sometimes life can really hijack your [ __ ] mind someone once owned my brain i never owned it everybody had it it was my dad's fault it was the kids that called me [ __ ] fault my mom wasn't home fault my soon-to-be stepdad's fault the little kid that got rid of by the bus fault my life was everybody had a piece of my [ __ ] brain and through this journey of suffering [Music] sometimes life can really hijack your [ __ ] mind when that happens to you you're all [ __ ] up your
goals your ambitions everything is out the [ __ ] window in life we all go through different things sometimes your girlfriend or boyfriend breaks up with you guess what get the [ __ ] over it they no longer want you maybe you fell a test in school you worked your ass off guess what you felt the [ __ ] test get over it move past it learn to not let life hijack your brain at work you've been working your ass off that new promotion you don't [ __ ] get it someone else does maybe they
kiss better ass than you do guess what get over it life will hijack your mind if you let it don't allow all these things to make you a lesser person you must own your mind don't let life on yours get out there stay hard you don't gain confidence by going to the spot that makes you feel good it's to be a false reality and the second life gives you that challenge all you want to do is go back to what makes you confidence or or what gave you confidence is that happy spot no what gives
you confidence what gave me confidence was spending years at a kitchen table trying to learn how to read and write on my own realizing i can't learn the way you learn i can't but i can learn what gives you confidence not being afraid it's overcoming the fear isis stutters severely bad so right now i don't know how many people are gonna watch this you know what gives me confidence is knowing i no longer care if i sit and start stuttering to you that's what gives me confidence is facing these things overcoming them and maybe not
overcoming them every day but facing them and facing their face and preaching like this you know what man this is where it's at it's not in that comfort zone it's in the discomfort zone is where my confidence is getting built that's where it's getting built but people want to and they want an easier answer yeah there has to be an easier way it's not i coach a lot of people nowadays billionaires who call me on the phone and say man i'm still missing something it's because they did what they were good at and they had
this beautiful family two three houses cars everything has everything to work on the outside looking like my god man how can you be unhappy i walk around with the backpack with all my stuff and i walk around happiest person in the world have nothing happy as hell it's because i found out the whole key to life it's not in all that you have to face yourself so many people live to be 100 years old and they die miserable having everything because they never examined and the only way you can set the example is you have
to always be willing to work i don't follow people who talk about what they used to do in life don't give [ __ ] what you used to do i don't care like you know you used to be the basma i don't care what are you doing today you may not be that person now but what are you still doing to try to excel in life and a lot of people now are talking i hear so much talk i don't hear a lot of work i hear a lot of people telling you what you should
be doing how you should be doing it how you should be [ __ ] living and i look at him and you're fat you're out of shape you look like [ __ ] but you're telling the [ __ ] how to live no man i won't listen to you there's so many people speaking this [ __ ] and that's what bothered me a lot in the military there's a lot of people talking [ __ ] i don't see the real suffering behind it behind what you're saying i became this 297 pound person because it became
my body armor because the inside was a fragile weak insecure kid so i put this big man around it so when people looked at me i intimidated them i scared them but if they knew the real me just a little punk i was a punk kid in 24 year old guy's body so i knew that no one else did so um i tried to change my life and it started there i went to recruiter's office i went there bad day at work the bad day at work made me realize so i gotta make a statement
did you lose the weight in three months you just run your ass off i couldn't run the first thing about it was so i said to myself i'm gonna run four miles my first run off the gate i'm gonna run four miles i ran a mile i went a quarter of a mile walked home sat on the couch depressed i said man there's no way i can do this but what i realized though is i wasn't gonna give up because i've already given up many times and i thought about how would i feel at 50
years old if i gave up now and not to have you know so i kept all this stuff in my mind and um basically i started becoming obsessed over a period of time i started becoming obsessed with studying with weight with being somebody with making people who thought was gonna be nothing kind of like feel like [ __ ] i became obsessed with you have to make this right and the only person could do is yourself so i became obsessed with just being obsessed someone once owned my brain i never owned it everybody had it
it was my dad's fault it was the kids that called me nigger's fault my mom wasn't home fault my soon-to-be step-dad's fault the little kids that get rid of by the bus fault my life was everybody had a piece of my [ __ ] brain and through this journey of suffering and the suffering i put it in because i started finding myself yeah i started oh no i'm taking this [ __ ] back from me this part of my brain is mine now i started puzzling back this piece of my brain and through that i
grew confidence um growing up being the kid i was i found strength in different movies yeah so i come home in one movie i found a lot of strength as funny as it may seem but i visualize this scene i do it today during the pull-up record i did 4030 pull-ups the last time i did it actually got it took me three times i played one song for 17 hours pretty much it is from this movie rocky one round 14. i related to the person in the movie but just the one scene when apollo's beating
the [ __ ] out of rocky he falls in the corner and everybody and rocky and paul turns around arms up happy as [ __ ] i just i got this guy he turns around not knowing that rocky is trying to get up off the canvas mickey's saying mickey's this trainer saying stay down everybody's saying you did good you did good you had 14 rounds with with the champ rocky didn't hear [ __ ] he got up and was fixing my mind today still and i've seen it right now when he got up apollo starts
to turn around to see the aftermath of what the [ __ ] he just destroyed and he did not expect to see what he saw and what i see on the whole movie i see apollo cree's face and i said to myself as a young kid i want to be that i don't need to win i don't need trophies i don't need people to [ __ ] like me i just want what he has a fictional character whatever the hell it was i want that and i visualize that and i want to become the guy
who can get off the canvas and look at somebody who beat the [ __ ] [ __ ] out of him life yeah it's about life right now even life itself pushed her head down towards david god [ __ ] yeah this [ __ ] is not going to stop right so that mentality became what i wanted and that's how it started with that visualization of the canvas and all i got to do is just keep getting up when you have everything so nice in life it's great to have a great life but what happens
is you don't self examine you don't do a live autopsy when you have a [ __ ] up life it almost forces you to do a live autopsy it forces you to find strength from places that no one looks from because food is not at the ready you know you're me i have a learning disability it's not at the ready i can't just pick up a book and start reading right right there's preparation behind everything i [ __ ] do there's there's everything i do has to come with so much [ __ ] preparation it's
despicable it makes me sick my own personal life makes me sick that's why i'm so disciplined now without my self-discipline there is no david guys like i can't like stop reading i won't be able to read tomorrow it will i will lose it that fast you know i you know i cannot stop going to the gym my mind is set up in a spot where hey the second i stop it wants to stop because i had a quitting mind growing up when you get beat the [ __ ] out of you all the time your
mind wants to go to that nice spot where you're comforted when you're not trying where [ __ ] is easy that's where your mind doesn't want to think you have all these things in the mind and the mind can only absorb so much [ __ ] so all the pain that has to go through it does it wants to push it away it says let's not do that so every day i'm fighting where the mind wants to go so it's a it's a it's a constant it's a constant evolution man i'm i've never arrived ever
i'm trying to reinvent the wheel i'm like oh man i went through navy seal training being [ __ ] up i ran over 7 000 miles in 2007 being [ __ ] up i did pull up records being [ __ ] up now that the mind is so [ __ ] strong let the body catch the mind so that's now where i'm at so i'm always trying to reinvent the wheel and see what i'm capable of next i believe in life you must earn the right to be called a man and a lot of people
do not think the way i do that's fine i'm not asking you to be david goggins trust me it's a hard [ __ ] road to home it's not like it's not fun all the time but the thing about it is you have to look i looked at my hardships as challenges once i got over the pity party because i went through that face of course i'm a normal human being but i realized that that got me exactly where i was at even worse as i looked at those challenges the way most people do what
was me why the [ __ ] can i get a break why i wish i was better i wish my parents were better i wish i had a better education i wish this i wish that they have all these wish sandwiches i started realizing how can i [ __ ] figure out how this [ __ ] can [ __ ] work for me so the one thing we don't do is we don't when we're in that dark place that dark place is a great learning environment if you can sit back in a dark place and
find quiet to this think there's so much power in your failures and your [ __ ] in your suffering because why you're still alive mm-hmm you're still [ __ ] here so you gotta look at that [ __ ] as my god man this is power man like now i gotta flip this [ __ ] how many men will be able to do and i'm about to do what i'm about to try to do like literally what gave me strength was when i was at the worst of my worst how many men would even [
__ ] say they want to try to be a navy seal right now yeah very few if any i'm at the worst spot in my life like i can't even walk down the street level and run down the street and i'm gonna now call recruiter up and try to be a steal there's a lot of power in that but people don't see it there they see man that's stupid i genuinely believed i could do it and the reason why because i had this voice in the back of my head that i kept on running from
i was afraid the water i was afraid of dealing with things that made me feel unaccepted i didn't accept myself so i kept on going towards things that i felt good let me let me go this way but something kept on saying [ __ ] you you have it man you got it man but you're gonna have to fail a lot but you have it and like i said that voice kept on haunting but that voice kept on saying if you face it you realize it's not that bad what what do you think that voice
is i mean i always to me it's god yeah i know you've talked about that to me it's god you know i don't get off of the whole spiritual tans you know i i i don't push that on anybody i don't care what you believe in but if you think you're the only [ __ ] out here just just chilling out there's nothing i and i don't know what god is no one does i i don't know anything about it i know there's something that is above david goggins there's there's too much energy in this
world there's there's too much trust me i've experienced it man there's too much energy and people call it god you call what you want there's something out there that if you can tap into more than yourself that there's something out there that that truly exists that if if if you're able just to let yourself go there it truly exists and that voice has been in my head and whatever it is it's been there and i didn't want to listen to it because listening to it was painful because it drove me to my fears it drove
me to my insecurities it drove me to my lies it drove me to the spot that made me feel self-doubt and i didn't want to go there it drove me like hey over here in this pile of [ __ ] where everything is at you're gonna find the true meaning of your life i'm like over there is all the bad [ __ ] i don't want to go over there i don't want to go like like my dad's over there the people that like me over there i'm over there all that [ __ ] is
over there but once you go over there and start to re-examine that [ __ ] and start to master what you're afraid of it's unbelievable man like i wish to god the only way i could really describe is if i can get my brain and put it in someone's head and say all right [ __ ] shut the [ __ ] up and just hear i can't explain it well enough but here i'm not super [ __ ] mad just this look this is what happens because basically what's over there is victory it's all [
__ ] victory but you have to have the balls and the [ __ ] courage man and that's the hard part there's no science behind this [ __ ] there's no [ __ ] practice literally you have to have the balls to go in your own life and your own [ __ ] and once you go in there and you're able to face and never talk about it you're now on the even playing field with everybody in the world i don't give [ __ ] where you come from how much money your parents have how
much money you didn't have if you're able to handle yourself know what you're about know what you're made of know how [ __ ] up you are you are now on an even playing field with the world so once i did that all these people have more money than me when they came if i had great parents there they're like oh my god i caught all you [ __ ] that quick because all the money all the surface things go away because we all are human beings right that money and [ __ ] all that
material [ __ ] doesn't matter it's what's deep inside the core of your soul that [ __ ] matters and that's what i realized man i i leveled the playing field out but i had to go over there and face that [ __ ] first and i'm not i'm not one to kiss my own ass because obviously i tell myself how [ __ ] up i am but i'm also believing you have to give yourself credit when credits do and i became that [ __ ] movie and then some like if you look at the
rocky movie and i look at it now and it's still inspirational that that scene brings back those those moments um i saw a rocky train in the movie but i see what i went through in real life that that movie is a fraction that all those movies i watched that inspired me they're all fractions of the real work i put into my life and i don't ever talk about enough the amount of work i put into being who i am i don't have enough time in the [ __ ] day like i don't talk about
it i don't i don't brag about it it no one even knows about it like 99.9 of the [ __ ] i did to get to where i'm at today was alone alone out there running and cold and heat suffering in pools trying to swim at home in a [ __ ] room by myself trying to teach myself how to read and write how to study you know no one saw that [ __ ] there was no video okay there was no podcast there's no who's david goggins right what that [ __ ] documentary you
know doc you [ __ ] marry that [ __ ] it was me i just just for me trying to get in the military what's everybody can do it's easy just trying to learn how to read and write was something that blows rocky away so all these different challenges that i've been through my life i've i've easily you know i don't i don't look at that movie the same way because i'm i'm proud of what i created but i'm more proud i've created it without an audience without a cheering squad without someone like you know
like you run the boston marathon and people love that race they run so fast because for 26.2 miles there's a motherfuckingness come on man you got it you can do it you know who you are when there's no [ __ ] out there when you're running and you're at mile 75 150 mile race ain't nobody cheering for you you're broken you're [ __ ] defeated it's you and you alone in your [ __ ] head and i stayed that way for the better part of 30 [ __ ] years trying to figure this [ __
] out and once you figure it out you look at your everybody hey so you're all broken now you know is that how you want to be yep yep if you could feel if i could put my brain in your [ __ ] head you said the same [ __ ] thing you would no longer think i was [ __ ] crazy you know what i think i was sadistic you realized [ __ ] this guy found it he found it we're all looking for this feeling we're all looking for this feeling people look at
me because i don't always smile and i'm not always jovial man don't get twisted dude people see oh my god look in his eyes you see like almost an emptiness so many people who are judging us don't understand they don't want to look in the eyes of me they don't look in the eyes and study them what you see in me is [ __ ] real life that's why people a lot of people resonate with me because i skipped through all the fluff i skipped through all the fluff [ __ ] that i can't fluff
[ __ ] i can't why i don't know what that is life didn't present me with fluff so i'm expressing to you what i know a lot of us are going through a lot of us are going through [ __ ] hell maybe not as bad as me maybe worse than me but they don't know how to express it because we're supposed to live in the [ __ ] world where we have to talk a certain way we have to walk a certain way we have to act a certain way a kind or gentler world
nothing gets handled in that [ __ ] world you stay [ __ ] up in that world you stay in a world of things would get better because someone said they would and i need to find peace no you need to go to [ __ ] war with yourself man at the end of that [ __ ] war you'll sit back all damaged and bruised and scarred up and [ __ ] up and maybe your psoas muscles so tight that you may lose two inches on your [ __ ] body who knows but then that
[ __ ] war you're going to sit back on the couch maybe have a [ __ ] glass of water if you drink a very drink of beer the war may be 30 [ __ ] years but when it ends you will know what the [ __ ] is all about then and then you'll find your [ __ ] peace you
