YOU ARE NEVER “TOO MUCH” | authenticity, vulnerability, why you don’t need to act “nonchalant”...

[Music] hello everyone and welcome back to another episode of a better you I your host Fernand amirz I'm so excited to have you here if you don't already know a better you is a self-help self-development Wellness all of the above podcast we talk about becoming the best version of ourselves the most independent the most confident the most bubbly social but also the most reflective and uh one who can be with themselves and uh should I just keep going no I'm kidding we've talked about so many topics and I love to have you guys here and

listen to me Yap so in today's episode we are talking about a topic that I think is so interesting and very funny and this is just something that I feel like I've experienced a lot in real life recently and it's one of those topics that I would discuss with a friend and we would call it some food for thought it's just something to think about something to ponder about something to reflect on and I feel like it's a fun conversation to let my train of thought go rampid is that the word rampid to let my

train of thought go wild and just to discuss a bunch of topics that kind of go within the overarching topic before we get into it let me just say I'm a little bit sick I'm getting over a little bit of a cold so yeah my voice is a little bit raspy sexy some may say no I'm kidding it's just raspy so anyways disregard that if it sounds a little bit lower if it sounds a little bit crazy I feel like I've gone over the hump though I'm getting better other than that make sure you are

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have to say you can follow the Instagram at a better you. by Fernanda and without further Ado let's talk now I have a feeling that this podcast may be a longer one I'm not 100% sure so I don't want to talk too much in this intro just so that you know we have space for the actual meet of this episode but to give you guys a little bit of an update on my life two days ago I went to the Serena Carpenter concert H short and sweet and it was so much fun I went with

Trinity and if you guys haven't already seen the pictures I took on my Instagram make sure you head on over to those because me and Trinity went all out we basically dressed up as Sabrina Carpenter we had like a little pink corset I sung my heart out we took super cute photos we had like such a fun pre it was all pink and girly and just like sleepover party themed and it was so much fun so definitely check that out but also I just want to say if you haven't seen Sabrina Carpenter on tour or

you haven't been to her concert I honestly highly recommend it it was so much fun and it was such a little girl party between me and Tren going to see her and we had a little sleepover after and it was so much fun so I'm really excited for that and I actually vlogged it as well to give you guys a little bit of a sneak peek on what I'm working on over on YouTube which first of all I haven't posted a YouTube video in like 3 weeks which is potentially the longest I've ever gone without

uploading but but this time in my life has also probably been the most transformation and growth that I've ever had and something that I've been reflecting on myself is the fact that back in the day I used to Value numerical growth on social media as the most important growth in my life and if I wasn't growing and doing numbers and hitting uploads and whatever I would feel really bad about myself and although that's still not 100% gone I will say I feel like I've come to a better balance and recognizing that like there is so

much growth happening in my real life and as a human being that that can't go unnoticed either and I'm just kind of embracing that that is to say though that I'm I'm filming so many YouTube videos and I guess the whole reason why I even brought that up was to say that I vlogged the short and sweet concert so that's going to be on YouTube and I'm filming a little series called Tales of an extrovert this is kind of like the soft launch I guess of that series but I was thinking to myself like there's

so much content on being introverted and kind of being your own best friend and spending time alone as I literally just made a podcast episode on why you need to travel alone and although there are episodes on how to make friends and I've made a lot of episodes like that I feel like there isn't enough content highlighting how to be more extroverted if that is something that you are craving or if you're craving connection so I'm really excited for that series to begin and I've just been vlogging a lot of time spent with my friends

and I think you guys are really going to feed off the energy from that video so I'm really excited to get that upload up and I guess just to also kind of touch base on the fact that I just said that I've had so much transformation over the past 2 months you guys I eventually want to make a episode on being out of a relationship and I feel like I've had so much growth and transformation and Reflections and I want to talk about it but I don't know when is the right timing but I was

going to say I feel like since I haven't uploaded in like 3 weeks or whatever this past like month I've just I've literally never had more plans and more going on in my real life I've just been so busy I'm excited for when I get to talk about all of my findings and my learnings and I think you guys are going to really enjoy that but I guess that's really the only updates that I have other than that it is November welcome November I'm happy to have you I have to start setting up my Christmas

tree I literally so desperately need to finish setting up my apartment so I can finally do like an apartment tour anyways let's get into today's episode I'm excited to Yap and let's do it so you've already seen the title of today's episode it is called you are never too much influencing the energy of the room vibing high and why you don't need to act nonchalant H if you guys don't know what nonchalant is we are going to get into it in a minute here but in today's episode we are just going to be talking about

authenticity embracing your own unique Vibe letting your inner child shine being unapologetically yourself being loud and taking up space not letting others make you feel bad about that and also projecting your unique vibe to attract the right people and repel the people that aren't meant to be in your life before we get into it let me just say the reason why why I was prompted with this idea was because I just came back from La for Halloween and I actually had probably one of the best trips to La I've had like ever um I made

so many new friends and I was so out of my shell you know being in rooms that I've never been in before being in the spaces of people that I haven't been in before and i' I've said this so many times but I love making episodes when things in my real life are aligned with like what I find interesting to talk about and so while I was there and I made some new friends I feel like I as as everyone does you notice the good you notice the bad you notice the people that you attract

you notice the people you repel you notice the people that you don't want to be around and you notice the people that you do want to be around and so I feel like I have so much to discuss on this topic freshly being back from La as well as I mean I still obviously remember my trip to Europe which was like now like a month and a half ago I feel like even then I had so many situations that can apply to this topic and just scenario recently in my life as I've been in such

a social chapter of my life where I've had to really own my authentic Vibe and own who I am and unapologetically be who I am and like see what type of people that attracts and also learning to let myself be my own Vibe and not feel ashamed for whatever that is so first let me say what do I mean by being too much now I don't know if it's ever happened to you guys but sometimes we may be told we are being too loud we are being too excited we are too too happy we are

honestly it could even be the opposite you could be too quiet you could be laughing too much whatever it is it's someone pointing out you doing anything excessively and first of all how triggering of a statement that is because you should be allowed to do whatever you want Express Yourself however you want feel however you want and if it's a positive emotion is it ever really enough honestly I really think the only people that would ever make that comment and the only people that would ever kind of give you a side eye to you ever

expressing too much of a genuine happy emotion or it doesn't even need to be happy it could be bad is someone projecting their own maybe lack of feelings um And when they see you express so much it's a little bit confronting to them or it's somebody trying so hard to play it cool that they can't even allow themselves to authentically express themselves and seeing you express yourself so freely is again confronting but regardless it is someone who is projecting their own internal feelings because somebody that is content with themselves somebody that is happy with themselves

somebody that identifies with how you feel would never make you feel like you're too much of anything I remember one time I had an experience where I was staying with people that I didn't know that well and they were all friends and I was kind of a new person coming in and I was very excited to be there I was very happy I was very positive I brought my own vibe to the crew and this was now a few years ago so I feel like I would have navigated this situation differently now or maybe I

wouldn't even be hanging out with those people anymore which I don't really but at the time they told me Fernand you're were just so positive fand you were just so excited you're just so happy and I did find it a little bit triggering because I'm like I'm trying to lift the mood up I'm trying to be a good vibe what do you mean I'm being too much of something that situation reminded me of this topic in general but boy well I tell you those people were not happier than me so it's definitely not someone you

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buzzword these days it's probably it's it's really probably not a buzz word it's like actually just a word but I feel like it's super uh used and common these days and a word to really describe the way that a lot of people kind of emit their own energy and so I searched online and I'm going to tell you what it actually means if you don't fully know or you know just having a description sometimes may paint a better picture but it says that nonchalant means to be calm but I feel like some people naturally have

a calm Vibe but I would just call them calm whereas if I called someone nonchalant to me it's giving more of the vibe of they're kind of playing like they don't care like they're too cool for school but it says here someone who is nonchalant is relaxed and calm either because they do not care about something or because they are not worried about something they may be unconcerned conc ered when others may be worried or excited it suggests a casual indifference or a relaxed demeanor it says for example someone might give a nonchalant shrug when

asked about a serious matter indicating they are not particularly worried or interested now as for myself when I am in Social settings you always notice these people who feel like they're too cool and they want to play it chill and especially being in LA and being in this like party scene there was definitely some people that I noticed that try to play it off like I don't know it might just be their Vibe but sometimes I feel like they're trying hard to act like this is no big deal or whatever and I feel like there

is this pressure for other people who maybe Express themselves more openly to kind of submit to that type of energy as well to fit in I will say for myself I've definitely experienced this before where I'm very excited and I see everyone acting chill and so I lower my own vibe to match the vibe of other people and although right place right time sometimes it's what you have to do to fit in it does kind of give you an indication of whether or not you should even be in those spaces or even maybe a reminder

that you don't need to lower your vibe to fit in with those people you can find people that have an elevated Vibe and that actually match your frequency I know I had a scenario one night where I was so excited to be where I was and I was talking to somebody and I don't know how it got brought up but I said to them like how exciting it is that we get to be here like how beautiful is it that we're in this like Wonder ful space that we're around all these people everyone is so

dressed up everyone looks so nice like genuinely just take a minute to take it all in and be grateful for where we are the reason why I brought that up was because before me and my friend went out we kind of made it a point to ourselves to be in the present moment and remind ourselves when we were at this event to like be grounded and look around and be appreciative and so that's why I brought it up to this other person and they were even like oh damn like I never thought about it like

that and I kind of love that one it was a grounding experience for the both both of us to honestly maybe that could have been too much for the wrong person they would have been like okay chill like we're just at this like we're just at this function girl stop making it a big deal but they were just as excited as I was they were open-minded about it and they received my energy with reciprocated energy as well and so it was actually a very beautiful bonding experience um but regardless my point was to say that

bringing awareness to where we were and gratitude to the moment and allowing someone else to kind of like peek into your excitement kind of raised their Vibe as well and maybe honestly kind of gave them the opening to also Express themselves authentically and to be excited and not play up this like Cool vibe I also feel like I haven't necessarily had this much experience with this obviously but there is a big pressure even in dating situations to act nonchalant around your crush or around the person you like or to not respond too quickly or to

not respond to someone's text with too many emojis or too many exclamation marks or just with too much enthusiasm CU you don't want to seem too available or you don't want to see to forward and again I feel like the overarching message of this episode is that you will never be too much for the right person that is a quote that I saw online and definitely the energy that I want to carry with me no matter what I do and it is also your reminder to not water down your emotions or the way that you

express yourself and to not pretend to be indifferent about maybe something that you're passionate about or something that you're excited about or something that you have a strong opinion about in fact I saw online a statement that I actually really resonate with and it says that being too much is actually a superpower the reason why this statement is true is because being overly expression opinionated passionate those are all actually incredible qualities to have and qualities that successful people strive to have and embody I may have explained this in a podcast episode before but something I

often think about is the fact that my whole career and the reason I am in the places that I am in now or the reason why I live in apartment that I live in the reason why I am financially free or abundant or have been able to travel the places I've wanted to been able to make a career off of social media is by being myself online by showing my personality online by being authentic by being vulnerable by literally being too much and I remember when I was younger I used to always get told that

I talk too much that I was too chatty that you know sometimes you know little Fernando was doing the most okay and then you bring it to like a platform like YouTube or anywhere online honestly and you actually get rewarded by being too much people find that entertaining people find Value in that um if you're overly passionate about something you can teach other people that and if I wasn't doing the most or letting myself be seen fully I wouldn't be where I am today and I wouldn't have the followers I have I wouldn't have the

success that I've had and so I honestly have to remind myself that sometimes whenever I feel like I start to care a little bit too much about what other people think of me me I have to remind myself Fernanda people like you most when you are authentic people like you most when the curtain is dropped we'll put it that way when you are not afraid to be seen when you are fully yourself and to me I feel like that's because people find relatability in that people resonate with that behind their Shield of trying to act

cool look cool what does society want me to look like you and I we are the same I know you've got an inner child in you I've got my inner child in me and I choose to see you and you choose to see me if we allow ourselves to you know be vulnerable and to be ourselves and so I just want to say for one I fully agree with the fact that being authentic being unapologetically yourself and being too much is actually a superpower the proof is in the pudding with me but also with every

other celebrity or Entertainer you see or successful person honestly they are probably too much of something I'm sure that you can think about your biggest role model or someone that you look up to maybe it's like literally anyone in any profession they're doing too much of something and that's why they are where they are this applies for anyone in like any field but specifically for me I'm going to talk about like YouTube or like social media or something just because that's what I do but the top creators the top people in this industry that are

doing the best are the ones that are the loudest the most expressive the most courageous the bravest like they're doing the most and that's why they are where they are I also saw somewhere online that says that the opposite of depression is actually expression so if you aren't expressing yourself that is when you are suppressing your energy and it can actually have a big impact on your confidence your relationship your self-worth the way that you just move through life Etc so don't be afraid to express yourself find different ways to express yourself and know that

if it's not appreciated in one space it is 1,000% appreciate in a different space and actually if someone doesn't appreciate your authentic energy or think you're doing too much or they're just not attracted to your authentic Vibe it's actually the universe protecting you from bad energy bad auras and people with maybe the wrong intentions or just the wrong the wrong energy that does not align with yours so take it as a blessing if someone doesn't Vibe with your Vibe it's The Universe telling you that person is not meant to be in your life and something

else that I feel like I thought about recently or someone said to me or something or I maybe read online was that when you are a very happy person or maybe you're expressing love or you're expressing Joy or you're someone with a very pure heart your love you want to funnel it in like a bunch of different ways and you might want to express that to a bunch of different people but just because your love is there to express to a bunch of different people doesn't mean that other people are there to receive that and

if they don't receive that don't ask yourself am I doing too much am I the problem is it that I'm expressing myself too much or too openly or too freely it's just that they don't align with your Vibe and that is okay again if you have that self- Lov which is something that I've really been working on for the past like two months or it's been a focus in my mind if you have that self-love the selflove is having those boundaries and not allowing those negative energies to come in and in fact walking away and

realizing I'm I'm more than this I don't need to suppress my energy I don't need to suppress my vibe to match yours it's almost like putting your blinds up looking to the other side radiating Your Love again and seeing where that gravitates toward or who gravitates towards you and and you know it's kind of like a magnet what what gets attracted to you but also I will say because you are this loving energy or this excited energy or this passionate energy you might have a lot of energy to give and you might have bad auras

coming to you people that are attracted to you like a bright light and a mosquito so if you do have this genuine energy this genuine Joy this genuine excitement this genuine passion and you're excited to give it out to the world make sure and this is just kind of like a side point this isn't really what this episode is about but something that I feel like I've really had to learn over the past few years having this energy is the power of discernment which is the ability to judge well this is a quality that I

think is so important and has definitely helped me be where I want to be and create the right friendships create the right relationships and connections it's just being able to read people clearly and seeing who has the right intentions for you and who doesn't because while I'm saying that you don't need to suppress your Vibe and you should be able to show it off if someone is kind of being fake to you or you're kind of again giving it to the wrong people it's just not worth it and being able to decipher who is actually

good for you is a very important skill to have something me and my friend love to say is that aura sees Aura authenticity sees authenticity when you are unapologetically yourself you will attract those that see that in you and they will automatically feel a magnetic pull to you I have a few personal stories that I want to share for this next I guess like few sections and so first I want to talk about something that me and my friend did before we went to some parties in La we do this all the time but specifically

because it was me and her like pregaming before we were going out we had so much fun with saying affirmations to ourselves and saying intentions before we would go out so for example we're in the car we're going to some new places we're going to some new events some new parties whatever we'd be in there being like we are so confident we are so social we are so happy we have a high vibration we have good intentions and not only is affirming these things to ourself make us feel good but it kind of like literally

amped us up and got us excited to go out and you know just socialize or to create connections to have a fun moment to make memories whatever we would also make intentions like we are going to go out and make friends tonight we're going to go out and uh maybe talk to five new people I'm just giving you examples but like kind of intentions for the night we did say like we're going to find each other like if we get too busy mingling around we're going to find each other and really be present and just

kind of be in our own little world cuz sometimes when you know two extroverts go out to somewhere social sometimes we kind of get distracted and start mingling with a bunch of other people whatever and so having kind of like a little bit of a grounding ritual one might say um where we kind of get together and be like we're here we're here like let's enjoy this let's let's interact with what's around us let's like be in the present moment that was something that was really special for me and my friend I feel like it's

a good bonding friend experience as well um but anyways it was really funny because we were in the car like in the Uber and we were saying our affirmations and we're just minding our own business like in the back seats and we're just so excited we're laughing we're kind of being a little bit loud whatever um some Uber driver probably could have been like these girls back here are so annoying they're just doing the most like what are they even doing but our Uber driver was kind of like started laughing and so we started hyping

him up and we're like okay and he got into it and he started saying the affirmations and I just love that for him it felt like a moment of humanity he was like I'm the best Uber driver and we were like yeah keep going and he's like I'm going to make so much money tonight and we were like mhm you are and he was like I've got super cool people in my car and I'm going to meet super cool people tonight and I'm going to make so much money this whole week and we couldn't stop

cheering him on and he was laughing he was smiling I honestly feel like we kind of made his night that night and honestly he kind of made my night as well because now that's imprinted in my mind and when I think of somebody who is the definition of matched the energy brought the Good Vibes and embraced red our authentic Vibe I'm going to think of this Uber driver um so anyways I hope that when we got out of the car he was feeling excited he was feeling happy and he did make a lot of money

that night and he was feeling cool and that's kind of an example where you know you're being yourself you might be doing too much to someone else you know they're probably could have been another person in the car being like y'all what are you doing you guys are like over overdoing it like you're just going out to a party whatever but instead we had somebody embrace our Vibe uplift our Vibe join in our vibe and you know get out of that mindset of like you're just going to this event or you're just going to this

party you're just going to this hangout and think of it as like you you get to go to these places you're fortunate enough to be in these places you deserve to be in these spaces and you should be excited about being freaking alive so regardless you know if you get to go to like a a cool party on top of just being alive that's already something to celebrate it says online here that by being unapologetically yourself in Social settings you exude a genuine energy that naturally attracts people who align with your values personality and spirit

when you show up authentically without trying to fit into someone else's expectations you create a magnetic presence that draws in those who appreciate and admire you for truly who you are which side note I have to say that's also so true and so accurate because if you are playing up this fake version of yourself and you attract people who like that fake version of yourself you're going to have to keep this act up and that is not fun that is not exciting and you're going to leave those interactions feeling drained it says here that people

that resonate with your quirks humor and energy will feel connected and inspired to be themselves around you fostering meaningful and Lasting connections that is one of my favorite statements of all times because I truly do feel that and I I feel like that's why even some people that watch my YouTube maybe resonate with what I'm saying or just being vulnerable in general because when you allow yourself to not be perfect and to be a little bit messy to say the wrong things it allows people to drop their guard down as well I actually had a

big note on this on my like Notes app about letting your guard down and letting other people let their guard down and so I want to talk about that also I even kind of explained it at the beginning but the whole thing about the letting your inner child show I had an experience again with my friend where we met a new person and immediately we vibed with them we liked them we were like this is going to be our friend like we were just so happy to be in this person's presence and they ended up

showing us something that they created also I'm being a little bit cryptic just because like I don't want to I don't know it's not my story always to tell or I don't know if people want to be like included into my content whatever so I'm just going to say this person showed us something that they created it was a creative Masterpiece one might say okay and they were a little bit nervous to show us and they were kind of like I don't know if I should show you guys like I don't know and me and

my friend we're just like listen we are the biggest hype people like trust us like you are so fine to show us like we're so excited to see this whatever and they ended up showing us what they created and it was so good so good I was so I literally cried um because I had an overwhelming amount of emotion like you know a few tears shed down my face anyways we kind of kept reminding this person like just let yourself be seen show what you have to show to the world to us like we are

not ones to judge we are here to appreciate what you have and if it's authentic to you then that's all that matters and this person ended up saying like my inner child feels so safe with you guys like I feel like I can be my inner child and that comment really stuck out to me because what are we what are we even doing if not trying to allow people to be their inner child around us you know like that I feel like is the purest form of like genuine connection and it just really meant a

lot to me and I think meant a lot to that other person as well so I feel like that's just a reminder for you if you're listening that when you are talking to new people or you're talking to someone that you feel is putting up this show of nonchalant or like trying to act indifferent you know there is a little little girl inside or a little boy inside and like any child just wants to be seen wants recognition would love a compliment would love to feel excited would love to feel Joy and as much as

they are putting up this show it might be performative or they might be trying to conceal something or they might be trying to fit in or to act cool letting other people put that down and like embracing who they naturally are is not only going to make you feel better but it's going to make them feel so much better and I feel like that's the whole point of connection in general like not only is it about you but what you can provide for the other person as well so definitely seek the people that let you

be yourself shamelessly and give you the space to be that person and also in the reverse give that space for other people hold the space for other people to allow them to expresss and to open up to you and again if there are people that do not align with your Vibe or you try to have this open space for them and it's just not clicking know that you actually have a filter over yourself and you're just filtering the things that are meant to be with you and the that aren't we do not want any superficial

connections fleeting connections draining connections there's just no point in even creating them in the first place then another personal experience that I want to talk about that kind of resonates with this topic that I actually didn't discuss in my last podcast which I don't even know how I forgot about it but when I was in Portugal I went on a little Yoga Retreat and this yoga retreat was such a beautiful experience I feel like I left feeling so connected to so many people and let me just let me just talk about that for a moment

okay so I went on this Yoga Retreat it was for 2 days in evora Portugal ivora I don't know how to say it and there were so many people of different ages people from different backgrounds people from different countries people with different jobs and my friend who actually hosted The Retreat handpicked all these people so she was saying like I picked all of these people with purpose and with a reason and I believe that we're all meant to be here on this trip together and I just you know whatever she kind of curated the vibe

and she did such a good job she honestly picked such interesting amazing authentic people and I feel like in those two days I created friendships that I would be excited to reach out to again or to go hang out with again and so many of them live in different continents than me literally so I can't just do that but like it was so meaningful to have that experience and that weekend I was actually one of the youngest people on this trip and so quickly I felt accepted by Everyone by the fact that everybody was so

authentic and so open and as much as I consider myself as a very authentic person a very open person a very extroverted person I was even a little bit taken back by how vulnerable all these people were and how quickly they connected with each other because I definitely feel like although I can be authentic and I can be myself and it's almost like playing the character of yourself sometimes you can still be a little bit guarded or a little bit reserved when meeting new people or at least I know I am and so quickly were

these people talking about their emotions and the way they felt and and I even said this on my one of my recent episodes my recent YouTube video that as much as am authentic I don't think I'm very open vulnerably which is more about your emotions not just about who you are and seeing other people be so emotionally vulnerable made me feel like I could be that as well and that I didn't have to have my guard up so that was an example of how other people did that for me and let me be myself even

further if that makes sense there was a moment where at the end of the trip we were can I just paint this picture for you okay we had a beautiful candle lit dinner at one of the guest's house and there was like R&B playing there was candles everyone was so dressed up everyone smelted amazing the food was amazing I literally was like Fernand you are living a dream right now your younger self would probably cry witnessing this moment because this is so beautiful okay and after this dinner was done everyone started dancing again beautiful after

the dancing we decided to take a midnight stroll to a beautiful gazebo Under the Stars while we had blankets and we stargazed and did a meditation I'm sorry am I describing a dream right now I'm not I was there and it was beautiful okay but anyways I'm getting ahead of myself we were under the stars meditating sharing energy it was so beautiful I could cry thinking about it but anyways at the end of this it was dark right and so we had to go around and basically say to the group how we felt after this

trip our Reflections and I literally guys I keep saying that I'm crying if you know me in real life you know that I don't even cry that often and I wasn't even sad in this moment I just feel like one way that I do cry is by an overwhelming amount of emotion like it's like I don't even know what to do it's not even sad emotions it's just like an overwhelming feeling anyways so we basically went around the circle and everybody had to explain how they were feeling and they were so honest I was almost

scared to to go next cuz I'm like what am I even going to say like anyways I literally cried because people were so honest and so vulnerable and so when it got to to my turn in this group I was like the 10th person out of like 13 I literally started crying and I did feel a little bit more open to to say how I truly felt knowing that we were in the darkness like it was dark out so no one could really see my face but they could hear me and basically what I said

to the group was like I really value everyone's emotional vulnerability because I've never witnessed people be so upfront about their feelings so quickly and I don't necessarily see that back home or in friendships that I have like it's I just haven't seen this and so I thank you guys for creating that space and allowing me to like tap into that version of myself and it like feels so good and whatever anyways I don't remember really what else I said but like there was so much that I said there and I was speaking from the heart

I was speaking very vulnerably I was speaking very honestly and I literally felt like I was pulling back the layers of an onion as I'm like expressing myself because it is a little bit hard to let yourself be seen so fully but again these people were all the right people that were meant to be in that space that had the right energy that had the right frequency that had the right vibe that embraced My Vibe and not only just listened and heard but like after I was done came to me and like was like it

was so nice what you said actually someone came up to me and told me that I was very articulate and that I had a very nice speech and that compliment will stay with me side note I want to say to you guys I actually started making a list on my phone like a Notes app list of compliments that I receive in person that have nothing to do with appearance and I highly recommend you guys doing this as well because it is so heartfelt is that the word like so meaningful to look back at this list

and see what people have said about you and like who said it when they said it whatever and like you just get to read these compliments and just know that they are so personal to you it's a very beautiful exercise and I feel like really helps with your self-confidence and your selfworth and just like your overall confidence um so anywayss that was very sweet um but the reason why I say this story is to tell you guys how other people let my guard be lowered and how other people probably saw the inner child in me

and was like I'm here to embrace you and you are free to be yourself and I felt free to be that if you want to embrace your inner child as well do things that make you feel like your younger self whether that be dancing cracking jokes uh being playful whatever it is whatever makes you feel connected to yourself let that version of yourself come to the Forefront and let that version of yourself be seen that infectious joyous energy will cling on to other people and if they're a real one they will enjoy that you will

definitely raise the vibrations of the group also just a reminder and just uh something for you to think about is how exciting it is that you get to feel excitement like how special it is that you get to feel that how grateful you should be to be able to experience joy and to experience good things and just like Relish in that feeling feel excitement more often I think excitement is one of my favorite feelings to feel and I honestly don't know why people would try to downplay that honestly to fit in because whenever I am

excited I attract the best people and again carrying that excitement will influence the room around you and the space around you don't be afraid to be the vibe that you want to attract whenever you enter new spaces um if you feel that the vibe is low you can try your best to raise the vibe people will try to match your Vibe and also I want to say for situations if you're navigating like entering a space where you can't influence the energy of the room and you are almost a little bit drawn down by other people's

negative energy um I feel like it's a really tough situation to actually be in that and sometimes you do kind of have to momentarily lower your Vibe but take that as a signal or as a warning to maybe not be in those spaces again or to not hang around those people um or if you end up leaving these spaces not feeling better than when you entered just take that as a warning okay but again sometimes it is hard when you're in the moment to fix a vibe that is unfixable I also want to say I

do have a podcast episode on how to not care about what other people think of you and I definitely think that that is a really great episode to listen to after this one um or just a you know episode to listen to in general that kind of goes along with this topic because that will kind of help you with embracing your Vibe and your energy and your enthusiasm and not fearing what other people are going to fear definitely listen to this episode we talk also about how to be your true self and stay unbothered I

also have an episode on things that make you a cool person I titled it qualities that make people magnetic likable and interesting and this is another episode that I am very passionate about and I really like and I just love the way it turned out so definitely watch that episode and then I have one more recommendation for you and it is my episode on how to discover your authentic self the power of authenticity and not letting judgment get to you so those are all different episodes that have very similar kind of topics but very different

approaches and much different valuable information that you can take from I'm very proud of all of those episodes I put a lot of work into them and I definitely think that those can be helpful now I kind of want to end this episode on a few Journal prompts for yourself surrounding this topic I feel like this is such a great idea to answer these in a journal and it's definitely something that I want to journal about um I'll go through these prompts kind of slowly but definitely pause this episode write them down set up a

little Journal station for yourself and do some self-reflection because self-reflection is so important and I feel like helps you navigate new situations with so much more clarity knowing that you've already kind of discussed this with yourself okay Journal prompts let's go when was the last time I felt I had to tone myself down what does my most authentic self look and feel like when do I feel most like myself and what makes me feel that way what parts of my personality have I been afraid to show and why what what would my life look like

if I stopped worrying about being too much what do I fear people will think of me if I show my true emotions or passions what is one moment when I hid my true feelings how would it have been different if I had expressed myself who in my life has made me feel safe to be my true self and how did they do that what activities or environments make my energy feel vibrant and alive this question is so funny what situations make me feel pressured to act nonchalant what would happen if I let myself care open

so true H guys let me know if you'd also be interested in me doing like self-reflection for these questions on video I feel like that could be really funny that might actually be a good idea pretend I didn't say that I'll give you three more three more who or what taught me that being indifferent is cool and why do I still believe that what kinds of people make me feel inspired energized and understood what does it mean for me to live loud and proud and what are some ways I can embody that okay you guys

that was a bunch of different Journal prompts so inspiring like I'm inspired I feel like I should go Journal right now but anyways we're going to end the episode here I hope you enjoyed this I hope that you found this interesting I definitely had a lot of fun talking about this and I hope that you end off this episode feeling inspired to be bold to be brave to be seen to embody who you feel you are in the inside to let that inner child of yours shine and to oh [Music] than okay you guys sorry

my music just started playing randomly maybe that was a sign the song that was playing is called Kiss of Life um yeah kiss life okay I love you guys I will talk to you later and be yourself be expression it I love you for you people will love you for you okay I love you got to go