hello ladies and gentlemen welcome back to another episode here on African confessions the following story that you're going to be listening to it comes from a translation of a message that I received and the translation reads like this hello brother n how are you can you please post my own story is anonymous I really am someone who still does not want to believe in God even though I think that God does exist outside sometimes to other people I want people to think that I am a Bible believing Christians but deep down there is this little
human being telling me that God is not even available does not exist sort of like an atheist but I am here confessing this to you and I want people to know that I do believe honestly that there might be a God in heaven because some of the things that I have witnessed in my life it might sound as if I am a confused woman but I have seen a lot even though I am still fighting with the idea that God does exist people when they look at me they see a woman who has been blessed
by God and if you do not know me you won't even know that deep down in my heart I have chosen to become an unbeliever because of the oath that I have taken I do have your stickers even on my car that is all about Jesus Christ I do go to church I do give my tithing in in time I worship with other Christians but when I worship I do not worship with my heart I just go there because I want a sense of community and a sense of belonging so that the day that I
am going to die there is a church and a pastor that can preach at my funeral and when people look at me they see me as a woman who has been blessed by God after losing her own husband but I guess that the holy spirit is quite a tricky spirit that will always remind you that even if people think that you are what you are but as for the spirit of the Lord knows who truly you are so many times I have felt the Holy Spirit opening up my heart you know like an onion it
is it has so many layers that is what happens when you become a ritualist deep inside all of those layers there are more protective layers that protect you from the things of God from the word of God and inside that is where your heart but will be protected by all of these demons and I have been feeling this for many days until now that I have decided to confess the spirit of the Lord I feel as if has been peeling away removing the layers that have been covering my heart for a number of years now
I don't know why I am doing this I don't know why I am confessing not knowing what is going to happen to me what does God want me to do why does the holy Spirit keep on tormenting me each and every night making me to lose sleep thinking about the things that I have done my story started when my husband passed away it was a tough year for me when I lost my husband I was a struggling teacher who could even barely afford a bus fa now the worst had happened I had lost my husband
but now when I look at myself I am owning a fleet of cars I do have a mansion here in laka I have a business to other people they see a success story of a widow who lost a husband and pulled through but it is not because of my wealth that just comes from God no it has something to do with things that I did some of them that are quite evil even to be mentioned on a public platform I was stationed at a place that is called CH life was hard and there were times
when we would get our salaries that would have been delayed paid and when we would be paid it was never enough for us to survive I was drowning in dirt borrowing from colleagues and eating one meal a day my children could not even go to school because I could not even afford their school fees I felt like a complete failure one day that was when an mysterious phone call came in oh it was from one of my University friend whom I will call Naomi she reached out to me and when I saw saw her pictures
that she was sending to me she was really beautiful and her she was glowing she was filled with success she had beautiful clothes she was wearing things that were expensive she said I have bought my car and I want you to celebrate it with me and I did not even want to ask where she had gotten my phone numbers and we then went out and I was even embarrassed to be with him because of the clothes that I was wearing we went out for lunch and she was driving in in her beautiful new BMW and
I was so ashamed of myself over lunch that was when I found myself breaking down mentally I told her about my struggles losing my husband to high blood pressure she then told me not to be afraid for she had been sent by God she was going to be there for me she was going to be my rock and she said find strength not in God but in me I was very suspicious of that but I said let me just do whatever that she wants she said are you willing to go far with the things that
I am about to tell you I said I am ready she since she had promised me a lot of money and she said if you are that desperate I am going to introduce you to this other woman like I was introduced to that woman she briefly told me about her club which is a club of women that are wealthy and she said I will introduce you to the the sister would of riches she told me that in that club what they do is that when you have a business that you want to start they can
give you money then you repay it back so she said they created this group as a way to Achieve Financial Freedom but only those that are willing to make the sacrifices it sounded like a good thing as the days passed and when she told me that it was now time so I had to present a business plan in which I had already drafted a business plan the meeting was held at a Lish home just outside of laka they came five more women of all ages was set almost in a circle and I was in the
middle and I had been told to wear a dress that was black anything on me was supposed to be black the mother of this group to my surprise they called their mother wealth mother world so I could not understand they they kept on calling him mother wealth mother world then she explained to me that when I would have joined this group these were the rules to be loyal to be silent and total obedience to sleep with as many pastors as you can using your money that was all that was needed and then they started laughing
each one counting how many pastors she had slept with and if I was going to to disobey this club then one amongst my children was going to be disowned By Me In which I could not understand what she meant by disowning my child later on it was revealed to me that it meant that one of my child was supposed to die after I had borrowed money from them a guarantee was for me to write the names of my children in the middle of the night they handed me this little red red black book and I
wrote the names of my children they brought before me a life chicken which I slaughtered and then I drank the blood and I said with these words words if anything happens the words that I am about to say if I fa to return this money then so be it let me lose one amongst my daughters in which I had three girls and one boy those were the guarantees that if I did not return the money in time one amongst them was going to die the first task came a week later after I had been given
a money I was told to abandon my teaching job and to find a mad man that I was going to donate need some of the money too so I went around looking for someone that was mentally ill I don't know if these were the things of the devil who just wanted me to sacrifice my daughter do you think that you can spend a week without seeing a person that is mentally ill each and every day waking up and going into town I was given that money by Naomi when I would go around I could not
find a Madman to dump this money on until I was called back to the house and I was told that I had failed to honor my duties and I said so what is going to happen to me I was told that in the next few days my daughter was going to die so I had to prepare myself so that on the day when she was going to die not even a single tear was going to drop from my eyes I cried until no tears could come out anymore as a matter of fact when my daughter
passed away I was drunk and then she passed away after my daughter had passed away I was given money and the permission to start the business after that I started to have a dream of a snake that comes and sleeps with me as if it is my husband the problem is that like I told you in the beginning of my story I keep on hearing the voice of the Holy Spirit not knowing what exactly does the Holy Spirit want from me because I only hear the Holy Spirit as it is opening up my heart so
that I can confess but in this Sisterhood I was told that to church I can go to church but I should never give my life to Christ and I am not supposed to be serious with the things of God how can I survive should I repent and give my life to Christ is this a sign from God if I do follow what the Holy Spirit wants from me will God be able to protect me and my wealth if I abandon this Sisterhood of riches dear listeners right there was a message that was sent to me
by one of our um by one of our sister right there strange things indeed they do happen in this world can you just imagine the sister would of riches give your life to Christ if you lose your wealth so be it it is far much better to suffer here on Earth and be in Paradise with Christ let us speak with her in the comment section
