CARDI B: The TRUTH Behind The End of My Relationship…

My marriage. I felt the love dying. I was crying every day. I fell in the deepest depression that I had ever had. >> The number one health and wellness podcast. >> J Shetty. J Shetty, >> the one, the only J Shetty. >> Cardi B. Welcome to OnPurpose. >> Hi. >> Oh my gosh. I I have to tell you something, and I mean this. You can go Back six years when I launched the podcast. People would always ask me, they'd say, "Who do you want on the show?" Yeah. >> Like, "Who who would be your dream

guest?" >> And I'd always say, "Cardi B." And I'll tell you why. I'll tell you why. Because no one would ever put us in the same room together. We're just so different externally. >> But I believe there's a there's a Spiritual connection that we'll find out today. >> You know what's so funny? I saw a video of you and I definitely I was like I want to send it to my boyfriend but it's about like asking uh difficult questions and it's like when you when you ask difficult questions and you get through you get over

the difficult question and you discuss the difficult questions. It really do make you stronger. It really do make the relationship stronger. It's Like oh my gosh he really it's like is he a psychic? >> Did you send it to him? >> Huh? Did you send it to your boyfriend? What did he say? >> He was like, "Yeah, exactly." And I was like, "Yeah, exactly." >> Did it Did it change any behavior? Did it? >> We'll see. >> Okay. Okay. >> On the next question. >> I love it. I love it. I wanted to ask you,

first of all, I heard that you have a hidden talent that you can name the 46 presidents in order. Is that real? >> I can't. It It go It comes and go. It comes and go. I just know a lot of weird different facts about presidents. >> Okay. >> And people will be like, "But why? That is so random." Like when I was younger, I didn't really had like Nintendos and I didn't Sometimes I had cable and Sometimes I didn't. So I just really had no choice but to read and like I like to read

like factual stuff. So I would just read like a whole bunch of history things. Like me, I will literally when I'm bored, like you know how they give you the history books in your school? I will literally read the whole history book in a week from front to back just cuz I'm bored. >> Wow, that's impressive though. Do you still get bored now? Do you even have Time to be bored or >> I don't be bored, but that's like what I really just like to watch and everything. So, like I watched it like I watch

YouTubetubes on like factual things. Like I just get into certain certain topics and I always go down a rabbit hole and then I be obsessed with it for a week and then it's just like whatever. >> Yeah. I feel like you can't go anywhere without being recognized. I mean, you Have such an iconic look even today. I was admiring it when you walked in. I was like, "What inspires this?" But if you could be anonymous for 24 hours, what would you do if if no one could recognize you, no one could see you, what would

you do? Well, you know what's so funny? Like I really do like I don't always look like this. So I usually go outside probably with glasses or probably not, but I always go outside with like a oversized hoodie and then I'm not even going to lie due to co for like a long time it really did help using the mask. But I I do a lot of things by myself with no security. Just cuz I'm a person that if I want to if I want to go and buy uh a steak to cook, I will

go downstairs to Whole Foods and buy it and I take care >> and no one will know and no one will see you. >> They might or they might not. But I feel like I already maneuver how to like, oh, It's Cardi B and I just walk fast and maneuver my way around. >> That's impressive. >> Yeah. You know, this show is all about getting to know the person behind the music, behind the stardom, behind the fame, getting to know the human behind it. >> Yeah. >> And I feel like your journey, even though you've

talked about it, I'd love to dive into some parts that I find Fascinating. >> Yeah. >> And I wanted to ask you, what's a childhood memory that you have that you think defines who you are today? >> Oh, it's it's a lot. Well, it's not really like a childhood memory, but me and my sister, we used to go to the same school, right? Even though like she's 3 years younger than me. And she always be telling me this thing, right? She always be telling me this. She used To she always tells me like, "Oh, I

used to see you in the cafeteria in the morning by yourself with your head down." And I used to feel so bad for you. And it's like, why? And she's like, "I don't know cuz you just looked so lonely." And I used to tell her like, "It's like I was not lonely. I just always need time to think and be by myself." >> Like I'm a person that I have friends, but I don't really like to be around People that much sometimes. I just I'm always in my thoughts. Like there's like a hundred people and

I feel like it's been like that since I was 5 years old that talk in my head and plan things out, plan my future, plan my life. It's like I'm playing dollhouse in my head. You know, like when you play with your dolls, >> and you make a scenario. Not a scenario or like you you build your home and this and your that. >> Yeah. Like a little universe or what? >> Like a little universe. I'm always planning a universe in my head. And it's just sometimes people say that I have like an interesting look

like like if I'm spaced out. I'm not spaced out. I'm I'm deep in my universe and planning 5 years ahead. >> Wow. So you're dreaming, planning, visioning. Do do these different workers, different you in your head have different names or personalities or no? It's just >> No, it's not really no different personalities. It's just straight planning tomorrow. Straight planning for 5 years. Straight straight imagining what I what I want. >> Wow. And it's crazy because it's like everything that I planned for since I was five and dreamed of, I really gotten it. >> Wow. >>

Even when I was like younger, Even when I was like younger, I used to look at my mom and I used to be like, I want to be so pretty and beautiful like her. And I grew up to be the pretty, beautiful woman that she is. But I also wanted like to be very successful, very I'm not gonna say rich, but like very successful. I really hated being poor. >> M >> and I used to say like is that I refuse To have kids and raise them in the hood. I have to find a way

to never do that. But I always wanted kids and I figured it out. And I not only did I figure it out, but it's like I always have plan B, C's, and D's, but I don't I didn't have to settle for plan B, C, and D. I had I settle for my dream. Like, this is my dream job, and I have it. It's a little bit more difficult than what I saw in my dreams, but I'm living it. This is what I always wanted. >> Yeah. That's incredible. as as that little girl who was sitting

alone that your sister said she would see you and she'd feel sorry for you, but inside your head you were dreaming. >> Was it dreaming about music? Was it dreaming about getting out of the hood? What were those dreams? What did they look like to that little girl back then? >> I always felt like I was going to be a superstar. And it's so weird because my grandma, She has like a lot of grandkids, but she always used to tell me that. And it's like why you always used to tell like I don't understand why

she used to tell me that all the time. Like I used to be like a little black sheep. I used to like nag a lot. I have like cousins that they're very pretty. They have beautiful beautiful eyes. They just stand out so much. And it's not that I don't stand out. It's just like out of everybody my grandma used to be like You're going to be a superstar. you need to practice how to sing because you're gonna be a superstar. And I just knew I was meant to be something. Like, for some reason, me and

my sister, we have like really strong personalities. And I feel like like the things that they used to tell me, they would tell her the same thing, too. Like all my teachers, all my friends, they're going to be like, "You're going to be somebody. You're going to be somebody someday." But I Always used to wonder like it's like what is my calling? Because I used to like acting in school, but I'm not a good actress. I used to like singing, but I'm not a good sing I'm not the greatest singer. Like from the pack, from

the school, I'm not the greatest singer. Like if I will audition for a play, they will pick somebody else because they sing better than me or they will pick somebody else because they act better than me. So, and then it's like, Oh, people used to say like I'm so funny, but it's like I not a comedian stand out show. Like, it's like I am I'm naturally funny, but I I can't see it as my job. This just just my mouth. This is just me being me. So, it's like what is my calling? And I always

wonder what is my calling that everybody say that it's like I'm gonna be somebody, but what am I going to be? I don't know. And and God gave it to me. >> God show it to me. And and God really Did give it to me. And here I am and I just can't believe that millions of people know me. >> Yeah. Congratulations. When I hear you say that and you always exude this confidence, you're outspoken. You're bold. Was it always like that since you were a young girl or did that develop over time? What did

where did that come from? >> I was like born like this. I was always I I always been like this like I got my Real quiet side and I always got like into myself side cuz like I said I be in my own universe quiet planning and planning. But I feel like when I open my mouth or when I am who I am, it's just this is just how I am. But if I kind of think about it, I mean like my family are very like funny. They're very loud. I my parents are a little

different from each other, but they're very loud. They have very strong personalities, both of them. So, I feel like it just all >> comes into you. >> Came into me. >> Yeah. >> So, it's like, you know how people I don't know. Maybe you know how people uh parents give peuh their kids their looks. >> Yeah. >> I think my parents gave me a mix of they both personality. I'm a little bit of both of them. >> Cardi B even still today finds time for her quiet side. I'm naturally quiet though. >> I I'm like,

tell me about that. I want to know about that. I'm like, I don't think people know that. >> Yeah. Like, I'm naturally in my room just deep in my thoughts and just deep deep. I might just talk to you the whole day as a friend on the phone, but I don't really want to see you, which is so weird. Like, I could Talk to my friends all day long, but I like to be by myself all the time. I don't really >> Are people surprised when they figure that out with you? Like, >> yeah. And

my friends don't feel a certain type of way about that because they know me. They know. Yeah. They know I'm not the the friend that want to go out to dinner. They know that I'm not that. They know I'm not the friend that, oh, I'm just going to go to your house And chill and blah blah blah. But we will be on the phone like forever. >> So, what about like parties, events, all of that kind of stuff? That's like, is it work? Is it networking? I do like to party, but some sometimes I I

haven't even really had the time for it >> lately. I haven't really have the time for it. And to be honest with you, even before I was like famous and everything, I wasn't really a club girl. I was already a dancer. >> Mhm. >> So, I work in the club. So, it's like I didn't really care to like, oh, I'm going to the club today for what? I work in it. Like it's just like I always been like a person that just work work work work work work work work work focus on the bigger picture

just focus on the biggest thing. >> I always wanted kids. So the goal is to be comfortable before the kids get get here. >> Yeah. Yeah. >> That was always my goal. My goal was always to be a mother but having your own. I had my own before I became a mother. >> Yeah. I mean you said just a few moments ago that you didn't want to raise kids in the hood. >> Mhm. >> Talk to me about what we don't know about that. Like how hard was it? What what was it that was so

bad that you're Like I could never raise my kids in the place I grew up in? >> It's it's just it's just a lot of things. Like sometimes when kids are like bad or they get into trouble, people automatically blame the parents. And you can have the best parents. Like my parents, they are not criminals. They have never even committed a crime. My grandma used to tell my mom a lot like it's like you're pretty for no reason. And I feel like they used to tell her That because it's like she's so pretty. So it's

like, you know, Caribbean folks, it's like when you're pretty and you're this and that, it's like they always expect you to be with a man that got a lot of money. And my mom, she was never even that that type of person. She was a very modest and honest, hardworking woman. So, and my dad, he's he's a good man. He's he's a party animal, but he's a good man man. He's a good person. He's a good dad. However, you will end up going in the wrong path or going in the wrong direction because the influence

around you because certain peer pressure or because you almost have no choice. Especially if you're a boy. You never know if you're going to have a boy or a girl. Especially if you're a boy. And when you are a girl, it is a little bit difficult. It is a little bit tougher. I feel like people just grow a Little bit faster in the hood. M >> like when I was 11 years old, there was girls in my class in the sixth grade, 11 years old. I have nieces that are 11 years old that all they

want to do is play Roblox nowadays. >> But when I was 11 years old, >> there was girls that were already at 11 in sixth grade. So it's like you go certain paths path of your environments like boys too in the hood they're a little faster. So you Know you will be walking down the block and the typical little bad boy he'll slap your ass out of nowhere. He'll slap your ass out of nowhere. You start arguing him. He'll smack the [ __ ] out of your face there. That's how boys a lot of boys

in the Bronx are. They're very like aggressive. They're aggressive with girls. They're aggressive. They grouped out. They they grope you. You just never know. Like one of the one of the reasons also why I'm so witty With my mouth. People like why you so witty? Why you so thin? Like going to school it was like it's almost like like I think that's why I'm always so tough like boys or girls mostly boys. They used to like kind of like make fun of certain things. But not only just me to everybody like the like you look

at your shoes they're leaning look at your hair your hair is never not done. So I used to go home and I used to go in the mirror and practice my jokes And the next day I will be like all right I can't wait till he flame me. I got a joke or two for him. That's why I'm so witty too as well. >> So it's like I don't want to raise my kids in that type of environment. I don't want to. And then on top of that, it's like it is fun. I had a

lot of fun in the hood, but it's like it's not fun. Like for me, right, it's not fun living in an apartment, right? And contrary to what I say, I don't cook, I Don't clean. I grew up with a mom that will make me brush the corners, the corners of the apartment, like brush it by hand. That's how clean my my home had to be. my crib had to be. Every day I was doing dishes. Every day I was mopping floors. Every day I was making sure that I go outside to the parking lot and

take out the garbage. And even though no matter how clean your apartment is, there will still be roaches. There will Still be mices because your neighbor probably a hoarder. The person downstairs is dirty. Y all live in the same building. You cannot avoid certain certain rodents and stuff. And it's like I don't want to put my my kids through that. >> And it's like I have to find another way. And then and then another thing that always like gets me in my head is like this one time my mom she was working very hard but

we still needed Help. So she went to welfare to get like benefit like a benefit card and stuff like that. And the lady like my mom she's the type of person like it's like if you rude to her she going to be like oh I don't got to take this. and she would just storm out like I don't got to take nobody got talk going to talk to me like that. She got a very strong character and this lady was talking so rude and so nasty to my mom and she was taking it because we

needed the help. >> I don't want nobody to feel like they have to talk to me a certain type of way because I need the help and it's like this could never ever be me. I would never want to like be in a situation where I have to go get welfare and the and the social worker is talking to me like I'm a dog. I got need you. And I just felt so bad for my mom because she just felt so I could tell in her face that she she was just like >> looking for

the papers that she needed. Like it it just that vision is always in my head and it's like it be getting me mad. I hope that lady I want punch in her face to this day. And I don't want that. I ain't wanted that. Yeah. >> And as a woman, even if you get with a man with money, you should have your own. Cuz one thing you learned from young, one thing I learned from having aunts, you could have a man with money, you can have a Kid with money. If you stop doing what that

man asked you to do, or if that man decides to leave, or if you deal with a man from the streets and he go to jail, that's your child. That's you. That's your responsibility. That's your hustle. You got to grind for that child. It's always two parents, but sometime not really two parents. And the dad could be alive right there and then. That's why you always got to have your own. It's not even about, oh, I don't Need a man. I don't need the father. I don't need the thing. But sometimes they get to the

point that it's like they're going to make you feel that way. That's why you need it. I had cousins and I had aunts and I have it that it's like they they men have a little bit of money, have a little bit of land, have a little bit of this and one those mens are done and through with you and put you off the ringer, it's like, "Yeah, I'm not dealing with that Kid no more." Or like you go, you get these $200 every 3, four months when I want you to. I'm not dealing with

that [ __ ] >> That's why I was like, but I always wanted to have kids. So, it's like I have to have my own [ __ ] before I become a mom. And that's exactly what happened. And not only do I not only have one kid, I have three kids. And that's exactly not exactly the number that I want, but I always wanted a a big family. Like I'm I love family. I love family. And there's a higher possibility that I won't be in a living assistant home with all the kids. >> How many

kids do you want? >> I want like six. >> Okay. So, three more. >> Mhm. I want like three more kids. >> Three more kids. I love that for you. I I mean, hearing hearing you say that, I mean, as I was listening to you, I could Tell there's like a >> there's almost like a you can almost vision what that life was like. >> Yeah. >> And there's a part of you that's like so happy you got out. At the same time, there's there's such a part of it that's there inside of you that

you've been fighting against, you've been breaking out of, right? Like for all of these years. When was the moment you felt like ah, I'm out, like I broke out? Like when Was that moment where you really felt like, I did it. I'm out. I I made it. You know, I'm safe now. >> It's crazy because every single time I feel like I felt like I was safe, I really wasn't. >> Oh, interesting. >> Yeah. When I got on TV, when I first got on TV, I was like, did I make it? I didn't feel like

I made it because I used to see girls go on reality TV shows and then they will end up right back in The strip club where I was at. So I never felt like it's that oh on TV I made it. It's like I'm almost there but I didn't made it. Then when I got signed to a label it's like I'm almost near making it because I'm signed but I'm not where I want to be. Where I really felt like I made it was when Bodak Yellow came out. >> The million that I made, the

first real million that I made, I had to share nobody. I had to share with managers Because they signed me to something. It's mine. It's mine. But I never felt comfortable. I still to this day don't feel comfortable. Especially with how everybody just trying to take it from you all the time. It's like it's like I fight every day to keep this level of success because people want it taken from you so bad and people just feel like and they could they could tell you when you deserve to to have this success because it just

looks so easy but it's Not. It really is not. It's is a it's a challenge to stay here. It's a challenge to stay relevant. It's a It's a challenge to to keep your mental health right. It's a challenge to getting up. It's a Everything Everything is a challenge. It's it's is it's a it's a job. Everybody has a job. You can't complain about getting up and doing a job. The only thing I could complain about is millions of people that love you and Then millions of people getting in your head and telling you that you

don't deserve your job that you work hard for. That's what it is. We all have jobs. That's what it is about being a adult. Oh, don't don't complain to them. Everybody want to complain. I work so hard. I work so hard. I work so hard. You have to work hard to pay your bills. But when you work hard and people tell you that you don't deserve the success that you have and you don't deserve to Do what you do after you put in so much work, that's what with you for real. >> What makes you

feel like that every day? What are the things that make you feel like there's people constantly coming at you? What does that look like in your life? >> I tell you something that like been going on for like a hot minute, right? Like a lot of people think that I put out music, that I put out an Album, that I I don't be putting out this and that because I don't know, they always say that like I'm always getting pregnant all the time. But I don't think people follow timelines when it comes to having kids.

I'm very seasoned by now. I'm very seasoned right now. When I had my child at the beginning, I cancelled going on a tour with Bruno Mars because it was my first time having a kid. >> I did not know anything. I didn't had no Nanny, no night nurse. I was figuring out all by myself. I was figuring out um postpartum. I was figuring out everything, right? But even when I had a child, it didn't stop me. Three months after I gave birth, I was going I was doing shows, four or five shows a week into

CO. Then CO happened and I put out this big record, [ __ ] and I put up up >> then I got pregnant and people thought that I didn't put out an album because I Got pregnant. But the reason why I didn't put out an album is because I didn't had a body of work. >> I just didn't have a body of work. So, I couldn't put out no music because I didn't have a body of work. Then last year, I was planning to have an album. I was planning to put out an album, but

I couldn't focus. I fell in the deepest depression that I had ever had. And with that depression, I couldn't function. I couldn't function At nothing. And when I talk about function, it's not even like, oh, just working. I couldn't eat. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't do nothing. So that just halted everything that I had. So it's not really because of having a baby. Sometimes too, I don't be wanting to put music because I love being in the studio and I love creating music and I love perfecting my craft. And that's like baking a cake. You

bake a cake, you Practice baking a cake, you practice baking a cake, and then when you put out the songs, sometimes it be good. And sometimes like for people would just be like, "We hate it and she shouldn't be doing this." And that's like you're baking a cake. You bake a cake, you bake a cake, and people eat the cake and then people be like, "This is the worst cake ever." And they splat it. Have you ever seen the Simpson movie? It's pretty [ __ ] when they they splat the cake. That's How I be

feeling. And it's like that is the worst feeling ever. >> That's like a guy you and you think you have the best [ __ ] in the world and they tell you your pussyy's trash. You should never nobody no more. That's just how I feel. Like you work, you work, you work, you try to do your best to perform, perfect your craft and somebody just tell you like you shouldn't be doing this. You should never do this ever in your life. It brings you down so much and it with your mental so much that it's

like this is why I kind of avoid it just for a piece of mind. >> Just for a piece of mind. I have been okay for almost a year. Like after I gave birth to my daughter, I was a little happy. I was going outside. I started dating. I started feeling really good. Sometimes I have bad days. Sometimes I have good days because I feel like I'm I'm resetting in Life. Last week when I put out a song and it's not really the criticism in the song, the way that people ate me up, tore me

up, chew me up just because of one song. I feel like I didn't deserve that. Especially for a song that I put so much work in that I just was like, "This is this is why I don't really put music out like this because I remember how this used to feel. >> This is a very terrible feeling to have. This is a very terrible feeling to have." And you tell yourself like it's like a lot of these people that are telling you these type of things don't have no jobs, don't have no titles, don't have

no this. But when it's millions and millions and hundreds of thousands of people, like it's like not only are they criticizing the song, they criticizing you as a whole. It just be like this is why I don't really put things off too much because it's just Like the mental health, the peace of mind is it's so much it's you just got to ask yourself sometimes, is it even worth it? >> Is it even worth it? cuz I haven't felt down like last week for a very long time. For almost like almost like a year. Almost

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honest and open about the fact that a year ago you were in this dark depression, it seems like the worst it had ever been. >> Yeah. >> What what got you there? Why Why were you feeling so low? It was just a lot of pressure from my career and I also felt like my marriage like I felt the love dying from my end from from from my end from his end I was very lonely because I chose to be lonely chose to be lonely I was saying like you know what I can't go through this

anymore I have to put a stop to it but when I said I was going To put put a stop to it. Cuz you could say you're going to put a put a stop to it and you could you could go a month without being around somebody. It's not it's not until you it's not when you say so. It's when your heart say so. >> I kept telling myself I will not contact this person for a month. I will not give in. I will not forgive this easy. I will not go back. I will not

go to the pattern. I will not go through it. But I Was crying every day. I was hurt every day. I was out here in LA in a mansion by myself. I was thinking about it every single day. And when your heart is not done, your heart is not done. Then I told myself, I'm pregnant. I'm going to accept the I'm going to accept my flaws, the flaws that I bring in this marriage, I'm going to apologize for it and I'm going to Work on it. And when I take accountability and you take advantage of

me taking accountability and you take that as a see I know she be back instead of me taking accountability and you taking advantage of that. It really just killed everything. And while it was dying, I had a human growing in me. And I just had and I just kept thinking like it's like, what's life going to be without this person? What's life going to be Without raising my last child? Without this person, what's life going to be with that person not being my friend anymore? Without nothing. When you have those type of thoughts, it will

make you sad. It will get you depressed. It will have you lost. But I overcame that. And I am the the strongest that like I have ever been. Like I almost feel like when was I ever my strongest? My the I felt my strongest when I was 22, 23, 24. That's when I Felt like my strongest. And I was like living in a power. And that's how I feel right now. Like I feel like I live in a power. And it took months for the heart to say you're done. Instead of my mouth and my

brain. My heart had to be like you're done. Cuz you could say it and you could take actions but even if you take actions if you're not done you're not done. Like I kept asking like around that time I was working with Shakira and I was like how the did you over overcame this? like >> how did you overcame this? And it's like it's going to happen. And it's like it will never happen and it happened. It took some crying. It took some thoughts, scary thoughts. It >> But I'm here, honey. >> Yeah, >> I'm

I'm here and I'm the strongest I've been. And I'm just >> I love hearing that. >> But it was hard. >> I can tell. I I could tell I could see it as I'm speaking to you. It's It's not easy. And I think those moments in all of our lives are are the most difficult moments. What did you do for your mental health at that time? What What did you do? What actions did you take? What did you have to do to keep yourself together and come back the strongest you are right now? I think

there are so many People who are listening who have probably been through similar things who feel broken, feel hurt, feel lost and confused. What worked for you that helped you come back the strongest you've ever been? >> I don't know if it was just time because I kind of did a little bit of everything. Like I I did do therapy. I did saw I did saw a therapist. She's really good by the way. It was like on Zoom and it was like I I was telling Myself like it's like I can't believe I'm telling a

whole stranger my feelings, my thoughts, my personal business for three hours straight. I was just like, "What the [ __ ] am I doing? That just feels so weird." >> Yeah. >> I was in the I did therapy for I did a couple of sessions. They ain't gave me no nothing. Um, I was all spring, all summer recording. It just wasn't like enough. I just feel like I just had to let it die >> on its own. Let things die on its own. And the bad thing about it is that it's like not only am

I dealing with that, that's that's my personal life. I was also dealing with fans putting pressure on me because they want, you know, they want an album, they want products from me. I had people that don't like me talking down on me. And then I had peers trying to start problems with me and all Of that while I was going through a mentaling breakdown at home. So, it was just a lot. It was like I'm trying to work it. I'm trying to sleep it. After I gave birth to my daughter, my my baby girl, I

was just like, it take a break from work and I was just going out every weekend with my friends. It was scary talking to somebody else and giving them a little piece of me, not just my heart, just a little piece of me. And But I overcame that and I just that's why I feel like I just became a little bit more better like just resetting. >> Yeah, it's a good it's a good reminder that time is the ultimate reset >> and time does have a healing power that we you know the cliche of time

heals all wounds >> but it's the truth. >> But it's yeah it's a cliche because there's truth in it. Yeah, >> there's some reality in it that time and distance and and being patient enough. I was I was working with a client recently who was going through a breakup and when we would speak in the first month, she would tell me every single day that she couldn't stop thinking about the guy she was breaking up with that broke up with her. And then the second month, she'd tell me every other day. And then the Third

month you told me once a week. Yeah. >> And then the fourth month you were just telling me once a month. And I was like, you don't see it, but I see >> Yeah. >> that it's affecting you less and less and less as time goes on. But when it's you, you feel like you're just still stuck there. And so it's such a great reminder that time is the ultimate reset and time does heal. And and just because Time heal like in the meantime, don't don't think that like you shouldn't like try to get help

because it's like therapy didn't really help me like that. >> It didn't work for you. >> Not as much. Well, maybe because maybe because I didn't get to the part of where you get the help. >> Mhm. >> I mean, I did do it like six sessions. I don't know. I don't know how long. Um, like sometimes when I give advice to Girls, I be like, "Bitch, boss up. Boss up. Go to work. Get pretty." But even when I was doing that, I had like a pain in my heart. And sometimes when I was going

out with my friends and I was having a good time, it will always be like around 4:30 a.m. when it's time to go home and I'm drunk and I'm thinking to myself, I am alone. I don't have nobody to talk to and it feels really weird and it Feels very lonely especially when you're used to that. However, don't don't avoid that. Don't like don't avoid that. But it will be time that will heal it. It will be time. Time just heals everything. >> When you said again last week, you were saying when you put new

music out, it was kind of the lowest you'd felt in another year. Mhm. >> What's the hardest part for you to take That criticism? Because like you said, you're quick with it. You've got responses. You've lived in a place where you had people coming at you. Why is it so hard to put out something you love? It seems like you've really put your heart into your work. Yeah. >> And so when you put that out, is is that why the criticism hurts the most? Because you put so much heart and soul into your work. >>

Yes. Because I put like a lot. I always I don't like what like I'm not a lazy person >> and I do understand my flaws. Well, it's not really my flaws because a lot of people will say something about my accent, right? But it's funny because my accent to some people might be my flaw, but it's also my superpower and what makes me unique. Some people say that I have a Spanish a Spanish accent, but I really don't really have a Spanish accent. I have a very unique Accent. I talk very unique. when you try

your best to like perfect your accent, perfect your flows, perfect everything. I always try to perfect at everything that I'm doing at the time. I was trying to perfect it. Like even when I was a stripper, like it's like, okay, I'm a stripper, but I'mma be the best pole dancer in here. And I'mmaing bust my ass, bust my knees, practice every day until I could be the best at it. That's the same with music. I'm going to perfect it. That's the same with my um marketing. I'm going to perfect it. That's the same with my

business. I'm going to perfect it. I like to perfect things and and if it's not the best things, if I if I'm not the best at it, I could say that I tried to be and I work my ass off to be and I didn't make it easy >> for myself. So when people just throw it in your face and then make other narratives on top of it with that, it's Like that is so mean. And and it's also like different narratives of you like it's like wow you you don't even know me. You don't

even know me and you making all these stories, scenarios, all this this over one song. Like for example, when I did this song and people didn't like this song, so many people was like they just Cardi was Cardi never deserved to be a rapper. They just made it so easy for her. And it's funny because It's like this [ __ ] was not given to me. I worked my ass off for me and I planned it. Just like you see when I was a little girl, I used to plan everything. I plan every step. every

single step. And I might even be inspirational to other artists coming up because for a long time since I have such a big personality, people just felt like she's funny, she's funny, she's funny. So, it was really hard for labels to take me serious. And some labels were Trying to give me scraps to do a a slavering record deal. And even when I was on TV and I thought I was going to be my big break for like people to recognize me as an artist, it wasn't. I was doing good numbers on my mixtape, it

wasn't enough. So the money that I was getting for partying and hostings, I took that money. I made my own concerts. And the best thing about it is that Everything is documented. I did my own concerts. Four 500 to 400 people in New York, 800 people came out singing my songs and I went to the a label and I was like, "This is why you need to sign me. It's not justing Instagram. It is real life." And the $15,000 that I used to get for hosting parties, I used it to rent cars, rent buses, rent

venues To perform my songs, to show these labels. Like, it's like, I'm the one. This [ __ ] ain't fake. This [ __ ] ain't a personality thing. This ain't a love and hip hop thing. This is this is what my music is doing. This is the people singing it, doing all of that. and not being this far after you plan everything and people will tell you that you don't deserve it and you got it because of this this and that. That pisses me the Off. >> Yeah, >> cuz everything everything that I did is

documented. This [ __ ] wasn't given to me. I didn't open my legs for it neither. >> So that's the type of [ __ ] that be getting me angry. Like it's like don't tell me that I didn't put the work in when I put the work in. There's days that I I miss I miss birthdays. I miss I miss birthdays. I miss family events. This [ __ ] has gotten in the way of like my my my personal relationships, marriage, and everything. Just for somebody to tell me somebody that never did [ __ ]

in their mother lives told me that I don't deserve it. Get the out of here. >> Absolutely. I mean, you know what though? I also find that Instagram and Tik Tok or whatever platform it is, the comments that are negative are just loud. >> Yeah. >> Because you can literally go to someone's comment section and see negativity or whatever. But then, like you said, you go to an arena and everyone in the arena is screaming their name and singing their songs. And so it is this really weird thing that happen that happens for the mind

where you're watching your page or you're watching yourself on someone else's page and there's criticism but then actually There's all these other people that love you. The negativity and the hate is just so loud and people say stuff. >> Yeah. >> Whereas the people that love you, they just press the heart, right? So, it's always like that weird thing where I'm like the mind just overvalues negative feedback and undervalues the positive feedback because the negative feedback is just so critical and loud and heavy. When you reflect on it and after you Think about it for

a week, do you think I want to prove them wrong or do you go actually who cares about them? Where do where do you end up after a week of reflecting on it? Like last week, right? I was in tears and I was telling myself I was telling myself like it's like not only myself. I told this to my friend actually. I told this to my friend. I was like sometimes people say don't let the devil win. >> But what happens if you let the devil Win? >> Maybe I need to let the devil win

so I can have a peace of mind. And then I'm like thinking to myself like why the [ __ ] would I ever say let the devil win? Imagine praying to God on your knees every single night asking God, "God, please bless me with this. God, please give me that. God, please give me this. Give please give me that. Please bless me with this. Please bless me with that." Just so you could like everything that God gave you, tell the devil, here you could have it >> because he's sending sometimes the devil sends evil in

human forms and human mouths and hum and humans tongue just so you could tell the devil to have it. Like imagine how God feels. Imagine God be like, "All right, baby. All right, girl. Here you here, here, here, have this. You wanted this. here. Here's what you get. And then like Like it's like it's like he's giving you something and then you go to school and they be like that's ugly and that's something that you've been asking him for a long time and now you don't like it because somebody told you that it's ugly. >>

Yeah. Well said. >> And it's like how I almost let the devil win. >> And I was telling myself that. I was telling myself that and like I said I Was telling it but sometimes you got to have believe it from the heart because your mind could tell you it. Your mouth could say it, but you got to believe it from the heart. This week though, I feel so much better and I feel so much confident. And I was like, I'm not gonna let the devil win. I'm not gonna be like, you know what? I

was telling my team like, I was like, you know what? I just need some days off. And it's like, how the are you going to take some days Off when your team been planning all of these all of these things that you had to do for your album roll out because of these people >> that are spewing things that the devil wants you to to think of yourself? I almost let this [ __ ] win. >> Don't let the devil win. >> Cuz how you think God feel? How you think God feel? party gave you

all this [ __ ] you've been asking for forever Just so you could say that. >> That really pissed me off about myself cuz I can't believe I said that. >> Well, no. I think it's human. I mean, even as I'm listening to you, I'm thinking everyone will be relieved because, you know, when someone as confident and as bold as you are and as outspoken as you are, which is which are all amazing qualities. The truth is though that we all have these human moments. >> Yeah. >> And it's not a weakness. It's natural for

all of us to feel pain, to experience sadness, to experience, and it humanizes you in a good way. It makes me feel like, oh wow, if Cardi feels that, then, >> hey, I I can feel that, too. You know, like if if she goes through those days and she gets out of them, and a week later she's feeling better and a year ago she was in a real mess and she's Feeling better, then >> then maybe I can take something from that as well. >> I'm not a perfect person. You know what I'm saying? I'm

not a perfect person and sometimes I'm a little bit misunderstood. >> How do you think you're misunderstood? >> I don't even want to bring this up again, but it's like I could tell you how I misunderstood. I actually got dragged for weeks because Of this. So, I made this. I I think I'm just a little misunderstood. Sometimes I could be I don't have a dark I'm not a dark humor person. I'm not a dark humor person, but sometimes like my humor could be a little rough. >> And I feel like my humor could be a

little rough because like, you know, like I said, like bo boys in the Bronx, >> they will make really tough jokes on you. And then on top of that, like it's like like a family like mine, we're Always cracking jokes on each other. Like it's like like being Caribbean. Caribbean people like if you too skinny, they'll be like, "Girl, you shaped like candle." Like you shaped like aing candle. just small like aing candle, like a white candle. Or like Dominicans like when you shape like big from the top and small from the bottom, they be

like, >> "What does that mean?" >> It's a certain type of yam. >> Okay. Okay. >> And it's like it's rude, but it's like it's just something that is like people just joke around that it's just so naturally. So sometimes my jokes might be a little bit not for everybody. And when I make certain jokes like like I made a joke the other day with my fans because they they literally started the joke and then I continue the joke and because of the joke and I refused to apologize for it. People was just saying That

I'm just such a mean person that I was trying to bully people that I'm hurtful to people. But it's like I wasn't even trying to hurt nobody. My intent wasn't to hurt nobody. It's just like everybody naturally jokes with their friends. Everybody naturally jokes with their peers. Everybody just might say not not the most nicest jokes or stuff like that. However, like I'm not trying to hurt nobody. I don't want to hurt nobody. And so many people Criticize me because of that or like judge my character because of that. But it's like I'm not this

evil mean person that people think that that I am. I'm very actually compassionate. I'm too compassionate. That's why I cry for there's something that might be going on in the other side of the world. I'm crying for it and it's like why am I crying for this? Like this is crazy. I'm very compassionate and I'm very understanding and I'm a Libra so I see Always two sides of the scale. I always have sympathy just a little. I even have sympathy for for [ __ ] I have sympathy for [ __ ] that my man and

they have taken a family loss. I'm like damn I feel bad for her. That's how sympathetic I am. >> What? Why do you feel sympathy for them? Like where does that come from or what do you feel? >> I don't know. It's just >> it's just how you're made. >> It's just how I'm That's just how I'm made or stuff like that's just how I am. However, people just have this thought of me and that's because my mouth is so rough. Like I'm a little rough and I curse like a sailor and I give advice

very strong. But everybody in my family give advice like very strong and I don't have yes men's neither. So my friends will give me advice in the most rudest way that it's like damn [ __ ] do you like me? But It's the truth >> and that's just how I am. That's how I'm going to talk to you and that's just how I am because it's the truth. >> And you're like that with everyone. It doesn't change for anyone. >> And I'm like that with everyone. >> How about the kids? Oh, I'm like that. I'm

like that with my kids, too. Like, little god damn it, I'm tired. But you can tell me I'm I'm a bad mom. I'm a great mom. If I'm good at Something, it's being a mom. But sometime like, get the you little get the god damn it. I'm sick of you. But that's just how I talk. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. >> Does that make me a bad mom? I I don't think I'm a bad mom. [ __ ] I give them too much to be >> a bad mom. >> It's It's funny you say that. I

was I was talking to a parenting expert on the Podcast a few weeks ago and she was saying that parenting is the most inconvenient thing. She goes, "You love them, but they're inconvenient." Like, it's hard like if you're honest about it. And so there's a real feeling about how how tough being a mom is. How how do you balance being a superstar and being a mom? Like how do you make it? You you said it yourself. You want to be the best at everything. When you do something, you want to be the best at It.

So I assume that applies to being a mom, too. >> Yeah. >> And so it's like how do you do that? What what is it to you? What makes you a great mom? What are the parts that you focus on? And how do you balance those two crazy worlds? >> I think that what makes me I think that what makes me like a good mom, I don't give my kids It's not that I give my kids everything, but they just think I'm So funny. Like even when I curse at them, they just think I'm so

funny. And it's like I'm being serious with y'all, but they just love me. I don't know why they I mean, of course, I know why they love me, but it's like, why y'all love me so much? I guess I have a good mom because they love me so much. They just think I'm so entertaining. They think I'm so fun. Even when we just laying in bed, they just want to lay in bed with me. Ain't No Target. We ain't going to the goddamn Target yet. We ain't going to Target. Don't ask me for no mother

goddamn Roblox. That's exactly how. Don't come here asking me for no goddamn Roblox. You ask me one more time for a iPad for one of your cousins, we're gonna have a problem. This how this exactly how I talk to my kids and they still love me. They just love me. I don't know. They love me for who I am. They love me. I don't even know how to explain it. I do I do give them everything though. But not all giving them everything doesn't always make you the greatest mom because it's like you seen you

seen cases where like the parents work so hard, they give they kids everything and it's not enough. Like them two brothers, what's they they call again? >> Uh oh yeah, the uh Menendez brother. >> Yeah, you could give them everything, but if they don't love you, they just don't love you. >> And I don't know, they just they just love me. I just always remind them that I love them. But I would curse them out, though. What what what's a what's a quality or a skill that you have that you really want them to learn

and develop and grow as they get older? I know they're young right now, but >> please don't be a bum. Please don't be a bum. Please don't be lazy. Some people are some people have the look, the intelligent, the talent. Some people really have that. but they don't go nowhere because they're lazy. Don't be lazy. Don't just be, oh, your parents are this and that. No. Be your own person. Be your own human. Be something. Be something. Be something that you could be proud of. My mom, she was not she's she was she was a

lunch lady Practically. But I am very proud of my mom because she used to work her ass off. She could have went to my grandma like, "I I'm going through a tough time right now. Can you raise my kids for a year or two?" She never did that. My My grandmother's as well, one of them got 10 kids, the other one got 13 kids. They worked every day. My grandma from my dad's side, she gave birth on her kids in her wooden house. And then a couple of days later she working back in the Farm

and she brought all her kids to America one by one different time. Same with my grandma. She had my for my mom's house. She had 13 kids. She used to cook cook food sell food sell food. She brung all her 13 kids over here. Like it's no excuse. But I could say that because they did that. And you're going to be able to say that about me. Like it's like my mom worked every day. I seen my mom work every day. Be that. be that one day you're gonna have kids one day and You want

your kids to say that about you that you worked hard every day that everything you got you deserved it that you made it nobody gave it to you. You don't want to be like, "Oh, you just you just successful because you a whole man like I have son. I have a son." You don't want nobody said that you you fly and you fire because you somebody's son. >> No, I'm fly because I'm my own man. I made myself a man. I work my ass off. You gonna have a [ __ ] one day. You don't

want your [ __ ] to be like, "Oh, he a mama boy. He a daddy's." No, I'm a hardworking man, baby girl. You on. Same with my daughters. Ain't no [ __ ] going to roll you over cuz you got your own [ __ ] You're more than just a pretty face. Be a boss. Be something. Please. I don't give a [ __ ] what they do. Whatever. The Just Just do not have that lazy bone on you. Like the the ain't no way that I'm busting my ass for you [ __ ] just so

you could end up not being [ __ ] I'm giving y'all everything. Every even when even when they 18 and stuff like that and it's time to leave. If you want an apartment, if you want a if you want a a car, I'll give it to you. But please, please become something. Don't be no Please don't be nothing. That would be the worst disappointment they could ever do. Don't disappoint me like that. Whatever you do, just don't be a nothing. >> If if you give it to them though, don't you think they'll be lazy then?

Cuz if you give them an apartment and you give them a card, then they'll feel like, well, I don't need to work cuz mom's got me. >> No, because it's like like, all right, for example, I I I went to college. I went to college, right? But I had to drop out of college because I had to work to just feed myself. Mhm. >> If you got a crib and if you could Maneuver to to college or you probably want to open up a business or something, if you can maneuver, you don't got to worry

about a bill, then it it becomes easier for you. But don't get don't make me give you an apartment or aing car and you just out here not doing [ __ ] I bet every single time I FaceTime you, you better be motherucking doing something. If you in bed at 12:00 p.m. Yeah. Ain't that car under my name? Oh, it's Coming with me. You need you need the real world. >> Yeah, >> you need you I'mma have to. And don't go to your daddy. You let me go to your daddy. >> I will take this

[ __ ] away. I don't play that. You ain't going to be nothing. >> Yeah, you clear on yourself. >> You got two feet, you got two hands, you got a brain. You better do some [ __ ] >> Yeah, for sure. I I I found like I Started working when I was 14. I used to deliver newspapers at the time and then I started working in a grocery store. I used to work at the back and stack the shelves, pick up all the pallets, bring all the goods in, work back of house and then

I worked and sold jeans at some jean shop. It's like I found working since I was 14 >> is what made me realize the value of work. And I've been working hard ever since. And it's if I didn't start Working hard at 14, I feel like my parents didn't have anything to give me either. Yeah, >> but I feel like that work ethic has to start early. >> It do have to start early. And that's why like it's like like sometimes when my Here comes my parents sometime my parents they be getting on my nerves

sometime like they be getting on my nerves sometimes because like my kids they have school till 3:00 p.m. Right. And after school I don't care and I don't want y'all at home talking about like I'm a little tough and [ __ ] I don't give a This is what I work hard for. After school, my kids four times a week they have tutoring, reading, math, whatever. They have tutoring mandatory in my house. Then culture have piano or she got gym class. Wave he got sports class and he still got to do the tutoring. And I

don't feel I'm sleepy. I don't I don't want to hear that [ __ ] I Don't want to hear that [ __ ] It's discipline. It got to be in you and you have to be better than me. I want you to be better than me. There's things that I cannot do that I want my kids to do. I don't know how to swim. I would love to swim, but the one time I went to a pool in Highbridge, there was a crazy fight that broke out. People was getting cut left to right. So, I

couldn't go swimming because I had no pool. If I have a pool, You going to learn how to swim. You going to take your swimming classes. I'm not really good with my feet. So you going to take dance classes because if you want to if you ever want to be a superstar, that [ __ ] going to be in you that you a dancer. >> Mhm. >> I want you to be smarter than me. Like I could read down, but my grandma's not that great. I want you to be not perfect cuz you cannot Make

your kids perfect and you don't want your to put pressure on your kids perfect, but I want you to be a a hund time better version than me. >> And I'mma install that in you. And you gonna be mad and you gonna be crying, but you gonna appreciate that one day. Because I wish I wish the things that that I put on my kids that I that somebody put in me when I was younger. >> But they couldn't have put that in me when I was younger because they couldn't Afford it. And they couldn't really

have time to be like, "Buckies, buckles, buckley, hennessy, hennessy, hennessy." Because they had to work. >> I have to work. But >> I'm going give you classes for it. >> Very something boy. Very something girl. I'm playing with y'all. >> I love it. I love it. Success is so much of who you are. It's who you breathe. It's what you do. >> What makes Cardi B happy? >> It's a like little little elements like my kids make me very happy. They're just soing cute and funny. Like it's just and they say stupid stuff. Like it's

like >> what do they say? >> This things that it's like girl what? It's funny. It's And it's funny seeing your kids grow and develop a little character in them. Like when my baby, she be hitting her brother and her Sister. It be so funny to me cuz it's like a baby and she's and they're and they're just there taking it. So to me the little little things like that is funny and makes me happy. Romance, you know what I'm saying? when I'm when I'm in love and when we're having a good, you know, we're

having a good week, when you showing that you care, that makes me happy. You know, actually, when I did saw a piece of an interview With Selena Gomez and you when she said, "I might have a 14-hour day >> and just one phone call and knowing somebody's there for you." >> It's a good feeling. That's a good feeling as well. >> Mhm. What else is a good feeling for me? When I'm with my cousins, when I'm with my family and we just cracking jokes and it just feels it feels like It feels like childhood. It

makes me happy. Music make me very happy. I love music. When me and my team we plan something, we put in so much work and it goes good. >> That makes me happy. that makes me happy, the team happy, and it motivates me and it motivate my team and it mot and it's just like we did it. So stuff like that stuff like that makes me happy seeing all the work that you do and the time that you put the process the Progress that you put and it's like it hits successful that makes you really

happy. Like it's like thank God, thank you Jesus. It makes you want to keep going just like >> that's a good list. >> Yeah, >> that's a good list. I like it. >> It's all connection. It's all real. It's human. It's love. It's family. It's friends. It's intimacy. It's it's it's all the It's all It is all the most Beautiful things that we're all looking for. How How do you see love now? Like, how do you define love? >> Effort. >> It's not going to always be perfect. Effort is is like a lot >> to

me. It means a lot to me. Like calling me, studying me, personality as well. I love me a joke. I love me a he he he. You know what I'm saying? Like if you if if I if I come to you and I'm in tears, when was it last week? >> I saw I saw my little boyfriend. I saw my boyfriend and I was in tears. I was like, it's so much pressure on me. Like it's so much pressure on me. And just one little joke. >> It like like I'm in tears. >> I kind

of forgot the joke, but it was so funny. >> That's good though. and like snot coming out of my nose and it's like it made me laugh. It just made me feel good and it's just like you know what things are Going to be okay. >> Yeah. >> Someone you can someone you can someone who can make you laugh cry and someone who can be there for you when you're crying real hard tears. >> Yeah. >> I like that. And I like effort. I like what you said study you. >> Yeah. >> That was really

interesting that I've never heard that before but I like it. The idea that if someone loves you, they study you. >> What does What does that mean to you? Tell me about that. I like that one a lot. >> Certain things are just the obvious. You know what I'm saying? Like certain things is like, are you really studying me or it's just the obvious? Like for example, if you get me a purse, if you get me a a a Birkin or a Kelly, right? It makes me happy. Of course, like who Who don't who which

which woman don't a bag make them happy? >> But you know that that's what I like. So it's not like you study it. It's like you see it on my page. But like when you do things that you don't normally do, but you're doing it because you heard me talk about this. Like like when you rent a castle, and I know you don't want to be in this old ass castle that you literally got to go up and down the stairs just so you could pee and it's Hot and there's no air conditioner. When you

rent a castle out just so you could just because you you keep saying like, "Ah, I can't wait. I can't wait to have a day off in Paris so I could go to Versailles. I'm obsessed with castles. I'm obsessed with kings. I'm obsessed with queens. And it's like you listen to that and you like do your best to make it happen. >> It's like it's like little things like that. >> Yeah. So, you're always leaving clues. >> It's not even like leaving clues. It's just like me talking about just you talking. >> Just me talking.

It's like it it means stuff to me and stuff like that. When you get to know my personality too and get to study me, it's like, okay. Cuz I'm a I'm a I think I'm a hard person to figure out. Some people just see me and think certain things until you really get to figure me Out and crack me. >> I might give you what I want to give you. You haven't cracked me yet. >> Will anyone ever crack you? Is it possible? >> Yeah. Little by little, I open up >> and I show more

of myself, >> my real self. >> Yeah. It's been it's been 7 years since you released new music and you've talked to me about releasing it, the hard work That went into it, the journey that got you there, why you waited, what finally made you feel confident that you had the right piece of work? What did you put into it? How did you know that now was the right time and the work was ready? Because it feels good. It feels good. Like it's like this. I feel like people are missing this. >> It feels good.

I feel good. I feel confident about it. >> I feel very confident about it to be honest with you. So that's why that's why I'm like it's time. >> Yeah. Where where did the name Am I in the drama? What inspired that? What what what's the subtext? What's the hidden meanings behind it? I don't want to keep saying when I was a little girl, but it's funny like it's like >> say it. I love it. I love knowing that you manifested this. It's beautiful. >> No, cuz it's like ever since I was a Little girl,

I always get in trouble. And it don't really be me. Like it's like if we having a sleepover, me and my cousins, I will be the one that the aunt is pulling their ears cuz it's like, "Yeah, I know this was your idea." But it even was it wasn't even my idea. And sometimes when I used to go to school and I used to fight, my mom used to be like, "Didn't I tell you to avoid the fight?" And it's like, "Mom, I swear to God, it's not me. It's these girls. They keep trying me.

That's why I keep getting into fights." And and when I was in school too, like it's like when I do get in trouble just because I'm being mischievous, it's like like my friends moms used to be like it's cuz of her. It's cuz of it's cuz of Becca. I know it's her. And it's like it don't really be me. It really don't be me. And that's just how it is with my life. Like it's like, yo, I'm always in A scandal. I'm always in some [ __ ] I'm always in some beef. And it's like

no matter how much I avoid it, it comes to me. Am I the drama? Is it me, Jesus? Is it me? No matter how much I avoid it, no matter how much I think I'm in a bubble and it's like, nope, that bubble's always going to pop. >> Something's always going to find you, girl. But that's why, like, am I the drama? Why am I always in some [ __ ] Whether it's good or bad, why am I always in some [ __ ] >> What's the answer? >> Am I? That's the That's That the

answer is still the question. Am I? Am I? Only one person can answer that and that's Jesus. Cuz God, why the am I always in some [ __ ] When is theing boat going to start smooth sailing? Why are we always in the ocean? In the middle of the ocean, in the roughest. We in the We in the Pacific Ocean all the time. >> I love that. It's a great question. It's a great question. It lines up for a great album. It's it's it's such a great name. It's such a great such a great energy.

Even just hearing you talk about it is such a great vibe. What's the uh I mean, how does it feel when that drama Gets televised and then it's all over Tik Tok? How does that feel? >> Nope. Sometimes it's good, sometimes it's bad. >> You always show up looking fabulous, but I'm like, how how does that feel when like, you know, >> Well, I try to come in here having eyes like you, but one of one of the contacts wasn't cooperating. So, I'm like, I'm not taking this other contact off. So that's why we have

the uh >> Yeah, that's why we got three blue eyes on set instead of four. >> I love it. I love it. I love it. >> So, >> how does it feel when when your drama is televised? Like when that is televised, how does that feel? >> It just feels sometimes it feels okay cuz there's going to be people that's going to cheer for you and sometimes going to be very overwhelming like and very stressful, very annoying. And then It's like unlike other celebrities, you know, a lot of people be wanting me to be like

certain celebrities and stuff like that. >> Oh, really? Like who? like they just want me to be like the type of person that just don't respond, >> that don't tell my feelings and they be thinking that some of these celebrities like they're perfect, >> which they are amazing, but don't think they're not going through what I'm going Through. Don't think they don't feel like what the pressure they that I go through. Don't think they're not saying y'all. I hate you [ __ ] Who the you think you are to tell me that I'm this, this,

who the you think you this, and that? I'm just the person that tells it. So, it's a blessing and a curse because sometimes I feel like I I speak for them. And that's why when a lot of Celebrities see me, they be like, "Yo, you be saying what I want to say." >> That's cool. But then sometime it's like a curse because sometime people be like it's like oh you're the only one that do that. You're the only one that do that. And it's like well I'll be the one that do that. >> Yeah. >>

I can't do it all the time though cuz then people going to think I'm just crazy. But I'll be the one that do that. Y'all need to leaveing people alone. Y'all think because us celebrity we make a little money and we make a little this. Like cuz it's like [ __ ] I have feelings too ho. I ain't no chop liver. So maybe that's why I'm sometimes like the punching bags. And sometimes people be like, "You need to stop doing that. You need to stop being this. You need you need to be more like them."

And it's Like they feel the same way I feel too. They want to tell these people you and your mom and your dad and your whole bloodline. How the you talking on me? [ __ ] you. Trust me, they want to say that's they want to say that. >> Yeah. I think everyone does. Yeah. But I'll be the one to say it. >> But that's because sometimes it do feel good to say it. >> [ __ ] you, >> [ __ ] You'll be the one. >> Yeah. >> Not all the time, but I'll be

the one. >> Yeah. Yeah. I I could see that from all the clips that I've seen. Like you're always yourself. Like you're never not yourself wherever you are. the glam, the looks, the fashion, the wigs, the everything that comes out of your mouth. It's like you're never you're never filtering yourself no matter the Environment you're in. >> Well, trust me, I I filter myself a lot. >> Oh, you do? >> I have I sometimes I feel like, then who the am I? Who the have I become? Cuz I I used to have no filter. Now

it's just like I be like, "All right." But still, you though. >> Where do you filter yourself? If you ever do, where do you filter yourself? this mouth. I could be a piranha. >> What are we today? A shark? No, today's >> No, today I'm a goldfish. >> Okay, today you're a goldfish. >> I ain't said nothing bad today. Today I'm a goldfish. >> No, no, no. >> I've been really nice today. >> You have been wonderful. But it's like sometimes I be seeing people and I'll be like I could get really nasty. This all

facts I could get really nasty. >> But you hold back sometimes. >> But I hold back so much. I hold I hold back so much. So much. So much. So much. So much so much. >> I really You know what? I really did change a lot. I don't know what changed me. Maybe maybe the age. Maybe the kids. Maybe life. >> You softened up a bit. I always been soft but I could I could really give it to you and I won't stop but I stop just for >> Is it the age? Is the kids

which which one is it or all of them? All of the above. >> It's a combination. >> Age really wisen you? Wisen you and make you afraid. >> Yeah. Got more to lose. >> Mhm. >> That I think that plays a big part. >> Mhm. When you're young and you're dreaming and you want all these things, no one ever tells you the cost that it Comes at. >> Yeah. >> And how much it tests you and brings all sorts of other challenges into your life. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. You you've talked about how money doesn't

fix everything and success doesn't solve everything. >> Mhm. >> And and it almost feels like when you don't have those things, you think it Will. >> Yeah. Yeah. >> And then when you get it, you realize, oh, wait, there's all this other stuff that we haven't figured out yet. What what is something that you're still trying to figure out, learn, solve in your own life? What's what's the part of your life you're like working on dreaming, envisioning, imagining to be better and different? >> I mean, life in general. >> All of it. >> All of

it. To be honest with you, life just doesn't get I wonder when life is going to do start getting easier cuz life is just hard. No matter if you have money or not. >> You got problems when you poor. You got problems when you're rich. >> He's always just trying to figure every single day. I feel like people is just trying to figure it out. Trying to figure themsel out. Trying to figure Life out. And it just will never stop. >> It will never stop. I think when it would stop when you're 60. But even

when you're 60, you're going to start having other problems like back problems. And it's like another thing, another problem that you got to figure out. You know what I'm saying? Like it's like it just would never stop. >> Yeah. >> The older you get, the more people you lose, the more kids you have, the more Things you have to worry about. The more money you have, the the more you have to learn about managing, you have a partner. Or when you don't have a partner, you got to figure out how you if you want to

how you want to deal with being alone. When you have a partner, it's like how you got to figure out how to be their peace and everything. And I really don't want people thinking either that it's like just because you have money like it's like you live the Easy life. Everybody that that have money that are successful that are good at what they do if you notice a pattern they work their asses off. Think that Beyonce got aing boat in a mansion and this and that because she's just Beyonce. No, she work her ass off.

She's one of the most hardest people ever. Why people cannot get to her level? why people cannot this and that because they just she just have a insane work ethic, an insane time. And my partner, he wakes up every day at 5:30, 6:00 a.m. and leave work at 7 p.m. And then you got people that hate on him and it's like, why? Well, why he's so good? >> Cuz he works hard. >> Why am I here after seven years? Because I'm every day, every day, working every day. What we doing next? Hello. What y'all doing?

Wake up. I got something planned. I just I just thought of something. I just had a dream or Something. We got to make it happen. And working hard. You could say working hard and it sounds like working hard, but it's like it's hours and hours, hours. It's time in his body, his brain. >> Like, I'm exhausted. I'm really exhausted right now. Back hurt, butt hurt. I'm sleepy as [ __ ] I got a headache on the right side of my head, >> but I'm working. >> Yeah. After this, >> yeah, >> I gotta do a

promo shoot and then I go into the studio and then tomorrow I gota do something else. Every single day. Every single day. Every single day. If you want it, you got to do it. No complaining, no crying [ __ ] >> In this conversation, you've talked about Jesus. You talked about the devil. Do you talk to God a lot? Do you pray >> every day? >> Every day. >> Mhm. I feel like I have a very deep Spiritual connection with God. And it's not even like about praying. It's like talking. Like even when I talk

to God, I talk to him just like I'm talking to you. >> I'll be cursing. I love that. >> Crying >> cuz people be like, "Oh, cursing is bad." But it's like God God know God knows who God knows who I am. God knows God knows how I be. Like it's like it's almost like I'm talking to a friend. And I really do believe in my weird mind, in my weird universe that I made, like I have I have angels. I really do believe that God gave me angels and I believe in them. I feel

like God is here and I feel like you got your angels here, then you got your other religions here. I believe in God so much. It's not even funny. And you know, some people might not believe in God, but it's like don't try like it's like I'm not going to Convince nobody to believe in what I believe in, but if it how you expect me not to believe on the person that I've been praying to my whole life >> and gave me what I wanted. >> So that little girl was talking to God in that

dream >> always, all the time. It's like the the imaginary friend, the voice in your head that you think is your friend that you think is your your your voice. That's that's just was that was just you Talking to God the whole time. >> That's just you talking to God the whole time. I love him. I believe in him. I always tell this to somebody like it's like the most the most the most I could give you the most powerful thing that I could give you is me praying on you. If I pray on you

for you is cuz I love you. It's the most powerfulst thing. And I do feel like when you pray together, miracles happen. I love him. I love you so much. Why do you love me so much? Why do you love me so much? Tell the Tell Tell everybody I'm like one of your favorite kids. Tell them. Jesus Lord tell these people I'm one of your favorites. A lot of them out of them. >> That's beautiful. Cardi, you've been so so generous with your time, your energy, your heart. I really felt, you know, this surpassed every

one of my expectations that I had of meeting you And getting to interview you. >> Hey, I knew I knew there was so much spirit. I knew there was so much soul. I knew there was there was just this energy inside that that I'm I'm really grateful you let >> share today and and people get to know you a bit more deeply. Uh we we end every episode with a final five. These questions have to be answered in one word to one sentence maximum. So, Cardi B, these are your final five. You know I Talk

a lot. >> I know you can. You can. >> You did our guest answer with one word. >> I'm giving you permission. You can. All right. So, question number one. We ask these to every guest who's been on the show. What is the best advice you've ever heard or received? >> Well, I'm going to go with one advice that I heard today. No, I didn't heard it today. I heard it yesterday. Ask the difficult questions. The difficult questions make the relationship stronger. It could break it. It could make it. But you still have an understanding.

If you become that understanding, then y might become stronger. >> You said it better. You said it better. Whoever said it, you said it better. So, >> uh, question number two. What is the worst advice you've ever heard or received? >> I think you've heard it a lot. Sometimes When somebody told me to wear a certain outfit or when somebody told me to drop a certain songs, you never know. It could go from here to that. >> Question number three, finish the sentence. One thing I'll never apologize for is >> my veining my mouth. Well,

sometimes I'm apologize for my mouth. Sometimes I might maybe I'm a little too hard. I don't know. I I apologize for my mouth sometimes, but Not all the time. >> Question number four. What's something that you used to value that you don't value anymore? >> Uh, I have like the streets. I value it a lot and I don't I value it because it made me and it gave me a certain mentality. But I wouldn't want to advise that adi advise that to people that I love, people that I care or to young kids, to young

boys, to young girls, Because it don't always lead you to where you think it's going to lead you. It's very grimy. Don't love you back ever. >> Mhm. And fifth and final question, we ask this to every guest who's been on the show. If you could create one law that everyone in the world had to follow, what would it be? If I was Kim Yangy, I'm not sure. I gotta come back to that. >> Yeah, think about it. Matter >> of fact, if you hurt children, you got to get what's that thing when they clip

you. Cast cashize, whatever it's called. >> You just got to be clipped. And if you're a woman, they need to burn it. >> Oh, wow. >> If you hurt kids. >> Wow. >> Yeah. That should be a mandatory thing all over the world. >> Wow. Cuz kids are so precious. >> They're so precious. They so innocent. Well, some of them, some of them are kind of evil. They born with the devil inside. If you see documentaries, some of them is like, "Oh [ __ ] you was born to die. You was born to be a

devil. Jesus. Jesus upon you, too." >> Cardi B. Everyone, the album is called Am I the Drama. I'm so excited for everyone to hear it. Love your energy. Love your spirit. So grateful to have Spent this time together. Thank you. >> And uh all the best. God bless. And I hope that you continue to succeed and win at life and keep being the energy and force that you are. So, thank you so much. >> Thank you. >> Thank you. If you love this episode, you'll really enjoy my episode with Selena Gomez on befriending your inner

critic and how to speak to yourself with more compassion. >> My fears are only going to continue to show me what I'm capable of. The more that I face my fears, the more that I feel I'm gaining strength. I'm gaining wisdom.