What you do in life chooses you You can choose not to do it You can choose to try to do something safer Your vocation chooses you When I really started painting a lot I had become so obsessed that there was nowhere to move in my home Paintings were everywhere they were becoming a part of the furniture I was leaning on them I found myself looking around at one point a really bleak winter in New York and it was just so depressing and I think I needed color It's getting kind of pedestrian to me now, the
teal You know what I'd like to do is just start threading in some purple you know, into these things If I find the ultimate coloring I'll be able to reproduce it You can tell what I love by the color of the paintings You can tell my inner life by the darkness in some of them and you can tell what I want from the brightness in some of them It's 5 a.m Still making a little more progress now It's really kind of cool what happens with these things you know 'cause you really don't know what the
sculpture or painting totally means You think you do Most of the time I start out with a plan and then you know like a year later I'll realize that the painting was telling me what I needed to know about myself a year before I think what makes someone an artist is that they make models of their inner life They make something physically come into being as inspired by their emotions or their needs or what they feel the audience needs Light depends of it Love, freedom of it No one else tells you what you can or
can't do most of the time and there's an immediacy Our cast services like you're servicing your subconscious and at the same time you're doing something that someone's going to relate to, hopefully When I was a kid, I spent half my time in the living room performing for people I spent the other half of time in my bedroom by myself writing poetry and sketching I was not the type of kid you could say as a punishment "go to your room" because my room was Heaven to me My isolation was welcome People that are different have a
shot at being original you know they got motivation to you know they got motivation I sketched all the time, but I didn't do a lot of painting Suddenly six years ago there was a time when I was trying to heal a borken heart I decided, "Maybe I'll paint" When your heart is in love You're floating, weightless When you lose that love you have to re-enter the atmosphere and it can get pretty rough It's just bouncing off one molecule onto the next ripping through them at such a pace, that they just ignite and explode Until you
find another heart that's doing the same thing has landed and cooled and then you start to float again The energy that surrounds Jesus is electric I don't know if Jesus is real, I don't know if He lived I don't know what He means but the paintings of Jesus are really my desire to convey Christ Consciousness I wanted you to have the feeling when you looked in his eyes that he was accepting who you are I wanted him to be able to stare at you and heal you from the painting You can find every race in
the face of Jesus and I think that's how every race imagines Jesus they imagine him as their own That's great It's funny I get so stuck when I try to choose color that I just grab them, it's cool I don't know what painting teaches me I know that it just frees me; free from the future free from the past free from regret free from worry Something inside you is always telling a story I believe every single thing that you see in here is talking to you You know the bottom line with all of this whether
it's performance or it's art or it's sculpture is LOVE We want to show ourselves and have that be accepted I love being alive and the art is the evidence of that
