Caught By Friend And Mother, Feminization Begins Instantly - Crossdressing Stories

I had been dressing up since I was about seven always very careful not to get caught and I was successful until I turned 14 then he saw me my best friend in the whole world had simply walked in the house opened my bedroom door and saw me standing there completely decked out from makeup to dress panty hose and low heels my hair was tied up in a high ponytail which exposed my clip on earrings you could say that we were both Shocked I stammered trying to find a reason a plausible reason for my being dressed

that way but failed miserably all I could do was stand there like that as he looked at me I just knew that he would never forgive me damn dude is this what you do in your spare time dress up like a girl nah I sputtered it's just I just wanted to see how I would look that's all maybe but those clothes are too small to be your mothers and you don't have a sister so what you went out And bought them yourself just to see how you would look no way you must have done this

a lot and damn dude you don't look so bad pretty good as a matter of fact as he stood there saying all that I was quivering like a bowl of gelatin unable to put up any kind of Defense he had shattered all of my Pat answers in one stroke I came over because I thought we might hit ice cream place why don't you go like you are I mean you look okay and nobody will know so why not you can't be Serious me outside like this no way listen dummy just put on some lipstick and

we go I won't let anyone bother you besides you look good real good are you hitting on me quit complaining and let's go we have to be back before your mom gets home right he had a point I desperately wanted to change clothes but he just stood there so I grabbed the lipstick put some on then took my very first step out of my bedroom dressed as a girl as We stepped outside into the sunlight I started to shake and he took my hand calm down you look fine let's just walk up get an ice

cream and walk back okay and that's what we did even with all the people there not one of them looked at me strange ly and I was able to relax but only just a little we had an ice cream which he paid for then we walked back towards my house see I was right nobody knew as we turned the corner I saw mom's car in the driveway what Mom is home I can't go in like this my mom is baking today so we can't go there either he looked me over then said you don't have

have a choice so my advice is that we go inside together maybe we can convince her that this was all a gag I was stuck between a rock and a hard place so his suggestion was the best of my few choices and I had no choice but to agree as he and I walked in the house Mom looked up and saw me standing there she smiled then said oh good you're home I need some help with the dinner Ralph your mother called and I told her would send you home so you better scoot he looked

over at me Shrugged his shoulders then left leaving me standing there all alone set the table honey I'll get the rest mom had completely ignored the way I was dressed I did what she told me and after we sat down I was wondering when you would show up I mean how could I miss those clothes in your closet and the makeup in the back of your sock Drawer I said nothing shoed that she knew and why did you tell Ralph before me is he special to you in some way I don't know about no ma

it's not like that I was just fooling around and he sort of caught me but you went to the ice cream place like that right with Ralph what else can I think no it's not like that he was being nice that's all it was nothing and I wouldn't I couldn't do that well in my experience boys have a nasty Habit of being extra nice to girls they like and in this case that seems to be you and you cannot deny the fact that you were dressed up like a girl and went with Ralph right yeah

but that's all it was he said that I looked nice and nobody would know I'm sure that is true and you are really cute ma don't mom me young lady she just sat there a moment then told me to get washed up I was out of there like a flash getting out of those clothes and into the shower as Quick as I could when I reappeared I was myself once again not one word was said about that incident for about 2 weeks Ralph and I hung out together doing things boys do then he dropped a

big one on me I was wondering if a you might want to get to dress up as a girl again yeah right as if the only reason I asked is because my mom says that I have to go to the family reunion next Saturday but the last time I went there was this girl a fourth cousin or something that just Wouldn't leave me alone if you went with us no but why not I know that you like it and besides I'll be there I'll be your date no well your mom told my mom what we

did and she already told me that if you want to go she'll make sure that nobody bothers you your mom knows that I dressed up you know that our moms talk all the time so just how did you think they wouldn't talk about something like that yeah maybe but I'll bet that your mother knows all about it so why not ask Her if she says no okay but if she says yes then why don't you take Gail she's cute and she's a girl I asked her but she just got the Ms and can't go that

leaves you why do I have to go as a girl why can't I go as me we can hang together and those girls will leave us alone with you they all they'll do is go after both of us I think they're nuts but that's the way it is you're serious about this you really do want me to get dressed up and go with you yeah but Maybe your mom could come too that way nobody will bother you I'll think about it and that's all no promises cool see you later I went home and just as

I walked in I saw my mom talking to Ralph's mom and I just knew they were talking about me his mom left rather quickly but took a peek at me before she left then I was sure they were talking about me honey Janet was just telling me about this reunion thing they're having and that Ralph wants you to go yeah he Told me but he wants me to go as a girl yeah yes that's what she told me too are you considering it maybe probably not I told Ralph I would think about it why I

think you should do it even if this one time then you'll have a better idea of what it's like to be a girl and since you like to play dress up this would be a good opportunity so you're saying that you want me to do it no dear I'm saying that this is a chance for you to get all doled up go to a party and have a good Time and maybe who knows maybe you'll like it you can go and be safe I might add because if you do go as a girl of course

I'll go with you it sounds like you want me to do it mom well in a way I guess I think that maybe you need to do this do I want you to dress up and go out no but you've already done that haven't you what I really think is that if you're going to go out then this is the perfect solution when when I said nothing I saw the sweetest summer dress Yesterday and I just know that you would look just delicious in it so why don't I buy it then I'll help you get

ready I promise that I'll make you look really cute or you don't have to go okay I did not say a word afraid that I might grin or something else equally dumb but mom took my silence as an okay and left the house she was gone about 2 hours returning with several bags of stuff she didn't say anything to me but when in my my room and put them on the bed when she Saw me I picked up the dress as well as a package of panties and a padded panty brief and a good bra

plus some inserts you might as well look the best you can and these will help would you like to try them on just to see how they fit I tried to say no I really did but Mom knew better and I soon found myself getting undressed you know if you used some of my hair remover you would look more natural and feel better about dressing as a girl and your skin would Be a lot softer let's do that let me get the lotion she smeared that goo all over me and after a short wait that

seemed like hours I jumped in the shower only to see hair collecting around the drain my hair I washed up my skin feeling very smooth to the touch when I was out of the shower mom insisted that I let her rub in a skin lotion it smelled good like flowers and did make make my skin feel very soft she handed me a new pair of panties then panty hose and after I Fixed myself she gave me what she said was a padded panty brief I stepped into it and tubed it into place seeing in the

mirror that I had hips like a girl and a bigger butt the bra had soft cups and was just tight enough and fastened in the front so that my chest was pulled together creating smallish Mounds but after Mom shoved in those inserts I had what looked like real boobs then came the slip followed by the dress she brushed out my hair while using her blow Dryer then fixed it in a modestly feminine style using hairspray she once again made adjustments to my hair and I was even more surprised that it looked so good the foundation

was put on very lightly a dab of blusher eyes Shadow and eyeliner before she added the clip on earrings then a small necklace then I stepped into some white flats and she handed me the lipstick when I looked in the mirror and saw my reflection I was in Heaven on my best day I had not Managed to look that good ever the dress was pale blue with white piping short cap sleeves and was snug over my boobs and fitted through the waist flaring out to end about 2 Ines above my knees well what do you

think I'm I never looked this I mean it's a okay I guess I'll take it that you like what you see then again I said nothing unwilling to take my eyes from the image in the mirror Let's Take a Walk shall we let's see what Ralph thinks do I have to I mean I Look so you look just darling and you know it you don't have to go but wouldn't it be better if he met his a datee before the party I'm not his date I'm just his friend shall we go then Mom and I

left the house for the walk around the block to R 's house on the way mom showed me how to take smaller steps swing my hips and walk with my arms loose I almost had it by the time we were on his front porch mom rang the bell and Janet Ralph's Mom let us in Well look at you you're gorgeous Ralph she yelled Kristen is here Kristen I asked Mom quickly that's you honey just then Ralph showed up he took one look and broke out into a grin hi he said hi Ralph damn he said

before thinking you look great don't use that language Ralph and this is Kristen want a soda he asked me with a grin sure why not he and I went out to the backyard and sat down to drink our sodas Ralph was not himself that's for sure he kept staring at me With that stupid grin of his on his face he was also very attentive something he never was before and I knew why he was looking at me like I was a girl something to conquer I just sat there when a revelation hit me girls can

get guys to do anything as long as they act like girls since I had finished my drink Ralph could I have another please I'll get it he said as he popped out of his chair mom and I stayed there for about an hour then we went home by then I was Getting comfortable around Ralph and no longer worried about being ragged on for doing what he asked I stayed and step with Mom without a reminder and by the time we got home I was very comfortable in that dress the fact that I looked better than

I ever had before helped too but mom told me to change and unip the dress in the top drawer of the dresser where I kept my shorts I found a pair of pink cargo shorts and a white top I quickly put them on and joined mom to Make dinner with two whole days to go I desperately wanted to keep dressing up but didn't want to ask that left me frustrated and unhappy all evening until mom asked me a question did you figure it out yet what that you like being Christen more than you want to

admit it took me a moment but yeah I guess it feels okay and I don't look as dumb as before and I'm just guessing mind you that you wouldn't mind spending the next few days as Kristen would you I guess not why I have accumulated almost two months of vacation days so why don't I take a few of them and we can spend them together some mother and daughter time we can get you a skirt and maybe another top you'll need more than that dress and those shorts so are you in okay but only as

long as nobody bothers me you'll be fine I won't let anyone bother you I would never do that why I asked her very seriously are you doing this I mean do You want me to be a girl no dear I do not want you to be a girl I like you as my son but it's obvious to me that you have a need to get dressed up and truthfully I'd rather let you do it and be the one to help you rather than have you fumbling around trying to look like a girl and probably failing

this way I'll have at least some say and maybe you'll find a way to cope with this I've known about boys that want to be girls or at least dress up like one for a long Time so it's only new because it's you that wants to do it if you want to quit then just say so if you don't want to go with Ralph then don't but if you want to do those things then all I'm insisting is that you do it right and look the best that you can and who better to help you

than me that answered my questions and I nodded my head yes the next morning Mom mom came into my room and rasted me out of bed telling me to shower and wash my hair she said she Would set out something for me to wear as I scrubbed down I wondered if I could pull it off I knew that Mom could make me look okay it was the way girls walked the way they used their arms and hands sat talked and generally moved girls were less rigid more agile and fluid in their movements than guys I

knew that I had to try it this might be my only chance to learn how to do it mom might not ever do it again after I rubbed in the skin lotion I went back into my room Only a towel protecting me on the bed were the clothes I quickly put on the panties fixed my parts and stepped into the padded panty brief and once again marveled at the way the front hook bra pulled my chest together after I added the inserts I slipped the blouse on then the skirt I had not seen it before

it was tan and white checked with wide pleats and what I thought was very short I stepped into the flats and was just about to try my hand at makeup when Mom Came in oh good you're dressed let's go in my room and I'll show you how to do makeup then I'll help you with your hair it was the other way around mom wrapped my damp hair in rollers pinning them in place with what looked like toothpicks then sprayed on some kind of lotion she said it would help hold the curls under her supervision I

added the foundation found powder eyeliner eyes Shadow and blush then she took out the rollers and brushed out my hair she let me do some Of it like brushing out the bangs but when we were done I had gentle waves and a few curls that made me look even better than before I added lipstick and for the first time mom gave me a small bottle of perfume to use just dab it on your wrists behind your ears and neck honey don't use too much when I was ready she gave me a small purse that had

a strap told me what to put in it and when I was ready she and I left for the mall as we walked in the very first Thing we came to was one of those kiosks that sell earrings do piercing and so on I already had one ear pierced so I slowed and finally sat in the chair mom did not say a word as I had the other ear pierced and bought a pair of gold hoops to fill the holes it cost me 10 bucks but it was worth it and I felt like I had

earned it as we walked around I saw so many things that I wanted to get fancy dresses nice shoes pretty skirts and daring teas but as we passed Each store I realized that to have those things I would have to be a girl all the time and that wasn't going to happen as we went into the biggest department store in the mall mom casually asked someone about swimwear and as we made our way there I was wondering since the reunion is going to be at the park by the lake maybe you would like to get

a swimsuit just in case I had not even considered a swimsuit but if we found one that fit And hid my deficiencies I wasn't against it so that's where we went most of them were two piece and I wasn't sure that I could wear one so I tended to look at the one piece suits but mom found one that she liked and called me over holding it up I saw that it was in two pieces and started to say now but she insisted and I soon found myself in a changing room the bottoms were okay

as long as I wore the padded panty brief but the top wasn't up to hiding my Inserts and without the constriction of the bra I had zero for boobs and it showed I think we can fix that honey wait here a minute she left me standing there returning in just a few minutes they have these on sale honey they stick on and look real enough to me let's try them after I took the top off she carefully positioned the new breast forms holding them in place until till they sat then told me to try the

top again the difference was dramatic I not Only filled the top I had cleavage I looked in the mirror and was pleasantly surprised at what I saw grinning I turned then there is one more thing Kristen if you wear that panty brief under the suit it'll get wet which means that you could not wear it after you change we could get you another one but I think I have a better idea the lady told me about this place that sells things for boys like you why don't we go find out what they do okay we

drove Across town to a smallish place that had a sign that said Specialties we went in then Mom told her why we were there the woman mirely smiled and told me to get undressed I need to get the color and fit exactly right honey please undress for me I was in total disbelief but mom told me to do it and my transformation into a girl began lasers measured me then she used color charts and some kind of magic as she programmed my stats into the computer and about an hour later she Told me she was

ready from behind her back she showed it to me it was a flesh colored panty brief of sorts except that when I wore it it made me look like I have my own Kitty I would look like a girl I took it turned and with her help I put on the one she gave me I looked exactly like a girl complete with a smish TFT of hair in the right place then came the breast forms which looked so real it was scary they are made of latex and gel so the water won't bother Them and

you can wear anything any other girl could wear they are better than those cheap forms you have because you'll actually have less on do you like them well duh hell yes I like them your mother can help you with personal hygiene as well and that my friends is how I ended end up looking like a girl all over I know for a fact that Mom did not know she would find those things and I'm not even sure why she bought them for me but not looking a gift horse in The mouth I kept my mouth

shut and got dressed it was an eerie Sensation that panty gave me I felt a lot more natural and a lot less like a guy in a skirt it looks like you and I have to have a talk honey I mean girls have to be careful about how they maintain themselves when we get home I'll give you your first lesson I needed a lesson on how to take care of myself wow after that she got me a pair of low heels another skirt and one more dress plus some panty hose once I saw a quarter

on the floor and bent to pick it up when I heard mom gasp stopping me right there Bend at the knees honey unless you want to show the whole world your panties it was like that all day little tips to help me how I sat down for for example one thing I did pick up quick was the way girls talked in questions and unafraid to show emotion I did not raise the pitch of my voice I only changed the tone a bit and ended up sounding just like a girl my Age we went home about

4: in the afternoon having exhausted ourselves shopping only I wanted to try on more stuff mom said no so I was content to get what I got the boobs and panty the best that's when mom showed me how to take care of business that was nasty almost as soon as we got home Ralph was at our house but I was trying on the two-piece again when Mom called me when I walked out and he saw me his eyes popped open his mouth went Agape and he started to fidget I casually in my best model walk

took the few steps towards him what's the matter big boy cat got your tongue damn you look but you're not a how she can't tell you Ralph mom said but Kristen can join you if you decide to take a swim damn he said again which drew a rebuke from my mother I just stopped by the seea if you wanted to walk over and see the new ball team practice and I just thought that you might want to go yeah why not I said Feeling that there wasn't any way that someone would know about me Ralph

and I left the house as soon as I changed into my skirt and top walking towards the park about eight blocks away we had gone about three blocks when I felt his hand take mine I almost jerked my hand away but listen he said you look like a girl you sound like a girl you smell like a girl and you act like a girl so why not I mean you're kind of cute and I um I like you this way like a girlfriend are You out of your mind you know for sure that I'm not

a girl I only look like one yeah but damnn you look pretty fine to me better than Gail that's for sure don't let her hear you say that she'll hand you your balls on a platter I wouldn't let her get close to my balls but anyway let's just go with it okay he held my hand the entire way and when we sat in the bleachers he put his arm around my waist and pulled me so that I was right up against him I did not make A fuss because he and I knew most of players

a few saw us and hollered up but most did not we stayed until we saw they were getting whipped and left rather than going straight home we walked down by the lake because that's where the swings were there wasn't anyone there and Ralph pushed me as the swing went higher and higher then he went around front and as I dismounted he caught me and we were face to face nose to nose his arms wrapped firmly around me then It happened he kissed me right on the lips and hard too his tongue probed my lips as

I stood there to shock to do anything yet I opened my mouth and accepted him his hand was low on my back and getting lower so I broke away gasping at what we had done why did you do that I cried now look what you've done what all I did was kiss you but I'm your best friend I'm a boy like you no Kristen you're not a boy like me you're a girl now and you know it so why not But I have to be myself when we go back to school I can't go like

this I'll be myself in a few days so why did you do that a few days no way you like being a girl too much for that you might change when school starts but not before then that's for sure no way I only did this for you for that family party right and pigs fly if that was the only reason why do you have boobs now and what happened to your equipment it sure looked to me like you have a snatch so this isn't for Me it's a lot more than that you know what I

think I think that you really do want to be a girl but are afraid to say so what if I do then there isn't any reason for you to not let me kiss you as there he had neatly run me in a circle until I admitted that I wanted to be a girl leaving me with nothing I could say that sounded the least bit plausible so with a sigh I gave up I wasn't going to win anyway but I did not let him kiss me again he did hold my hand on the way Home but

I was more confused than ever he was right I wasn't doing it for him I was doing it for myself and I loved it I loved being pretty and all the rest and I did want to be a girl but when he kissed me everything I thought I knew about myself went directly into that tail been called confusion it wasn't as if I didn't like it I did it was the fact that he thought of me that way me his best friend in the whole world almost from birth and he wanted to kiss Me by

the time I got home I was really worked up almost in tears as I fought those alien feelings I was sure that I didn't like guys but when he kissed me my whole body tingled in Delight either it was confirmation that my transformation not only really good and I wanted to be a girl more than anything or Ralph had a crash on me there wasn't anything in the middle that I could think of I ran in the house leaving him standing outside breaking into tears the Minute the door shut sobbing like a baby I ran

to my room and slammed the door within minutes mom came in I was laying on the bed crying what's the matter did Ralph hurt you he kissed me I sobbed he kissed you and that's why you're crying but why he knows that I may but he says that I I see you think that because he knew you before that he should ignore what he sees now Mom sat down on the bed next to me he can't honey guys only see what they see they can't look back very Well he sees a pretty girl is attracted

to her and took action that's what guys do Kristen it's nothing you did or didn't do it's the way he is it's the way all guys are now tell me kissing him wasn't so bad was it I mean it was a one-time thing right so why get into such a bother about it I said nothing taking my face in her hands what else did he do or say it all came out how he thought that I liked being a girl to much to quit even after the party how I Sounded like a girl smelled like

a girl and acted like a girl and that I was kind of cute I told him that he didn't care about anyone but himself that Drew a laugh honey men are like that all of them are like that when they want some affection it's not just Ralph she paused then added I know he's right you like it I see it on your face so tell me what really has you upset again I said nothing I see you do like it you like being a girl more than you want to admit Even to yourself that's it

isn't it I guess I said through the sobs I could let you stay this way until school starts but you'll have to go back as yourself I won't put you in danger by allowing you to go to school this way is that okay yeah I said softly all right then let's stop this crying from now until school starts you are a girl but boys kiss girls so be prepared because I doubt that Ralph will simply quit he likes you and there is nothing better Than having a close friend that adors you that love he had

for you before has become something else honey something more like a serious attraction for a girl he also likes a lot trust me honey having a great friend is better than anything I finally settled down when the realization hit me I was girl Ralph was boy and he was after me I needed a shower so I dressed and looked in the mirror the latex panty looked fine with not even a thin seam could be seen there Was nothing that gave away the fact that it was a very special panty my boobs just hung there from

my chest heavy without the bra to hold them up but nice anyway my boobs were in a cup not real big yet looked perfect on me I went in the shower and just soaked away my fears and doubts as I washed myself and felt the new parts I had a flash of excit excitement deep within myself as if Mr Happy was well happy I checked with my hand and felt nothing but the thin slit That defined the new me as I got dressed in shorts and a top without a bra I left my hair damp

and not planning on going anywhere did not put on any makeup I simply wanted to play on my computer and fill my log book with everything that had happened to me I stayed in my room writing until dinner then went back to it I filled lots of pages with my thoughts feelings and even wrote that kissing Ralph was exciting not being a total dunce I knew that he wanted to get Into my pants simply because that's what guys do with girls try to get them to put out I wouldn't do that but I knew that

was the aim just about bedtime mom came in and gave me a night gown I slept in it that night with the full knowledge that the next day would start my first day as a girl full-time at least until school started in 3 months mom told me to wear the sun dress so when I was dressed she and I went outside and she started taking pictures With her new toy the digital camera I stood sat posed in various ways had several close-ups done plus some where I held up the Hem of my dress when she

filled the memory card she went in the house leaving me outside I looked back at Gail's house wondering how she was and decided to find out she was going to find out about me anyway and I wanted to be the one to tell her I walked around the block away from Ralph's house ringing the bell when I got to Gail's to My surprise she answered the door yes hi Gail you know me but I've changed a bit oh my God you look fantastic come inside are you okay I don't want to catch anything I'm fine

now come inside once I was inside damn girl you look great but what's the deal why are you dressed this way other than Ralph Gail was my next best friend and that's why I told her that I liked doing it and that mom had bought things that let me look and feel like a girl plus some clothes and that's Why I'm dressed this way but you can't tell anyone okay sure it'll be nice not being the only girl around here we can do a lot of stuff that you guys don't like to do has Ralph

hit on you yet yeah but he didn't get very far how far he kissed me that's nothing Fred tried to get his hand in my pants once Fred mild mannered Fred the class nerd yeah he's a nerd but he's also a guy and he got carried away I guess just about then Gail's mom came home Mom this is Kristen She'll be here for the summer hello dear now maybe G will have someone to do things with yeah I've got that Girls Club thing to go to maybe you would like to go with me maybe I'll

have to ask let's go then we can walk over there then get some ice cream on the way home the girls club had about 30 members about half were there and when we got there I realized that I knew most of them thankfully they did not recognize me and I sat and waited until the Meeting was over Gail was very cool about my change and did not seem to care at all if anything she liked it I think because like she said she wouldn't be the only girl in the neighborhood we got our ice cream

and started home you don't look very much like yourself a little but not enough for anyone to tell none of those other girls knew who you were so that's a good thing right that's what I was hoping for Gail and I walked home then I went home myself on the outside I Looked like your average 14-year-old girl but on the inside I was in total turmoil I love the fact that Mom was letting me dress up it had always been a fantasy of mine yet there were parts of me that also liked being a boy

it was those minor things like using the bathroom girls had more to do than guys all I ever did was unip and let fly as a girl I felt like I was getting undressed guys just got dressed and went where they wanted to go while girls had to do Hair and makeup select an outfit and so on I didn't really care about the time it took because I was getting what I wanted yet I felt like I had this push/pull thing going on inside Gail and other girls had no experience being anything but girls so

they simply accepted things the way they were I on the other hand knew both so I could see the advantages boys have as well as the advantages girls have my mother for reasons of her own had let me do this I Knew what she said and recognized the tone in her voice as a truthful one yet I could not see Ralph's mother letting him do it never it did not take a genius or great insight to figure out that my mother was being overly indulgent or she had other reasons for allowing me to pretend to

be a girl even to the point of buying specialty things for me being in the room full of girls had allowed me to see how they acted when they were all together with no boys around and at Times how silly they seemed what with all the arm waving and shrieking sitting on my bed I wondered if I like those girls could be that way just being able to get dressed up was a thrill beyond my wildest dreams but I was beginning to feel as if I couldn't do it when I was with Gail and those

other girls I felt somehow out of place I had none of the experiences they did no dolls no fril Lac dresses growing up no experience with boys and no sense of what it means To be a girl the idea that they are beautiful and would be mothers someday is entrenched in them at an early age I had none of that as I looked over at my reflection to see the girl that I had come to look like I both loved her and hated her I felt guilty loving her because she was everything I wasn't and

could do those things that were forbidden to the old me on the other hand I hated her because she had taken over my life dresses and bras panties And shoes makeup and earrings they all became symbols of my desires yet also a tether that harnessed me to her with a force that I could not break I knew because I looked it up that boys like me never lose their enthusiasm for the feminine to dress walk talk and act like females starting young and Lasting a lifetime I would forever be saddled with the desires that led

me to be dressed this way in effect I had reached at a very young age the point where I had to Decide boy or girl Joy or guilt if I chose to go back to being a boy could I attain the status I had before this if I decided to become the girl I saw in the mirror could I become so feminine that return was impossible or could I do both boy at school and with family girl all the other times it was available then there was Ralph why wasn't he angry with me why did

he accept me as a girl so quickly and why did he seem to be Attracted to me he was my best friend we shared everything and why did I let him take me anywhere was it the simple excitement of the moment that first time that I could go someplace with another and actually be the girl he saw I wanted to confront my mother about it but I knew somehow that her answers would not satisfy me she would simply tell me to quit if I had doubts but if I quit then I would be back at

my starting point still saddled with the same desires that Led me to wear that that dress I had to talk to someone that would not lie to me someone that would tell it like it is and help me understand what was happening to me there was only one person in the whole world like that but for me to ask her I would have to tell her everything I sat there trying to work up the courage to tell her to ask her why I felt that way finally I picked up the phone and called she said

that she would be home the next day and told Me to come over I had to go as the girl I had become or she would never see or understand the problem I was struggling with so if I had to go as a girl then I damned well was not going to let her see me as a fool in a dress I was going to have to look as perfect as I could and get ready without help those small hairs I had removed had started to come back so that was where I would start I

would become the epitome of femininity and her name was Kristen mom and I ate dinner Early then I went in my room to prepare for my debut with the one other person I loved dearly my grandmother I call her nana I used that cream hair remover again washed it off then filled the tub with bubble bath using mom's razor I shaved every inch of skin that I could reach including under my arms I had to wear that special panty since I could not get it off and really didn't want to take the chance that I

might ruin it then I washed my hair I felt somehow Refreshed I had accept Ed the fact that she just might throw me out but I doubted that it was sort of like facing the firing squad you knew that you were going to die yet you hoped they would all Miss I stood there in front of the mirror trying to set in those rollers like Mom had done and failed I simply did not know how to do it I had no choice so I asked Mom to help me I did not tell her what I

planned I only asked her to help me so that I'll look nice After she was done and I was alone in my room I slipped the night gown over my head and lay on the bed I was exhausted from all of the mental anguish I was going through yet determined to get my answers I awoke early the next morning had breakfast and as soon as mom left for work began my transformation I decided to wear a sundress and as I slipped on the panties I felt a surge of confidence Within Myself I put on the

makeup very carefully not to much yet Some of everything foundation and powder blusher and eyeshadow eyeliner and lipstick even perfume I slipped the dress over my head and zipped it up feeling the tightness of the fit as it flowed over me I brushed out my hair after removing the rollers used hairspray and a brush to make it as nice as I could before I slipped the dangle earrings into the new holes the two straps over my bare shoulders the square cut neckline and the shortness of the Dress combined to allow me to think that I

had a chance with Nana the panty hose made my legs look sleek and smooth and maybe look a bit more feminine I wore the low heels with the same handbag that matched the shoes as I walked out of the house then towards my fate Nana lived across town which meant that I had to walk about 10 blocks before I reached her neighborhood and another three to get to her house along the way I practiced how I walked and used my arms On the outside I looked like a calm young lady on a mission on the

inside however I was a quivering mass of nerves I had no idea what she would say or do when she saw me as I walked along I saw other people some waved some smiled but most just went about their business as I turned the corner and could see the house I began to feel that Tremor of fear coming back but it was too late for that I was committed I walked up on the porch and with a painted finger rang the Bell it seemed like an eternity before she opened the door her initial reaction was

a smile something I did not count on Kristen how nice to finally meet you come inside and we can talk Kristen how did she know my name I made some nice sweet rolls honey let's sit out on the patio and you can tell me what's going on it all came out in a rush almost all one word I think all of my questions about myself those fears and doubts Ralph and Gail and Mom Of course everyone seemed to accept me yet the question was why I had to know why I loved being a girl so

much and why I was driven to take so many chances to be what I wasn't I had tears in my eyes when I finished positive that she would think I was crazy or stupid weird or all three Kristen honey you are not the first nor will you be the last boy to feel this way this has been going on for centuries I cannot tell you why you feel this way only that you are not the only One your mother called and told me what was going on so I wasn't all that surprised to see you

all dressed up this morning I am surprised at how lovely you are as far as your mother goes I know for a fact that she is only trying to help you understand what's happening she helped you because you needed help and for no other reason that I know of I know that she is very concerned for your safety since so many people are against what You're doing and that's why she bought things for you and that might seem to make it look like she has other reasons for allowing you to do this to dress this

way I mean there is no reason for you to feel ashamed of being who you are but you must realize that if you do anything less than your very best it could lead to someone harming you if in your heart you know that this is what you want then you have to say so you have to say to me your mother your Friends and especially yourself that this the girl I have sitting here in front of me is the person that you really are are if it isn't then you can go home change clothes and

carry on like before I started to say something but she held up her hand to stop me I know that there are men that like to play dress up on the weekends and they may even have clubs they belong to or places they can go but they never achieve the full meaning of what it's like to be a Woman no matter how much they want to know simply because they cannot devote the time they have families jobs and so on that impact on that decision and many cannot or will not risk everything just to satisfy

an urge that won't go away boys like you however those that feel they are girls and have the chance to explore that part of themselves can become young ladies and maybe even women but only if they have the nerve and the willingness to do it I don't know why Your friends have reacted the way they have maybe they already sense that you should have been a girl maybe they simply don't care because they love you and care about you I do know that I would not push them away they can be the building blocks you'll

need as you make new friends Nana took both of my hands in hers honey you have to know that there is no right or wrong here it's not black and white it has never been wrong for a male to like the softer side of Life or maybe even want to be a female and it's always right to seek out the truth even if it hurts like it does for you right now I also want you to know that neither your mother or I are disappointed in you you were strong enough to tell your mother then

your friends and now me now you need to be strong enough to decide what is right for you you are the only one that can make that decision but I don't know yes you do you already know the answer You're just afraid to listen to what your heart is telling you I started weeping tears that lubricated my inner turmoil in ways that I had not expected I had always wanted to be a girl to have my own dolls play mommy dress in nice dresses to wear makeup and not always be so concerned about doing any

of those things I had been able for a short time to realize some of what it's like to be a girl yet there was so much more and that scared me dating for example I Wasn't convinced that was something I wanted to do and I had never been attracted to boys after attending that meeting with Gail and seeing how the girls were with each other my doubts only grew larger and more intense girls were more fluid in their movements as well as their relationships while guys were less vocal about things but more boisterous there was

so much that I did not understand about girls yet I wanted to understand I wanted to be like them To feel like them to act like they did it was a feeling that was sometimes overwhelming and sometimes a huge weight on my shoulders that was the problem Nana sat there holding my hand hands softly no Terror in her eyes no hatred no disillusionment only love and concern that was why I wanted to talk to her she was the voice of reason within the chaos I had created she would always love me no matter what but

unlike my mother she bore none of the weight of the Day-to-day problems my wearing a dress was making as my tears were wiped away I felt a sense of relief come washing over me I squeezed her hands tightly as I looked into her face that calm Placid face that I love so dearly I had my answer but could I act on it could I jump feet first Into The Well of society and make them believe that I am what I seem to be and survive or would I go up in the Flames of shameful doubt

and hatred Kristen Nana said softly you Cannot make this decision on your own you have to tell your mother how you feel and make her believe that whatever you decide it is the best for you she understands your need but she doesn't know that this is what you want to do all the time how in the hell did she know that can you tell her I don't know she'll think that I'm she is your mother Kristen she is not some ogre she might not understand the depths of your feelings because you haven't told her Have

you no I can't tell her honey it has to be you I can be there if you like but I can't and I won't tell her I sat there like a lump unable to respond I'm not even sure that she could get you enrolled in school this way what if you had to attend as a boy and only become Christen on the weekends how would that make you feel scared I said without thinking scared of what making a mistake if I were a girl all the time then minor mistakes would be ignored if I did

it on The weekend then everyone would figure it out and I'd be minc me at school I would would never be accepted by anyone so your solution is to be a girl all of the time simply because you're scared I guess I don't think I could take it if someone found out nobody would ever talk to me again and the guys at school would crucify me I'd be lucky to just get through the first week okay she said calmly say you attend school as a girl what about the PE classes the dances the Proms just

how did you plan on getting around those pee is mandatory in this state and you would be required to go and that leads to locker rooms and showers and so on I would imagine that getting naked in a room full of other girls might be stressful unless you know how to either get around it or look like them do you know how to do that yes I said suddenly I do know how to do that it's expensive but it has already been done mom already bought me a special Panty that makes me look like a

girl and is fully functional and it's virtually undetectable I could get by with what I have I see so you have done your research I had to know Nana I know a lot of things about how to do this she doesn't have to buy anything better so why bother I I guess I have one now but they make a much better one that is almost perfect I would have periods and everything you and mom do and like you said I would do what's in my heart and Be a girl all the time yeah I guess

I would then maybe it's time to tell your mother I'll tell her tonight I guess no dear now is the time I'll call her and see if she can stop by that way I'll be here for you it had happened Nana using her impeccable logic had drawn a circle around the problem and let me solve it myself albeit with a nudge in the right direction her manner of speaking the total lack of recrimination and her obvious thought process all Lead Me In One Direction the only Direction I wanted to take but one that I was

so afraid of admitting I knew without anyone telling me that to even attempt to be a girl full-time was filled with so many pitfalls that I couldn't count them yet I had no choice I was driven by an unseen force that swallowed me whole then spit out what Nana saw a scared boy desperately anxious about his dressing like a girl if my mother accepted what I was about to tell her and even if she Agreed to spend vast sums of money to help me achieve it there were other issues to be solved Kristen did not

legally exist for example and even if that was taken care of I still had to fit in I had to become as flexible in my way of life as girls are I would have to lose all fear of being discovered not because it would not happen but because my brain was still male at least for now seeing other girls girl naked wasn't bothering me I could see all the naked Girls I wanted on the internet it was having them see me as I sat there and those thoughts ran through my mind I suddenly realized that

it wouldn't be the other girls I had to be afraid of it was me in a locker room for example they would be just as shy about themselves as I would be and would not be looking at me strangely unless I gave them reason to but some girls knew how to sew or knit or do other things that girls do and I knew squat about any of that they Also knew how to make boys notice them or make them go away again I knew zero about those things it was a blur as a torn of

other issues that I didn't know anything about race through my mind yet I could not stop not once I said that I wanted to be a girl full-time Nana and I sat there for a while then she got us some sodas I sat there sipping on my drink trying to think of a way that I could tell my mother the truth and after that Ralph and Gail I did not want to Ruin our friendship and I really did not want him to hate me in a way telling Mom would be a relief telling Ralph wouldn't

Nana told me to fix my makeup so I went in the bath and washed up and reapplied my makeup making sure that I looked just as good as when I left that morning I did not want Mom to think I wasn't able to take care of myself she showed up around 3 a good 2 hours before her quitting time I stayed put as Nana led her to where I was sitting I almost Started to cry right then but managed to hold it in as Mom sat across from me there wasn't going to be any way

to gently lead into it so I want to be a girl I said softly fulltime all the time in school and everything I already knew that honey I was just waiting for you to tell me but how could you know I didn't know until today I think you knew it all along Kristen you were just a afraid to accept it mom held my hand in hers smiled and said now all we have to do is Find a way to let you be a girl right she told me Nana said that she knows how to look

so good that she could use the locker room just like the other girls and they wouldn't know is that true I thought that we had bought the best I mean you can't have periods right now but the rest is perfect what can be better than that there is one that is better than this one Mom it's on the internet mom anyone can find it but it's real expensive and you thought that we Can't afford it yeah if I let you do this and I'm not even sure that I will then I will expect more from

you girls are not usually as messy as you are so you'll have to keep your room neat at all times help around the house a bit more and while I understand your lack of skills doing your own hair I want you to learn how to take care of yourself I won't always always be there to do it for you so you're not mad at me no dear I'm not angry I'm just surprised that You feel this way I can't think of one advantage girls have over boys and I can't understand why you want to give

all that up but I don't have all those advantages I said loudly I'm not old enough to have them that brought a giggle from Nana that may be true mom said but you do realize that by doing this that everything you think you know is going to be turned upside down and inside out huh I'll bet that after a few months of having to take the time to Look nice doing your hair and makeup every day living with the fact that as a girl you cannot do many of the things you used to do like

hang out at that club you boys have or just up and leave with Ralph he'll want to do things with the guys and you won't be invited you'll be left out because you're a girl and speaking of Ralph what about him he is as close to you as a brother even if he can he accept this change in you he is a male and eventually he will become a Young man one that will look on you not as a brother but a possible mate but he knows me he knows that I couldn't wouldn't he might

know right now honey but after a year maybe two by then he'll have forgotten what you were and only see a young lady and as far as that I wouldn't and I couldn't goes you will do it because that's what girls do either that or you'll be sitting home alone for the rest of your life mom sat back and looked at me I want to see pictures of These things you say you know about before I make any decision but I'm warning you if I agree to this there will be no going back once you

have those products you mentioned and if they as good as they claim you will be a girl from that moment on and you will be one until you were old enough to make those legal decisions for yourself which by my calculations will be 7 years I can't have you going back and forth you have to be one or the other a boy or a girl So I can try it no dear Mom said softly there will be no try you'll simply be a boy one day and a girl the next there can't be any try

it'll simply be the way it is and like the rest of us girls you'll learn how to cope with everything about being a girl think of it as a sort of a learn as you go program there it was my chance to be the girl I dreamed of the girl I had seen in the mirror all I had to do was say that's what I wanted however once I did I would forever be That girl because even I knew that after 7 years there wouldn't be any going back and all of us knew it playing

dress up like I had been doing was almost enough and I wondered if by being a full-time girl that I would feel the rest neither mom nor Nana had told me to do one or the other they only pointed out the difficulties we leaving the decision to me alone I thought about what she said about Ralph wondering how he could ever think of me as a girl but set that aside As I envisioned myself getting ready each day how I would fit in with the other kids would I be just another girl or an object

of duration if the claims I saw on the internet were true then I would be safe from ridicule only Ralph and Gail knowing the truth and I just knew that I could trust them while Mom said that she would leave the decision to me it was only with her approv Ral I could not make a decision like that without her my mind was swirling with Visions of the problems I might encounter the hatred the violence the total lack of friends yet through all that I knew that I didn't have a choice I wanted to become

a girl more than anything and I was hoping that the appliances mom wanted to see were as good as advertised otherwise I would be relegated to being a weekend girl and that's only if I were lucky we sat there quietly for a while as I tried to figure out just how I would tell Ralph Gail Would be easier because she was excited to have another girl in the area Ralph however would lose his best buddy the one that he did everything with I could only hope that any resentment he felt would not result in his

telling anyone of my true status mom and I went home silent in our own thoughts like me in a way mom was trapped within a dilemma she could tell me no of course and that would be the end of it except she knew that would make me miserable if she Allowed me to go forward she would have to cope with many possibly even most of the other issues that would rise from my being a boy one day and a girl the next a legal name change school records health records her friends that knew me and

the rest of our small family that and hold a job be a mother as well as being the only person I could confide in even though I was only 14 I wasn't so dumb that I couldn't figure that out and for my own reassurance once we were Safely in the house I asked her yes she said quietly it will be very hard on all of us but while I want to I just can't bring myself to tell you that what you want is wrong I don't know that it is I did some research and I

do know that you could grow up being ashamed of who you are afraid to admit anything about your desires I also know that there are many boys like you out there some even manage to do what you want to do but most have to wait until they are 18 and I School Some are really pretty most get by and a few look absolutely stunning I do not want you to suffer but also I am afraid that the life you think you'll have won't be the one you dreamed of and when that happens I do not

want you to become reclusive and unwilling to try new things is this what I thought you would be when you grew up no am I unhappy about this no I am appalled to find out that my son wants to be a girl but setting that aside I am scared that you Will lose friends and maybe even your faith in yourself and that would be the worst thing I can imagine if you have even the slightest doubt then you should not do this honey you need to be very confident that by taking this step that it

is the best thing for you I'll help and even though I am very concerned I said that I would but you have to be strong enough to hold your head high and be proud to be a young lady can you do that I can try I said but if those Things are as good as they say then won't that be enough no dear anyone can wear a dress that's the easy part you have to know right down to your core deep inside that you are a girl and be proud of yourself you have to accept

the limitations girls have as well as the good things being safe is more than just a special panty it's knowing how to be aware of your surroundings you would not simply walk out at night alone in a strange place and risk rape or Worse Would you of course not you will suffer through boyfriends that promise one thing and give another girls that pretend to be your friend all while trying to undermine you standing in long lines to use the facility isn't fun yet a visit to the salon is spending half an hour getting ready sucks

the way guys look at you isn't there are many things about being a female that are fun and just as many that are not so the question for you is can you accept all Them be the person you really are and be happy at the same time how could I answer any of that when boys reach puberty mom added they get bigger fill out grow beards and so on none of which you want especially if you're a girl I found out in my research that a doctor can prescribe medication that will stop that from happening

and at the same time force your body to develop as any girls would including the growth of hips and boobs I'm sure that you're not going to Fight that from that happening but it does mean that before we order or get you fitted for anything our first trip is going to be to the doctor's office if he agrees with my assessment and lets you take the pills then we'll get you fitted if he says no and has a valid medical reason then you'll just have to wait until you're 18 I can't change that that is

as Fair as I can be and that was how it was Mom refused to let me get the appliances until the doctor saw me which Was a week into to the Future which meant that I could not tell anyone that I was about to become a girl because I wasn't sure that he would allow it Ralph came over and Found Me dressed as a girl and rather than ask me to hang out he wandered away giving me my first taste of what it was going to be like Ralph was on his way to do things

that he and I would normally do together mom was no help as all she did was shrug her shoulders as if to tell me I Told You So On the day of the reunion I was extra careful when when I got ready because mom had insisted that I remov that special panty she bought I was using a tip I found online I very carefully taped myself in a way that hid my parts completely then put on the padded panty brief the panties after that I wore a pair of shorts that fit me snugly and a

plain pink top the bra I had on was a soft cup with the front hook and some extra padding as soon as I had my shoes On I fixed my makeup put my hair into a ponytail added hoop earrings and some lipstick then went to see if Mom was ready she and I were waiting as Ralph came to the door and we left his mom drove Ralph and I sitting in the back of the car he didn't say much but he kept looking at me with a sort of sideways glance what nothing he said I

was just looking that's all and you look nice that's all different but nice we did not talk much more but when we got to the Lake and we out of the car he grabbed my hand and led me to the dock area I had no idea what he was up to Kristen I you look so I don't know why but I want to a be with you you are silly I'm right here he and I walked a bit further losing sight of the crowds around the tables Ralph still held my hand as I stepped upon

a huge Rock stumbling a bit as he caught me we were face to face nose to nose his arm around my waist holding me tight suddenly he kissed me right on the Mouth he jerked back as if even he was shocked at what he had done I just stood there for a moment then he pulled me bit close the hell with it he said and kissed me again not pulling away like the first time once again he managed to shake me to my sneakers and I broke away running a short distance before I stopped to

look at him he looked the same to me but he was grinning why did you do that you know I'm not a that I shouldn't don't do that again I couldn't Help myself you're just so and you look so cute just don't do that again okay okay calm down I ran back towards the tables and helped mom and Janet set out the plates and food and so on they sat to talk so I wandered inside there right in the middle of the room room was a grand piano I wasn't expecting that I wandered over then

sat down opening the front keyboard cover and gently fingered the keys assuming that nobody would mind I played memories followed by send and The clowns years of practice gave me a bit of skill so I didn't butcher the tunes too badly I liked show tunes and had learned many of them by heart as I finished playing I turned to see several people standing there go go ahead and play honey a lady said you're very good I played another then stood up to leave you're quiet good young lady an older man said not quite perfect but

very good thanks I said softly lots of practice I'll bet if you had the music sheets can You play Strauss showan mebe Mozart I can try but I like show tunes better they have more life I agree let me get you some music let's see how you manage okay sure he was the very first person to ever tell me that my music had Merit beyond my instructor or family I did not do recital nor did I play for others very often my music was a Haven it was where I retreated when I was nervous or

worried music has no gender no inference other than the notes on the page and Nobody cares what you wear they only want to hear the music sadly up to that point I had been so caught up in the struggle to find myself that I had neglected playing being self-absorbed does not lead to relaxation he sat the music in front of me and I began to play the tempo of the music drew me Inward and I forgot all about my worries Ralph kissing me and everything else I played Tales from the vieno woods it was the

kind of music that makes you sway back And forth think of huge Ballroom and beautifully dressed people I lost a few notes hit a few bad ones but on the whole I was very happy with my rendition as I finished I looked up and saw that the entire room was packed with people I just know that I turned beat red that was delightful young lady what's your name Kristen I said you have the makings of a fine pist my dear very fine thank you I saw Ralph making his way to the the front of the

crowd and quickly Joined him as he led me outside he and I found a place to sit and began to Gorge ourselves on hot dogs and melon chips and Pie you drew quite a crowd in there mom said as she sat down across from us you played very well I know that everyone liked it I liked it too Mom I think I need that maybe you'll play again after you eat maybe Ralph had other ideas however he wanted me to go down to the lake again I said I would but only if he behaved himself

and he Promised he would so we left on the way he told me that he had always enjoyed listening to me play you haven't touched a piano since this all started the day I caught you all dressed up I mean why I had other things to think about that seemed more important that guy the one that asked you to play you know who he is no why should I he's my great uncle or something he's retired from the city Orchestra he was the first chair violinist for years he knows a lot about Music and he

knows a lot of people so all I'm saying is that if he thinks you're good you can take that as a huge vote for how well you play I'm average at best Ralph he was just being kind he dropped it and we walked down to the lake that fourth cousin of his the one that bothered him last time was there she was decked out in a bikini that didn't fit her all that well she had a robust figure big boobs wide hips and chunky legs the kind of figure that does Not lend itself to a

bikini she saw us and stood up but Ralph steered me away from her towards the same rock where he had kissed me he and I just sat there for a while then is this the new you what I mean is are you going to dress like a girl all the time now I don't know yet yet yeah my mom wants me to talk to someone first well I think you look nice myself I already know what you think Ralph yeah and I know that Gail is excited too she hates being the only Girl in the

neighborhood we'll see I don't know yet we stayed there a while then wandered back to the food tables again and after a bit of urging I agreed to play again as I sat down at the piano Ralph stood right beside me as always I caressed the keys before playing one of my all-time favorites sending the Clowns written by Steven sonheim for the musical A Little Night Music before I could even start people started to filter in quietly Standing there waiting for me to play once my fingers hit the keys I was taken to another place

I let the music envelope me as I played drifting away on that wonderful tune the words forming in my mind when I was done I left the house and found mom I told her that I wanted to go home but why it's so nice here and it seems that you're having a good time I that song I just played it sort of reminded me that I'm a clown I'm all dressed up with makeup and a costume I Think Mom said softly that you put to much emphasis on what you aren't rather than what you are

for one thing you play very well and you know it and as far as I could tell nobody cared what you had on they don't know and frankly they could not have cared less however if this is how you feel that this is a farce then maybe you should just quit no I'm just Ralph kissed me Mom right on the mouth too I did warn you that he would start to see you in a different Way didn't I it seems that I was right but he's my best friend he knows let's talk about this later

honey for now why don't you just sit here with me I sat there with Mom for a bit then the older gentleman sat down next to me you have great potential young lady you truly have the ear she mom said usually practices quite a bit but lately we have had other things to do so she hasn't had the time lately I sit on a committee that is planning to host a talent show Of sorts for teenagers that have shown that they have the ability to play I would like to submit your name as one of

our contestants I'll be your sponsor if you like this is a great honor mom said in an excited tone I have to discuss at my mom first my real reason was that unless the doctor said that I could continue I could not play because he would be expecting a girl that's fine here's my card just call me but don't wait to long later that night when we Were at home mom brought it up my playing that is I told her why I didn't jump at the chance we only have a few days until you see

the doctor so we'll wait until after that but I'm sure that he would want you to compete anyway I could explain it to him I don't want anyone else to know Mom let's just see what the doctor has to say first the days seemed to drag by as I waited for my fate to be decided it was total Agony to know that he could Inflate or Dash My Dreams with a single word and I looked back to my music for solace picking a sheet at random I got the music from Cabaret both the words and

music as I started to play I read the words several stanzas hit me between the eyes the words seemed to lift my spirits in ways that I had not felt before I did want to get out and enjoy life as I wanted it and not stay home in my room I wanted to be seen as a talented beautiful young lady one that Was unafraid to be herself that was the dream anyway but to get there I had to become that girl before anything else could be true as the music filled the house I saw mom

come in and sit down just listening to me play When the song was over I stood up smiled and bowed I was tired so I went in my room and took a shower carefully removing that tape it was starting to itch and the doctor would want to examine me anyway after a long hot bubble bath I lay on my bed Wondering what would happen the next morning I would know before lunch I ate very little and went to bed early the next morning I very carefully selected what to wear full cut panties so he would

not think that I was an easy girl the soft cup bra a half slip and one Petticoat panty hose of course then the sundress I liked the way it fit me by the time I was done getting ready I was confident that I looked as good as I ever did my hair was up in a ponytail Held with a blue scrunchie my earrings were blue and white and I wore the low white heels the time had come for me to see the doctor mom led the way into the office I sat and waited while she

took care of things I had to wait almost half an hour until she and I were ushered into his office he looked me over from head to toe without saying a word I understand that this is your son yes Mom answered I can see for myself that she wants to be a girl but can she and talk Alone after Mom left now then tell me all about it from the beginning please that took the better part of an hour as I told him how I started dressing up in Mom's clothes when I was little and

later using money I earned buying my own clothes I told him that when I was dressed I felt somehow complete I went through the Litany of things that made me feel that I should have been a girl including how I felt when Ralph kissed me did you like it it it wasn't bad it's Just that he's my best friend I was shocked that's all I would imagine he said slowly your mother tells me that you know a lot about this issue so you are aware that it is rare very rare for a boy your age

to go through a transition like this I nodded my head yes and you are willing to do this on your own you're not being forced or anything like that no way this is mom wouldn't okay let's get you into an examination room then after being poked Prodded weighed and measured he finally had both mom and I together in his office I know that you are thinking of using the Mark 6 panty and that is a wonderful option of course but I have another option for you to consider one that will allow her to grow and

feel more natural I have a friend that is doing a study on young people that want to change gender and he has developed a procedure that I am told is quite effective and looks very natural I will Approve Kristen to enter this program but I want to see her every 3 months so I can monitor her development she will also need to see a shrink as part of the program they have to be sure they are doing the right thing call this number and set up an appointment I'm sure that he will be very anxious

to have her as part of his program get this filled and take one a day after dinner I was on Cloud9 because he had agreed to let me be a girl mom called using her cell Phone and we were both surprised when he asked if we had time to stop by right then as it wasn't far mom drove to the small Medical Center where I met another doctor he was abrupt but very clear I have a Federal grant to study the growth and well-being of Tey people which means that all procedures are paid for as

long as you agree to the conditions after he explained the condition i s what we do especially with someone as young as you are is retain the testicles in their Sockets which prevents them from growing and thus helps the onset of female puberty it's not quite perfect and you still need to take female hormones however in my experience it does reduce the testosterone your body makes to a level that is easily managed then we move the penis inside the body and use the existing skin to create a very re looking vagina complete with labial lips

we do however move the urethra into a position more suitable for a girl then We do a minor bit of manipulating the fat cells so we can round out the hips and so on given your age and between taking the pills and what we do I would guess that within a few months say six that she will no longer be recognizable as a male in any way breast growth natural widening of the hips the higher pitched voice and larger posterior plus the lack of body hair will be natural and she will look like most other

girls her age with no discernable difference I Was almost jumping off the chair in total Joy but it was he and mom made the arrangements 3 days that's how long I had to wait three long days by not having that panty I would be able to sense touch and feel more natural but it would involve some surgery what the doctor said was minor surgery as much as I wanted to I could not tell anyone until it was over all I could do was look like a girl being caught by Ralph when I was dressed up

was the Catalyst That started this series of events to occur I never in my life expected this to happen yet as events unfolded and I was allowed to dress up more and more I became unwilling to accept that anything I had done was wrong for me becoming a girl to be able to live the life of a girl accepting both the benefits as well as the hardships was a dream come true as we all have fantasies that never come true I knew that I was very lucky some people may say that I'm dumber than a

Post for wanting to be a girl yet I know it's right for me and frankly I'm the only one that counts I'm the one in the dress my mother for reasons of her own had accepted what I told her yet I knew that she wasn't thrilled that I would so willingly give up being a boy she had outlined many of the pitfalls being a girl could bring and tried valiantly to dissuade me from it but in the end she had agreed I cannot imagine in the struggle she had with herself before she Came to that

conclusion nor can I find any reason for her to let me have so much say my mother is a loving caring woman that always put family ahead of all else yet she Ruled The Roost and there wasn't any doubt of that for her to allow me to do this had to be both heart-wrenching and difficult at best I could have remained the way I was a boy and made my way through school as one then taken the steps to become a woman later but the Confluence of events that Led to this point brought it all

to the front and neither she or I could escape the plain facts as we saw them the fact that the changes being made would be covered by a Federal grant eliminated the financial stress mom would suffer through leaving her to cope only with my status at home and at school the minute we got home I grabbed her and hugged her tightly thank you being said into her ear over and over my joy was intense and simply could not hold it in my mother Left me to sit alone on the patio like me I think she

was trying to find a way to resolve her inner thoughts was I a boy or girl or maybe neither yet both I was a girl I knew that and I think that mom felt that too but it was a huge step to take and she like me had to struggle with the obvious implications a change like I was making would impact us many things would change how I looked the least of them would I be accepted could I be the woman I hoped to be would I Regret my decision later I knew that I was

right but those same questions had forced my mother to face them as well I had the surgery and with the help of a lawyer and a Cooperative School Board member my name and records were changed and I began school as just another girl a cipher looking to gain a foothold within the hierarchy of the school band of course I tried out for the cheerleaders but didn't make it I joined the sewing club and the school Newsletter and became not a cipher but a girl trying to make remark I did try out for that Talent contest

making the Final Cut and performing at a charity event I was thrilled to get that chance Ralph never again asked me anywhere meeting another girl I was glad for him I met a boy that I dated until he had to move away another replaced him and yet another after that my body developed just about the way the doctor told me and within a year I had the body of a Girl and it was all natural except for that one thing and it looked like I had a kitty I had managed to surmount all of the

obstacles in my path and as happy as I am today I am not sure that I could do it again the stress of guilt and fear compounded by the terrible need I felt and the reaction of my mother is not something I would want to do again mom and I have an easy relationship as before one of love and caring yet we are closer than ever before and I have yet To hear one word of regret about my change I doubt that she regrets it now not after all this time as I write this I

am awaiting the day my final surgery is completed for more days before I can Proclaim that I am a woman and proud of it those days of wanting to be a wife and mother myself is drawing to an end after that I'll be starting college and facing new challenges but that's what we do every day face the challenge conquer it and move on I am ready to move on now