I Gathered The Courage To Ask My Girlfriend To Include Another Girl During Our Act

I gathered the courage to ask my girlfriend to include another girl during our act asking her to have another girl join was the worst decision of my life I shouldn't have done it on Valentine's Day of all days but I did and there's no turning back it was around this time last year when my wife said to me Happy Valentine's Day darling I have a surprise I replied it's a threesome I meant it and she knew it partly from my facial expression and partly because it wasn't the first time I had brought it up in

retrospect Val Valentine's Day probably wasn't the best day to mention it again she had never been very receptive to the idea but she hadn't completely ruled it out either when she got home from work later that night and offered me a threesome I was pleasantly surprised you were right before my surprise is a threesome she said with a seductive smile the best wife in the world that's why I bought you this I said handing her a bouquet of flowers and a Valentine's Day card oh happy Valentine's Day she said kissing me looking back I'm not

even sure why I wanted to freesome in the first place my wife and I had a perfectly great sex life just the two of us and logistically three people it sounded complicated but I'd never done it before and it was one of those things I wanted to tick off my bucket list then who are you thinking of you know for the girl the third I asked that's a surprise she replied get ready to go out in 15 minutes suddenly my heart started racing Goosebumps covered my body in that moment I replied finally it was happening

I thought to myself and very soon soon I ran to the bedroom to pack whatever one brings to a threesome but I was immediately perplexed while searching for condoms in the room I realized that after being married for a few years I wasn't going to find any so I settled for a bottle of cologne and my sexiest boxer briefs I stuffed them in a backpack and waited Patiently by the door I've never seen you so excited to leave the house my wife remarked as she slung an unusually large bag over her shoulder I asked her

with a flirtatious smile oh you'll find out very soon she replied joking with me now what are you waiting for I did as she asked me to I got into the car and climbed into the driver's seat while she locked up the house I asked her once she was finally in the car the motel she said entering its name into the GPS that place isn't exactly romantic I should have noticed it by the way she said it but I was too excited too distracted by what was about to happen to catch any Nuance in her

voice about 20 minutes later we arrived at the motel my wife checked in under our name and chose someone when we entered the room I almost expected to see someone inside a woman chosen by my wife lying on the bed waiting for us but when we turned on the light the room was empty a small rundown motel room full of stuff my wife must have noticed my judgmental look don't judge a book by its cover for what we're doing only the bed matters she said as she closed the door behind us she'll be here any

minute now she added and hearing those words thrilled me I ran to the bathroom to freshen up and when I came out out my wife had already l in our guest our third there sitting at the foot of the bed in nothing but lingerie was a blonde woman who was in the midst of kissing my wife upon hearing me enter both of them stopped and turned to look at me of course don't stop on my account I said my wife stepped back and sat on a chair next to the bed you two go first I

want to watch she said I thought to myself while bricks nervous that after fantasizing about this moment for years I wouldn't be able to act the woman took my hand and led me to the bed where she turned me onto my back jumped on top of me and began kissing me it was at that moment that I felt my wife moving around in the room behind us but I was too aroused and too distracted by what was happening to think then I caught a whiff of something I wondered what it was but before I could

look around to see what might be causing it the woman looked at me and smiled in a way that made my heart race even faster I was already nervous anxious trying to process that this moment which once felt like a distant dream was actually happen happening she ran her hands over my chest with a soft inviting touch and for a moment everything else faded away my wife sitting beside us watched with a satisfied expression as if she were savoring every second of an experience that had once seemed impossible the next few minutes were intense everything

flowed naturally without awkwardness or hesitation I didn't know if it was the adrenaline the excitement of the moment or the unexpected chemistry between the three of us but each second felt felt like a revelation my wife who at first said she just wanted to watch eventually joined in and at that moment I felt like nothing could be more perfect it was as if we were completely in sync knowing exactly what the other wanted I had never seen her like this before so completely immersed in the moment when everything was over we lay there exhausted the

motel room was silent except for the faint sound of the TV playing in the background which we didn't even remember turning on the blonde woman gathered her things gave us one last place playful smile and kissed each of us on the cheek before leaving as soon as the door closed I turned to my wife and held her hand that was incredible I said still trying to catch my breath she smiled her eyes shining with excitement even better than I imagined she replied we got dress slowly taking our time I felt like I had achieved something

I never thought possible the ride home was quiet but it was a comfortable silence where words weren't needed I held her hand the entire way feeling more connected to her than ever before when we got home it was already late at night we showered together sharing knowing smiles and got into bed just before turning off the light she turned to me still with that lingering excitement in her expression I have a special request she said hesitating slightly I smiled curious anything love she took a deep breath before speaking I want to do it again but

with someone else I frowned confused someone else yes she murmured biting her lip but not another woman the air suddenly felt heavier my body tensed before I even realized it what do you mean I asked a strange feeling forming in my chest she looked away for a moment as if Gathering the courage to continue I want to try it with another man the shock hit me instantly it was like a bucket of ice cold water had been dumped over me my heart which had been racing with excitement just moments ago was now pounding for an

entirely different reason wait what she sighed and squeezed my hand you got to experience something new tonight and it was amazing now I want to know what that would be like for me I want to feel what it's like from the other perspective my mind was spinning I didn't know how to respond just moments ago everything had seemed perfect like we had unlocked a new level in our relationship but this this was too much are you serious I asked hoping she was joking but her expression was unwavering she wasn't joking yes she said I want

to know what it's like to be with another man and I want you to be there just just like I was tonight I felt a knot in my stomach you want me to watch or join in she said with a shrug but yes I want you there with me my mind refused to process what I was hearing my chest tightened I looked at her searching for any hesitation any doubt in her face but there was none she looked determined you want another man after what we just experienced she squeezed my fingers between hers it's not

about wanting someone else love it's about the experience you got yours tonight and I loved sharing that with you now now I want the same for me I stood up from the bed without saying anything I walked to the bathroom and gripped the sink breathing deeply I looked at my reflection in the mirror and saw the turmoil in my own eyes what was I supposed to say how was I supposed to react after a few minutes I returned to the bedroom she was still sitting on the bed watching me expectantly so she asked I let

out a humorless laugh so what do you really think this is fair she frowned you wanted to be with another woman and I agreed why is this any different I ran a hand down my face trying to contain the anger that was slowly Rising inside me because I never wanted to see another man touching you she crossed her arms and I never wanted to see you with another woman but I did it because I love you and I wanted to make you happy silence filled the room I had no response she stood up and walked

over to me think about it she whispered I'm only asking for the same thing you asked of me I couldn't answer I turned around and left the room I spent the entire night on the couch unable to sleep my mind racing the next morning she acted like nothing had happened she kissed me made coffee talked about her plans for the day but I I couldn't look at her the same way anymore something inside me had changed something had broken and the worst part was knowing there was no going back I sat on the couch staring

at nothing my heart was pounding but not from excitement or desire anymore it was a mix of anger disbelief and something I didn't want to admit fear fear that this conversation had crossed a line one that once passed had no way back I had spent the entire night without sleeping replaying every moment in my head from the second she made that ridiculous request to now where I sat alone trying to process the fact that maybe I didn't know my wife as well as I thought the sun started to rise and I heard her footsteps coming

from the bedroom I didn't move I had no energy left to pretend things were normal she walked into the living room and looked at me surprised to see me there did you sleep here she asked as if nothing had happened I took a deep breath before answering yeah she sat next to me and took my hand her touch which once felt comforting now felt cold look love I know what I asked caught you off guard but it doesn't have to be a big deal we can talk about it I finally looked at her my eyes

were heavy not just from exhaustion but from everything I was feeling do you really not see the problem with this I asked trying to keep my frustration in check she sighed like she had been expecting this reaction you're acting like I cheated on you like I did something wrong all I did was tell you what I wanted the same way you told me what you wanted what's the difference I felt my blood boil at the comparison the difference I let out a humorless laugh the difference is that I never asked you to do something that

would make you uncomfortable I asked about a threesome with another woman because I knew deep down it wouldn't hurt you you agreed you were there with me and from what I saw you even enjoyed it but what you're asking me now is completely different she rolled red her eyes different because I'm a woman and you're a man because you think only men should get to have these experiences that's not it I stood up running my hands through my hair trying to think straight I just I don't want this I don't want to see another man

touching you it doesn't excite me it doesn't make me happy in fact just thinking about it makes me feel betrayed she frowned looking offended betrayed then I should have felt betrayed last night too right should I have been angry watching you with another woman I crossed my arms shaking my head it's not the same thing you were there we did it together it wasn't just me with someone else but now you want to bring a man into our relationship you want me to watch and I just can't accept that she was silent for a moment

watching me as if trying to figure out my reaction then she finally spoke you're being a hypocrite I laughed bitterly unable to believe what I was hearing a hypocrite yes she said firmly you wanted to have fun with another woman and I accepted it but when I want something similar you lose your mind that says a lot about you you know you're twisting everything I snapped unable to hold it in anymore I love you but what you're asking it's not just something that makes me uncomfortable it's something that would break me I can't imagine watching

you with another man not after everything we've built together she crossed her arms and looked at me with frustration and disappointment so you expected me to accept what you wanted without question but when I want something suddenly it's a problem you think you get to decide what's fair and what isn't I ran my hands over my face feeling the desperation growing inside me it's not about rules it's about respect I respected you I respected your boundaries I would never force you into something that hurt you but now here you are insisting on something that you

know would destroy me how is that fair she stayed quiet for a moment I thought for just a second that maybe she would understand that maybe she would realize this wasn't just some irrational reaction but something that was genuinely hurting me but then she took a deep breath and said if it were the other way around you'd expect me to accept it I felt a lump in my throat so what if I don't agree you're going to do it anyway I asked looking her directly in the eye she didn't answer right away she bit her

lip glanced away for a second then met my gaze again I don't know she finally said but I do know that if you really loved me you'd at least think about it a bitter taste filled my mouth so now my love for you depends on on how much I'm willing to endure watching you with another man she didn't answer she just looked at me with a neutral expression like she was waiting for my reaction but in that moment something inside me simply broke I don't think I can do this anymore I murmured almost not realizing

I had said it out loud her eyes widened in shock what I stared at her and for the first time since this conversation started I felt like there was nothing left to say I can't be with someone who thinks love is measured like this I can't be with someone who after everything still thinks this is fair the silence between us was suffocating she opened her mouth to say something but stopped like she had finally realized that nothing she said would change how I felt I stood up and walked to the bedroom to pack my things

my heart felt heavy my hands were shaking part of me wanted her to stop me to say she was wrong that she regretted it but she didn't say a word and that told me everything I needed to know she didn't care and I couldn't stay any longer after leaving the bedroom still feeling the weight in my chest I sat down on the couch not knowing what to do my mind was in chaos I knew the conversation we had wouldn't just disappear from my thoughts I needed a second opinion I needed to know if I was

really overreacting so without thinking too much I grabbed my phone opened Reddit and made an anonymous post my wife and I recently had an experience with another woman it was something I had always wanted and she agreed everything went well but now she has asked to have the same experience but with another man she wants me to be there watching or participating I told her that it makes me uncomfortable and that I don't want to but she thinks I'm being a hypocrite because I had my chance and now she wants hers am I wrong for

not wanting this am I being unfair I posted it and put my phone down I sat there staring at the wall waiting for responses believing that at least some people would understand my side but when I opened the app a few minutes later the comments had started flooding in and most of them weren't on my side yes you're a hypocrite you wanted another woman but now that it's her turn you refuse if the roles were reversed and she had refused the threesome you'd probably call her selfish you had your fun and now you want to

deny her the same thing grow up she did it to make you happy and now you should do the same with every comment I read my frustration grew was I really the villain in this story how could no one see the difference how could no one understand that this wasn't just about fairness but about the fact that to me this wasn't just uncomfortable it was devastating I sat there staring at the screen watching hundreds of people judge me like I was the worst person in the world as if I were selfish or even manipulative but

one comment in particular really got to me if you had said no to the threesome from the start you'd have an argument but you wanted it you insisted and she agreed now that it's her turn you say no that's not love that's control I felt my stomach sink I knew it wasn't about control I knew I wasn't saying no just to be selfish but somehow seeing so many people judge me so harshly made me question if I had really been fair I put my phone away and sat there unmoving thinking the only person who could

give me a real answer was her I needed to understand what was going on in her mind I needed to know how far this went I got up and walked back to the bedroom she was sitting on the bed scrolling through her phone not even noticing me at first when she looked up at me she didn't seem surprised but she also didn't look guilty we need to talk I said keeping my voice as calm as possible she put down her phone and looked at me about what she asked like she already knew I sat at

the edge of the bed rubbing my hands together still feeling the tightness in my chest I made an anonymous post about what happened I started I asked if I was wrong for not wanting this she raised an eyebrow clearly curious and what did they say I swallowed hard that I'm a hypocrite that if I accepted a threesome with another woman I should accept this with another man that I'm being unfair she nodded slowly as if she wasn't surprised and now I sighed feeling the weight of every word before saying it I still don't want this

but I need to understand better her eyes lit up for a moment maybe with hope maybe with relief what do you want to know do you already have someone in mind she didn't answer immediately the silence that followed was the worst part of this conversation I wanted her to say no that it was just a vague idea but her silence said More Than Words Ever Could you do I stated feeling my chest tighten she looked away biting her lip as if carefully choosing her words it's not what you think then explain it I cut in

my patience running thin she took a deep breath Crossing her arms I just I had someone in mind in case you agreed I didn't want to mention it before knowing your stance on it who I asked my voice colder than I expected she hesitated 1 second two a friend of mine I felt my entire body tense up a friend friend I repeated as if I hadn't heard correctly she nodded slowly someone I trust someone who knows how to respect boundaries I stood up feeling my head spin how long have you been thinking about this I

asked refusing to believe this was something new she ran a hand over her face like she was tired of the conversation since before our threesome a chill ran down my spine you wanted this even before we brought another woman into our relationship she closed her eyes for a moment and nodded yes but I knew you'd never agree if I asked first my heart sank this whole time all of this and she had already planned this in her head so you only agreed to the threesome because you wanted to convince me afterward she opened her eyes

and looked at me seriously I agreed because I love you and wanted you to have that experience but yes deep down I also hoped it would help you understand my side I couldn't respond my chest was burning my throat was tight I didn't know what was worse the fact that she already had someone in mind or the fact that she never wanted the threesome for the reason than I thought the weight of the truth crashed down on me in a way I hadn't expected I never had a choice this was always a one-way Street I

just didn't realize it until it was too late the day arrived I had spent the entire week trying not to think about it convincing myself that somehow I could get through this but deep down I knew I knew that nothing in the world could prepare me for what was about to happen from the teal moment I woke up my stomach was in knots I couldn't eat I couldn't focus on anything my mind kept replaying that conversation that that confession how she had already had someone in mind a friend she was excited she didn't even try

to hide it I could see it in the way she was getting ready the way she carefully picked out her lingerie more deliberately than usual I wanted to scream to ask if she couldn't see what she was doing to me but every time I opened my mouth to say something I just couldn't was it fear shame or just the simple fact that no matter what I said she had already made up her mind so I just sat there watching as she prepared herself for or something that clearly meant more to her than anything we had

ever done together the doorbell rang my throat went dry instantly my heart started pounding she looked at me through the mirror and smiled everything's going to be fine she said as if she was reassuring me I didn't respond she walked to the door and opened it and then I saw him this guy wasn't normal that was my first thought tall broad shoulders a physique that looked sculpted by gods he wasn't just handsome he was imposing I felt insignificant just looking at him and my wife the way she looked at him the way her eyes lit

up like she was seeing something she had always wanted but never dared to admit I should have stopped it right there I should have stood up and said enough but I didn't I froze trapped between the pride of not wanting to admit that this was tearing me apart and the fear that if I spoke she would look at me with disappointment I was weak and that weakness kept me in place the two of them walked past me like I was just another piece of furniture in the room the the guy shook my hand firmly smiling

as if we were old friends nice to meet you man nice to meet you I wanted to laugh but I just nodded trying not to show what I was really feeling they walked to the bedroom she didn't even look back and I just sat there for a moment I thought maybe I could ignore it maybe if I turned the TV up loud maybe if I put on headphones maybe maybe if I just pretended that nothing was happening it wouldn't be so bad but then I heard it I heard things I had never heard before I

heard my wife like I had never heard her before and it destroyed me every sound was a stab to the chest every laugh every gasp every moan ripped another piece of my dignity away leaving me sitting there hands gripping my head feeling my soul shatter and then came the final blow her voice oh my God you're huge I stopped breathing my entire body went numb I already knew I already knew this guy was different I already knew I had no chance of competing but hearing it hearing it killed me I wasn't enough I never was

and now I knew it I don't know how long I sat there listening suffering dying inside but eventually there was silence and then laughter they were talking as if nothing had happened as if this was just another casual moment in their lives and me was done when they finally came out of the bedroom she was glowing glowing in a way I had never seen before the guy patted me on the shoulder before leaving thanks man that was amazing I couldn't respond the door shut behind him and then the worst part she looked at me and

smiled babe I had no idea it could be like that she said it with a sparkle in her eyes with genuine happiness as if she expected me to be happy for her as if everything was perfectly fine but I was never the same again never I stood there staring at her searching for something in her face that would tell me that what I had just witnessed wasn't real that maybe somehow it hadn't meant as much to her as it seemed but I found nothing all I saw was a woman glowing with satisfaction seeming as if

tonight had been a gift from the gods as if I wasn't even there the silence between us was suffocating but she didn't seem to notice babe she started taking a step toward me I instinctively stepped back no my voice was low but it carried a firmness I hadn't expected she frowned confused what's wrong that was the last straw what's wrong I let out a hollow laugh Are you seriously asking me that she blinked as if trying to process my reaction what happened here tonight wasn't right my chest burned with frustration this should have never happened

she crossed her arms but we both agreed to it no you agreed to it you made this decision you pressured me into accepting it she rolled her eyes you knew this could happen you insisted on bringing another woman into our bed and I accepted it but now that I want something suddenly it's a problem this was completely different different how because you're a man and I'm a woman because only you get to have your fantasies fulfilled I clenched my fists feeling my anger rise do you seriously think that's the issue she sighed then what is

the issue the issue is that you never wanted this for us you didn't want an experience for our relationship you wanted him you already had him in mind before this was even a discussion this was never about equality or about exploring together it was about getting what you wanted she fell silent for a moment I knew I had struck a nerve but instead of admitting it she tried to justify herself that's not true oh really then tell me did you even think about me at any point because I was there sitting in that living room

listening to everything listening to you say things you've never said to me watching you react in ways you never have with me she bit her lip searching for words it was something new something different of course it felt intense different I cut her off my voice dripping with bitterness this wasn't different it was better for you much better so much that you didn't even care whether I was there or not she looked away unable to respond it wasn't like that she murmured of course it was and the worst part you don't even realize what you've

done you don't even understand that you just broke me she rolled her eyes again you're overreacting that was it that was the final push overreacting I let out a bitter chuckle you destroyed everything we built humiliated me in the worst way possible and I'm the one overreacting she stared at me coldly I didn't cheat on you I laughed but there was no humor in it oh really then tell me what was this it was an experience she insisted something within our relationship if I had done this behind your back then it would have been cheating

I stared at her stunned by her audacity oh I see so if I put a knife in your hand and warn you that I'm going to stab you does that mean it's not Murder She scoffed impatient you're twisting everything no I'm not my voice was steel now do you want to know the difference the difference is that in R threesome I was still with you I wanted wanted to share an experience with you I didn't want another woman I wanted us to have something together but you you weren't there for me you only agreed to

it because deep down you already knew what you wanted for yourself she opened her mouth to argue but stopped because she knew I was right she had wanted this long before she ever suggested the first threesome and that hurt the most I can't stay here my voice was Hollow the weight of those words crushing me her eyes widened what I took a deep breath I can't be with someone who did this to me who went through everything that happened tonight and didn't feel a shred of regret who had the nerve to smile at me after

it was over as if I should just accept it don't be ridiculous she snapped her voice shifting sounding desperate now you're going to throw away our relationship over this no you threw it away when you decided I wasn't enough she stared at me searching for something in my face some hesitation some doubt but there was nothing left I was broken and she knew it babe please let's talk let's think about this I love you I looked at her one last time and I realized that I didn't love her anymore not after what had happened not

after seeing her glow for another man goodbye her lips parted as if to say something but no words came out I grabbed my things and I walked out of the home that had once been mine never to return I didn't look back I didn't let myself hesitate every step I took felt like closing an entire chapter of my life but the worst part I didn't know if I would ever be able to start again