I'm not a real smart guy and what I mean by that is I was born with ADD ADHD all like my brain cannot retain information I'm not some genetic freak when it comes to running when it comes to lifting weights I'm I am absolutely the bottom of the barrel and people will never believe me and they can just you know whatever believe what you want to believe so when you ask me this question about what the studying look like for me I have to go over the same page over and over and over and over
again while Jennifer can look at that page while she's you know quizzing me she'll learn it right then as she she don't know anything about it she will quiz herself or quiz me and learn it as she's quizzing me it's the most frustrating thing in the world how my brain works so what I so what I do is I literally sit there with a pen and paper and I have my books and I go through and have to write everything down every single day I will study the same page until it's photographic memory from writing
the same thing down and then from there I'll go back through and relearn again so I'll learn the bulk of it but then I'll go through and learn the small things within that so if it's a medication I'll learn what the medication does I'll first I'll learn how to even say the medication because these medications aren't like you know know like Al Beall no it's it's it's very big words so I'll go through learn how to say the name then I'll go through learn with the doses then I'll go through and this is like every
single day so not like oh I got it let's just go through no nothing is I got it every single thing that's so I I I can't wait to get in this conversation because everything I do in life it sucks everything I do in life it sucks that's why when I was 300 lb and 24 years old it was like it had some big epiphany of let's just go be a Navy SEAL and let's lose some weight no I knew my entire life was going to be a struggle which is why I just ignored it
I said I'm not even trying to jump off into and learn how to read how to write how to memorize how to become something I am not but through that process something happened to me and I realized that's this why I feel sorry for no one in this podcast they're going to really not like me because people are going to think that I am maybe lying or maybe fibbing or exaggerating no I am literally I was the lowest form on Earth no Talent no ability to learn and I literally know what it is to be
rock bottom and to build that up so that question about learning it's a pain in my and I don't have to do it it's the thing about it I'm 49 years old and am a multi-millionaire I don't have to do anything so all I thought about when I was growing up is man I can't wait till one day get to the point where I no longer have to do this stuff but what happens I got older it became a way of living so how I do every day is how I do every day it's a
it's a discipline it's a regimen it's a it's a it was a choice I made and the choice I made was what are you willing to sacrifice and what are you willing to give up to find every bit of who you are as a human being and I was willing to give everything to do that so studying is no joke I'm waking up right now studying like I have a test tomorrow I already passed test think about that every day of my life that's what I must do just to retain what I learned four hours
plus a day I go through and do that there's no stick or there's only a stick there's never been a carrot which is why when I speak to people I have to figure out a way to resonate with them CU all I want to say to them is let me teach you the real life how it really is the reason why you're a loser and the reason why you're not making it and the reason why you're trying to go through all these I go to all these conventions speak all theing time I look in the
audience and these people sign up sign up sign up every year go to Convention thinking they're going to learn something different no you're lazy you know exactly what to do exactly what to do because even me in my state of I can't read and write I knew exactly what to do it just sucks doing it it sucks to do it it sucks to wake up every morning of your life and say God man I'm I'm not smart so guess what I got to do I gotta I gotta study the same that I got one of
the highest scores in the nation on and do it again do it again do it again it's not just there it's not just there permanently for me so yeah it's all stick it's all stick the only care that you have is like maybe maybe cuz whenever I take these tests that are real hard in the back of my brain it's like the good chance you're not going to make it Gins this ain't you bro this ain't you you weren't born like this this ain't you the real you bro study all you want to but the
second that computer comes on with 150 questions this ain't you man and somehow comes back I passed passed again passed again but that realu me back here every time is saying that ain't you bro that ain't you and I have to outwork that voice when I'm taking that test and I get to a question I don't know the answer I'm like man and then say I told you man that ain't you you 300 lb man you sit at home you figure out how to do your hair that's what you do how to come to school
with the reverse baldness when you're 16 that's that that's that's you so there is no good idea free card this is why I say stay hard because when you weren't given the gifts the only thing you can do in life is stay hard and I know people cannot stand me they can't stand this talk this is all you can do there's no magic pill or a magic potion all you can do is outwork the man that God created or woman in you and what that looks like is unfun that's why I said do not do
a documentary on me because people will not see the truth they will see what they want to see is I don't want to live like that good good and you will live exactly the way you live now questioning who you are wondering what is possible wondering what you are capable of doing that's how that looks or you can be me which am I happy I don't know never really thought about it don't really care about it cuz all I really cared about was I looked in that mirror I saw a piece of Happiness wasn't on
the mirror at 16 around 300 lb it wasn't like oh my I'm looking for happiness no I'm looking look at myself in the mirror and say all right you did it again today you're a bad boy cuz that sucks I have about a couple minutes of that when I got the carrot second lay down and go to bed the car is gone because I'm waking up all through the night to check the work I did that day that get this drug right did I get this right did I get that right what did I do
oh my God I'm I'm I'm already losing it stick when I was younger I had this image in my mind of what does a man look like to me and I got all these people who are bad characters and in my mind I became that and that's what kept me going a lot was I had this pipe dream of becoming a little bit of this and a little bit of that cuz when you have no parents raising you and you have no Role Models growing up you it's not Day Dreaming you start to create a
reality like h maybe I can be that and after becoming this guy that is the biggest thing I can ever do in my life is I became that guy that I once looked at all these guys now look at myself like God who the do that I can but what it takes is a a discipline that no one can ever even they they just don't they don't understand it they don't understand everybody has the ability to do it but they just don't want to they want to keep asking questions and keep going to seminars and
the greatness is right in you and that's why once again I'll say it's a million times here I do not feel sorry for you I will not sugarcoat what I'm going to say to you because all of you know what I'm saying is the truth everybody knows it's the truth this is what it looks like and you know it too you know what too this is what if if you ain't got nothing I hate to tell you what it looks like it's ugly it's not a documentary it's not HBO special you ain't going to watch
him hey man you guys got to watch this no it's like oh God this looks like a train wre look like a nightmare this looks like this guy got no that's what it looks like hard work looks horrible it's not motivating it's not motivating at all Ain like Rocky round 14 he gets knocked down do like this to Apollo Creed looks like a man being stuck in a dungeon and there's no way out but you had the key but you refuse to use it and that's nothing motivating about that
