Being in your 20s is weird

You never not on my mind oh my oh my you never not by my side I'm never going to make you cry oh cry don't cry never all right all right hey Pals buzz and lovies welcome back to mooning amusing with Megan and Hannah woohoo okay so we already recorded this once this week and feels weird yeah I felt like I was like not feeling good During it I don't know why I said I felt like I was not I definitely was not feeling good during it so we're just you know redoing it uh we

just watched the Roski report I got my sweatshirt on it's so cute that it like she has her board on yeah it's so cool I like the table too iconic I got a it really is a compliment on it from like a big dude at the at uh kroger the other day and I was like huh so you know Roski Nation just is what it is a whole bunch of Us there's no there's no one look you know uh anyway we just watched her new episode and it caught my gears turning and um also your

gears so you feeling all right mate yeah I'm feeling okay I just feel like I was yapping for a long time Jump in by now while I was locked and loaded ready to listen to you talk about uh broski well this is the one where she like cried and this is why I was like we got to re-record the episode Because I was just in such a terrible mood and it made me it made me start thinking about like I want to be more conscientious of what I put out in the world and I didn't

want to put it out because it was so like I don't know I just wasn't feeling good I didn't want to bring anyone down with like my negativity and I've been kind of trying to not focus so much on negativity I guess CU I feel like so so of there a lot of Really shitty stuff like happening in the world and I'm having a really hard time I think focusing on anything that's good and I don't think that that's good for my brain and like she said the line about like I'm going to start letting

go of things that aren't serving me me yeah and I was like that's that's so true and she even said like you know there are things that she liked that she really enjoyed that you know she loved but they're not really serving her yeah so She was going to leave claw marks like cuz she was letting it go but it needed to be let go yeah so and I don't know I kind of just wanted to talk about where I'm at in life right now because I feel like I've been trying to put on like

I'm have to go to therapy like literally tomorrow and maybe this everything I'm about to say should just be for therapy but I'm going to say it here I've been like really depressed recently and I think I've said that in Other episodes but I mean like the kind of depression where you're floating around feeling like you're not a real person type depressed and I I think part of that has been contributed to like I don't know I just graduated college in December which I know I've talked about that but being a 20-year-old right now in

the world is so weird because like some of my friends are getting married and some of my friends have kids and yeah are like in houses and it's like a Lot of my friends also still live at home and it's just I don't know they're just such a mixed bag and having the degree and not doing anything with a degree and kind of feeling just like a worthless human right now has given me really bad impostor syndrome like when I think about having gotten a college degree I'm like I feel like I like scammed my

way through it like I feel like they like didn't catch me like I shouldn't have Got it and they just I slipped through the crack somehow and got it okay even though like I did get like I did a lot of work to get that degree you like had to you had to turn the stuff in you know that you had to get feedback from it you know like you went through the whole process and it's like I don't know it's just a weird time to be a 20-year-old cuz like I also still I still

live at home and it doesn't feel good like I just it's not feeling good and like you Don't live at you don't live at home and you're not really feeling great either feel good when you don't live at home so it's just a mess and I'm like afraid I'm 27 no prospects not 27 I'm 25 but damn might as well be 27 you know give me a year I'll get yeah be 26 later this year but yeah like I'm I'm really scared of like moving out and having to take on Bills especially when I feel

so distrustful of like just the culture as a whole as far as the economy goes and I'm scared of like a full-time job is so horrifying to me horrifying to me and the concept of horrifying is a correct word sorry continue it's just you couldn't have put it better yeah and I know that that's like it makes me feel like a baby because I'm like am I just it's like why am I why is that like childish and babyish to be frightened And terrified of a a soul sucking [ __ ] job like that like

why is that why I'm not I'm not a baby [ __ ] smart well it's like everybody and I'm like what's wrong with me that I'm so like purly afraid of it yeah but it's like sorry I I just can't believe that as a culture we are just okay with spending more of our time working than not working like I understand that we all need to contribute to society and Like everyone needs to do something in some type of way and but it also is kind of sickening to me that so many of the jobs

that we do aren't actually like they do contribute to society but like we don't need to have 100 types of yogurt and 100 types of cereal and like so many workers to support overc consumption and lining the pockets of these billionaires and I have a really hard time Reckoning with that so trying to Find a job that's worth doing that also has a good work life balance while also dealing with imposter syndrome and like lack of confidence in myself is has been like a real struggle so right now I just wanted to like talk about

that cuz I'm sure that I'm not the only person going through something like that you cannot be yeah and like trying to Grapple with how to get your mental health to be better while also dealing with those feelings and dealing with the Reality of what you have to do to live life in a comfortable way because like I I do want to have like a comfortable enough life and it's just tough man The Imposter syndrome is tough and like I'm going on a negative spiral right now too but I just want to let you all

know well uh like I mean it might get a little negative if you're discussing it yeah because it's not like you've discussed it in detail you've hinted you're not disgusted dis in detail yeah so I've Been trying to figure out how to like find joy in like little things and you remember that song from me the Robinson it's like is it towards the end so it's is it the Montage one I don't know I think it's at the end okay yeah I think the Montage one is different in these small hours oh my God yes

that song that song [ __ ] me up when I was a kid not only that song [ __ ] you up now that's what I'm saying saying not only now [ __ ] me up when I was a Kid I [ __ ] with me the Robinson's it made me feel like wanting to live life hard right it's that type of movie oh that's what tears to my eyes you see my eyes watering right now cuz it feels so [ __ ] good oh going to watch that movie later maybe [ __ ] yeah

will that movie is so beautiful I love when movies make me feel good about life and feel good about like living and being human love it it is nice I like when I'm like Happy to be alive as well love it feels [ __ ] good and I love when people put pieces of art out that make people feel that way yeah because you need that that is the whole reason we do that you need it we make art so make people feel things yeah [Laughter] yeah what did we talk about in the last one

we talked for an hour hey man couldn't tell you couldn't tell you um we talked about Robert Paton Hey it's the first day of fall no way yeah oh wow up miss the 21st that was one of the things I said in the last one is that I hate fall trying not to do that trying not to be so prickly and negative about it yeah I I understand why it would be difficult for you to not be though so like you know don't have to cut cold turkey but like I guess maybe check yourself saying

things I guess May it's better for me after Halloween because Like to me Halloween like it just confuses me a little bit and like this isn't like me passing judgment but like people get excited about the uh like the cold weather which I do understand but it's like we enter an era where everything is dying and I don't know how that doesn't depress people because that does like watching the leaves die and fall to the ground fall to the very depressing to me and there's people that just eat that they just focus on the the

Color changes you know and it's like um I I don't I don't know how many people are actually focusing on the the dying of it I don't think they're really paying attention that it's a dying you know what else changes color when it dies like pretty much everything right people you're just looking at a corpse and you love it you love to step on their little corpses and hear it Crush under your foot well now you make me feel like a sick [ __ ] cuz like I Actually do finding a really good crunchy leaf

and just stepping on they kind of smell good too when they start decomposing the Lea you like I mean like just like okay I thought you were thought you were picking up decompos sing going no they have a smell you know what I'm talking about I do know what you're talking about like and pumpkins I actually do like that smell with the pumpkin you have like a flame in it You know I do too I actually really um I enjoy uh I enjoy certain like uh traditions and things like that that come with the fall

this though yeah which yeah I like some of the movies I [ __ ] with some of the the Gaga songs what the [ __ ] does she know about cameras but yeah I like some of the movie I like ParaNorman a lot I love that movie can introduce me to that movie it's good isn't it they can Introduce me to a lot of uh Halloween movies oddly enough you wen't a big clamation person I think you kind of avoided it and I got you to give it because family is [ __ ] weird that's

why that's why that was avoided they hate it no because my family is so hyper focused on things if they're weird or not then they make fun of you fun of you if it's weird type thing so it's like that's a little different so it's weird you get made fun of that's another one Of the things Britney Broski talked about today was like get over that well also not those words though that's one of the things where it's like the bravery and like this isn't saying that you shouldn't have acted that way cuz everyone acts

like that but like The Bravery to do something that yeah it's easier when you get a lot easier once you get that frontal lobe together once your brain is like fully [ __ ] developed it's actually crazy that it Like works really well yeah you start doing [ __ ] um damn I really had a train of thought that was going and it was going in a good direction and it went into the clouds y'all remember that scene in a inside out damn we were talking about different stuff I was talking about lit lit thought

Bri I forgot about that SC in that movie dream dream dream hit the head fast asleep dream a dream you Little she got it wow he did a backflip yeah and then he had his uh that that stick that he was flipping around everywhere the fact that he did that in that Taylor Swift music video I said that so fast how like I will say like yeah let's laugh but like he did what he did and he was a kid and he didn't care he trained for it man he did he's always been kind of

a weird guy he kind of gave me he isly so Twilight this is what we did talk about in the last one we talk a little bit about that cuz that's so [ __ ] freaked me out I've been uh listening to Twilight and so it's put me on kind of a that is an interesting experience you read it last time like on words like in the book yeah like you physically read it but now you're listening to it me okay all right perod my brain like I know you don't like audio books but my

brain does the same Thing with both of them it likees I feel like I like I taken the words in a like a different way for some reason it's like the exact same experience to me except someone's reading it to me so like my brain still creates like the images and like follows along the same way is that what your brain does too um in a way but with audiobooks sometimes like if I were to do it at my place of business um I would be like and then I would for go back go back

go back I Disassociate so hard I can I easily get lost in there instead of like listening to what that person is telling me so then I just I have that issue more when I physically read books when I physically read I don't have anything I can't visually there's no visual stimulus like I have to have both so I actually get like absorb it better like I can obviously read but I absorb it better in an audio book but like when I'm dialed into to reading or listening My brain does do the same thing where

it's like creating the images for me I like why love listening to music while I'm physically reading that I cannot do unless there's no words in the song No I do sometimes do that thing where I like uh when I was reading aitar I read um a cord of silver Flames like physically actually I read that the first time all of that physically and then I relisten to I I re listen to it to read them again and then I read silver Flames so I've read aitar twice and silver Flames once I'm actually on my

third reread of aitar right now um but when I was reading silver Flames I put on uh valaris Ambiance on the screen and it had like a piano and I really felt immersed shut the scene cuz like why not that's nice too you can you like are literally existing in that world o they have the sh sh Ambiance I'd be in there I'd be in there yeah they have Hogwarts uh JK Ring's piece of [ __ ] but Hogwarts still seems cozy it always does I hate that she tainted it I know I'm working hard

on not letting that happen I'm G to try and watch Harry Potter this it's been a long time it makes me feel better that most of the like actors just yeah it's never yeah it's never them just sucks at that creative mind it's so hurtful and hateful I don't think she was like that when she was writing them she deteriorated like her Her brain had to have rotted you know what I mean well like lost my train thought what's going on with this clouds I still can't find my one from earlier and it was really

good there's no way we're going to find it now cuz I I'm talk I'm still looking for it all right you keep searching I feel like I was going to talk about I don't know I'm just trying to like be a more positive human and like Find things that I enjoy doing one of the things I'm trying to do to like combat my depression is actually go and do stuff because I started thinking about it and like we work nights which is really hard for my freaking brain because I don't know if anyone else does

this thing where you get into weight mode where if you have something to do later in the day you physically can't do anything else I am very very guilty of that it's bad yeah and for me that's Like yeah it's like sorry my whole day is booked because I work nights so like I have to do anything before it that's bad yeah so I'm trying to make sure that I go to more places cuz I feel like my world is so small right now and like she was Britney brosi was talking about she really changed

my life with this like everything she's done honestly her projects man like they've just been comforting kind sweet she's a very Loving and exciting person like excited person I should say and like hered excited and I've been like a really unexcited person recently which is I don't know if y'all have been able to tell in the episodes but like I got on anti-depressant so it show you be better in like two episodes but um yeah so I've been trying to make sure that I like I'm doing other things like I'm going to try to make

an effort to like go for walks and stuff And make sure I'm not cuz the only places I ever see are my house sometimes a grocery store and my job and sometimes your house and that's yeah I went and did something different this weekend I shout out to my friend Courtney she's getting married I went with her to get her wedding dress picked up and we went like to a new place which is like not that far from my house so I was like that's crazy this is like a new place to me like obviously

I've been there before I was like Dam you really had not been leaving your house have you and um that was really fun to like see different people and then and do something different so I'm going to try to like make a point to do more of that to feel more joy in my life I also did something different this weekend what' you do oh you went to the concert talk about that let's talk about it let's talk about it um you talk about yours first yours was happy so like uh I Can't believe I

went to Indiana two weekends in a row um I went to Indiana apis this weekend to go see the aces um the band not the team anybody knows either of those um it was actually really cool um because they when they were on the stage really quick before I even like say how the trip was and everything um they were like excited and happy at about the crowd size and she had said like she thanked Chapel because she was like some Of these people did show up because of Pride like it was the first time

they had been to Indianapolis as well that was the first head they did there that's cool so it's like the fact that that many people showed up on the first one that they did there and that had to have been because of the Kentucky an Pride it was so big like yeah so that was really cool and like yeah she she got emotional like that was really cool um yeah that was a really fun intimate concert like It was quite small I love the venue I want that we were talking about we want to do

that more like go to smaller venues if we can cuz we didn't like where we were we could see them perfectly but we didn't like fight our way up to the front we just like casually hung back it sucks that it's really not that much cheaper we have Casey musk graves in November do you remember that what we're seeing Casey musk graves In November that might be a problem that you forgot actually because it's on a Wednesday well yeah let's talk about it right now [ __ ] at that later but yeah we got those

tickets like be good like a like a while ago it's on November 12th at the Y Center she still talking about it dude we keep talking about it anyways $30 Tickets uh Megan was supposed to go to that concert this weekend I woke up late uh like so we were supposed to leave at 1:30 and I was supposed to drive and I woke up at one and then um I was upstairs brushing my teeth and my sister the way she did this was so funny she like the door was slightly a jar she like opened

it and she was like uh belly chewed up one of my ADHD pills and I was like and she was like but like I don't think she got a Lot and I was like you know she's very small so like she got any it's going to be problem she got something so I had to take her to the vet and I was there for literally 8 hours I'm pretty sure like and I got there and like that was kind of depressing cuz like you know know animal emergencies kept coming through like a dog with a

broken B came through it made me kind of grateful cuz I was like at least Bell's okay cuz they did not seem stressed about her at all like They checked her and they were like she's stable so you're like going to have to wait and I was like that sucks but good like that she's that she's they're not that stressed out about it yeah and she had to get like a saline pouch I say saline I don't know what it was they had to inject like liquid under her fur and it created like a lump

under her fur like a like Myer I wish I could have seen that and to to like flush her kidneys and her liver and they gave her A shot for nausea too and she was pissing me the whole rest of the day which sucked I like came home and she like wouldn't look at me or talk to me like h l against you like you did it one you're dumbass bit a pill dude you know better and what's ironic about that is sometimes I give her like if I give her like a new wet food

sometimes she won't eat it sometimes she's like me yes she was totally was eating a [ __ ] capsule was it a capsule it was a capsule that's Insane but they were worried so like she didn't like eat it she just bit it but they were worried she bit it and had a little bit on yeah and they said even like whatever got on her tooth could have hurt her though so I was worried damn and you have to pay fun fact if y'all didn't know this it's $95 to call animal poison control for them

to tell you it's $95 what is up if are you what and I called human poison control And they were like this is also funny because we're in Kentucky I didn't even tell you this part and I was like I don't know if this is the right place to call I didn't know there was an animal poison control so I just called regular poison control and I was like my cat like bit this pill and they were like we're going to have to transfer you to animal uh here's the phone number and like gave me

the phone number and they were like real quick though where are You calling from and I was like Kentucky and he was like this is the Illinois poison control and I was like I didn't know that there were like I just Googled poison control and that was a number that came up but he like got pissy and hung up I was like damn poising control I have an Illinois area code too so why did he even ask why he ask so [ __ ] weird about it I grew up in Illinois and I still have

my phone number so I have a 618 phone number Wasn't that that weird that's so odd you think that he had GPS tracking on my phone what the [ __ ] that's weird you think that he knew where I was you think he was like oh I almost sent my address you think he was like Louisville Kentucky H that's so odd isn't it like just tell me what if I'm dying you following me damn but yeah redirected an animal $95 and guess what I I was put on hold and I was like I'm just going

to go to The vet and I still had to call them cuz I got to the vet and they were like yeah you're going to have to call animal poison control so they tell us what to do and I was like y'all actually pissed me off y'all actually pissed me off really helpful though once I got past the pay wall it's crazy what like they actually really knew what they were talking about it's crazy they had like toxicologist [ __ ] pay wall on Demand on demand we were talking about Twilight we'll finish that up

sorry uh anyways Megan couldn't go to that concert because of that whole ordeal with belly like she obviously was gonna have to wait with her and it took hours upon hours upon hours so I was so hungry you guys have no idea how hungry I was Austin and my sister instead of the the four of us but it was uh yeah nice little concert yeah I would love to go to more smaller concerts with us and Like we don't like it doesn't always have to be like it could just be there to hang out and

be in a group in a crowd and dance with live music I don't actually love the band they were going to go see listening to that live they're they they were so good like everybody was so [ __ ] good at every instrument dude like it was just yeah they are Ed I'm just not like that type of I don't know I'm more of like a I don't know how to explain it my favorite type of music Always has like scent yeah I do love synthesizer yeah it's just like a different vibe and they they

play like live instruments which there's nothing wrong with fun beats really love those and I [ __ ] with those so that makes sense yeah they have mostly have like an like there's like a VIN diagram and it's very overlapped but there's like this different six seven something like that I don't think do I have any songs you don't like I'm sure I'm sure because I have plenty that you don't like like it's about to happen I think yours goes fur straights further from me than mine does yours I am I try so hard to

like really just get myself to like something really quick with music specifically because I'm really trying to get what they're trying to lay down sometimes it just don't make no [ __ ] sense to me well you're pickier than me in some ways and I'm pick like I'm pick with like books and music and movies yeah I can Consume just about and you yeah you just go for it where it's like I'm like certain like if certain animation Styles I just can't get past yeah even if it's really good yeah truly so yeah our pickiness

is different yeah and even Austin's too we get into it with Austin sometimes because he will not watch old movies and he means old like 200 like early 20 movies are picked yeah and you would think it's because of like homophobia or like that kind of stuff Sometimes it is but it's actually the effects it's like the CG which I think is hilarious and that does suck because like some older movies I watch and I'll Circle back to like just the like it just they the plot it just makes me feel so [ __ ]

good like the story is there like yeah that you know that's the immersion that I was getting it's like how they built a story and it so I feel like that I feel like we just don't be hopeful like we used to Be like there used to be hope and I feel like it's one of those eras too where it's like reflecting the current like state of things you know what I mean because like whenever we were feeling good as a culture they were making happier movies yeah and now like no like Co happened and

then like the economy is the way that it is and like the politics and stuff and it's just really hard to be a positive person but godamn going to try it's a [ __ ] fight I will say um But yeah I'm willing to put up the fight man I really am put in the work I am I really am I just looked at your list of things to talk about it says Britney Megan feelings Megan feelings nice try the possessive apostrophe I did I I didn't even put that up there because it's like when

I'm doing my quick hand notes you know I don't even need that I see your finger right there I thought that's the y That's the S you're just Overlapping looking like an apostrophe it's a cursive ass yeah I see that yeah it's the ink doubling up because it's that pen focusing pretty hard on that um how did we talk for an hour last time I'm gen like what did we talk about when I just saying that dude it made me think of uh we were out and about and we went to Target just for the

of it Lauren and I did I think she just really wanted some new sunglasses specifically from Target because Austin mentioned something that he might have gotten them there and I was with him and we were not at Target just had to say all of that but anyways we saw a Jeep next to us and there had sticker that said Jeeping for Jesus and I was like Jeeping for Jesus dude that is catchy is that a real song No I made that up you made it up did you like that nice yeah I do I do

that all the time I'm glad that that's I thought it was pretty catchy uh cuz you know What does that mean for Jesus so tell us in the comments below are you Jeeping for Jesus yeah and tell me what you think that that means I'd love to hear everybody's thoughts it probably just means that they're in a Jeep and they're just do everything cruising for love man they're spreading the love so Megan's listening to Twilight and I saw a Tik Tok a few days ago and I told Megan about this when we recorded this The

first time uh that Stephanie Myers's uh brother did I say that right yeah cuz her last name is it Meer or Myers oh my God I think it's Meyer I think it's just Meer Stephanie Meyers say brother that's GNA [ __ ] me up the brother her brother's name is Jacob one of her brothers name and there was other ones there were also other uh wolves right they were the other wolves there was Seth uh there was Emily like she had s sister names in there too um Oh there was another one wasn't there Paul

Leah Leah too maybe I don't know it doesn't matter the point is she named all these people after herbl siblings and I think it's so she's such a weird person she's such an odd individual human and like the Mormon themes once you know they're there are so blatantly obvious at the front of the [ __ ] book so like that's weird but also like the fact that you named a love interest after your brother is exceeding weird Like above all the other weirdness that's above it you didn't have to and made him in love with

a child yeah you didn't have that all those were choices made I think she lost the plot like cuz you know how you know how it started like you know what made her write it no man I never looked into that because okay like I I enjoyed Twilight but I was never like I never enoy de into it like the others yeah that was my First like so I'm really being into like those like the FY romance novel specifically guitar those type of novels and that was my first one and I read it and literally

literally the third grade so of course I ate it up like I was like Wow and like reading it now as an adult I'm like that had to have been bad for my brain had to because they fall in love fall in love like first of all he's mean as hell mean as hell because she goes in and he's like oh my God this [ __ ] I have to eat her and so he's mean because he's like I gotta eat her so like and in her brain she's like what did I do to make

this guy hate me so much so fast and the next time he sees her he's like hello my name's Edward col and she's just like oh my God hi I'm like he didn't just like like he didn't just walk into him in the office trying to drop the class cuz you were in the class and he didn't piss me off I would have been mortified I would have Been like theck like that doesn't happen to just anybody like what are the odds that this person hats so much we don't even know each other's names that

part and then she's just a freak about it like she's just happy she's like oh he likes me now hey immediately immediately red flag immediately red flag and then she doesn't know he's aamp and he keeps doing this cringy [ __ ] where he's like you should stay away from me if someone acted like that trust me I'd be like Period you're weird why are what do you mean you're dangerous what are you talking about I'm going to believe you why are we not believing this person someone was like you should stay away from me

I'm dangerous i' be like he's going to shoot up to school going to shot compl 180 with their attitude towards me like say l this person stay away I would have told other people to stay away yeah I'd be like that guy's a [ __ ] freak and they have no friends Yeah School shooters and they always sit table and they they so yeah Bella and he keeps telling her like you're an idiot if you don't stay away from me and I'm like yeah I me you actually are he keeps telling you and then how

is that you're only on the first one right now right yeah this is going to be fun and I just got to the part with the um the baseball scene that's where I'm at and the way the baseball scene is described in the Books because like I watch the movies multiple times a year to be honest they're so comforting to me I love the aesthetic of where they are like even though the movies are terrible I also love Robert patson I think that is so fun also enjoy those movies when I watch him playing Edward

knowing how much he hates Edward it is so funny to me it makes it it more fun like experience to watch the movies it's like you really acted your ass off and Just hated that man you just hated his character for a long time I once again forgot what the [ __ ] I was talking about I don't know what's going on me right now I don't where was I going with this [Music] Twilight Han save me talk about okay all right okay um so I would say after we left the concert uh we were

driving back and I forced them to listen to that weekend song three Times I wasn't going to kill him but it's a phenomenal song and I know they did enjoy it so the third time we did listen to it was on the way back okay and uh windows down with that song blaring beautiful song is really good talk about an out of body experience it was amazing and it felt really really good and I cried felt so good I do really like that album which I'm glad not that album that song the reason I said

album is cuz I was going to say I Really did not like his last album that much I haven't listened to it yet it was I not bad but for him I was like this is not giving cuz his cuz his songs always made me feel like I'm GNA like floating he gives me exactly what I was talking about that I say I like in a song like the and just like literally yeah he's just that's an artist that I'm just like that music anything that he produces is like there's like number one most Spotify

artist check that yesterday Everybody likes him yeah damn I really had points I was going to make that I just lost at the beginning and the Twilight thing I think it's really funny that I was talking about Twilight and you just jumped into something completely different I figured you would want to bring it back to Twilight which is kind of just did I didn't because I don't got nothing to say about that all right well I don't know if I'll ever get myself to reread Those books to be honest it probably would be fun but

like that's time I just don't want to spend on something like that they're very easy I know like you don't just fly right through it I gave all of mine I actually used to have I had one of them like a physical book cuz my Grandma had one for some [ __ ] reason I think it was like new moon like that's not even like the first [ __ ] book uh and I I don't know why she had it so I Got it and then I was such a weirdo that I was like I

got to complete the set so I had to get all four I was like why did I or three four oh my God four is there four yes there's four Twilight New Moon eclipse yeah breaking down um and the secret life of Brie Tanner that's even what it's called American Teenager dude shayen Woodley fell off you know she's a big Trump supporter for Real like actually actually s actually actually yeah she like literally got arrested for like doing something like was like they there's they've something on TI Tok about this where it was like the

granola crunchy like aesthetic to Maga pipeline to see this in like a in a um what did you call them the circles over well it's because they're both distrustful of the government what graph is that called again is it a v Diagram the circles yeah I want to see it like that and the overlap well I think it's cuz they're both so like the government's at to get us and then you just go a different way which like I'm kind of like that too but like I'm not going that like I know going that way

you're not going to get me there ain't no way there ain't no way you're going to get me to support Donald Trump um yeah why did you bring up the secret life for the American Teenager Because I said the secret life of Bri Tanner but it was the short Second Life of Bri Tanner so there was actually five Twilight books six of few include Midnight Sun Midnight Sun is way better written than all theight by the way that one is actually pretty good because it is like written better and it's from Edward's perspective right I

so do you want to read that I think she got someone else to help her write it and just didn't credit them seriously you Don't think she like worked on the skill I don't know cuz she hasn't she only wrote like one other book oh for real she wrote Twilight and then the host and I think that's it forgot that she wrote that book and I thought the host was honestly like I love the aesthetic of Twilight but the host was objectively better writing I literally have I literally have that physical copy and it's not

even like my book [Laughter] Yeah that' be funny reded anyways oh my God you I might splice some of this episode with some of the last episode that we film that we aren't going to use I might try to do that out so if anybody does watch it on YouTube you'll have a little fun it's going to be really funny cuz I'm wearing the same shirt she put it on because we were going to talk about Brandy Broski in This episode like in more uh and I don't know I don't even know if we brought

it up in the one that we filmed um I really did want to talk more about her but I feel like my brain's just not working right now I it's okay it doesn't and we could we're probably just going to constantly bring her up in episodes so well I she's part of the reason why we started this podcast is because seeing her be a freak on the internet interet made me feel more Comfortable she's the first person that I've really seen myself in that much if that makes sense like I've never felt like I've had

so much in common with someone that other people liked and it made me feel like maybe people will like me too and like that's cute yeah and like not that I like I I'm dealing with more confidence issues than I've ever had in my life honestly I think what happened with me is like so you know how everybody just feels bad in middle School and then I think I got to high school and I had like stuff going for me like I had the drill team and I had friends so I felt good about myself

then and then I was in college for a long time and I had friends and like had school going for me and now I don't have any of that and I just feel like [ __ ] so I'm trying to find like and that's not how self-worth should work at all like and I don't see other people that way either where like if they're not doing Anything worthy and I don't even see it that way for other people like there's a worthy way to live your life because just existing is worth doing and but for

me I just don't see it that way I think I had really high expectations for myself and I just and when I say expectations I mean like I just had so much faith that I was going to figure out something that was going to bring me joy and make me money like enough money to like have a good life Yeah and it just hasn't happened yet so it's like it just doesn't feel good it's just all around not a great feeling you know sometimes you just feel like [ __ ] now you're being funny now

you're being funny I know you get like really depressed you like lose your sense of humor and like that was that was the final froner needed that back that's when I went on anti-depressants yeah Yeah oh she brought out a different gigle cuz if you can't laugh then what you doing you know what I'm saying stop laughing thank you so much for that because I took you literally yeah she just me me I took that to Lauren did I tell you that I feel like I took yeah I did like you pulled a Lauren on

Lauren or you pulled me on laen you what you do I told you when she said that phrase that my Mom said we you're so close in the concert at at Pride's the as to Elbow comment and I was like that's impossible I was like you cannot do that like that literally does not happen like that cannot happen that's what I said you you throwing your ass up at their elbow or your elbow elbow hoing down there man scoop it's a funny ass saying though I love those old saying they're just my mom has got

pocket full of them and I just think that're they're from my Grandpa a pocket full pocket full your grandpa's pretty funny her grandpa's so sassy and such a teddy bear yeah Don Donald he so watching this much love now he watches it every week he was really nice to me like every time I've ever seen him he's given me a hug swe so [ __ ] nice nice guy yeah he's always got his hair really well groomed as well like it's very like you can tell he's got like a has a beard now full beard

nice nice yeah but it's like clean cut You know what I mean yeah I do always smells good yeah shirt tucked in always like he's got a belt always doesn't like fish no I actually don't know if that's true is that true do you know that about my grandpa your grandma put fish in front of her he's like fish oh and that fun did you guys just hear that my grandma put the meal in front of him and he said you could tell though he was trying to be Like me when my dad made dinner

for everybody slaved over the stove for hours and I was like shrimp it be like that though cuz then you feel pressured to eat it because they made it and you're like the way that I was so ready to [ __ ] starve and then sneak back upstairs and like cereal or get like some slices of cheese maybe a little like pickle of cheese when you're freaking hungry o so good comment down below Favorite slice of cheese oh my God provolone that's your favorite slice of chees Havi Havi I'm a [ __ ] [ __

] or a sliced Havi opinions with a little bit of Chipotle aoli that was such a passive aggressive thing to say but it was kind of funny I'm going to start whooping that out on people what did you say I said there's no wrong opinions you just changed the tone on How you deliver things it actually is really T delivery problem do you know what I'm no I have heard that but I don't remember what it was from Corella when she literally is like what and then she's like oh I'm so sorry don't deler better

than it got credit for honestly I really really did enjoy that movie I thought Emma Stone did a great job she's a really good actress she was in a poor things great never [ __ ] it was like she got she have got an Oscar or Something for it she did get an Oscar for that's what I thought of I think I have a burping me you guys ready for it little wet at the end blow it at you cuz it smells like you've been having some stinky burps just today just today let's watch ourselves

let's not let's not make I nasty NS you just did that's the first time I've only said like the the only happened oh My so what you don't like me anymore what are we doing here what are you doing I thought I was hitting I was hitting you with you you are yeah what's going on because it's fun you should hit me with me sometime I would love to see you act me out sometimes I do sometimes I hit you with a little sarcastic comment you get really upset when I do because what you don't

always pull that out when I do It's good though because I only do it when I know I'm about to land sucks when you don't you know what Al I've been thinking about recently a lot One Direction stuff I've been thinking a lot about One Direction and I think I have an opinion and I thought about I thought about this is a weird thing to say on the podcast but I've been thinking about stuff that we should do podcasts about and I think we should do hot takes but not like the two Hot takes podcast

but like where we say our hot takes and this is one of mine that I thought of but I couldn't deliver it to you because you're not going to know what I'm talking about but this is I'm excited to to hear it I think Louie Tom wison I know what you're about to say I feel like you said this in the car once what do you think I'm about to say CU I don't think this is not what I said what oh there's no way you're going to know what I'm going to say go ahead

And just say it I think that his music is the closest to One Direction so like if you miss One Direction and I feel like he his gets the least amount of like listens more so than um Liam yeah actually damn I thought he was just at the B he has the one he has some hits you're right he does a couple singles Shake uh yeah he has that one and Lou hasn't really had one that like has been like a like a success the same way that like even Liam has Liam's is my Least

favorite out of this out of them like they're like a solo discographies because I wasn't like I didn't wasn't a huge fan fan like I should have been but it was genre is not my genre well no I haven't even listened to his single stuff and I didn't even know he had single stuff Liam no Lou oh you would probably like actually I'm sure I like I would yeah I think his is the closest to what One Direction would Be like if they stay together if that makes sense and that makes more sense because I

recently found out that he was one of the main writers on a lot of the songs like he wrote like a lot of this they all they all co-wrote but he was like every one of their hits he was like a heavy writer on and his voice also carried the band in a lot of ways but with like the way it harmonized so his music reminds me the most in One Direction so that's been cool to like go Listen to his stuff that's very cool and then zaye just announced a tour um and I'm just

feeling like I really miss them interacting with each other a lot well I mean they were together for so long really not really for a band like a few years damn it was only years an album every year that's why it seemed like it was so long well how many years was it then I think they got together in 2011 and broke up in 2015 so only four years is That correct that's crazy let me I don't have my phone can you go to Spotify on your phone isn't that crazy they would release an album

and tour every year I can't even imagine how tired they were and they were like teenagers and now they all have like I don't know some of them have some issues like Zayn has talked about having to overcome some like serious issues that he had like anorexia and stuff which is sad now he has anxiety but his Solo music is so good I've been really listening to his song uh Tio a lot like a lot a lot like I listen to it like a hundred times that is a very very good song that is a

very good song there's a part where he oh my God so good yeah what are the years it's actually less yeah I was pretty close to write 2012 to 2015 it released two albums in 2012 yeah that's crazy and then 2013 2014 2015 let me see this and then it ended May 25th of 2012 and then this one Came out in November our birthday months isn't that insane wow that is cool yeah they flew through poor kids they burned so bright well we've got actually sorry pardon 2010 actually we got EP stuff going on here

yeah November 2010 so actually their first album was 2012 I'm really can I see that yeah yeah Rarities I wonder if these were released later and that's just the year They tacked on them yeah cuz you and I came out on like this album I guess we need to do a Spotify look up we'd have to like look up yeah cuz they did that with Taylor Swift discography too they released one later and put like a year on it that was just it would came out like that Anno cuz I I like using Spotify for

uh let it be right yeah sometimes they FIB a they did that thing with Taylor Swift cuz that was when it was Like recorded and big machine can like still apparently release under her name I don't know if that's still true but they could at the time and they release like the Tim mcra remixes and they put 2011 on it or something but it came out that year yeah so I don't know it could have been something like that but yeah that's my One Direction hot take I've been thinking a lot about One Direction recently

I think I'm going to rewatch their little document That they did I've never seen it do you want to go down that path with me hell yeah can I watch it with you yeah yeah I've never all right I love that just got really excited love how excited you are I remember me and Leanne watch that when I was living with my grandma and like her guest bedroom on like my laptop I had at the time we watched it together was super fun Le you know what I'm talking about know you're so cute I love

That you watch it on the laptop that was why me and Le were so close like one of the reasons is cuz this is my best friend from high High School um we liked all the same type of music like her Instagram handle was tied together with the smile uncore it's not that anymore but really really loved that oh rip tied together with a smile underscore that's yeah Christina and I were very uh music heavy yeah steing heavy you know yeah talk about it yeah Le's always just been so comfortable like in a way that

like I was I was kind of comfortable being a dork in high school but she was really com just liking whatever she liked and she still like that and I really respect that about her so she also went with me to the vet for belly so shout out lean good job [ __ ] beans that [ __ ] ate a pill what is the matter you know what I'll ask it on the Pod and we can redact it if you want how the [ __ ] did She get a hold of a pill that's supposed

to be a pill bottle so Emily's Theory she thinks that when we so we went to the lake a few weeks ago and she like didn't take the whole bottle because ADHD Med's kind of hard to get and I think she pays a lot of money for it so she didn't take the whole bottle she just took what she needed she was like afraid she was going to like lose them or something mhm or like leave them there and um she had separated them out Into like a little bag and she thinks the only way

it could have happened is like when she was emptying a bag it like just fell to the ground or something I don't know Bell's also a very like I know cats are curious but belly is an exceedingly curious cat She's Dangerous she gets into stuff so like she proba pretty small so she can get in [ __ ] too she has already been to the emergency vet three times she's a year old that [ __ ] had a pie Yarn piece of yarn swallowed it and then [ __ ] it out and it was hanging

out of her butt was like let me get this but don't do that well it was it kind of was coming out on its own and I kind of just gently pulled it and it happened to come right out if it there was a lot of resistance I wouldn't have but yeah for future reference they told me like don't ever pull it out cuz if it's like really long in there you can like yank their intestines that part how would they get That out I think they C leave and just wait until slow they like

need surgery I think they would do like a scan to make sure that it's not knotted open in there I would love to see a little extra Bell's little Bell's belly belly beans is belly Bean damn I love that kid I love that kid too she's so mad at me for so pissed I think I already said that but like I can't overstate how mad she was when we Got home man I wish I could just explain to her and be like it was for your own you shouldn't eat that pill why did you think

we took you there we're both looking at her over there in the corner it's hard not to get distracted when she comes in the room [Music] be so little look get so um I was going to share her theme song oh sorry I forgot what it was it was based on that If y'all are chronic Tik Tok users like me it was based on that I remember belly the Bell is being the kitten of my dreams that is pretty good and it's based on that is pretty [Music] good the bread of all our lives I

think is what it was whoa they had made like did I tell you about this probably I literally just posted on our mooning amusing story today it was like me explaining all the inter was like Perfect couldn't been better and it was like this girl like but um they made a whole ass uh musical out of Ratatouille like just the Tik Tok community did like multiple people contributed and I think it all got taken down because disne so weird about their are so creative that's ridiculous for Disney to doing like doing that dude how dare

you know about the Judy hops lore no and I know who that is so Judy Hobs yeah [ __ ] I do know who that is so There's this guy who do you think I am Tik and his username is Judy hops lover 69 or something and he posts weird like weird stuff about Judy well no [ __ ] if your number is 69 but it's clearly like a bit like you know what I mean like it's OB it's going to be weird if you're Disney sent him a cease and desist and he posted the

video on Tik Tok of him calling Disney's legal team and being like so to be they said hello Daniel no it was Nicholas hello Nicholas and he said just to be clear we're suing you he said yes you in court cuz they wanted him to change his username and he just didn't and he's still I went to his page after that to see if he was still going and he was how ignored the Seas Andis and that's why he's going to court I think usually you can get out of a cease and assist if you

cease and assist and he continu I think it's pretty funny that he's got That much whatever you want to call that some people just don't have any [ __ ] left to give and if you have made as a grown man your name Judy hob he put everything into that he's like you're not going to take that away from me that's all I have I am be Judy H lover 69 69 yeah that shit's [ __ ] funny that is funny that is so much effort put into that the amount of fan accounts that exist

for [ __ ] it's crazy like the like There's a fan account for almost anything you can think of and I always am like grateful it exists when I'm trying to find something my Niche thing that I like yeah but then I'm like oh my God I'm like Dro a whole glass of water no mug yep like a thick wide mug shaking her the water GED out but I'm always glad that like the fan account exists when I'm trying to find the thing but the fact that somebody made like an account for like the baseball

t Twilight Scene for example that is an account of EXs on Instagram is baseball Twilight scene but all right okay all right they post like memes and stuff but hilarious that that exists Judy hops there's one for that there's a lot of them for Interview with the Vampire I've been meaning to finish that yeah no we never actually finished the first season I really like the direction that they went with the new one though it's off of Everything because it's on AMC plus but I bought it if you want to watch it I thought it

was on Netflix it's gone they took it off Netflix I don't think it was ever on Netflix it was on HBO Netflix has AMC stuff with it i' they've gotten more shows that have bottom left corner says AMC and I'm like would you guys strike the deal so I'm going to be really upset cuz I bought it and that was not that long ago but like but it was like 20 bucks Oh that's not that's not the number I thought you were going to say it was a whole season if you buy a show it's

expensive wait you couldn't get it on Amazon it was on Amazon the purchase was made via Amazon what did you think I meant saw you got like an AMC thing and I didn't know AMC H hell no no I'm not getting any more of those type of subscriptions they need to stop they need to stop it's pretty crazy actually everything has their own Subscription I drew the line at Paramount and then they just kept making them like I was okay with Netflix I was okay with Disney I'm good with with HBO Hulu is already questionable

it sucks because Hulu does have a good handful of shows that I truly love I don't like the format I don't like the way that I hate the format I hate how the ads work I hate how the the back and forth goes I hate how like how the up next like works with Each show like sometime that's different I actually have a lot of Bones top with Hulu I do and the way that they don't have like a good suggestion algorithm either compared to the other ones I don't like the way the profiles are

hard to find profiles [ __ ] suck yeah Hulu this is your sign to fix your you know what Amazon also has some shitty [ __ ] don't like Amazon either but I like that on Amazon you can get anything you want because you can just Buy if you just spend $3 I like that about it yeah I'm surprised Netflix didn't like think of that before Amazon did like where like if they didn't have what you wanted you could just get it for for a fee for a price what is that from my brain even

better I'm sure I'm not the first person to say that well but that tone that accent that everything what an episode dang I wish We started out giggly and got serious later so I feel like people would have stayed on longer damn if you made it to hear what if they left when like we were talking about deep stuff was it deep or was I just complaining whoa guys did she sound like she was complaining because it didn't to me and this is why I'm depressed I think that Was another part of it is I

think I try to like get try I try to get myself in a good mood and then I get mad at myself for not just being in a good mood and then I'm mean to myself yeah and then I get in a worse mood and you know what like I get it everybody does it I do it but like you know what you're going through you really shouldn't be mean to yourself like ever what are you GNA like you can't control that Like you literally when I'm like why you so like you be in your

brain like why you being so negative and then you're like why you being so mean yourself about being negative and you're like stop and you just can't you keep going oh well down a hole well welcome to the hall well I don't you liking it no I don't go in that hole ever of course that's happened of course I don't know try to avoid that I'm Having complicated feelings about shame because on one hand your shame doesn't purify you but on another hand some people should feel ashamed about certain things [Music] yeah yeah yeah I

don't want to talk about shame where do you want to go with this man are you losing your brain power I'm just you want to do the quote yall want to Vote um guys voting is it's just just go do it I just do it please it just it's there's resources to check your registration in the in the in the description check your registration and it and then doing that will also tell you where you can vote uh in places you know some places have a specific place that you go vote um yeah that yawn

just overtook me I tried not to open my mouth make sure you have a plan on that day if you've got Like work or something like that and you're able to you know or whatever you know if you got kids because I know people with kids watch this all the time yeah actually some of my friends do have kids yeah anyway yeah please vote please please please do not do not do not vote for Donald Trump do not vote for Donald Trump if you're going to vote for Donald Trump just stay home don't if you

were voting for Donald Trump and watching This podcast what are you doing here why are you here there's also that part how did you make it this far how how I anyway please vote are you ready for the quote yes okay did the same one like I'm surprised so good though I had to um mave our friend mave from July 31st two years ago by the end of this my pronouns might be he him again and that was we were watching the Battle of Winterfell the one that was like in the dark the last Season

it was just like so much so much happened in that episode my testosterone pumping as well go want fight I want lightsaber can you imagine being in Game of Thrones with lightsaber that would be like I go to Game of Thrones I have automatic weapons would Danny's Dragon still get me oh my God no they wouldn't you can God it's a it's a blessing that Cersei did not have machine guns she God She would have been a Ty oh my God she was aant anyway my god wow anywh who I hope I didn't depress y'all

too much and hopefully I'll be in a better moood next week well yes but uh um hopefully it wasn't oh my God hopefully it wasn't depressing and more so like just to understand that you know I'm hoping I help some people to not Feel alone if they are feeling the same way as me but if I am actually in fact just alone just go ahead and keep that to yourself just go ahead and don't tell me that thanks I just can't imagine anybody actually telling me that oh my God my foot is so bloody numb

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