just attribute them to just uh oh they're just little circumstances they're just little coincidences and so on but I suggest to you that all of us are in uh ascended master training all of us are because who we Are is infinite. Here's one of my favorite all-time favorite quotes. It's from the sixth president of the United States. Who would that be? That's right. John Quincy Adams. John Quincy Adams wrote this two days before his death. John Quincy Adams is well, but the

house in which he lives at the present time is becoming dilapidated. It's tottering on its foundations. Time and the seasons have nearly destroyed it. Its roof is pretty well worn out. Its walls are much shattered and tremble with every wind. I think John Quincy Adams will have to move out of it soon. But he himself he himself is quite well quite well. Isn't that great? Two days before his death. So that these visions, these thoughts, and you know, there's like There's not one cell left of that little 12-year-old boy who was watching that black and

white Admiral television or who was telling Martha that this was a great place or any of those stories who was trying to who who befriended Roa Rose so that Roa Rose would be a part of our entire classroom and accepted um that all of there's not a cell left in me of that on this planet. And yet that Image, that thing that John Quincy Adams is speaking about. So I talked yesterday about ordinary levels of consciousness, extraordinary levels of consciousness. In order to get to this place, what we have to do is understand that our

total awareness of who we are is called our concept of our self. And our concept of our self is everything that we believe to be true. And if you're here, and most of us are, not always here, but most of us live our lives here at this ordinary level of consciousness that everything that you believe to be true got you to this place. And if you want to get to this place, this extraordinary level of consciousness, you have to do something that St. Germaine says only a handful of people are capable of doing. You must

be willing to change your concept of yourself. You must be willing To change what you believe to be true. That is what is possible or not possible for you. We have a tendency to just attribute things to like science. You know, we'll say, well, science tells us and if it's like if it's not scientific, if there's not evidence for it. The problem with science is that um science is what studies the brain. You know what is the brain capable of? What Is your brain capable of? The only problem is that they use a brain, their

brain to decide what a brain is capable of. So that the brain itself is not wired to be objective about what a brain can do or what it can't do. Right? So that it's sort of like people saying um you know I could get up here and say well everything that I'm telling you is true and you say well how do you know? Well it's in the book. Oh it's in the book. Well who wrote the book? Oh I wrote the book. It's in there. This is uh and so we you have to take and

understand that everything that we have scientific evidence for has been studied by a brain that is studying a brain. And what we have to do is get to a place of awareness in which we're beyond the brain. And the brain can't do this. The brain can't be objective enough to figure out Things because the brain is linear. The brain believes in cause and effect and beginnings and ends and what you can see and what you can touch and what but everything you know it's like you you I had a uh who is a neuro um

uh he's a surgeon uh I was going to say a neurotic surgeon which he is uh but neurosurgeon and he was saying to me one time he lives on Maui and he having uh lunch together and he said uh you know I've been inside a lot of brains you know and Um I've I've never seen this thing that you are calling spirit. I've never seen anything like that inside of a brain. I can tell you about the medulla. I can tell you about this. I'm an expert on the brain. And I said to him, I

said, "Mike," I said, "Um, when you're in there poking around in a brain." Um, have you ever seen a thought? And he said, "No, no, I've never seen that." I said, "But are there such Things?" A brain can't comprehend something that doesn't have a beginning or an end or something linear. So now what we have to do is get to a a different place within ourselves. And this business of moving to a higher level of consciousness is um it's so exquisite and it's so exciting. But it's like it means that um I'll give you an

example of it. It's another one of those things that I wrote About in I can see clearly now. It was 1978. Now um I'd written two books now, Erroneous Sounds and Pulling Your Own Strings. Both of which had topped the bestseller lists and were So I was like this famous young guy who had a big ego. Uh thought it was me. um impressed by myself. Um and people were just um you know giving me all of the attention that you get when you're on bestseller list and doing the Tonight Show and and all Of the

kinds of things that were taking place in my 30s, this little orphan kid from Mount Clemens. Um, so I get invited to Vienna in Austria uh to appear um on a something called a YPO, Young President's Organization uh conference. So I go to this conference and they don't pay you for that but it's like it's just for speaking there but it's just this incredible experience because they have Something like a thousand presidents of companies all who are the who are under the age of 50 with more than I think 50 employees or maybe it's 500

employees I don't know but it was these are presidents of fairly large companies and very influential people and they have this week-long university um and psychology is one of the areas and they have it on economics and in fact the vice president of the United States was there on the same program That I was on uh Walter Manddale who was president vice president of the United States at that time. Uh so it's like it was a very very prestigious thing to be invited to and I was only invited to it and it's considered a great

honor to be invited and speak there. The only reason I was invited there was because I had these two massive huge bestseller bestselling books. So, um, I get there and I'm on a panel and they put me on a panel with two other people and we're Going to talk to these people. Now, the first person that a woman that I was on the panel, her name is Virginia Satir. Uh, Virginia Satir, family therapist, brilliant woman. I'd say I just loved her. She was I I I just didn't feel like I belonged in the same room

with her. She was so bright and and so on. And then uh the other person I was on the panel with um was somebody that I studied when I when I was working on my PhD and who I Adored and respected so much um that I had actually had been teaching. This was 1978. So I had I'd already left the university and I I'd been teaching doctoral students myself uh for six or seven years and um I require his book to be read by virtually all of my classes and I'd studied it in my own

doctoral studies. Uh he had written something on called it's called logootherapy which is the study of meaning in our lives and um and so his name was um Victor Frankl. So, Victor and I are sitting next to each other on this panel. And I'm just in awe, blown away, and feeling like I'm way out of my element here. What am I doing here with this man? If you don't know who Victor Frankle was, look it up. Um, he wrote a book called Man's Search for Meaning. In 1939, he was taken he was a psychiatrist and

living in Berlin. and he um was very prominent and he was Jewish and he was Taken from his home and put into Ovich in Poland. uh and then moved to Dhao where I went uh to visit because of my the influence that he had had on my life and when I went there in 1974 I walked the streets of Dao poked around in those ovens and just uh found myself like I had uh it was it was as if I had been there myself. I mean this was taking place in my own lifetime. I couldn't

imagine that these Kinds of atrocities were taking place. And uh anyway, that's the long story. I could go way off on that as well. Um and I write about all of that, my experience with um uh Anne Frank in Amsterdam and being in her home and feeling the energy and actually just having to actually walk out of her room uh in the attic where she was uh where she was hiding because the energy was so hard that I absolutely could not breathe. I just thought that I was going to my lungs Were going to collapse.

It was so and the same thing was true at Ovitch and the same thing was true in Dhaka especially in Dhao and I wrote about that as well what those experiences meant to me and it takes me back to road a rose back in early 1950s which was only seven years after the end of World War II. So um I I don't know there must have been something in so there I am anyway I'm talking to this audience and Victor Frankle is uh is addressing the Audience and then after I addressed the audience he addressed

Vic Virginia Satir we had a convers Victor and I had lunch afterwards uh at my request and um spoke with a very heavy accent and and he survived five years in a concentration camp. Uh lost everyone else in his family except one sister who had who had gone to Australia. Um lost his whole family, uh parents, wife, all of it. Um and he said something to me that I've never Forgotten. He said when we are when we are faced with situations in our life over which we have no control, we are ultimately challenged to change

ourselves. And if we cannot change ourselves and what we have come to believe is true, we will not survive. And in man's search for meaning, which is required reading, if you're watching this on video, if you're listening Today, you really should read man's search for meaning. It really talks about uh how people were able to survive by just having meaning in their lives. And um I mean it touched me. He touched me so profoundly. He was witty and brilliant and fun and nice and but above all of that he was he was immensely kind. Immensely

kind. And he said um the people who just couldn't find meaning he said we were given a piece we were giving given a bowl of dirty soup dirty Water just dirty water and a floating fish head in a bowl of dirty water. And he said that was our meal for the day. And I was challenged to find beauty in just so touching. It's just uh cuz like that picture is so clear to be able to find beauty in that experience and and he he wrote it down and when Immacul I came on my PBS show

who wrote the book Left to Hell who was A part of the Rwanda Holocaust where they killed a million people in 1994 and she survived and that's another book he's and she asked asked me I wrote the forward to it and I found her and uh and asked Hay House to publish her book and uh it's just one of the most beautiful books you'll ever read in your life and and she asked me for a title and I got the title I gave her for her book came from Victor Frankl because he had said I

was left to tell I was left to tell I survived because I had to tell he had to smuggle out his notes on what he was experiencing in the in the death camps. He had to smuggle them out on on on tissue paper and things in order for it to survive. So, um our our need to have meaning in our lives comes from our the necessity that we have within us to reach an exalted Level of consciousness. We have to be able to uh change our concept of oursel and changing your concept of yourself will

be the biggest challenge you've ever had in your life because you have to change things that you have been told are true and they're not. We have all been led to believe a lie when we see with not through the eye. We've been led to believe a lie. We've been led to believe that who we are is incapable of fulfilling a destiny, a dharma, and Doing things that we thought were absolutely impossible. Um, I have a a quote here. I think in order to reach the truth, this is from a French philosopher named Renee Deart,

who you had quite a bit to say about, didn't you? In your book, Aren't you the lady who gave me the book? Who's the lady? Oh, there you are. Oh my god, you look like Sisters. Renee Deart, I read your book last night. Much of it. Brilliant. Beautifully done. Very well written. What's it called? the light. Who needs light? You might want to get to know this lady. What is your name? Keith Katherine May. Just brilliant. I I know it was a chneled book. Did you write the poetry? Beautiful. In order to reach the truth,

It is necessary at some point in one's life to rid oneself of all of the opinions one has received and to rebuild one's entire system of knowledge from the very foundations. Renee Deart. So, I'm asking you to think about doing that. And I'm going to quickly go through because I've got something else I want to do here this morning. This um the big the biggest lie that you've been given the that you have been raised on, weaned on, that you've raised your children on, that your parents were raised on. Um and so in wishes fulfilled

there are three chapters at the beginning the first three chapters. The first chapter is about changing your concept of yourself. Basically what I'm speaking about here second chapter I call it the highest the higher self. This was all of this was You talk about Katherine your book being chneled. It was this was all just channeled. This was just like I can see clearly now was channeled. all of these experiences. I've only given it three or four here today. Um, and there are 60 as I go through my years in the Navy, my years in high

school, my years in and uh in college, my years in graduate school, my years as a professor, my years getting my books published. I could go for two hours and tell you how the very First book that I how your erroneous got published. In one in two minutes, I can tell you that I was given an appointment to I took the manuscript that I had written in 1974 that I told you about earlier and took it to my my agent RD Pine had arranged for me to have a meeting with a man named Paul Farges

at um at Ty Croll Company in New York City. And I went there and Paul was so depressed and so upset and he was just broken down. Um, and I was a therapist. I had a practice there. And I said, he I was there to have him see if he would be willing to publish my book. So, it was supposed to be about me. And this man was, you could just see he and I forgot about the manuscript. And I spent 3 hours counseling him and talking to him and telling him cuz the night before

his wife had said he wanted to she wanted a divorce and they had two children and he was just so broken up he just didn't know if he could even make It. And we talked for a long time. He became one of my best friends and um I talked to him and helped him through that whole process. And my agent called me after the meeting. He said, "So, how did it go? How was your meeting? are we going to get this book published? You think they'll publish it? And I said, forgot to talk about the

book. Never mentioned it. He was so angry at me. It was the only time he was really angry at me. He said, "Do you know what it took For me to get this appointment for you? How no you're a nobody. Nobody even knows who you are and you're you know, and you you're not talking about the book. You've just blown the biggest opportunity you ever had." That same evening, Paul called Arty and told him, "I don't care what his book's about. I want to publish his book." It's true story. True story. So, it's like when

you forget about yourself. I mean, there's what's the lesson in that, You know, when you let go of what's in it for me and the mantra of the ego is what's in it for me? How much more can I get? What about me? How about me? I want some more. The mantra of the higher self is how may I serve? What may I do for you? And when you do that, everything shows up for you. That's when you follow your excitement. And when your excitement, what did I say yesterday? When you follow your excitement, you

will be supported. And it will be Effortless because you are now aligned with God. That's what God is. Your excitement. What excites you. And what excited me in that moment back in 1975 when I had that meeting with Paul. What excited me was what excited me every day when I had my practice and my patients would come in and I would talk to them is helping somebody to get over what seems like a trauma that is just irresolvable. So back. So the higher self, This this is one of my favorite quotes. It's from Peter Dunov.

He says, "The higher self, our higher self is perfect, omniscient, and almighty, a fragment of God himself, a pure, transparent, luminous quintessence. The creator has planted within every creature a fragment of himself, a spark, a spirit of the same nature of himself. And thanks to his spirit, every creature can become a creator. And this means That instead of always waiting for their needs to be satisfied by some external source, human beings can work inwardly by means of their own thoughts and their will and their spirit to obtain nourishing healing elements they need. And he uses

the word spark and fragment. And that's the higher self. The creator has placed within every creature a spark of himself. You must be like what you came from. I wrote this out two days a month ago. If there is intelligence behind life and there is every reason to believe that there must be then all of that intelligence is innate in each creation of that intelligence. Thus universal mind or the higher self is complete and entire within each of us. We have only to discover it for its power and perfection for it to be ours. So

again if there is intelligence behind life and we all know that there is then that intelligence that is behind life is Innate in each creation of that intelligence. If you come from that intelligence that intelligence must be in you. So God must be in you or whatever you want to call that the divine mind God dao spirit consciousness higher consciousness Sam Louise Wayne call it anything you want. The Dao that can be named is not the Dao. So that intelligence that's now there's a spark of that intelligence in you. And that's usually where I stopped

in my Life until I wrote wishes fulfilled. But the third chapter of wishes fulfilled is called the highest self. And the highest self is when you begin to recognize that that spark can grow to become you. So that that spark which is that little thing that made me say let me dance with the fat girl. That little spark. It's just a spark because then probably right after that I was off being an egoistic little boy, You know, but there was a spark in there. That spark that said, "Let guy Cordy become one of us instead

of us ostracizing him." You know, that little spark that said to Martha, "Come on, we'll have some fun here." You know, that's a spark. And then you go back to just being who you are. But that spark can expand and can grow. And the biggest lie that we've been handled and what we haven't been raised on, I spoke a bit about yesterday, which is the Recognition. Well, Neville puts it this way, who was a big in a big uh influence in my writing of wishes fulfilled. This is the last chapter of uh the power of

awareness. It's a book I gave to each one of my children. Um, and they wrote back and said, "Dad, sounds great, but uh, little steep, little heavy here." I said, "Well, then I have to unhe it, if we will, then I have to lighten it up." And in all of creation, this is the last Chapter. In all of creation, in all of eternity, in all the realms of your infinite being, the most wonderful fact is that which is stressed in the first chapter of this book. You are God. You are the I am that I

am. You are consciousness. You are the creator. This is the mystery. This is the great secret known by the seers, the prophets, and the mystics throughout the ages. This is the truth that you can never know intellectually. This is the truth that you are God. And we haven't been trained to believe that. And I don't know why. Why weren't we raised to believe that we are God? Jesus says it in John 10:34 as he's about to be stoned. Why would you stone me? You are a man and you claim to be God. Is it not

written in your laws that I have said you are God? Those are right out of the words of Jesus. It's right in there. You could Look it up. St. Paul in Philippians, have in you the same mind as Christ Jesus, who being in the form of God, did not consider it robbery to be equal with God. Go to Psalms 82 in the Old Testament. You are all children of the most high. Ye are all gods. It's all over the scriptures. It's in the Quran. It's in the Bhagavad Gita. It's in all of the holy books.

God and You are one. You must be like what you came from. And if we had raised our children and to believe instead we've created these organizations which take it over for us and say if you want to know God it'll cost you. Here are the rules and this is how you fit in and this is the way we'll do it. And we are the only ones who can give you access to God. We got a whole great big place over there in Rome called the Vatican that believes all of That. You know that that

we and we'll give you gold robes and we'll give you but remember what I said yesterday about what roomy the Byzantines and the and the Chinese. You know, it's like Jesus wouldn't be allowed in any of those churches today really. So quick history, the highest self. It's the story of Moses. Moses was um the prophet, great prophet, one who the ten commandments. And so the Here's the in in one minute. Here's the story of Moses. It's uh 3,300 years ago. This is 1300 years before the birth of Christ. This is 800 years 8 centuries before

the before lau and the daqing. This is the oldest spiritual text extant on the planet today. The Torah, the first five books of the Old Testament. And in the Torah, in the book of Exodus, it tells the story of Moses, the Pharaoh Who is uh sort of uh imprisoning, if you will, the people, the Israelites, and he is uh making a declaration because he's threatened that a male child is going to become a uh a prophet, and he doesn't want that to happen. So he orders, as pharaohs are allowed to do, every single male child

that is born is to be killed right after their birth. And the soldiers will come and make sure. And that's what they do. They just killed Every baby. But this one woman had this little baby and she just couldn't stand the idea of having her son killed. So she wrapped him up in clothes and blankets or whatever and put him in a waterproof basket, I assume. and he was floating down the Nile. A woman comes across this little baby uh in the reeds in the in the in the Nile and sees this little baby and

she is just so taken by this little baby That she decides to raise him as her own and she raises this little baby. Now the interesting thing about it is that the woman who finds this little baby is the daughter of the pharaoh. So now the pharaoh is the grandfather of the prophet that he was most terrified of. All right? And this is how this is how legend tells us. Whether this is true or not, you'll have to decide for yourself. But it's u it's a pretty good story. And um and so Moses is raised

as the Pharaoh's grandson and he's long about the age of 17 or 18. He um gets into a big squabble with uh one of the soldiers, one of the centuries and he kills him because he is persecuting one of the Israelites and for some reason he's protecting doesn't like the way that they're treating these slaves. So Moses realizes that after he kills this um this soldier that he's going to be killed himself, even if he's the Pharaoh's son, that is a major crime. You don't do that. So he takes off and escapes. And he runs

and escapes across the Sinai Peninsula. And there he meets a woman named Zapora. Zapora and he marries her and they have their children and they're and he's a shepherd. and he's this is 40 years go by and he's out on the Sinai and he's um walking out there one day and all of a sudden he comes across a bush and this bush is burning But it's not being consumed. It just keeps burning and burning and burning. And out of this burning bush, he hears a voice and it's the voice of God. And God speaks to

Moses and this is what he says. I don't want to get this one wrong. So let me just read it to you real quickly. Book of Exodus. So the Lord saw that he had gone over to Look and God called out to him from the bush and he says, "Moses, Moses." And Moses says, "Here I am." First words Moses speaks to God. "Do not come closer." where he says, "Take your sandals off your feet for the place where you are standing is holy ground." Then he continues and says, "I am God. I am the God

of your fathers, the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and so on." And he gives him instructions and he Says, "Uh, you are to go to the Pharaoh and you are to free your people." Moses says to God, "Wait, wait a minute. Who am I that I should go to the Pharaoh and that I should bring the Israelites out of Egypt? Who am I to do this? And he answers, "Well, I will certainly be there with you, and this will be the sign to you that I have sent you. When you bring the people

out of Egypt, you will all worship God at this mountain." Elizabeth Barrett Browning, the great English poet, wrote a little poem, little four-line poem about that, about that meeting. She said, "Earth's crammed with heaven, and every burning bush a fire with God, and those who truly know take off their sandals, while the rest sit round it and pick blackberries." Just thought I'd throw that in. So Moses says to God, "Wait a minute." Didn't say that, But I think he did. He said, quote, "If I go to the Israelites and say to them, 'The God of

your fathers has sent me to you, and they ask me, what is his name? What should I tell them?" And God replies to Moses, "I am that I am. This is what you are to say to the people of Israel. I am has sent me to you. This is my name forever. This is how I am to be remembered in every generation. I am that I am. Okay. So, what's the name of God? I am that I am that I am that I am that I am that I am that I am. Okay. The reason

I bring that up, oh my gosh, you've got it. It's right there, too. It's right on your breast. I am. Every single time you use the name I am, you are using the name of God. So that when you say in the in the book of Joel, it says, "Let the weak man say I am strong." Jesus speaks and says, "Before the God of your fathers was, I am." In the book of John, I am the way. God is the way. I am the resurrection. Nowhere does he say, "I am the crucifixion." Even though most

of Christianity focuses on that, on the suffering, but instead Jesus said, "I am the resurrection." When we went to uh Lursards and um we Saw St. Bernardet. It's a you know wonderful experience there in Lurards uh back in the 1850s and she was speaking she saw 18 apparitions and it was the blessed mother and the priest couldn't the priest kept saying ask the ask her what's her name ask her what's her name so finally and the only time the apparition spoke and said her name she said I am what I am the Immaculate conception and

the priest said wait a Wait a minute. That's An event. She can't be an event. They forgot that Jesus said, "I am the resurrection." That's an event because God is the resurrection. God is the immaculate conception. That's what she said. And every time you use the name I am, you are using the name of God. And the question is, how do you use the name of God? Do you God didn't say when Moses said, "What is your name again?" He didn't say, "My name is I hope things work out For you. He said, "My name

is I am that." So, you have a name called I am. And you've got to be able to place into your imagination an I am as if it already were a present fact. He calls those things which do not yet exist as though they did. I am well. Never will you ever want to use the words I am depressed. I am sad. I am poor. I am helpless. I am incurable. Because you're using the name of God in vain. In the I am discourses. St. Germaine says it this way. I am is the full activity

of God. Having placed before you so often the truth of God in action, I wish you to understand its first expression in individualization. The first expression of every individual everywhere in the universe that's you either in spoken word, silent thought or feeling is I am recognizing its own conquering divinity. The student endeavoring to understand and apply these mighty yet simple laws must stand guard more strictly over his thoughts and expressions in word or otherwise. For every time you say I am not, I cannot, I have not, you are, whether knowingly or unknowingly throttling that great

I am presence within you. That's blasphemy. Why weren't you raised to believe that you are God and that as God you can Manifest and attract and heal and create anything that you want? Healing is not done by somebody healing somebody else. Healing takes place when divine energy interjects with another divine energy and there is no possibility of illness. This is I am. And these are the words you want to be really careful about because the last five chapters which I don't have time to go into today. I may do a little bit tomorrow but so

many other things to cover really deal with The foundations for a wish is fulfilled. We'll talk about it when we do the meditation. Being able to place into your imagination I am as if it already were a present fact. He calls those things which do not yet exist as though they did. It's right out of the scriptures. Now, I want to uh read one thing to you and it's because this we're coming up to we'll be in Turkey the day after tomorrow and then we'll be In Ephesus and we'll be next door to Ka where

Roomie lived. Roomie wrote about Moses. And I got up this morning at 4:30 and I was awakened and I thought, "What? I'd like to read something from Roomie to them. What should it be? I just don't know." And it was 4:30 this morning. I got up, opened it up, and there it was. Would you like to hear it? >> Yeah. It's a good thing cuz you're going to Okay, bear with me. This is a little long, but not bad. Couple minutes. It's called Moses and the Shepherd by Roomie. Moses heard a shepherd on the road

praying. God, where are you? I want to help you to fix your shoes and comb your hair. I don't want I want to wash your clothes and pick the lice off. I want to bring you milk to kiss your little hands and feet when it's time for you to go to bed. I want to sweep your room and keep it neat. God, my sheep and goats are Yours. All I can say remembering you is, "Ah, Moses could stand it no longer." Who are you talking to? The one who made us and made the earth and

made the sky. Don't talk about shoes and socks with God. And what's this with your little hands and feet? Such blasphemous familiarity. Sounds like you're chatting with your uncles. Only something that grows needs milk. Only someone with feet needs shoes. Not God. Even if you meant God's Human representatives, as when God said, "I was sick and you did not visit me." Even then, this tone would be foolish and irreverent. Use appropriate terms. Fatima is a fine name for a woman, but if you call a man Fatima, it's an insult. Body and birth language are right

for us on this side of the river, but not for addressing the origin. Not for Allah. Gets better. The shepherd repented and tore his Clothes and sighed and wandered out into the desert. A sudden revelation came then to Moses. God's voice. You have separated me from one of my own. Did you come as a prophet to unite or to sever? I have given each being a separate and unique way of seeing and knowing and saying that knowledge. What seems wrong to you is right for him. What is poison to one is honey to someone else.

Purity and impurity, sloth and diligence in Worship. These mean nothing to me. I am apart from all that. Ways of worshiping are not to be ranked as better or worse than one another. Hindus do Hindu things. The Dravidian Muslims in India do what they do. It's all praise and it's all right. It's not me that's glorified in acts of worship. It's the worshippers. I don't hear the words they say. I look inside at the humility. That broken open loneliness is the reality, not the Language. Forget phrasiology. I want burning. Burning be friends. Be friends with

your burning. Burn up your thinking and your forms of expression. Moses, those who pay attention to ways of behaving and speaking are one sort. Lovers who burn are another. Don't impose a property tax on a burned-out village. Don't scold the lover. The wrong way he talks is better than a hundred right ways of others Inside the cabba. It doesn't matter what direction you point your prayer rug. The ocean diver doesn't need snowshoes. The love religion has no code or doctrine, only God. So the ruby has nothing engraved on it. It doesn't need markings. God began

speaking deeper mysteries to Moses. Vision and words which cannot be recorded here poured into him and through him. He left himself and came back. He went to eternity and came back Here. Many times this happened. It's foolish of me to try and say this. If I did say it, it would uproot our human intelligence. It would shatter all writing pens. Moses ran after the shepherd. He followed the bewildered footprints in one place moving straight like a castle across a chessboard. In other in another, sideways like a bishop now surging like a wave cresting now sliding

down like a fish with always his feet making geometry symbols in the sand Recording his wandering state. Moses finally caught up with him. I was wrong. God has revealed to me that there are no rules for worship. Say whatever and however your loving tells you. Your sweet blasphemy is the truest devotion. Through you a whole world is freed. Loosen your tongue and don't worry what comes out. It's all the light of the spirit. The shepherd replied, "Moses, Moses, I've gone beyond even that. You Applied the whip and my horse shied and jumped out of itself.

The divine nature and my human nature came together. Bless your scolding hand and your arm. I can't say what has happened. What I am saying now is not my real condition. It can't be said. The shepherd grew quiet. When you look in a mirror, you see yourself, not the state of the mirror. The flute player puts breath into a flute. And who makes the music? Not the flute, the flute player. Whenever you speak praise Or thanksgiving to God, it's always like this dear shepherd's simplicity. When you eventually see through the veils to how things really

are, you will keep saying again and again and again and again, "This is certainly certainly not like we thought it was. Isn't that beautiful? Touches me. So, there's a woman in the room who I'd like to have come up on the stage. Where are you, dear? This um beautiful soul. Can you help her, N? She going to do it herself. was on a cruise with me in the South Pacific early in this year in January. She was the victim of a very violent act. She was thrown over a cliff and left to die and um

she's been in a wheelchair for 21 years. She went to see John of God as I did. And uh after 21 years got control of her bowels for the first time after visiting with John of God who took leukemia out of me like I had a hangail. And now the most amazing thing is happening is this dear sweet lady who's part of your group is going to walk to this stage. She couldn't do this in January. [Applause] Dana. So Dana and I have been in communication and she's been in communication with my daughter and I

just want you to just hold your breath and um give her the strength to make it up. She's just determined yesterday that she was Nancy said, "I'll help you go up to the stage." And she said, "No, I want to show Wayne that I can walk. [Applause] This is a miracle. What's happening in this moment? I thought she was going to Take a few steps. She's walking the whole way. This is for you who think that all things aren't possible. She's got my hat on that I g that she stole from me yesterday. They had

all given up on this girl when she was a young girl and she's still a young girl. You want to go that far? >> Yeah. Aren't you? This is Dana. Dana, take the mic. Now you tell this group of people what's been going on in you for the last few months and what brought you to this, my sweetheart. Um, well, as you said, uh, when I was 19, um, I was raped and thrown off a 75 ft cliff. I was stationed aboard the USS McKe. Um, actually, the first job that I had to do on

board was tie up the USS Ranger. >> Is that right? >> Yeah. >> Wow. Um, and 21 years later, after they told me I would never even breathe on my own, I'm now walking determination, belief, faith, um, stem cells, and John of God has brought me to this point. And at age 25, I read the book Manifest Your Destiny by Dr. Wayne Dyer, which kept me from suicide and helped me get through a divorce and keep Pushing forward and believe. And for the very first 10 years, I was paralyzed from um chest down. I had

zero hand function. Um now as you can see um and it's a continuous journey as you all know as life is um and I um I'm walking so and I'll continue until I'm completely out of the chair and >> tell him what happened with why did you go to John God. >> I went to John of God because you told me to. >> Yes. >> And you do what you're told. Serena, are you listening? >> I'm enlisted. I was enlisted. I know how to take orders. >> Right. >> So, I went to John of God.

And for two weeks, it was the most incredible time. Very peaceful. I had two spiritual surgeries. Um, and after 21 years of having a paralyzed colon, um, I now have bowel control. It's the most amazing gift to get back. But just to have that gift is >> it's precious. >> And you you even told me you had an orgasm. Now, was that from hearing my talk? It was it was definitely that. >> Thank you. I just >> And yesterday I had my purple hat on, which was my favorite hat of all time. And um she

looked at it and she said, um, "That hat would look better on me than on him." And the ego part of me for one minute said, "That's my hat." And then it took over and I realized that uh giving it to her, giving her something that I prized was. And then she turned around and took off of her neck. Take this off. This um triangle that was blessed by John of God. the symbol for the the Naba you know the triangle and she said I'd like to give that to you and it had been blessed

by John of God and uh I wore it all day till today and now I realize it has nothing to do with the object remember what I said yesterday about the miser and his gold it's the outpouring of love and that's what you gave to me and I'd like to give this now back to you as my outpouring of Love back to you I want you to wear this I'm not giving you your hat back. >> Yeah, I know. >> She's still a It doesn't make any difference. >> I already I have one of these

blessed by John of God, and I want you to wear this. >> Well, as you know, it says faith, love, and charity on it in Portuguese. >> Yes. So, thank you. You honor us by being Here, and it's so good to see you. You look so beautiful. I love you so much. >> Thank you. I love you. you. God bless you.